Mom to Meredith

June 30, 2014

Saraland, Alabama

After almost 6 years of waiting, of doctor visits, research, tests, treatments, diet changes, and going off treatments, Jason & I finally saw that second line on a pregnancy test. i guess it was just intuition because I really had no reason to think I needed to take a test that day. We amazingly got into my doctor the same day. I was 5 weeks.

Things were great until about 9 weeks. I started bleeding and went to the ER. There was a bleed near the wall of my uterus. However, by the end of the night they determined the baby and I were fine and could go home. I stayed on pelvic rest for 2 weeks and then went back to normal day to day life.We were overjoyed, as were our family, friends, co-workers, and church family. We have had so many people invested in this journey. I continued to have a “textbook” pregnancy with morning sickness, back pain, loss of energy, and so on.Then at 19 weeks and 3 days, on the morning of June 29, things were different. I felt fluid and immediately called my doctor. The nurse on call was calming and said said she wanted me to come in as a precaution.

I really felt that this trip to the ER would go as the last one. I was expecting to be told to go on bed rest. What I was not expecting was the ER ultrasound tech to wheel me into labor & delivery. I was not expecting to lay with my head tilted to the ground for hours to take pressure off my cervix, which was already dilated 4cm. I was not expecting for my water to break in the early hours of June 30. I was not expecting to deliver and lose our precious baby girl, Meredith Danielle, at 2:33 am. We held her through the night and next day until we came to a place where we knew it was time to hand her over to the nurse, so Meredith could be prepared for burial.

The next few days were a blur as we planned her memorial service and people brought over dinner and cleaned our house. I have to say we are truly blessed with the support system we are surrounded with.

Our experience is still new and raw. There are still new facets of this journey that hit me each day and ones I’m sure are yet to come. But we know we are not alone, even on the days that it feels like we are. My prayer is that our story will encourage someone else and bring hope to those who feel like they have none.


Heather writes more about Meredith and her story at http://journey4faith.blogspot.com


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  1. ((Hugs)) I am so sorry for your loss.

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