Mom to Anna

Born still April 25, 2011

Early loss December 2011

Troy, Michigan


In honor of my daughter, Anna, who would have been 1 year old this April 25th, I have decided to share her story in hopes of creating awareness and helping even just one person experiencing the death of a baby.  [Read more…]


Mom to Emily Grace

October 6th, 2010

Raleigh, North Carolina


It was my second child.

My husband and I got married and decided shortly after to start a family. I got pregnant right away and had a wonderful uneventful pregnancy. I delivered a beautiful healthy girl with no complications. I was a bit concerned that because of being of advanced age I might had difficulties but with my little girl it proved that there is nothing wrong about getting pregnant after 35. A year after we decided to try for our second child. I was very confident that nothing would go wrong as it was with my first. I knew of mothers that lost their babies and I knew it could happen but it was more like thinking driving and having a car accident. [Read more…]

Jeremiah (born still January 5, 2007 at 21 weeks) and Miles (born still July 17, 2007 at 18 weeks); early miscarriage February 2009
Twin Cities, MN

Jeremiah’s Story

The day I found out I was pregnant with Jeremiah we were on family vacation in Yellowstone. Hubby and I were thrilled. A few days later we stopped at the cemetery in my hometown to visit my sister’s grave – the same grave where Jeremiah would be buried just a few months later.

I’d been nervous about getting pregnant again because of how small my children David and Tania had been at full term, how brutal and long labor was (30+ hours each) despite their small size, how doctors had commented on the placentas and cords, and all the other complications. I went to the OB/GYN just weeks before I got pregnant with Jeremiah to get a checkup and ask if she could see any reason to be concerned about another pregnancy with my history. She said everything seems fine and there was no reason to expect any recurring problems.

With Jeremiah, I had morning sickness in the first trimester, as expected, and was measuring right where I should be all along. I was quite hopeful that maybe this time I’d have a normal pregnancy, maybe this time the baby would be healthy, maybe this time I wouldn’t have lasting injuries from the delivery, maybe this time we wouldn’t have to move to a new state right after the birth, maybe this time we wouldn’t lose our health insurance, maybe this time things would be OK.

Then just before Christmas (maybe it was Christmas Eve – wish I could remember the exact date) I was wrapping presents in my bedroom after the kids were asleep, when I suddenly got the impression that there was a man standing about 6 feet in front of me and that he’d come to take the baby. I thought I was being ridiculous and paranoid. Sure, I’d had some trouble with both of my previous pregnancies but not until the third trimester, and things seemed to be going perfectly this time. I went to lie down for a minute and thought I felt the baby move, so I dismissed my impression as silly worrying. Only later did I realize that the movement I felt that night and in the following days was his body moving around in the amniotic sac in response to my movements.

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