Nicole De Leon

Mom to Isabella “Bella” Pearl

March 5, 2011 at 37 weeks and 5 day

Schertz, Texas


We found out we were pregnant in July 2010.  This was definitely God’s plan.  We already had three children at home, a daughter and two sons.  We prayed for a little girl. 

Our prayers came true on November 5, 2010 when we found out it was indeed a girl.  Isabella Pearl was our fourth child.  We went to the doctor’s office that day with such great anticipation.  As our doctor did the ultrasound we watched the screen intently.  She did not come out and tell us, instead we watched her type on the monitor, “It’s a girl!”  We immediately began to laugh and shed a few tears. We pictured ribbons, and bows and everything pink.  We loved her and wanted her from the minute we found out we were expecting.

Now that I look back, outside the gestational diabetes I had with her and all my other children, the pregnancy was quite easy. On March 4th 2011, I went in for a routine examination.  I was 37 weeks and 5 days pregnant.  One week before we were scheduled to deliver our baby girl Isabella, we discovered that her heart suddenly stopped. Two days earlier, she was alive and healthy with a strong heartbeat.  Everything was perfect.

Without explanation or reason, my husband and I delivered a stillborn angel on March 5th 2011.  Our future, hopes and dreams came to a crashing halt.  The doctors had no answers.  They could only speculate that she compressed her cord and cut off her oxygen supply.  This was by far the darkest time in our lives.

God gives us His mercy and grace to get through each day. Some days are better than others.  We know that God has a greater plan for us and that all things work together for good.  Bella has already touched so many people’s lives all over the country, even in other parts of the world.  My husband and I desire to reach out to others and help those that have experienced such a great loss.  Although our sweet girl never got to open her eyes, she will have an impact in this world.  One day I will get to hold my sweet girl, but for now she rests in Jesus’ arms.

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  1. So very sorry for your loss of Bella. The Don’t List written by your husband on your blog is wonderful! Isabella is one of the girl names we had picked, too. Again, I am so very sorry for your loss.

  2. I am so sorry. Our stories are very similar. We found out we were pregnant late Aug 2010, and delivered our son stillborn at 36 weeks on April 12, 2011. No reason was every found for us either. I will keep you in my prayers. I submitted my story here yesterday, so hopefully gets posted soon.

  3. Bethany T. says:

    My heart breaks for you and I so understand how you feel– lots of people say that — but I TRULY do– my son was 23 weeks when I went in and there was no heartbeat– I will never forget the doctor saying there must have been a “cord” accident. However after three days in hospital when he was born– no obvious cord accident– and the doctors have no answers for me to this day– “IT JUST HAPPENS” he told me… I feel so empty then some days I manage to muddle through– if u want to talk — please contact me.. I am so sorry for both of our losses– broken hearted in Va….

  4. Thank you for the comments. I am also sorry for the losses you all have experienced. No one should have to feel this kind of pain and heartache. Our angels are in a better place!

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