Mom to Gage Gene

August 25, 2015

Abbeville, Louisiana

The day I found out I was gonna be a mom was the best day of my life. I was excited to share this wonderful news with my friends and family. My first few months of pregnancy were a little rough; morning sickness every day. After I hit my third trimester, things got a little easier for me. The rest of my pregnancy was awesome other then being pregnant in the summertime. I couldn’t of asked for a better pregnancy.

I went to my last office visit; I remember it like it was yesterday. It was Monday, August 24th at 10:30 a.m. They pulled me back to my room to put a stress test on my stomach to see how my son was doing. They didn’t hear a heartbeat. The doctor walked into the room and asked for us to go into the ultrasound room to do an ultrasound. I was so nervous. I knew something wasn’t right. The doctor started rubbing my belly. She looked so white and shocked. I turned to her and said, “Please please tell me what’s going on. You’re making me so nervous.” She put her head down and said, “I’m sorry Amber. Gage doesn’t have a heartbeat.” [In] that moment, my world stopped. They rushed me to the hospital where I gave birth to a beautiful 6 pound 3 ounce baby boy, Gage Gene on August 25th at 4:18 a.m.

Now coming to relate that my son was gone. How was I supposed to move forward? I never knew how bad I wanted something in my life until it was gone. [When] me and my husband and family and friends gathered together to tell Gage bye it was the hardest thing ever. I didn’t want to say goodbye. I wanted to start my life with my son and husband. I wanted my family and now I had to realize that wasn’t going to happen. Now instead of playing with my son and sharing every moment with him, I have to visit him at his grave where is laid to rest. My husband and I read books to him and grieve for him every second of our lives. I love my son more than anything; he’s my world. Just because I’m not raising him doesn’t mean he isn’t holding my hand, helping me get through each and every day.

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  1. Betty Grand says:

    You and Kerry are very special! I am sure this was difficult to write. It’s beautiful though, just like you. God will Bless you in ways that you cannot understand today. I love you!!

  2. Lauren Vaughn says:

    You are such a strong and amazing person/mommy/friend!!

  3. Hanna Dartrz says:

    Beautiful words! Gage will never be forgotten he is a strong little boy watching us everyday. Amber & Kerry yall are such amazing parents and Gage knows that everyday. I love y’all and Baby Gage!

  4. Heather Poiencot says:

    Gage is very lucky to have such caring and loving parents like Amber and Kerry. He will always be loved and remembered. We think about him each and every single day. Love you guys…

  5. I too lost my baby in August. Scarlett was born August 18th, 2015. The heartache I feel is awful-I feel like I am drowning at times. I’m so sorry you have gone through this horrific tragedy. I’m praying you find some peace this holiday season. Please reach out anytime if you would like to chat.

  6. Amber Trahan says:

    Hey Ashleigh I so understand what you going thur never easy. I never thought I wanted something so bad until it’s gone. I miss my son dearly but I know he is with me and helps me get thur my days. I know it’s hard but you have to keep your fault and know that everything happens for a reason. God would never give us something we can’t handle. I’m here for if you ever need to talk.

  7. Amber Trahan says:

    Faith not fault. Sorry

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