Mom to Isaac – February 26th, 2008

and Hannah – September 16th, 2008

Burbank, Illinois

The Story of Isaac & Hannah Joy

Ya know that feeling? The one you get when you know things aren’t gonna turn out like you planned. The knot in your stomach, the lump in your throat, sweaty palms…that feeling? I remember the day I got that feeling. It was February 21st ’08, a Thursday. I was 18 weeks 5 days pregnant & Dan was gettin ready to leave, I was tense & I don’t remember why. But I remember how you could here a pin drop when I told him not to go because I was spotting. His face took on a mixture of shock & fear… [Read more…]


Mom to Hope 
March 19th, 2008
Vorhees, New Jersey
I am telling my story cause it gives me peace.   

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Mother to Liam Ellis
Born and Died February 16th, 2011 at 7:35PM
Arlington, Virginia
Our story begins in October of 2010 when my fiance Jordan and I found out we were pregnant. We were excited, but also scared. This was our first pregnancy and we had no idea the amount of love we would experience for our baby. I had nausea a lot early in pregnancy and as we reached 15 weeks, my nausea subsided and I started to enjoy all aspects of my pregnancy. I felt so happy and full of life (literally). At around 16-17 weeks I started having some pain in my lower abdomen area but when I told my doctor and researched online, I was told it was round ligament pain and dismissed. It subsided slowly until it was gone.

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Mom to Gabriel Benjamin
Stillborn at 18 weeks on August 12th, 2010
Orem, Utah
My husband, Ben, and I have always wanted a lot of kids and have been so thankful for the chance to be parents, especially after struggling with infertility before we had any. We knew for sure that we always wanted to have at least four, but were always open to more. After being blessed with our first four, two boys and two girls, we really felt like we were meant to have another. We prayed about it and knew it was right and on May 3, 2010 when our pregnancy test was positive after trying to conceive for only a month, we were so excited. We felt so blessed for the chance to be parents again to another precious child.

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Mom to Mackenzy Lee Aiken
Lost October 29th, 2010 at 18 weeks
Pulaski, Virginia
My name is Kristy and I am 29 years old.  I have two daughters Kalee and Mackenzy.
I wanted kids really close in age and I really wanted two kids by 30.  You know how the timelines go.  It took us 6 months to get pregnant with our first daughter so I knew I would want to try earlier with the second.  On August 7, 2010 I found out I was pregnant with my second child.  August 7, 2008 was the day our first daughter was conceived so that date was kind of cool.  We were shocked that this only took ONE try and we were pregnant.  We were so excited.

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Mom to Olivia Marie
Born on May 6th, 2010 at 18 weeks, 2 days gestation
Toronto, Ontario, Canada

I am 29 years old and live in Toronto, Ontario, Canada. I am married to a wonderful man named Gary. We will be married for two years on July 12th. :)

We decided that it was time to try for a baby. After just one attempt, we got pregnant!!! I don’t think words can describe how happy we both were to be welcoming our first child. The pregnancy was great…at first. I had it very easy. No morning sickness, no nausea. It was great!

One day at 8 weeks, I began spotting. I rushed to the doctor and my husband met me there. When we got there my doctor told me that if I was miscarrying, there was nothing that could be done. I was so scared. I wanted this baby so badly and prayed that I wouldn’t lose it. My doctor sent me to get an ultrasound, where I saw the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. My baby’s heartbeat. Sweet relief came over me. Afterwards, the tech gave my doctor the results and she told me that everything was fine and that it is common for some women to spot during their pregnancy.
The next two weeks were uneventful and glorious! I walked around knowing that I was nourishing a life in my womb. This was so powerful to me!

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Mom to Ryan Alexander
Confirmed miscarriage at 18 weeks
April 3rd, 2006
Lewisberry, PA
My name is Hope.  My husband, Ben, and I were married in September of 2002.  Neither of us were ready for children right away so we waited a few years to give it a try.  We got pregnant in October of 2004 and the pregnancy was great!  We welcomed our first son, Drew, into the world on July 1, 2005 (40 weeks gestation) via Cesarean Section.

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Mommy to Angelica
Stillborn at 18 weeks on April 30th, 2010
I never expected to get pregnant without some kind of intervention due to some medical problems with my husband and I. I became pregnant by surprise in December of 2009. I tested positive on a home pregnancy test on January 10, 2010. My mind was in shock. I waited another week to test again just in case it was a false positive. I tested again on January 17, 2010. Positive again. 

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Mom to Gabriell, born into Heaven April 17, 2009 at 14 weeks

and Méliange, born with Angel wings May 21, 2010 at 18 weeks
Quebec, Canada

I am married to a wonderful man – my high school sweetheart. We started dating September 12th, 1991 and were married seven years later, September 12th, 1998. He has been my rock and I don’t know where I would be without him…

We started ttc early spring of 1999. But quickly realized that it was going to be a lot harder than we had thought…I was diagnosed with PCOS and went through years of fertility treatments and IUI’s.

 We were first blessed in December 2001 with a beautiful son and again in December 2004, our 2nd boy. After our 2nd was born, we decided that we didn’t want to do anymore fertility treatments…it had been an emotionally hard road…but we still wanted more children. Our 3rd was our miracle boy, conceived naturally after 12 months of ttc….

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Mommy to James (J.T.)
Born and passed May 31st, 2010 at 18 weeks
Vandenberg, AFB, California

Everything started May 30, 2010 with what I thought was just round ligament pains. I had been at the mall with my husband walking that day and thought the pains were just from walking so much. As the night went on and we were at a friends for a BBQ I noticed as I stood the pains worsened but I really paid no attention to them. They kept on through the night and were still there in the morning.
As May 31 started I was not too worried. But after realizing that I had lost my mucus plug I decided it was time to call my OB’s office to see what was going on. Fortunately, my OB was the one on call that day and I told him about the pains and the tiny spot of blood in the plug but he said not to worry. My husband came home and I told him what had happened so we just hung around the house. A few hours later I was in the bathroom and knew something was just not right. I didn’t know it at the time, but my membranes stripped and I was dilating. We rushed to the ER around 3 or 4 pm that day, I can’t really remember. I got there, got checked in, was taken to a room in the ER and waiting. I was so angry for waiting. I was 18 weeks pregnant, I needed to be seen I wanted to know my baby was ok. And to top it off, once I got to the hospital I started to bleed. The doctor comes in to do a pelvic exam, he isn’t 3 seconds into it and says okay we need to get you an ultrasound. He then goes on to tell me that it looks like I am aborting my child. I couldn’t grasp this since I was already in my second trimester. I didn’t realize that this thing happened.
I go for my ultrasound and I see the most beautiful baby wiggling all about. This was the most I had ever seen him move, and we found out at that moment it was a HIM. I was a week and a half away from having my anatomy scan. But I find out at the hospital the day I lose my boy. The whole time I am having the ultrasound I can’t help but have some hope that things will be ok, I see him moving and waving and his daddy and myself and I love him. But the other side of my brain is realizing the pains I’m having are coming more frequently, so my husband starts to time them. They are about 6 minutes apart. The ultrasound is over and I am back into a room when a few minutes later they take me over to the labor and delivery part of the hospital. Things were bad…so bad. My OB comes into my room where I am laying upside down in a bed and sits me up with such a grim look. He uses his portable ultrasound machine and it says that I am 3cm dilated. He does an exam…I’m actually fully dilated. It felt like it happened so fast. But in all actuality, the contractions had started the night before. I had been in labor basically for a day and didn’t even know it.

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