Mom to Tate Kordell

July 1, 2014

Durant, Oklahoma

We found out we were pregnant with our third baby. It was our first since we had been married. We were together since our oldest. He is eight years old and we will be married three years January of 2015. We have two beautiful boys and I was hoping for another. My husband secretly wanted a girl. LOL. I remember crying tears of joy when we found out it was a boy.
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Mom to Audrinna Lynn

August 18, 2012 – September 19, 2012

Tulsa, Oklahoma

I am a teen mother and unlike most teen moms I had my priorities straight from the get go. My daughter, Audrinna Lynn Pike, was born on August 18th, 2012 and she got her wings on September 19th, 2012. Although my daughter was a surprise, I would never call it a mistake. I was a single parent to her throughout my whole pregnancy and the month that she was alive. I had a very normal non-eventful pregnancy for the most part, and my daughter was born very healthy and normal into this world at 41 weeks on August 18th, weighing 8 pounds and 15 ounces. We spent a few days in the hospital, as any normal mother and child would, and then we were free to go home. [Read more…]



Mom to Tanner Ryan

Born March 9th, 2007 and passed March 19th, 2007

Ada, Oklahoma

So…my story is a little long but I will try my best to keep it short.

I was about 8 months pregnant with my second child; my first was a little over a year old at the time. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship that one night became physical. Early the next day I realized that something was wrong. I was, for lack of a better term, ‘leaking’. My mother took me to the ER, each of us saying it was just “better to be safe than sorry.” I was told there that I was actually leaking amniotic fluids and that I was going to be rushed to a hospital two hours away to find out whether or not labor would be induced. My mother stayed in our home town, keeping my oldest until one of my sisters could watch him while she made the drive up. [Read more…]



Mom to multiple losses:

17 week loss in December 2010,

Chemical pregnancy in March 2012,

Missed miscarriage (possible molar pregnancy) in June 2012,


Chemical pregnancy in October 2012

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

My journey began in August of 2010 when I found out I was pregnant after just six months of trying. I was stunned that it happened so easily and quickly. We didn’t chart, take my temperature or use any Ovulation Predictor Kits. I simply went off birth control, relaxed, had fun and it happened! My husband and I were so excited. I was already 8 weeks along when I found out, because I’d had some spotting that I thought was my period. [Read more…]



Mom to Jack
Lost February 26, 2011 at 6 weeks


Discovered no heartbeat May 2, 2011 at 9 weeks 2 days
D&C May 5, 2011

Coweta, Oklahoma

In February I had run out of birth control. After a period didn’t start I took several pregnancy tests before starting a new pack. I kept getting negatives. Well, once my period was over a week late I went and saw my doctor to have her test. I didn’t want to start a new pack of birth control without making sure I wasn’t pregnant. After doing a blood draw and waiting for what felt like forever, my doctor called me in. She showed me the screen, and sure enough I was pregnant. My hCG numbers were extremely low, so she asked me to come back in 2 days for a redraw to make sure they were going up. While it wasn’t a planned pregnancy, I was so excited! Two days later I went back in and my numbers had tripled. I drove home that day feeling so blessed and an overwhelming amount of love for my husband and 9-month old son. We took no time announcing our pregnancy to family. [Read more…]



Mom to Mirayah Michelle

Stillborn July 5, 2012 at 38 weeks

Shawnee, Oklahoma

My husband, Matt, and I discovered we were pregnant on November 7th, 2011. We have one son that I had from a previous relationship, and Matt adopted him. This would be our first child together. We were over the moon and filled with joy and excitement. My sister was also pregnant and was given the due date of June 30th while mine was July 17th. My sister and I were so excited to share the experience of pregnancy and raising our babies together. [Read more…]



Mom to Jayden Dayne

Born and passed April 29, 2004

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

My husband, Jason, and I found out we were expecting our first child after only 2 years of marriage. We both loved kids and couldn’t have been more excited!

My first trimester was a nightmare. I couldn’t keep anything down, not even water. I went into the ER for dehydration, lost 25 lbs in two weeks, and Jason had to carry me to and from the bathroom to bathe me. Through multiple doctors visits, baby seemed just fine. At exactly 12 weeks, the first trimester sickness left as quickly as it came on. I started eating everything in sight! Haha! It took me two weeks to regain strength enough to walk on my own. Having never been through this before, I assumed this was normal. I found out years later this was not. [Read more…]



Mom to Gabriel Christian

December 11th – 12th, 2011

Lawton, Oklahoma
I married my husband on August 14, 2010. One year later we took an anniversary trip to New Braunfels, TX. Although it may seem like an odd choice, we decided it would be fun to spend out first anniversary at Schlitterbahn. The water park was my idea, and we both thought it would be fun to have a carefree trip with just the two of us before we started trying to have children. The trip was fantastic. We knew it was the kind of thing we could do with kids, it would just be more stressful and more about them than us.



Mom to “Gir” James Joshua Beaver, Jr.

Born at Rest on April 20th, 2010

Tulsa, Oklahoma

At the end of the summer of 2009 I had gone to my OB/GYN for a check up and to discuss why I didn’t have a regular cycle. My doctor diagnosed me with PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Disease) she told me my chances of ever getting pregnant without fertility treatments was slim to none. [Read more…]



Loss #1 at 9 weeks – July 2008

Loss #2 at 5 weeks –  September 2008

Loss #3 at 4 weeks – July 2011

Loss #4 at almost 4 weeks – September 2011


Loss #1: (First Trimester Loss)

In July 2008 I found out we were pregnant with our 2nd child. It was a surprise but we were excited nonetheless. That excitement quickly ended after only a couple weeks when I started bleeding. I called my husband who was at work..I was crying so hard I’m surprised even understood me. I called my doctor and explained that I was bleeding and worried. She told me if it was brown or light pinkish blood it was most likely old blood and I was fine. However, if it is red blood that means it is fresh and could mean a miscarriage. Mine was bright red. I freaked out and we headed straight for the ER. [Read more…]



Mom to Laron Clay

April 16th, 2011

Coalgate, Oklahoma

Our story begins in February 2010.

For as long as I can remember, one of the most important things I have wanted in my life was to be a mom. In February of 2010 I was told at my yearly appointment that in order to get pregnant I would have to get on medication. I accepted this and decided that eventually when we were ready I would get on the medicine and hopefully not have a difficult time getting pregnant. After that appointment I received notice that my pap smear had returned abnormal and I needed to come in for the cells to be checked. I returned to the doctor in May only to discover that the cells were between grades 1 and 2 dysplasia. My doctor informed me that he wanted to remove the cells in order to keep them from becoming cancerous and an appointment was set up for April.

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Mother to Audrina Capri Williams
Born on June 23rd, 2010 and grew her wings an hour later
Edmund, OK
The past few months have been more than a crazy roller coaster ride. There are no words to express the pain/joy/hurt/happiness I have been through. I guess I am ready to share my story and I hope to bring others hope and peace. Losing a baby is one of the most devastating things any mother can go through. From the time that you see that test that says positive, you are a mother. But, my story is a little different…

On January 25, 2010 I picked up my first pregnancy test. Scared.out.of.my.mind. I kept telling myself there is no way, nooo way. Right? Well, hmm… maybe I am. So I sucked it up took the test and….

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Mom to Grace Ann, Stillborn August 27th, 2008
and Olivia Thay, August 28th, 2008 – October 4th, 2008
Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
After struggling for three years to have a baby, my husband and I turned to in-vitro fertilization (IVF).  It was our only chance at this and since I was told my egg quality wasn’t really that good, my fertility doctor transferred three eggs and gave me a 60% chance of having one baby. Two weeks later I had my blood test. I was pregnant. With very high HCG levels. Possibly more than one baby. Two weeks later was the ultrasound. Triplets. We were shocked but really excited. I always wanted multiples. 
My pregnancy went great. I felt wonderful. I was getting big. I was so happy. At 22 weeks we had our “big” ultrasound. This is the ultrasound we were most looking forward to. We would find out the sexes of our babies. This is the ultrasound that changed our lives.

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Mom to Ella Joy
Born October 2nd, 2004
Heaven Bound October 6th, 2004
Guthrie, Oklahoma
Where do I begin to tell the story about one of “God’s greatest gifts?” I know people may think I am crazy by saying this but this year I finally figured it out…God picks only the very special people to be parents of his “angels”.  I am so sad yet honored that I got to carry her…So this is where my story begins.  

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First baby went to heaven January 7th, 2010
Second baby went to heaven May 18th, 2010
On January 5th, 2010, at 10 weeks 2 days pregnant I went to the doctor for my first appointment. First we went over everything that would happen throughout the pregnancy such as when ultrasounds and blood work would be. After going over all of this, and my medical history, they led me to the ultrasound room. Everything was so exciting. I couldn’t wait to finally see my little nugget growing inside of me.  Part of me became concerned when the doctor got quiet, but I tried to dismiss it. When she told me that she couldn’t find a heart beat I was shocked and confused. “What does this mean?” I asked, tears welling in my eyes. She explained that I had had a miscarriage. For the first time I learned what a missed miscarriage was. I didn’t understand how that could happen. I thought that having a miscarriage meant you bled and lost the baby. I had no idea something could go wrong and the baby could die with little or no signs. “Her” heart had stopped beating and she had stopped growing at 9 weeks 1 day.

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Early Miscarriage
Norman, Oklahoma
When we found out we were pregnant with out little angel, my hubby and I were young and newly married. I was 18 and he was 24. We had only been married for 4 months. Total shock ran over us when we got those two pink lines.

We only got 3 days of happiness and then our world came crashing down. I knew something was wrong that Sunday, when I woke up and I had unbearable cramps. Hubby was at work and I called him and told him something was wrong. I told him I was going to wait it out a little bit and see if I started bleeding.

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Mom to Eveline
Born August 30th, 2010 at 4:57 a.m.
Died August 30th, 2010 at 9:45 a.m.
Turpin, OK
When I was a little girl and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, my reply was always “A Mommy”.  Years later my answer is still the same, although I am no longer that innocent child who doesn’t know of all the injustices in the world.  For I was once a mother and I suppose in all accounts I still am, although I have no child to call me “Mommy”.  This is my story, my journey through infertility and the loss of my daughter, Evie.  

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Mom to Tre,’ January 12, 2008
and Walter, July 3, 2008
Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
I have had many losses in my life, many of them in the first trimester. I had 4 early losses before I got pregnant with my first son Tre‘.

 In 2005 I was diagnosed with PCOS and in 2007 I started metformin because I found out I was insulin resistant. The same month that I started the medication I got pregnant. My dear husband and I had 2 early losses before this and were ecstatic to find out that we were expecting. Tre’s pregnancy was difficult from the beginning. 

I started bleeding at 8 weeks and found that I had a partial placenta abruption but my Lil guy was hanging on. Everything was going OK until January 11, 2008, I was riding with a friend of mine and I had a very bad pain that brought me out of my seat. I didn’t think anything of it until I didn’t feel my baby move. Finally I went to the ER and they couldn’t find my babies heartbeat. That next morning I had an u/s to confirm that he had passed. I was devastated. The u/s tech had asked if I wanted any particular pictures of my baby. The only thing I wanted to know was what sex the baby was because I didn’t know at that time. They induced labor and my precious son was born at 2:05 am on January 12, 2008. 

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Mom to twin daughters, Skylar Kerrie
and Sierra Rose
Born sleeping on November 23rd ,2006 at 20 weeks
Colcord, Oklahoma

My name is Shali. On November 23, 2006, I was 20 weeks pregnant with twin girls. I was having a routine appointment and had brought my boyfriend, and younger brother and sister with me to see the girls on the ultrasound.

My OB/GYN came in and started the ultrasound, He wasn’t talking much and I could tell something was wrong when he set me up and told me that I needed to go across the street to the hospital and have a radiology tech take a look..I was already in tears..My brother and sister were confused and I called my mom to come get them. I had the radiology done and when the tech left the room, I knew. The hospital sent me back to my OB/GYN,at this time several of my family members were there.

My doctor took me to a room and explained that there was no heartbeat, for either of the girls, the cord had a knot in it.

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