Mom to Michael Joseph

Born Still at 28 weeks 3 days on February 20th, 2010

Groveport, Ohio

In February 20, 2010, at 28 weeks and 3 days of pregnancy, our baby boy, Michael Joseph was delivered still.  I had gone to my midwife that morning after not feeling any movement for a couple days.  I had felt a funny twinge a couple days before that, but didn’t think much of it because I had that same feeling a few weeks prior.  My midwife could not locate a heartbeat, and my blood pressure was quite high, so she suggested we go to the nearest hospital emergency room.

I was telling myself that maybe the midwife’s equipment was not sensitive enough to detect a heartbeat, and that the hospital would probably detect it.  Once I arrived and an ultrasound was done, however, it was confirmed there was no heartbeat and our dear baby had passed away.  My husband and I were left alone in that room for a few minutes, crying and asking “why” in a state of utter shock and disbelief.  Shortly afterward I was prepped for a c-section, as this was the way I had delivered with our two other children (they had both been breech).  After what seemed an eternity, our baby boy was finally delivered and handed to us to hold.  His little face was was beautiful, despite being quite discolored.

The doctor said she could not determine the cause of death.  However, looking back, it seems I had all the symptoms of pre-eclampsia-very high blood pressure and lots of weight gain.  I had gained 15 pounds only one month between visits.

We held our little boy and he was also held by other family members and friends who had arrived.  We took several pictures and I also held and caressed him as much as I could during my hospital stay.  Michael was laid to rest shortly afterward.  We love and miss him greatly and know we will see him in Heaven someday.  I also had a miscarriage at about 6 weeks of pregnancy in 2005.  We of course did not know the gender of the baby, but we named “him” Matthew.  I also have two living children who were born after 8 1/2 years of infertility.

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