Mom to Joshua Wayne Jr.
August 19th, 2010
Independence, Missouri
Hello, my name is Lauren. I am 27, the mother of 2 crazy kids and the wife to a wonderful supportive man, Josh.  We have been married 6 and a half years now. I had my daughter in 2005, suffered from an early miscarriage in 2007, and had my son in 2008.

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Mom to Maggie Marin
Born still on September 30, 2010
Kansas City, Missouri
I don’t really know where the beginning or end of Maggie’s story is, and I think I like it that way. Although there was a clear end to Maggie’s physical journey, she is very much alive in spirit and in the fabric of our family.
Maggie was our second surprise baby. At first I was pretty shocked, but soon felt that familiar surge of love for this new little life. We had decided to find out the sex of the baby at the 18 week scan, and it was then that we learned that we were expecting a little girl. I excitedly imagined my firstborn and her new little sister together.

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Mom to Ryder Mark Schitz
May 30th, 2010
St. Louis, Missouri
I didn’t think I would ever write about this experience, for more than one reason. One, I didn’t even think I would lose a child, that Mark and I would lose a child. (not that anyone ever does) Then after losing a child I didn’t think I would ever be able to write about their “birth story.”  I worked on this for a long time, I decided not to include pictures though. I have the images in my mind. They will be. there. f-o-r-e-v-e-r. We have a few prints in a special place but I think words are enough for this post.

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Mom to Nathan
October 9th, 2009 – October 25th, 2009
Imperial, Missouri

Mom to Aidon William Pointer
December 12th, 2006
Marshall, Missouri
My son Aidon was born at 20 weeks on December 12, 2006 at 5:40pm. I had 4 first trimester losses in the years before I was with my husband but I was clueless to a lot of it then. I would find out I was pregnant then miscarry. 

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Miscarriage at 5 weeks, June 2000
Miscarriage at 5 weeks, June 2009
Mom to Sydney Alexis, born at 20 weeks on February 10th, 2009
Fenton, MO

Baby Toot lost in miscarriage 2005
Baby Tot lost in miscarriage 2006
Alexander Mckinney Hirschmugl
Born premature on September 23, 2007
Passed away January 21, 2008
Overland, Missouri
My first pregnancy came as a shock as my boyfriend and I weren’t together but just over a month. I was scared what others would think. Though we knew each other a long time and were “just friends” we took it to the next level after running back into each other at a local park.

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Mommy to Madelyn Rebecca
Lived for 1.5 hours on August 28th, 2009
St. Louis, MO
Our family’s story began on May 8, 2004, the day Nathan and I promised to love and cherish each other for the rest of our lives.  As I made my vows to him, I hadn’t the faintest idea how our lives would change just over five years later through the birth of our daughter, Madelyn.  In fact, neither of us envisioned ourselves as the “having babies” type.  Our plan was to work hard, retire early, and enjoy the extra money we wouldn’t be spending on things like daycare, diapers, and college funds.
A few years into our marriage, I began to reconsider my stance against having children.  Some of our friends started having babies, and I wanted that sweetness in my own life.  Nathan was still no where near ready to even consider the idea of children, but he did let me get a cat.  I enjoyed the new, furry member of our family, but she did little to squelch the desire that had sprouted in my heart for a child. 

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Pregnant from September 25th-October 14th, 2008
St. Louis, MO

After many months of trying for our first child we found out on September 25, 2008 that I was finally pregnant. I was so excited. We are high school sweethearts and had been married over six years. It was finally time. We told everyone. After all what did we have to worry about? We were both young (29), healthy, and no one in our families had any problems previously with pregnancies.

Right about the fifth/six week mark I felt pregnant. My boobs hurt, I was having food aversions, I was crabby, tired, and peeing all the time. I thought these were all good signs and I was very happy.

On Saturday, October 11th I started spotting. Trying to calm my fears I called the doctor on call. She coldly informed me that if I was only six weeks and having a miscarriage there was nothing they could do. If it got worse or I felt worse I could go to the ER, otherwise just call the office on Monday. I went out that evening with friends who tried to comfort me with their own stories of spotting and rough pregnancies. I knew in my heart that something was not right.

On Monday, October 13th I called the doctor’s office as soon as they opened. I went in immediately for an ultrasound. I was alone. My husband had a meeting at work that he could not miss. I figured I was just being over dramatic and that I would see the baby and everything would be fine. I went into the cold ultrasound room covered with pictures of previous babies. Twins, triplets, 3-D babies, all over the place and in my face.

Within two minutes the ultrasound woman confirmed that there was no baby in my uterus. In fact she could not find much of anything other than a huge cyst on my left ovary. I covered my face as I could not bear to look at the pictures of my empty womb. She told me that I was probably already miscarrying and that was why nothing was showing up on the screen. I got blood work taken to see if it was a rh incompatibility problem. I had to walk out into a waiting room full of happy, healthy, pregnant women with tears streaming down my face.

The next day, October 14th, I was still not having much bleeding, or cramping. I kept waiting for something to happen. About halfway through the day I had incredible pain in my stomach and ended up in a fetal position on the floor of our bathroom. My mom drove me to the ER. I knew something was not right because I kept hearing my doctor’s name being paged over the intercom. It turned out that it was not a cyst on my ovary, but rather my left fallopian tube blown up by an ectopic pregnancy. I underwent surgery immediately as there was already some internal bleeding.

Wednesday, October 15th, I woke up and found out that my right fallopian tube was useless due to severe scarring from a ruptured appendix fifteen years prior. My left tube was left in by my ob-gyn in order to try and save something so I could still try to get pregnant on my own.

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