Mom to Grace June
February 25th, 2010
Angel Baby
October 5th, 2010
and Angel Baby
January 10th, 2011

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Mommy to Identical Twins
Miscarried March 20th, 2009
Tampa, FL

The story of my pregnancy begins on February 13, 2009.

While sitting at the salon getting my hair done I remember not feeling quite right. Not bad – just not completely normal. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. I chalked it up to being tired from being on nightshift & not getting much sleep that day as well as knowing AF should be starting soon.

I wasn’t one to be super aware of when I was due to start. Mainly because my (now ex) had told me he had a vasectomy & I had no reason to doubt him. I thought back to my last period and realized it was exactly 4 weeks before. Not ‘late’ in normal terms but I typically ranged from 26-28 days. I was due to start and I didn’t feel like it was coming.

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Miscarriage February 18th, 2008
Denise, stillborn at 10:32pm on May 18th, 2009 at 25 weeks
Miscarriage September 7th, 2009
Southern California

DH and I got married in September 2006, and decided that we both wanted to pursue our fitness and bodybuilding goals for one more year before settling down and having kids. We were both competing for most of 2007. It was our agreement that I would stop competing until I had our first baby, since the low bodyfat I maintained was not really condusive to getting pregnant. So, my last competition was July 2007, and we started TTC shortly after my cycles returned. It was fun, the whole anticipation of trying..and to our surprise, I was pregnant by January 2008.

We waited the 9 weeks for my first appointment and I was upset we didn’t get an ultrasound or doppler check. My OB waits till the 12 week appointments to do those. So, DH and I went home and were elated to be pregnant, but something just didn’t seem right. I finally called my OB and he told me to come in. Sure enough, my first ultrasound ever, revealed a dead fetus, which was about 9 weeks gestation. I had a D&C the next day, and we moved on, although heartbroken.

We TTC for 9 months with haphazard cycles, and it just wasn’t happening. I saw my OB and he prescribed provera to induce my period and Clomid to be taken a few days after my cycle started in December 2008. I started the provera and never got my period. I called my OB freaking out and he told me to take a HPT..which, somehow, someway on a 51 day cycle, I ovulated and was (gasp!) pregnant! Due date September 5, 2009. I saw my OB at 6 weeks and there was already a heartbeat!

At 8 weeks, I started bleeding. Heavily. Alone. My DH was at a dinner with a client, and he was not answering my calls. I called my OB. We agreed that I was probably miscarrying again and that the best option was to go into his office first thing in the morning to confirm. Lo and behold, despite the massive bleeding, there she was..moving her flippers and not even phased by the heart attack she gave me. The OB chalked my bleeding up to “old blood” and a stretching uterus. I was sent home on limited bedrest until bleeding subsided. It stopped thankfully, but returned again at 12 weeks. Again, the U/S showed a fetus measuring right on track..still no cause for my bleeding was found.

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