Mom to William and Nathaniel Feb 1 1995

Emma and Elizabeth June 30th 1997
Baby “P” June 1999
Edan William August 16 2000
Esik Nathaniel March 15 2002
Ellanor November 22 2003
British Columbia, CA

I was 15 when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I didn’t believe it when my doctor told me, I even  told her it was impossible.  I had suffered ovarian cysts for some time and I honestly didn’t think I would ever be able to conceive.  I was also bleeding while my Dr told me from what I believed to be my period. My Dr ordered another urine sample pregnancy test and it came back positive again.  My boyfriend was 21, we were scared. My Dr gave me the advice to have an abortion and I refused. I went home and took it easy waiting for the bleeding to stop. The bleeding would calm when I was laying  down but once I sat up I would bleed again. At 10 weeks I had a huge bleeding spell and went to the ER. I had a very hard time getting the staff to stop suggesting a D&C. I had an ultrasound that showed I had a very tilted uterus and surprise I had TWINS. Shock set it very quickly. I had always dreamed of having twins but how on earth could I have two babies at my age?

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Mom to Baby lost at 8 Weeks – May 1999

Second Early loss at 8 Weeks – September 2001

Ryan James

June 25th, 20004

and Joshua Richard

June 25th, 2004 – June 26th, 2004

Marion, Ohio

We were married on September 21, 1996 and dreamed of having a large family. Little did we know our dreams would be hard won. We began trying to conceieve immediately after we married and we were blessed with a trouble free pregnancy and full term daughter. We had no idea that we would have trouble down the road. [Read more…]



Mom to Unnamed Baby – November 1999

and twins Ava Sophie

April 13th 2010 – April 17th, 2010

and Zoey Marilyn

April 13th, 2010 – April 15th, 2010

Calgary, Alberta, Canda

I guess my story begins in 1999 when I was only 21. I had an unexpected pregnancy, which resulted in an early miscarriage at only 7 weeks.  I was shocked by how much I mourned that baby.  For weeks I would cry in the bathroom or in bed at night.  I think it was around 6 months before I really moved on. [Read more…]


Mom to Dillan Jesse P. Leombruno
September 17th, 1999
12:20 a.m. – 1:52 p.m.
Clifton Park, New York
Dillan’s Life…..

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Mom to Taegan Kennedy
April 28th, 1999 – October 14th, 1999
Reston, Virginia
The day started out like any other “office” day. (I worked 2 days from home, and 3 days from the office.) It was the third day of Taegan’s cold. She had slept through the night, and her cold seemed much better that morning. She had a 4 oz. bottle, then played with me on the bed for a while. She played and watched TV while I took my shower. Then I put her in our doorway jumper while I got ready for work. She was bouncing happily, and laughing at me brush my teeth (she got a real kick out of that).

I dropped her off at the child care home that morning, kissed her, and said “I love you, and I’ll see you soon.” Later that day, I stepped across the street to get something to bring back to eat, and once back in the office, I saw my voice mail light on. It was a hysterical message from Tanya, our child minder. She said Taegan stopped breathing, and to get to the hospital right away. I was thinking, “What does that mean? And why is she saying Taegan? Taegan is fine.” I called my husband right away and told him to go to the wrong hospital, I’m not sure if I misunderstood, or just couldn’t think straight. Once in my car, I called Tanya again, and she told me the correct hospital. She said Taegan was still not breathing when she left for the hospital.

Once at the hospital, I had to park far away, and I ran as fast as I could.. almost hyperventilated, I couldn’t breath. I told the nurse my husband went to the wrong hospital, and she said he already called, the other hospital found Taegan’s location, and he was on his way. She took me in to see Taegan. She looked so little on the table, with only her diaper on. She had a tube in her throat, and they were doing CPR. The told me it looked like SIDS. I knew nothing about SIDS. I held her hand, and was crying to her, “Mommy’s here, please don’t leave me!” then “This isn’t happening, this just a bad dream!” I called my sister in NC, and we cried together. (We have no family the live close by.) My husband got there about 5 min. before they stopped CPR. We were allowed to hold her for a while after she died. We were in total shock. She still looked so beautiful. The only difference was the blue spots on her lips.

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Mom to Anna Kiara
Stillborn on August 28th, 1999
South East PA
I am sharing my story this month which is Anna’s 11th angel birthday. Even after 11 years I think of her daily, miss her like crazy & love her more than words. 
It all started when I was 18. My newfound love (Now My Husband) and I found out we were pregnant around Christmas of 1998. We were scared and excited to be parents even though we had just barely had started our life together. I had “normal” prenatal care and a very uneventful pregnancy. Because I was 18 and this was my first pregnancy I was labeled “Normal.”

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Mom to Rachel and Rebecca, 18-22 weeks, TTTS, September 1st, 1999
Brock Edward, 21 weeks, May 22nd, 2006
Erik Justin, 18 weeks, October 25, 2006
Baby Joe, 15 weeks, February 11, 2008
Noah Micheal, 15 weeks, June 25, 2010
Glendale, AZ

Rachel and Rebecca

While on birth control, a year after we married, I discovered I was pregnant. We were both very shocked, but also very excited. Things were great with us, and we were ready to expand our family. Sadly, the joy was short lived, when at just 5 weeks, I started bleeding heavily, and my HCG numbers were dropping.

I was devastated. Then a miracle happened. My numbers started to go back up, and very fast. I was told I was likely pregnant with twins, and one died, and the other should be just fine. I was filled with mixed emotions. Grieving for my baby that died, yet having hope for my baby still alive. At about 7 weeks, it was confirmed. I still had a live baby in my womb. We started making plans to buy a house, and move into a safer place.

When I was about 16 weeks, my doctor called to tell me the results of my AFP test showed the baby had a very high chance of having spina bifida. She set up an ultrasound for the next day with a high risk clinic. I was very nervous as I didn’t know what to expect, but I knew we could handle any special needs baby. We were very shocked to find out that we were having twins! Identical girls. The doctor and ultrasound tech kept whispering about placenta and membranes, but I didn’t understand any of it. They told me I should hear from my doctor the next day or so. I never did. The only thing they told me is they couldn’t tell how far along I was, because the babies were measuring very different sizes. And they mentioned fluid issues, but I was still processing twins.

A couple weeks had passed and I never heard from my doc. I kept on working in the vet office and just tried to lighten my work a little. Then on Aug 31, 1999, I went to work feeling off. I didn’t know what it was so I just kept on working. I started having bad cramps, and I called my doc and she said it was normal with twins. So I ignored it and went to lunch. While walking through the grocery store, buying my lunch, my water broke. I started crying immediately. I drove across the street to my work where I was driven to the hospital by a co-worker. Someone else called my husband.

When I got there, we discovered that one of the babies cords had slipped through my cervix and was pinched. That baby had died. I was so scared. I wanted to save the other baby, but they kept telling me that there was no chance of the baby surviving, and they wouldn’t even try. Because these babies were monoamniotic and monochorionic, there was no chance of me delivering one baby and then trying to stop labor. I was devastated. I didn’t want to be induced. But labor was not happening. I felt scared, and like no one was talking to me, telling me what to expect. After several hours, I started to run a fever and they were worried I would have an infection in my uterus. They convinced me to let them begin induction. Several painful hours later, my girls entered this world. Both silently. Rachel was born at 1252am and Rebecca was born at 1254 am. Both beautiful. Rachel was much smaller that Rebecca. It was obvious there was a problem in the placenta they shared. It wasn’t until 8 months later I heard the term twin to twin transfusion syndrome. It was confirmed that TTTS took the lives of my girls, and a big part of my heart.

Brock Edward

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