Mom to Sophie Abigail

Stillborn on April 11, 2012

Marysville, Washington

Editor’s Note: Stephanie and her husband were thrilled to learn they were expecting their first baby. Their first ultrasound revealed some troubling news. Later testing showed Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, and hopeful plans were made for heart surgery to fix Sophie’s heart defect. But on April 2, 2012, with only eight weeks until Sophie’s planned 39-week c-section date, doctors became concerned about the growing pocket of fluid around Sophie’s lungs, and the effect that was having on her little body. Stephanie and her husband were given a poor prognosis and prayed for a miracle, but felt Sophie move for the last time on April 4th. Sophie was born still on April 11th, 2012. And then her mama’s health started to fail

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Mom to Samuel

Stillborn February 16, 2012

Berkshire, United Kingdom

When we got pregnant we had tried to conceive for a few years and had also added two cycles of IVF to the mix of building our family. To finally be pregnant was a victory and we couldn’t wait to meet our baby. A true miracle it was.

My pregnancy was pretty uneventful, I had just a little nausea, heartburn and general tiredness but otherwise I was feeling good and healthy. From week twelve I started more and more to believe this was real and my fears of something going wrong decreased significantly. [Read more…]


Mom to Michael Leonard Williams Jr. 

March 4, 2011 – August 1, 2011

Center Township, PA

During my pregnancy we found out our son would be born with a single ventricle heart. August 17, 2010, was the day that my life would change forever. The scariest thing a mother can hear is that her baby isn’t perfectly healthy. In my son’s case this was an understatement. He was born Michael Leonard Williams Jr. on March 4, 2011 at 9:33. He was the most perfect little boy I’ve ever seen. As it is for all mothers, it was undying, unbiased love at first sight. He was just the most amazing little miracle a mommy could ask for. [Read more…]

Kara Masi

Mom to Filomena Lucille Masi

Stillborn on March 10th, 2011 at 24 weeks and 3 days

Newark, Delaware

Ever since I was little, I knew I’d always have a house full of children. [Read more…]

Mom to Kayla LeAnne
December 1, 2009
and David Joseph
September 20th, 2010 – January 20th, 2011
Parma Heights, Ohio

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Mom to Shannon Elizabeth January 16th – January 19th, 2007
and Peanut Shelbe – EDD April 10th, 2008
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

In the summer of 2006, I hadn’t been feeling good a lot. A pregnancy test revealed my first pregnancy was starting! We went for an ultrasound in the fall. We were so excited. By this time we could already feel the baby kicking. I just wanted to know what I was having so I could start buying outfits, toys, and all that good stuff. We went to have the ultrasound that morning without a care in the world. The tech started doing the ultrasound. She was taking a long time, like she was having trouble. She said she couldn’t find her stomach and I might have to go to a different hospital. I didn’t care; I just wanted to know what it was! The baby had its legs crossed and she couldn’t tell. She finished up and told me to go back downstairs to my OB’s office. My doctor came in the room and was asking if I could get to a downtown hospital right now. Then he asked Steve and me if anyone had mentioned anything about a hernia. We told him no, but he didn’t reply, just told us to get down to the other hospital and he would call ahead. On the twenty minute ride down to the hospital, I wasn’t scared, just disappointed that I still didn’t know what I was having. Steve, I think, seemed uneasy.

As we walked into the ultrasound waiting room, we noticed that it was packed! So many people were in there. We walked up to the counter and I signed in. “Oh, the doctor called for you.” was the response I received from the secretary. People all around us were complaining about their long wait. Ten minutes later, my name was called. We followed the technician back to the room. As she prepped me, a doctor walked in. He said “I am not going to talk to you throughout this. When I am done, we will talk.” I replied “That’s fine, while you’re there, do you think you can see what it is, the other lady couldn’t tell.” He did that first, got a straight shot between the legs. “It’s a girl.” I just wanted to scream with excitement. A little girl, my little girl. I started thinking about everything I was going to do with her, what she was going to be, what she was going to play, how she was going to dress.

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Mom to Eva Anise
March 6th, 2007 – April 4th, 2007
Vienna, Virginia
Given my irregular cycle, diffident personality and generally low expectations, I thought it would take some time, perhaps a year, before we would get pregnant. It happened the first cycle. Both times. Aside from my stint on a jury, my first pregnancy was uneventful. My second pregnancy was anything but.

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Mom to Mutalah
December 27th, 2009
Calgary, Alberta, Canada
In September 2009, I was so thrilled to find out I was pregnant… 

On the December 7th, 2009, I went for my 18 week ultrasound and the technician said that they suspect a problem with the baby’s heart.  She couldn’t see the “hockey sticks” but they were not able to say anything else, I would have to wait to hear from my doctor.  The next day, my Dr’s office called and asked me to come in for an appointment that day…  They said that they believe that the baby’s heart is not developing properly and referred our case urgently to the Fetal Medicine Clinic here in Calgary.  I went for another ultrasound and a fetal ECG on December 16th and we were given the news what the little heart is in really bad shape – the left side is seriously under-developed.  They said it was a congenital heart defect known as Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome and in addition, the baby only had a two vessel umbilical cord which is often an indicator of other issues..

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Mom to Ethin RaiLuc
January 9th, 2009-June 27th, 2009
Newaygo, MI
In May of 2008 my life was busy. I had just moved and was adjusting to being a single parent when I found out I was pregnant.  My pregnancy started off very rough and I was put on bed rest due to placenta previa.  On a visit to the perintologist I was told that my placenta had moved back to a normal position, but they thought there was something wrong with my child’s heart.  July 17, 2008 I was given news that no parent wants to hear.  My baby, a boy my children and I had decided to name Ethin, was going to be born with a Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) called  Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS).

The doctors that day had me decide what I wanted to do and I knew I was going to have my son and give him the best chance at survival I could.  This meant delivering my son in Ann Arbor, MI at the University of Michigan Mott Children’s Hospital three hours from my home.  I had many appointments during my pregnancy and Ethin was growing well and was truly perfect with a very special heart.

On January 9, 2009 at 4:01pm Ethin entered this world by c-section screaming like a normal baby.  I remember just feeling elated when I heard him cry, but sad that I did not get to see him.  Ethin was whisked off into the neonatal unit to begin his medical testing to see how bad his little heart was.  In the meantime I was doing everything I could in the recovery room to just prove I was well enough to be wheeled in to meet my son.

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