Mom to Gage Gene

August 25, 2015

Abbeville, Louisiana

The day I found out I was gonna be a mom was the best day of my life. I was excited to share this wonderful news with my friends and family. My first few months of pregnancy were a little rough; morning sickness every day. After I hit my third trimester, things got a little easier for me. The rest of my pregnancy was awesome other then being pregnant in the summertime. I couldn’t of asked for a better pregnancy.

I went to my last office visit; I remember it like it was yesterday. It was Monday, August 24th at 10:30 a.m. They pulled me back to my room to put a stress test on my stomach to see how my son was doing. They didn’t hear a heartbeat. The doctor walked into the room and asked for us to go into the ultrasound room to do an ultrasound. I was so nervous. I knew something wasn’t right. The doctor started rubbing my belly. She looked so white and shocked. I turned to her and said, “Please please tell me what’s going on. You’re making me so nervous.” She put her head down and said, “I’m sorry Amber. Gage doesn’t have a heartbeat.” [In] that moment, my world stopped. They rushed me to the hospital where I gave birth to a beautiful 6 pound 3 ounce baby boy, Gage Gene on August 25th at 4:18 a.m.

Now coming to relate that my son was gone. How was I supposed to move forward? I never knew how bad I wanted something in my life until it was gone. [When] me and my husband and family and friends gathered together to tell Gage bye it was the hardest thing ever. I didn’t want to say goodbye. I wanted to start my life with my son and husband. I wanted my family and now I had to realize that wasn’t going to happen. Now instead of playing with my son and sharing every moment with him, I have to visit him at his grave where is laid to rest. My husband and I read books to him and grieve for him every second of our lives. I love my son more than anything; he’s my world. Just because I’m not raising him doesn’t mean he isn’t holding my hand, helping me get through each and every day.
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Mom to  Zoey Skye

Stillborn January 9, 2012

Sulphur, Louisiana

My husband and I got married May 15, 2010. We started trying to get pregnant the end of January of 2011, and didn’t get pregnant until May of 2011. During that time of trying I would get upset every time I got another negative test. So the morning of June 6 when I finally got a positive test, I was so excited I started crying and shaking and didn’t know what to do with myself. I went and woke my husband up and told him the news and showed him the test. He was just as excited as I was. I made our first doc apt and it was for the beginning of July. At the apt we found out we were due January 29, 2012 and they gave me a paper to go do blood work. Well we ended up finding out that I had Thrombocytopenia which is low blood platelets. Blood platelets are what cause your blood to clot, so an extremely low count can cause spontaneous bleeding out. A normal count is 150,000 or higher. Mine were at 88,000. So my doctor put me on a 6 day pack of steroids (prednisone) to see if they would up my platelets and if they did, then I would get on them again at the end of the pregnancy right before delivery because you can’t get an epidural if your platelets are too low. I had told my doctor that I planned on trying to not get an epidural but she insisted that I would want one. [Read more…]


Mom to Ava Nicole

Lost at 18.5 weeks on November 21, 2011

Baton Rouge, Louisiana

The beginning of August I started to wonder if the way I was feeling was due to being pregnant.  I took a few home pregnancy tests which at first I thought were coming back negative, but then I noticed the 2nd line was coming through very faintly.  I scheduled a Dr’s appointment where it was confirmed that yes, I was DEFINITELY pregnant!!! [Read more…]


Mom to Caydence

Born asleep November 10, 2011

Mandeville, Louisiana

I am one of those women who people say were born to be a mother, and, for as long as I can remember, I have wanted to have children. When I met my husband nine years ago, I knew that he was the man I would marry and have children with. We are truly soul mates and I am so grateful that we found each other. When we talked about having children, we never could have imagined that our baby would be born an angel. [Read more…]

Mom to Addisyn
Stillborn on June 29th, 2010 at 12:09 a.m.
Lake Charles, Louisiana
My story starts at the end of August 2009. My boyfriend (now husband) had just proposed, I had just started a new semester in college, and was working full time. We never talked about when we would begin to have children but we both knew it was something that would be a great experience for us.

About a week after my husband proposed I ended up in the hospital. I was in horrific pain and could not move, talk, laugh, or cry without being in the worst pain I had felt. After several tests it was determined that I had E.coli poisoning and it had travelled down and created a small hole in my uterus. The doctors said it would be quite difficult for me to get pregnant and if I did I probably would have a quick miscarriage. We didn’t think much about what our future would hold and put off talking about the issue until after I graduated from college.

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Mom to Aaden Dean
Born still on July 7th, 2009
Logansport, Indiana
I had just turned 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I was scared I wouldn’t be a good mom because I was so young.  I was scared I wouldn’t be able to give him everything he needed, but as lucky as I am I had a wonderful set of parents who said they were ready to help raise my sweet baby boy Aaden Dean.  

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Mom to Baby November
Baby March
and Baby August
Denham Springs, LA
After five happy years of marriage, my husband Jason and I decided that it was time to expand our family.  Boy, were we surprised when I got pregnant immediately!  I got my BFP on a Saturday morning.  We and I were both standing in the bathroom, watching as the two lines began to materialize on the test.  We were nervous but excited!  I called my OB and scheduled my first appointment.  It was basically a consult visit.  I remember sitting in an office to find out what insurance would cover, then having bloodwork drawn.  I signed all sorts of forms.  We left with hospital information packets and formula samples.  We were on Cloud 9!

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Mom to Hannah Elizabeth, said goodbye on January 26, 2010 
and Audrey Elise, said goodbye on August 19, 2010
Shreveport, LA

I’ve wanted to be nothing more than a mother for as long as I can remember. When I met my husband that excitement became even more real. Brian and I were excited to start a family but before we were married we’d always said we’d wait a full year before we started trying. Soon enough that was bumped up to December (at the 6 month mark) and then in the end we couldn’t even wait until then! So October it was!

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Mom to Xavier, missed miscarriage at 9 weeks, 5 days on September 19th, 2006
Blighted ovum at 8 weeks, 3 days on February 12th, 2007
and Tristan, lost to Placental Abruption at 33 weeks on January 21st, 2008
St. Martinville, LA
We started trying April of ’06, right after we got married. We got pregnant 3 months later and I was so thrilled, but then fear set in as I started bleeding, and continued bleeding all the way to 10 weeks. I was placed on bed rest at 9 weeks to try and stop the bleeding and it worked. We went for our 12 week appointment to find out the baby had passed 5 days after the last time we had seen him. We found out our baby was a son due to genetic testing. 

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