Mom to Baby Christian

Born on January 27, 2012

Died on January 24, 2012

Mooresville, North Carolina

It’s hard to even believe what has happened in the past few weeks, but I’ve been told it could be therapeutic to share my story.  I know how much it’s helped me reading other people’s stories, so here goes. [Read more…]

Mom to Michael Christian Church
June 25th, 2009 
12:28 p.m. – 1:09 p.m.
Lake Whitney, Texas
Michael Christian’s story began long before he was ever born. His daddy, Michael Chad, and I married in February 2005 after knowing each other for about 6 years. After almost 4 years of marriage we found out we were going to have a baby. We actually conceived on my birthday, November 8, 2008. Michael was the best birthday present I’ve ever received. Chad and I were both so excited! When we found out we were having a baby, we both knew we wanted to have everything as natural as possible and that included doing a water birth. I did my research and found an AMAZING birthing center in Cleburne, TX called Edenway Birthing Center. Our midwives, Venessa Giron and Melody Morrow, were more than we could have ever asked for. They gave Michael and I the best care possible. (Thank you, ladies. I will love you forever for what you have done for my family!) Chad LOVED me being pregnant. I would catch him staring at me all the time. He was always telling people how beautiful his wife was carrying his child even if I felt like a cow! I gained a total of 45 pounds while pregnant. (we found out later that most of it was excess fluids)

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Mom to Logan Wayne 
Born September 17th, 2002
Fort Worth, Texas
When our first child, Landry, was only 11 months old, we found out that we were unexpectedly pregnant again. Not having made that plan myself (control issues) I was very upset by this news. And since I was on birth control, we thought to ourselves, “Well, God has another plan for us–clearly.” Once we found out that it was another boy, and my boys would be only 18 months apart I was ecstatic. However, the entire pregnancy I had this feeling that something wasn’t right. It seemed that nobody listened to me and my doctor patted me on the head assuring me that it was just “mommy jitters.”
It was August 28, 2002 and I was a little over 34 weeks pregnant with Logan, our second son. I had gone to what was supposed to be a routine doctor’s visit when my doctor told me I wasn’t measuring correctly which could indicate that “there may be something wrong…” Later that day we had a level two sonogram with a perinatologist who confirmed our fears and said to us, “I do see something wrong.” My heart stopped beating…David almost passed out and had to sit down on the floor. He proceeded to explain to us that Logan had “skeletal dysplasia” which didn’t sound so bad to me. I kept hearing the word “skeleton” and thought to myself, “Well, that can’t be all that bad…” He told us that our son would be a dwarf. Now, my husband is 6’ 5” and I’m 5’ 8” and I thought, “How can we have a dwarf?” Having been a teacher and having a Masters degree in special education, I had thought about every possible thing that can go wrong with a pregnancy, but let me tell you, dwarfism never once entered my mind. The perinatologist suggested that we go and see his partner the next day for another sonogram and that is the day that we found out that Logan would not only be a dwarf, but would likely not live long past delivery.

What a blow…I thought that after you got past the 12 week marker, all was good. We found out that Logan had a lethal form of dwarfism. They told us, after further testing, that there was a 1% chance they were wrong, so we held on to that 1% chance with everything we had. We prayed and prayed that the doctors would somehow be wrong and that this would be one of those “miracle stories.” We went ahead and went full term with the pregnancy (holding onto that 1% chance).

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