312 HillamnJennifer

Mother to Sydney Jon

July 9, 2013

Murrysville, Pennsylvania

On July 9, 2013, our lives were changed forever. I was 37-weeks pregnant with our second child (I had a miscarriage in March 2011) when I was at the doctor for a “routine” check-up. As the doctor was attempting to listen to the baby’s heartbeat, he looked up at me and said, “I’m sorry. There’s no heartbeat.” They say losing a child is the most devastating thing a person can go through and I must say we agree.

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Mom to Chloë Rutten

July 25, 2011 – July 28, 2011

Uden, Netherlands

My husband and I were so excited when we found out that we were pregnant. My pregnancy was going great, I couldn’t feel more like a woman/mother during this period. All ultrasounds and checks were ok and we were just waiting for our baby to be born. To see what the baby’s gender would be and how it would look like.

But on Monday the 25th of July 2011, when I was 37 weeks pregnant, it goes terribly wrong. That evening, I was brought to the hospital by ambulance because of serious belly ache. I passed out several times. By the time I arrived in the hospital I was in shock. I was rushed to surgery to get the baby out. In surgery they found out that I had an internal bleeding. I lost about 3.5 liters of blood.

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Alicia Starr

Mom to Cylas Emery

Born still July 2, 2012

Daytona Beach, Florida

In my first pregnancy, I was sick from day one until I gave birth to our beautiful daughter, Genevieve, and I thanked God for how great my second pregnancy was because I could’ve sworn that my second pregnancy, with my son, was the ideal pregnancy. I wasn’t that sick or anything like I was with our first child. So it wasn’t until I reached 32 weeks and really started to feel funny, really tired and my belly didn’t seem to be growing quite like it should’ve and with that I started to ask my doctor questions in which they always ensured me that Cylas was fine and everything seemed to be on track. [Read more…]



Mom to Logan James
Born December 7, 2008 and died December 9, 2008


An angel lost September 29, 2011

Pittsfield, Massachusetts

I’d like to share my story because I feel that it is a very unique situation. I’ve kept the loss very private and close to my heart and have only been sharing my feelings with family and close friends. But recently, I’ve felt the need to go online and read about other mom’s stories and struggles through their journeys of loss.

It’s comforting to know that I am not alone and there are others out there who know EXACTLY how I feel. I think the people in our everyday lives can be supportive, but only to a certain point. The loss of our children, whether still in our womb or newly born needs a special kind of support that only us moms can provide. And the everyday struggles we endure as we watch other mothers who have not had to endure our pain. [Read more…]



Mom to Tayla Lee

Born sleeping March 6, 2012


My Name is Hayley and I am 30 years old. My husband of 3 years is Glenn. We have a little boy who is two named Cooper, who we love and adore more than anything. We have always said that we would like 2 or 3 children and not to far apart in age. So, not long after Cooper turned 1, we decided to start trying again for a second child. It took me by surprise to not fall pregnant straight away as we had only tried with Cooper for a month and then discovered that we were pregnant. We had been trying for couple of months before we discovered that we were pregnant which we were very excited about. I made an appointment with our GP to confirm it and get a letter to get an appointment at the hospital with the midwives. [Read more…]



Mom to Anna

Born still April 25, 2011

Early loss December 2011

Troy, Michigan


In honor of my daughter, Anna, who would have been 1 year old this April 25th, I have decided to share her story in hopes of creating awareness and helping even just one person experiencing the death of a baby.  [Read more…]



Mom to Avery Minnie

Born and died on February 27, 2012 

Blaine, Minnesota

All my life I knew I wanted a family.  I didn’t have a dream of career and money; I had a dream of children and softball games, playing at the park, reading a story before bed.  [Read more…]



Mom to  Zoey Skye

Stillborn January 9, 2012

Sulphur, Louisiana

My husband and I got married May 15, 2010. We started trying to get pregnant the end of January of 2011, and didn’t get pregnant until May of 2011. During that time of trying I would get upset every time I got another negative test. So the morning of June 6 when I finally got a positive test, I was so excited I started crying and shaking and didn’t know what to do with myself. I went and woke my husband up and told him the news and showed him the test. He was just as excited as I was. I made our first doc apt and it was for the beginning of July. At the apt we found out we were due January 29, 2012 and they gave me a paper to go do blood work. Well we ended up finding out that I had Thrombocytopenia which is low blood platelets. Blood platelets are what cause your blood to clot, so an extremely low count can cause spontaneous bleeding out. A normal count is 150,000 or higher. Mine were at 88,000. So my doctor put me on a 6 day pack of steroids (prednisone) to see if they would up my platelets and if they did, then I would get on them again at the end of the pregnancy right before delivery because you can’t get an epidural if your platelets are too low. I had told my doctor that I planned on trying to not get an epidural but she insisted that I would want one. [Read more…]



Mama to Kamryn Avery, bornstill March 11, 2006
Oliver Cullen, bornstill January 17, 2012

Raleigh, North Carolina

My husband and I have 5 beautiful children, Lauren is 13, Hailey is 11, Kaleb is 8, Bodie is 3, & Lilah is 1.  After Kaleb, in 2005, we decided to try and conceive again and were so excited to find out very soon after starting that we were pregnant again.



Mom to Jordan Reed

November 16, 2011 to November 18, 2011

Cranberry Township, PA

Nine months ago, I found out I was pregnant with my second child. This came only a couple of weeks after my only sister delivered her stillborn son, Kohl.  I was devastated at her loss and was nervous for my own pregnancy.   I had a normal pregnancy and was in my third trimester.  I was getting so excited to welcome another son into our family.  The holidays were approaching. The Christmas gifts were wrapped and the stockings were hung.  The only thing missing was the baby.

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mother of Bailey Marie

Lost and born on May 3rd, 2005

Toms River, NJ

Stillbirth at 37 weeks


So really, I’ll start with May 1st. I was 18 years old and just about 37 weeks pregnant (36 weeks and 5 days I believe). I wasn’t with the father of my daughter, he was very unstable. I had the full support of my amazing family though, and that’s all I needed. This was a big day because it was the day of my baby shower, which my sister and I had together. She was due a week after me. We are 15 years apart and never dreamed of having babies together. In fact, I never wanted to have babies.  That was not how my life is supposed to go, though. [Read more…]



Mom to Lauren

Lost at 37 weeks Gestation on October 3rd, 2011

Stillborn on October 5th, 2011

Nashville, Tennessee

This is the story of how my husband Ken and I lost our first child, our baby girl. Lauren died before she ever had the chance to be born, and we went from being expectant parents to being bereaved parents without ever having had the chance to meet our daughter face to face. I share our story in the hope that others who have suffered a perinatal death may find comfort in the knowledge that they are not alone in their grief. I also hope to pass on the greatest lesson that Lauren taught us: take nothing for granted, for the future you imagine is never guaranteed. [Read more…]



Mom to Baby Roberts

Ectopic Pregnancy February 22nd, 2010

and Ethan James

Stillborn August 30th, 2011

Cottage Grove, Oregon

My husband, Jon, and I were married in October 2007. Eight months into our marriage, we decided to start trying for a family. I got off bc pills and hoped and prayed that my cycles would start soon and we would get a positive pregnancy test. But nothing happened. In February of 2009 I went to see my doctor for testing and found out I had a mild case of PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). I went through three months of Clomid but never saw that positive pregnancy test. The stress of fertility treatments was taking its toll so we decided to not pursue any further testing or treatments. We were taking a break from trying to get pregnant. [Read more…]



Mom to Brinley Nicole

Stillborn at 37 weeks on August 18th, 2010

Myrtle Beach, South Carolina


From the beginning, I was scared of the little life inside of me. I didn’t know what I would do with a baby. I didn’t feel ready yet to be a mother. Of course, I loved little kids, but babies? Babies were a different kind of commitment. They completely rely on you for their comfort of living. It took me 8 months to be ready to have this new baby in my life. I was feeling ready to take care of her for the rest of my life. I looked forward to holding her, dressing her, feeding her, and playing with her. She was going to be a new chapter in my life that I was excited to start writing. [Read more…]


Nicole De Leon

Mom to Isabella “Bella” Pearl

March 5, 2011 at 37 weeks and 5 day

Schertz, Texas


We found out we were pregnant in July 2010.  This was definitely God’s plan.  We already had three children at home, a daughter and two sons.  We prayed for a little girl.  [Read more…]



Mom to Jason

May 5, 2008

Metro Atlanta, GA


My name is Jennifer, and boy am I terrible at pregnancy. [Read more…]



Mom to Allison Paige

Delivered stillborn on April 22, 2011


It all started out so effortless.  We got pregnant during the second month that we tried and my pregnancy was pretty easy.  I did not get sick and I did not have a lot of nausea.  I was more tired than I had been in my entire life, but aside from that, I was ok.  And super excited.  Right away, Gary suspected that we had a little girl on the way, but it took longer to convince me.  Ok, so it took an ultrasound to convince me!  But as much as I wanted a little superhero for my husband to play with (he loves comic books), once they said the words, “it’s a girl”, our lives changed.  Gary beamed from ear to ear and I think I almost immediately wondered if there was a minimum age for manis and pedis… [Read more…]


Mom to Caris AnnaBelle Tate
January 30th, 2011 – February 5th, 2011
Newport News, Virginia
I had the best pregnancy of anyone I have ever met. I never had any morning sickness, I didn’t gain a lot of weight, I always took my vitamins, I saw my doctor a couple times a month… the only issue my husband and I thought we may be facing is possible Down Syndrome, which was mentioned at our 20-week ultrasound. While that came as a huge blow to us (I cried every night for Caris, praying that if she did have Down Syndrome, that the Lord would bless her with the ability to still enjoy life to the fullest).

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Mom to Stella Grace
Stillborn at 37w 4d gestation on October 28th, 2010
Rochester, Wisconsin
Thursday Oct 28th, 2010.

I was 37weeks 4 days pregnant with our 3rd and what we were calling, our last, addition to the family. Everything was in place, planned, prepped and ready for her arrival. I had been preparing for my first natural homebirth for the last 9 months and was extremely excited for labor to begin. The entire pg was excellent, healthy and the most active baby I have ever carried. I thought for sure she was going to be a huge child and very active (that or there were 2 in there).

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Mom to Bethany Hope von Oven
May 3rd, 2009
Kathleen, Georgia
May 3, 2009 is a day I will never forget.  Although many of the memories are vague in my mind, I will never forget the reality of that day! May 2, was a beautiful Saturday filled with joy and laughter. I woke up anxious and exited to start the day. I was having a baby shower at our church and, although I was nervous due to the fact that I am not very fond of social gatherings with me as the center of attention, I was still elated.

The baby shower was beautiful and yet exhausting. By the time I returned home I had been gone a total of five hours. I was tired, swollen, hungry, and all of the other so called clichés very pregnant women seem to experience late in pregnancy! 

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