Mom to Shiloh

June 25, 2013

Grand Rapids, Michigan

Our baby girl was diagnosed with a cystic hygroma (extra fluid on the back of her neck) at our 13-week ultrasound. The doctors told us she most likely had a chromosomal abnormality that caused the hygroma, and there was a chance she could die before she was born. We were devastated, as we wanted everything to be perfect with our first baby. We took a blood test that tested for Down Syndrome, Turners Syndrome, Trisomy 13, and Trisomy 18. The tests came back negative for all, and that is when we found out we were having a daughter.




Mom to Savannah Rae

February 27, 2012 – March 2, 2012

Plainfield, IL

I found out I was pregnant on August 22, 2011. I will never forget the feeling of disbelief and excitement. I must have looked at that home pregnancy test a thousand times just to make sure it was true. Since Scott was at work that day I had to keep the news to myself until he came home. I decided I would make a sign that said “Congrats Daddy To Be, I’m Pregnant” and tape it to our garage door. All day I patiently waited for him to come home. It was such an exciting day!

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Mother to Jude Allen

December 21, 2011

Parker, Colorado


Jude’s Story (from my blog)
Jude was the child God had for us from the beginning. We will probably never know completely why we weren’t able to spend this life with him, but we wait with eager anticipation for the day we will all be together again in Heaven.

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Mom to Savannah Grace Filer

July 2nd, 1996 – July 2nd, 1996

In November of 1995, my husband Chris and I found out that we were going to have a baby. We were thrilled with the thought of being parents. On February 21, 1996, we had a routine sonogram. There was concern that day regarding the abnormal size of the baby. The doctors advised us to do a Level II sonogram with a high- risk doctor. We took their advice and had the sonogram on March 12th. That day the high-risk doctor told us that something wasn’t right. The baby was behind schedule and other warning signs were present. They discussed with us the possibility of a heart defect, chromosome abnormality, or some type of genetic disorder. They also discussed the possibility that the baby could die before birth. We were encouraged to do an amniocentesis. We decided against the amnio because of the slight possibility of a miscarriage. All we could do was wait. During this waiting period, we received many prayers, cards, and encouraging words from family and friends. We know that through the prayers of God’s people, we experienced peace at a level we had never known before. [Read more…]


Mom to Addison Ward
February 8th, 2008
Salisbury, NC
In the summer of 2007, we found out that we were expecting our second baby. We were SO EXCITED! We have a beautiful precious daughter, and we want so much to give her a baby sister or brother to play with and love.


Mom to Annika (Anna)
Born Still at 24 weeks on June 18th, 2007
Columbus, Ohio
For over a year my husband and I tried to give our son Jack a little brother or sister. When I finally found out I was pregnant in January of 2007, we could not have been happier. Although the pregnancy was tough from the beginning (extreme morning sickness), I kept strong knowing that in the end I would have a beautiful baby.

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Mom to Whitney Jill
Stillborn on February 11th, 2010 at 31+ weeks
Carried despite adverse prenatal diagnosis
Fresno, CA

My husband and I have been married 6 years. About 3 and a half years ago, we decided it was time to start our little family. After 3 years of fertility tests, treatments and trying with no success, we decided to start an adoption. We were ecstatic about this and in July 2009 we sent in our application to adopt a baby boy from Ethiopia. However… On July 31, 2009 I had a hunch and took a pregnancy test– it was positive!! To say we were shocked is an understatement! And that is where the story of our precious little girl, Whitney Jill, begins.
It was clear from the very beginning that this little life beginning inside of me was all God’s doing. It was as if God wanted us to know all along that this baby was not conceived by any of our real efforts… Not the medicines, not the testing, not the doctors and certainly not our timing.
Everything was going well in the first trimester of my pregnancy. I only had a tiny bit of nausea, no puking and for the most part, I felt great! By my 4th month, I barely had any baby bump showing. I thought it was just because I have a small build. From the very beginning, I had an uneasiness about my pregnancy. I attributed it to the difficulty we’d had getting pregnant, and first-time-mom nerves. But on the day we went for our “half-way there” ultrasound (I was almost 19 weeks), that feeling got stronger. Before Sean and I left our car to go into the doctor’s office, I look at him and said, “No matter what happens, we are in this together, right?” He hugged me, told me I was silly and reassured me he’d be by my side every step of the way. We prayed then went in to find out the sex of our baby.

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