Mom to Uriah Daniel

Jan.3 2010 – Jan. 5, 2010

Galesburg, MI

When I found out I was pregnant I was shocked.  I had a 16 year old and a 9 year old.  I was thrilled though.  My family and I couldn’t wait.  We found out we were having a boy and chose his name together.  We worked on his little nursery, and bought all the baby stuff.  He couldn’t get here fast enough. [Read more…]



Mom to Eleanor, Lost August 1, 2007 at 6 weeks

William, Lost August 4, 2009 at 7.5 weeks

Amie, Lost May 25, 2010 at 6.5 weeks

Michael, Lost December 10 2010 at 9.5 weeks

and Sunny, Lost May 31, 2011 at 4 weeks

Kalamazoo, MI


I always knew I wanted children, but I didn’t seriously think about it until I got married to my high school sweetheart in June 2006, at age 20. Then suddenly it was like a lightbulb went on and I knew that I just wanted to be a stay-at-home mom. I knew it was best for me to finish college first, but it was a big struggle for me to have to wait awhile to try to have a baby. By early 2007 we had stopped using any contraception, and in June 2007 I found out that I was pregnant. [Read more…]


Mom to Andrew John
Born Sleeping on May 14th, 2009
and 2 Miscarriages
February 26th, 2010 and November 19th, 2010
Ann Arbor, Michigan

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Mom to Riley, August 12th, 2010
and Taylor, October 29th, 2010
Manistique, Michigan
People expect parents to quickly resolve the grief of a miscarriage. It’s as if since they didn’t know the child’s name, or it had not yet been named, or the pregnancy didn’t yet “show,” our loss is somehow not as devastating. People often remark to us, “At least you didn’t know him/her,” “You can always have another one,” or “Probably it would have had a defect.”

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Mom to Mackenzie Renee, Born Sleeping October 6th, 2005
and Brendan Jon, Born Sleeping October 27th, 2005
Madison Heights, Michigan
My husband and I tried for a year on our own to become pregnant, after no success we turned to a fertility specialist.  I was diagnosed with Polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS).  In order to become pregnant I had to take Clomid, FSH injections and HCG injections in order to ovulate.  After 3 years of hormones and several miscarriages (more than I can count on two hands) we finally became pregnant with twins in June 2005.   We were excited and nervous at the same time.  Every couple of days I went for blood work to monitor my hormone levels.  The numbers kept doubling as they were supposed to.   Everything was going along as expected, each week that passed was a happy one.  

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Mom to Isaiah Christopher
Born and Died August 3rd, 2008
Petoskey, Michigan

I am a mother.

A mother to five beautiful boys.

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Mom to Nola Sophia
Born at 22 weeks
Grosse Point, Michigan
After celebrating our 1 year anniversary my husband and I were ecstatic to find out that we were pregnant! It was an easy pregnancy compared to what others had told me of their experiences. We were relieved that we were able to conceive in just one month since we didn’t know what to expect. I had very little morning sickness and on most days my complaint was that I didn’t “feel” pregnant. 

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First Angel lost in March 2009 at 8 weeks
Second Angel lost July 30th, 2009 at 12 weeks
Fraser, Michigan
My name is Andrea and I’m the loving mom to my daughter Lauren ( Dec 07 ). my son Max ( Jul 10 ) and 2 Angel Babies that have left before we got the chance to meet them.

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Mom to Baby P
August, 27th, 2010
Washington Township, Michigan
I found out we were pregnant three weeks before my husband and I were to be married.  It was such an exciting time – the start our lives together as husband and wife as well as mom and dad.

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Mom to Cole and Dillen
Born and Died February 23rd, 2009
Ferndale, Michigan
Our story begins with the hands down, no comparison, happiest moment of my life.  I was 38 and my partner, Theresa was 45.  We had been together over 8 years and finally decided to try to start a family and then rode the infertility roller coaster that so many women endure.  We had been anxiously awaiting the call; at last the phone rang and it was our nurse confirming that my blood test was positive and I WAS PREGANT!  After talking with the nurse, my doctor came on the line and said, “You are SO pregnant!”  “There is probably more than one!” My numbers were very high.  Never in my life had I sobbed with such raw emotion – tears of pure joy! 

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Mom to Tanner Ray Johnson
November 30th, 2007
Paw Paw, Michigan
We found out that we where pregnant in july 2007.  It was a shock because dr’s told my boyfriend who is now my husband that he would not ever have any children. My husband is an over the road truck driver and I went with him when he was out.  

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Mother to Michael Joseph Milner, Born Sleeping November 14th, 2009
and Mother to Hope, Miscarriage July 23rd, 2010
Kalamazoo, Michigan
I was so excited to see that second line on that little strip.  It was so faint but I was sure it was there.  My husband said he didn’t see it so I took a digital test and there it was in plain English.  We were pregnant.  We couldn’t wait to tell EVERYONE and we did.  We were blissfully happy and there were no doubts, everything was great.

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Eight First Trimester Miscarriages
Farmington Hills, MI
I will keep this on the short side because it is a story that spanned 9 years. We found out we were pregnant for the first time in December of 1998 after being married for just over a year. Since it was December, we figured Christmas was the perfect time to tell our families and we were so excited and bursting to tell them. 

 On Christmas Eve, I started bleeding and ended up in the emergency room on Christmas morning to find out that we had lost our baby. We were just heartbroken and I knew that Christmas would never be the same. I would always look back on that day and remember that heartbreak. We went on to have 5 more miscarriages after that and finally, on our last try, in August of 2004, we managed to make it and have a beautiful and healthy  little girl who was blessed with an extra chromosome… Down syndrome. We both decided within moments of them telling us that she had Down syndrome, that we needed to have more then one child. 

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Mom to Makinsey Lynn
Born May 28, 2010
Grew her wings on August 8, 2010
Tecumseh, Michigan

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Mom to Madison Ann
October 3rd, 2007 – March 5th, 2008
Grand Rapids, MI
I found out I was pregnant in April 2007. My pregnancy was going fine and had a lot of morning sickness and heartburn. I had my twelve week appointment and everything was fine. I had my 16 week appointment and was measuring larger.  My Doctor said either I was farther along or their were more than one. I knew I could not be farther along since I got pregnant on the pill. 

I had an ultrasound at 18 weeks and it was twin girls.  My family doctor referred me to an OB because of the higher risk of c-section with twins. I finally meet with my new OB at 23 weeks and 5 days. That is when I first heard Baby A has a Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia. This is when the Diaphragm does not close off allowing intestines ,spleen, liver and kidneys to be in the chest cavity where the lungs should be.  It also pushes the heart over causing less growth in the other lung.  

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Mom to Hadley
October 9th, 2007 – October 11th, 2007
Lake Orion, MI
In April of 2007, my husband Mark and I found out that we were expecting triplets.  To say we were shocked is an understatement but after spending two years trying to get pregnant, we quickly adjusted to the idea of welcoming three new babies into our family and started preparing for life with triplets. We found out we were expecting two girls and a boy and could not have been happier.  I could not wait to dress my girls in matching outfits and have a “Momma’s boy.”  Unfortunately, by the time I was 18 weeks pregnant, the signs of preterm labor had already begun and I was admitted to the hospital for the remainder of my pregnancy.  I was put on strict hospital bedrest and although we knew that things were very risky, as the weeks passed and we were able to keep my labor from progressing we began to become hopeful again. 

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Mom to Jack Everett Hughes
May 8th, 2010-May 10th, 2010
Woodhaven, Michigan
First let me say that if you are easily upset by sad stories, do not continue to read. I don’t want to cause anyone unnecessary sadness. But if you’d like to learn about an incredible little boy, who made more impact in one day of life, than most human beings do in a lifetime, then please read on.

It all began on the morning of Saturday May 8th, 2010. I had been having continuous leaking of my amniotic fluid since that previous Monday and upon doing morning checks of the babies heartbeat, the doctors were growing more concerned. Throughout the day there were several monitorings done of the babies heart rhythm, where they looked at the little tick mark paper to see its fluctuations. After spending that afternoon chatting and relaxing with my mother in law, the nurses came in to tell me they were transferring me to labor and delivery. The doctors wanted to monitor me more closely there.
So we went to our new room and waited while the on call baby doctors came in the check the babies heartbeat. They explained that they believed I was having contractions, (which I was experiencing pain and pressure) and that everytime I did, the babies heartbeat dropped dangerously. They were also concerned that I had an infection in my uterus and that if they did an ultrasound on the baby and he did not do a “breathing” movement, they were going to have to do a c-section to retrieve him. We agreed to this approach because we wanted to do all we could to give Jack the best chance possible, no matter what it did to my body.

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Mom to Ethin RaiLuc
January 9th, 2009-June 27th, 2009
Newaygo, MI
In May of 2008 my life was busy. I had just moved and was adjusting to being a single parent when I found out I was pregnant.  My pregnancy started off very rough and I was put on bed rest due to placenta previa.  On a visit to the perintologist I was told that my placenta had moved back to a normal position, but they thought there was something wrong with my child’s heart.  July 17, 2008 I was given news that no parent wants to hear.  My baby, a boy my children and I had decided to name Ethin, was going to be born with a Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) called  Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS).

The doctors that day had me decide what I wanted to do and I knew I was going to have my son and give him the best chance at survival I could.  This meant delivering my son in Ann Arbor, MI at the University of Michigan Mott Children’s Hospital three hours from my home.  I had many appointments during my pregnancy and Ethin was growing well and was truly perfect with a very special heart.

On January 9, 2009 at 4:01pm Ethin entered this world by c-section screaming like a normal baby.  I remember just feeling elated when I heard him cry, but sad that I did not get to see him.  Ethin was whisked off into the neonatal unit to begin his medical testing to see how bad his little heart was.  In the meantime I was doing everything I could in the recovery room to just prove I was well enough to be wheeled in to meet my son.

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Mom to Angel Baby Jordan Jared
April 2009
Detroit, MI
In April 2009, I was 36, child-free and very in love with my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years, Jared. On April 9th the stick turned blue and my world came into focus!  I was elated–terrified, but elated! My first pregnancy, first baby, nothing prepared me for that feeling!! The nurse put me at 8 weeks with a due date of November 23rd and set-up my OB appointmentts. I started with plans for that pale yellow room, trimmed in lavender- the perfect nursery. Started thinking I’m going to gain about 25 pounds this year and for the first time ever, I didn’t care! 

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Mom to Alistair Magnus
Stillborn on June 5th, 2010
Portage, MI
It was supposed to be a regular check-up at 26 weeks.  It was supposed to be my entry into my 3rd trimester.  It was supposed to be a day that I cried a little at hearing my baby’s heartbeat with my husband and then raced to get fresh strawberries (of which my baby was made), and went to a book sale at our public library.  It was not supposed to be the day that my midwife couldn’t find his heartbeat.  It was that moment where my day spiraled downward into a horror movie.

The doppler had been having an easier and easier time picking up my baby’s heartbeat, and so when my midwife couldn’t find it, I began to worry.  Since my baby was a little monkey inside of me, the midwife wasn’t too concerned.  She went to get the sonogram machine and tried it that way, but all she could see was the back of my baby’s head.  She called in the doctor who sat down on the edge of the exam table and took my hand and told me that my baby “was in an unusual position”.  I was whisked off to the ultrasound room where the same woman who did his 20 week ultrasound found his heart again, but this time it was no longer beating.  “Now what?” I asked.  “You need to go to the hospital to delivery your baby.”

I hadn’t read up on labor and delivery, I hadn’t yet taken lamaze, I hadn’t yet even had my tour of the hospital, but here I was, en route to the hospital to delivery my baby after a call to my parents who rushed into their car for the two and a half hour drive to the hospital.  I was given a room at the end of the hall with a leaf to symbolize loss.  At 7:00pm, I was induced.  At 9:00pm, I went into labor, even though I didn’t even know it at the time.  By 7:00am, I definitely knew I was in labor.  Nothing seemed to help, because I couldn’t bring myself to do anything that I normally would have done, such as take walks proudly in the hall, or dance around the room.  Nothing seemed to help, and no, I did not want an epidural.  I wanted to experience the fullness of this birth on my own.

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