Mom to Zachary Logan
Passed away November 3rd, 2010 at 2 months gestation
Bellingham, Washington

This is 4 weeks from the loss of my baby Zachary Logan. I have searched for resources, for people who have been through something similar and I have grown frustrated with little support for people who have had abdominal pregnancies. So I figure there are others out there who are feeling this way too – so I am writing this for those searching for someone else who has been there. 
My story is unique. I did not know that I was pregnant – in fact i was doing my darndest to not be pregnant. I had an IUD. I had a lot of vaginal pressure at work in the morning –  thought my IUD may be falling out, and called the Dr office. They got me in at 11:00.  I found out at 11:10 on Thursday November 4th that I was pregnant. Although the initial reactions was intense shock – it turned into joy and trying to figure out how to tell my husband and family. (since they all were going to be as shocked as well). 

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Mama to eight stars: 
January 2006,  April 2006
October 2006,  December 2006
December 2008,  June 2009
October 2009,  October 2010
Des Moines, Iowa

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Biochemical Pregnancy – January 2006
Ruptured Ectopic Pregnancy -April 2006
Early Miscarriage – July 2006
Biochemical Pregnancy – December 2006
Ectopic Pregnancy – September 2007
Early Miscarriage- October 2010

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Mom to

Baby lost April 2005

Baby Twin, lost March 2007
Rock Hill, South Carolina

My story started in 1998, newly married and wanting to have a baby. I was quick to throw away the birth control pills and start trying for the family I had always wanted. Little did I know that doctors would not be concerned with me not having a period. So much in fact that they wanted me to wait a year before they would even see me for infertility. So, I waited.

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Two Miscarriages 
Baby 1- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death March 16th, 2010
Baby 2- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death June 9th, 2010
Barrie, Ontario, Canada
My name is AmyLynn.  I lost my first baby due to an ectopic pregnancy.  I was given a needle that would force by body to miscarry the baby. We had been trying to get pregnant for 3 years, with nothing, then all of a sudden I was in the hospital and it all happened so fast. 
After my body recovered from all of that and the loss, I found out I was pregnant May 14th– my fiancé’s birthday.  The following morning I had bleeding.  Not having a normal pregnancy before, I went to the emergency and was told I was having a miscarriage.  3 weeks later I was back in the hospital not even able to move, to find out that I was 10 weeks pregnant and that I didn’t lose the baby.  It formed into another ectopic pregnancy and ruptured and if something didn’t happen I could die. 

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Mom to Savannah Jolynne Dodson
Stillborn on January 23rd, 2008 due to ARPKD
Miscarriage – May 2004
Miscarriage – April 2005
Miscarriage – September 2005
Ectopic Pregnancy – November 2005

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Mom to 
Ayanna Sarai, Lost to Ectopic Pregnancy, January 2003
Tatiana Alexis, December 28th, 2005
Cameron Alexander, July 6th, 2006
Maia Elise, Lost to Chemical Pregnancy, 2008
Gavin Michael, July 23rd, 2010
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

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Mom to Allyn Elizabeth
August 16th, 2010
Colwich, Kansas
On July 28th, 2010 we found out we were expecting our third baby! We were ecstatic! We had been trying for this baby for almost a year. 

 On August 15th, a Sunday afternoon/evening while out golfing with family i started to have an unbearable stabbing pain in my lower abdomen. We were leaving, my dad and step-mother agreed to keep our Daugher and our Son with them, we thought we were just gonna go and lie down and see if it got better. As we were leaving the parking lot, I knew that was not the case and told my Husband that we were going to the ER. We went into the small town ER and my Husband had to run and find someone to help. When we finally go into a bed it was forever before a Dr came in and then we were sent for an ultrasound. While the ultrasound was being done they then started an IV. The ultrasound tech could not find anything and she said that we were still early enough that her machine just might not be high powered enough, but that we should prepare for the possibility of an ectopic. I asked her (more like begged her) “please, can’t it just be gas, can’t you just give me something and it will be better?” She said it could be anything. The Dr came back and said that he wanted us sent to Wichita by ambulance, that if it was an ectopic they would be better equipped to handle the situation. Secretly I think they knew it was and knew that they could not handle the situation, but were still trying to give me some hope. So forever later (not really, but when you are in that kind of pain with the possibility of losing your baby, things can not possibly move fast enough) we were loaded up in the ambulance. Dad had come to the ER and said that they would keep the kids and get the car moved and everything.

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Mom to Sterling
September 10th, 2010
San Diego, California
At 23 years old you’re still at the stage of life of it will never happen to me.  I’m not going to lie up until last month I still lived with that frame of mind in regards to anything bad ever happening.  My husband and I already have two beautiful little girls, close in age, who both have started asking us recently for a baby brother or another sister.  This summer we decided we were finally ready to start trying for another.  With my first two pregnancies I got pregnant fairly quickly, so expected this time would be no different.   Of course as soon as we decided to try my cycles started getting wacky so when mid August rolled around and I started having light spotting I thought nothing of it; just chalked it up to another wacky cycle.  

I went through all of August with slight cramping on my left side and off and on bleeding.  I kept thinking nothing of it until I started passing large clots in the beginning of September, as soon as I saw that I knew something was wrong but at that point still had no idea what.  At my appointment with my OBGYN after describing my symptoms and telling him about the slight pain my doctor informed me he felt I was pregnant but in the middle of a miscarriage.  That day I got my first set of blood pregnancy tests and went home to cry and wait for the next day to call and find out the results so we could continue with the next step.
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Mom to Sweet Pea 
Lost August 2nd, 2010
Dallas, Texas

July 21, 2010 is the first date that changed my life.  This was the date that my husband and I found out we were pregnant!  We were so excited, we had tried off and on for about 3 years and the timing just seemed so perfect.  The baby would be due at the end of March 2011 – right as our lives were falling into place again.  (My husband will be starting a new career in February and already has his first job lined up.)  Our families and very close friends were told and everyone was ready to help us start this part of our life journey.

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Baby Bean 
October 31st, 2006
Sarnia, Ontario
My period was due October 5, 2006. I kind of had the feeling I was pregnant, had taken a pregnancy test, and it was negative, that was October 4. The next day I started to bleed, and of course, rubbed it off as my period.

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Mom to Baby lost on October 20th, 2009 due to ectopic pregnancy
Smyrna, TN
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 9 years. One day I felt different and I just knew I was pregnant. It was confirmed and I have to say it was the happiest day I can ever remember with the exception of my wedding day. The picture that I have submitted is actually a picture taken the day I found out I was pregnant. It was such a blessing, our family and friends also shared in our joy because of the struggles we had. 
When I went for my ultrasound they said they could not see my baby in my uterus. As I laid there, I thought it can’t be. I know I am pregnant, I feel it in my heart. I was then sent to a doctor who handles high risk pregnancy and he confirmed I was still pregnant but it was ectopic. I was sent to the hospital for surgery. 

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Kelly Doris
Mother to Baby due August 18th, 2010, Miscarried December 22nd, 2009
and Baby due December 3rd, 2010, Miscarried April 6th, 2010
Sparta, WI

After several months of fertility treatments I found out I was pregnant in early December 2009. I was excited. Blood tests confirmed also I was pregnant. Several days after the blood work all the pregnancy symptoms I had disappeared. I took an at home pregnancy test, and it was negative. The next day I had another blood test, and it was confirmed that I would miscarry. I miscarried at home the following day.

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Mom to Bean, miscarried at 6 weeks, August 7, 2010
Sprout, miscarried at 9 weeks, 6 days, September 3, 2010
Naples, New York
It is so hard to know where to begin with our story. Right now it just seems like a mash-up of the greatest happiness and the most painful sadness my husband and I have ever experienced.
July 24, 2010 will forever be one of the happiest days of my life. My very first positive pregnancy test. I took 10 tests including 2 digitalis because I couldn’t believe my eyes and we were over the moon. The following week was amazing. I held my belly and talked to my little Bean, letting him know how excited and lucky we were to be blessed with him. I read everything I could possibly get my hands on and changed my eating habits so I could to have a happy healthy baby. I don’t know if I have ever seen my husband so excited about a baby. I knew of the possibility of complications because my mother had two losses but I was so naive and deep down I didn’t think that it would really happen to me.

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Mom to twin sons Emmett and Everett
Born too early on August 4th, 2010
Puyallup, Washington
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Olivia D.
Ectopic pregnancy Nov.22.2007 7.5 weeks
Miscarriage March 2009 11 weeks
Manteca CA

November 22, 2007 (Thanksgiving that year) started out to be the best day of my life and ended as one of the worst. I woke up excited to get my day started. I was cooking thanksgiving dinner for the first time for my new husband. We had been married for over 8 months. I was on the phone with my mother asking how to make the turkey and the stuffing when all the sudden I sneezed. Didn’t think anything of it since I have allergies and sneeze all the time. But this sneeze was different, after I sneezed my entire left side of my body started hurting like it went numb. I told my mom something was wrong. I might have pulled a muscle when I sneezed. She started to worry and told me to wake up my husband to take me to the hospital. I said I’ll be fine, this has happened before, I just sneezed too hard. So I hung up the phone and went to get up and I couldn’t. My left side was hurting so bad. So I thought “ok, just sit here for another minute and then I will be fine” so I sat back and tried to lean on my side, it made it worse. Then I started getting light headed and my stomach was hurting. So at this time I knew something was wrong. So I started yelling for my husband. He woke up and asked what was wrong so I told him I think I need to go to the hospital something is wrong. So he got dressed and took me. This is when my awesome day turned into my biggest nightmare.

 They finally called me back, took my blood pressure. Did a urine test. Asked me the normal questions. One made me laugh, “are you pregnant?” Really me, Pregnant no way. I had my period TWICE last month. So the doctor ordered a ultrasound. So while waiting for them to bring the ultrasound machine, my mom comes in with a worried look on her face. I tried to make her feel better by joking around. So finally the doctor came in but before he did the ultrasound he tells my mom and husband to step out. He turns to me and said well just got your results from the blood work, you’re 7 weeks pregnant. I looked at him and said your lying that’s not possible I had my period TWICE. He said no your pregnant, lets do the ultrasound. I was excited. I thought I wasn’t ever going to have a baby. I told my husband and my mom. They were so excited. I was getting more excited, I get to see my baby for the first time. So I thought. The ultrasound didn’t show anything. So the doctor said oh maybe the baby is still too small for this ultrasound we will do another one. So they took me to this room for a different ultrasound. I started bleeding again. I knew something was wrong. And from the look on the Ultrasound techs. face I knew there wasn’t a baby. I go back to my room when the doctor comes in and has this look of saddness on his face. He looks at me and tells me that I am pregnant but I lost the baby. I’m having what they call an Ectopic pregnancy and that I was bleeding internally. He tells me they need to rush me into surgery to remove my baby. I was so scared but not going to cry for the sake of my husband and my mother. I did what I did best, which was joking around. I didn’t want them to know I was scared. So I kissed my husband goodbye and told him I loved him. Told my mom I loved her and I would see them soon. They rolled me in and I woke up in recovery.

 I didn’t remember a lot after they rolled me into surgery. So my mom told me everything. They had told her I had a gallon of blood they had to remove from my body. They took the baby, but not only my baby, they took my left tube. It had ruptured, that’s why I was bleeding so much and not feeling good. If I didn’t go in when I did I would have died at home from internal bleeding. I had so many emotions going through me. I was angry, I was sad, I was scared. I just wanted to be left alone. I didn’t want to see anyone. I hated the world. The saddest thing is they stuck me in the maternity ward. I had to hear those babies crying, I had to see the babies. I was so angry at my body for failing at the one thing is was supposed to do. I cried everyday while I was in the hospital.

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Mom to three dearly missed little ones
June 2009, August 2009 & July 2010
Philadelphia, PA
Our story starts in 2003, when we got married on a sunny day in August. We are best friends and we love children. I am a children’s counselor, and Pete is going to be a pediatric nurse. We are so deserving aren’t we? We decided to start trying TTC while pete was in nursing school trying to time it so we’d be pregnant when he was done, and well-timing it so I could work part time as a counselor. We also timed it so we could try and have children that are around the same age as my sisters’ children. How silly of us right? Planning? HA! Maybe the rest of the world, but not us.

I remember the initial excitement and thrill of shedding protection and the excitement of our first pregnancy stick. Didn’t work. Hmmm…that is weird we thought. My sisters and mom all got pregnant by accident at least once, some of them twice, and never had any trouble. (If you are reading this- no family history is NOT an indicator of whether or not you will be have trouble TTC.) We tried again for a few months. Still no luck. Maybe it was the way I was laying. Maybe it was our timing. We did some research. I charted temps on a little graph. We tried ovulation predictor kits. Still no luck. We took it in
stride: a few tears but we are still young. None of our friends have children yet. We have time.

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Pregnant from September 25th-October 14th, 2008
St. Louis, MO

After many months of trying for our first child we found out on September 25, 2008 that I was finally pregnant. I was so excited. We are high school sweethearts and had been married over six years. It was finally time. We told everyone. After all what did we have to worry about? We were both young (29), healthy, and no one in our families had any problems previously with pregnancies.

Right about the fifth/six week mark I felt pregnant. My boobs hurt, I was having food aversions, I was crabby, tired, and peeing all the time. I thought these were all good signs and I was very happy.

On Saturday, October 11th I started spotting. Trying to calm my fears I called the doctor on call. She coldly informed me that if I was only six weeks and having a miscarriage there was nothing they could do. If it got worse or I felt worse I could go to the ER, otherwise just call the office on Monday. I went out that evening with friends who tried to comfort me with their own stories of spotting and rough pregnancies. I knew in my heart that something was not right.

On Monday, October 13th I called the doctor’s office as soon as they opened. I went in immediately for an ultrasound. I was alone. My husband had a meeting at work that he could not miss. I figured I was just being over dramatic and that I would see the baby and everything would be fine. I went into the cold ultrasound room covered with pictures of previous babies. Twins, triplets, 3-D babies, all over the place and in my face.

Within two minutes the ultrasound woman confirmed that there was no baby in my uterus. In fact she could not find much of anything other than a huge cyst on my left ovary. I covered my face as I could not bear to look at the pictures of my empty womb. She told me that I was probably already miscarrying and that was why nothing was showing up on the screen. I got blood work taken to see if it was a rh incompatibility problem. I had to walk out into a waiting room full of happy, healthy, pregnant women with tears streaming down my face.

The next day, October 14th, I was still not having much bleeding, or cramping. I kept waiting for something to happen. About halfway through the day I had incredible pain in my stomach and ended up in a fetal position on the floor of our bathroom. My mom drove me to the ER. I knew something was not right because I kept hearing my doctor’s name being paged over the intercom. It turned out that it was not a cyst on my ovary, but rather my left fallopian tube blown up by an ectopic pregnancy. I underwent surgery immediately as there was already some internal bleeding.

Wednesday, October 15th, I woke up and found out that my right fallopian tube was useless due to severe scarring from a ruptured appendix fifteen years prior. My left tube was left in by my ob-gyn in order to try and save something so I could still try to get pregnant on my own.

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