Mom to TanaLee
Born November 13th, 2009, Died June16th, 2010
Portland, Oregon

Just two weeks after getting married I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I always talked about having children, but little did we know getting pregnant would change our lives forever. When I was about 2 months along the ultrasound tech noticed that my daughters umbilical cord wasn’t positioned in the middle of my placenta. Doctors came in to assure me that this wasn’t necessarily a bad thing that would hurt my baby, but it just meant that I would need to eat more than usual because the baby would have a harder time getting nutrition because of the placement of the umbilical cord. I left the hospital clinic that day feeling nervous but I trusted the Doctors knew what they were talking about.

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Mom to Alyssa Marie Sams
April 30th, 2003
Bentonville, Arkansas
On April 30, 2003, I lost my precious baby girl, Alyssa. Ever since I was a little girl, I have wanted babies. 
My time came, and left with a pain almost unbearable. 

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October 15th…Tomorrow!

Hey Everyone!
Can you believe it’s already October 15th tomorrow!? One more day until National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. We are so, so thankful for everyone’s amazing support of our first annual I AM THE FACE campaign so far.

Thank you for all the work you’ve done promoting this cause on your blogs, facebook, twitter, support forums, etc, over the last few weeks. The internet is definitely buzzing with our message!

Through this campaign, we are showing the world that pregnancy/infant loss is very common. And that while it’s incredibly sad, it’s not something anyone needs to be ashamed of. Just like breast cancer survivors, we are all survivors too. It wasn’t long ago that breast cancer was a taboo subject, and look at it today! You can’t escape the pink if you tried! :) We’re confident that if we all continue to unite as one collective voice, baby loss will one day too be a perfectly acceptable thing to talk about in our society. That soon, no one will feel like they are alone in their grief.

So please, we ask that tonight, on the eve of October 15th, you make one of the following badges your profile picture on facebook (and wherever else you go online!), and keep it up all day tomorrow, National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.

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Mom to Baby Wells, January 24th, 2003
and Avery Gayle Wells, July 13th, 2005
Tomball, Texas
In 2002 we decided to have another baby. My youngest of 2 had been such a handful that we waited awhile to have another. Nov 02 I stopped taking my bc pills. We figured we’d give it some time to get them out of my system and then aim for getting pregnant in January. We wanted an October baby!
I ended up getting pregnant right away and the baby was due in August. Around 8 weeks I started spotting and at 10 weeks Jan 24, 2003, I miscarried. I cried for months. Actually I cried till I got pregnant again in June 03 and on March 15, 2004 I gave birth to a perfect little boy.. Max!

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Story of HOPE
Deanna ~ River’s Run and Ride Rally
Mommy to River Daniel
04/30/09 – 05/06/09
River passed away due to SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) at only six days old.  We started a fundraiser in his memory called River’s Run and Ride Rally.  This has helped us give back to our community and Faith’s Lodge as well as The Compassionate Friends Organization.  Both organizations have been so supportive to us through our journey.

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Ashley ~ Mom to twins  
Cade and Nylah born 3/21/10
Nylah died on June 20, 2010

My daughter Nylah passed away of SIDS on Father’s Day June 20, 2010.  In order to work through my grief I go visit her almost every day.   We also have pictures of her all around our home, and talk about her often. 

This has helped me heal because I am able to talk with people about her and not cry the second I mention her name or think of her.  Going to visit her as much as I can has really helped and moving back home where she passed away has helped as well.  Being in the last place that she was and remembering her all the time helps.  We love her so much and continue to show this by being everywhere we can in order to still feel close to her.

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First baby went to heaven January 7th, 2010
Second baby went to heaven May 18th, 2010
On January 5th, 2010, at 10 weeks 2 days pregnant I went to the doctor for my first appointment. First we went over everything that would happen throughout the pregnancy such as when ultrasounds and blood work would be. After going over all of this, and my medical history, they led me to the ultrasound room. Everything was so exciting. I couldn’t wait to finally see my little nugget growing inside of me.  Part of me became concerned when the doctor got quiet, but I tried to dismiss it. When she told me that she couldn’t find a heart beat I was shocked and confused. “What does this mean?” I asked, tears welling in my eyes. She explained that I had had a miscarriage. For the first time I learned what a missed miscarriage was. I didn’t understand how that could happen. I thought that having a miscarriage meant you bled and lost the baby. I had no idea something could go wrong and the baby could die with little or no signs. “Her” heart had stopped beating and she had stopped growing at 9 weeks 1 day.

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Mum to Florence Violet
July 22nd, 2009
Stockport, England

Florence was a wonderful surprise baby. We had four children, and didn’t plan on having any more, though it was no secret I wanted at least one more!  Finding out we were pregnant, was a surprise, I’m still not quite sure how it happened! I felt so lucky to be pregnant again, and enjoyed every moment of my pregnancy…ok maybe not the morning sickness!
Tuesday 21st July 2009, three days after my “official due date”, I woke in the early hours to strong contractions and period type pains. The contractions were only coming about every ten minutes, and I was managing to rest, even doze between them. I knew there was a way to go yet.  Woody had already booked the rest of that week off work as I was struggling with the school runs. I was very glad he had.

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Mom to Baby Eddie Davis, III
Born on Saturday, April 10th, 2010, Due on September 21st, 2010
Huntsville, Alabama
On the night of Saturday, April 3, 2010, I began to have lower abdominal pain.  Now I must inform you that this was my first pregnancy, so I had no idea of what to expect, or what to count as a red flag.  The pain was more annoying I thought than major enough for it to be a red flag.  The next day was Easter Sunday, and like most, I went to church service, and throughout service the pain was bearable, but strange.  The whole day, I kept wondering if this was normal.  I made it through Sunday.  Monday morning came and the pain had worsened so I called my OB/GYN.  I asked if they could please squeeze me in due to the pain I was feeling.  Thankfully they were able to see me.  My doctor checked my cervix and informed me that it was still thick and there was no dilating, he told me not to worry. He said it was probably round ligament pain, and to take an ibuprofen for pain.  I left my docs office, still in pain, but confident that my doctor’s words were true.   

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Mama to Julia Rose
Miscarried at 17 weeks, November 24th, 2008
Logan, Queensland, Australia
Everything was going right. We just celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary (a huge milestone for any couple) and found out we were pregnant after my first month of being off the pill. (I stopped it on our anniversary in June, had my period in July and didn’t have one in August.) 

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Mom to Layah Faith
Born June 2nd, 2008
Born into Heaven June 8th, 2008
Alabaster, Alabama
My husband Matt and I have been married almost 8 years. We have an 8 year old, Tobias Gabriel, who we call Tobi. Tobi was born September 8th, 2002, at 26.4 weeks and weighed 2 lbs and 3 oz. He was born in 59 minutes from the time we arrived at the hospital, pulled the parking ticket out, and they pulled him out emergency c-section. At the time, it was unknown why Tobi was born so early. I had been followed by the high risk Maternal Fetal Medicine doctors at UAB due to a rare (only about 600 cases in the world) metabolic muscle disease I have that is predominantly diagnosed only in males. All I could do for Tobi throughout those long days and nights, (108 days in the NICU to be specific) was to pump breast milk, which I did for 15 months. The doctors and nurses call it “liquid gold” for all babies, but especially preemies. Statistically, the survival rate order is black females, black males, white females, white males, so they call the white males, “wimpy white boys”, but we have a different label, our miracle son of God. Tobi was discharged from UAB Hopsital 3 days before Christmas. It was the best Christmas present ever! Tobi’s had 10 surgeries primarily due to the BPD (Bronchopulmonary displesia) lung disease, and secondary, due to being born so early. He has bilateral sensorineural hearing loss and wears hearing aids, but is not deaf, and has been aided since 13 months. It’s all he knows. The are his “ears”. He is extremely bright, and most who meet him, would have never guessed he was so tiny at birth.

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Mom to Grace Biondi Morlan
Born still, May 19th, 2003
Des Moines, Iowa

After struggling with infertility my husband, Luke and I were so thrilled to learn we were pregnant with our first child. We did all the things expectant parents do: We read the books, signed up for classes, decorated the nursery, kept a journal with entries we wrote to our cherished first child throughout our pregnancy. I read and sang to the baby and Luke, a music lover, played a variety of his favorite artistes to my growing belly. My baby shower was planned and everyone was excited and the count down was on.

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Miscarried February 2005 at 6 weeks 
September 21st, 2009 at 6 weeks 2 days 
and May 22nd, 2010 at 8 weeks 3 days
I’ve wanted a family basically since I was younger, like most women do. It starts with meeting a boy, then falling in love, getting married, and then dreaming of how big your family will be. We married December 2001 and talked about how many children we most likely would have. I said 2-3, he said 3-5… so we decided 3 was a good number. Life has had different plans.
I’ve been diagnosed with many things down the road on this journey. I’ve been diagnosed vitamin d deficient, insulin resistant and having PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). I was first diagnosed with PCOS because I went off birth control when we started our TTC journey and didn’t have a period for over 9 months. I had signs of PCOS (dark skin in the groin area, facial hair, infertility, absent period) and it was later confirmed years down the road via ultrasound.

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Mom to Sparrow Liran
Miscarried July 16th, 2010
Elkhart, Indiana
On Tuesday July 6th of 2010 after waiting almost a week for my period to start I took the pregnancy test that told me I was pregnant, and then I took another, just to be sure.  In hindsight, I should have known, feeling nauseated all the time, constantly having to pee, pulling feelings in my pelvis/abdomen, all of the signs were there. I can honestly say that as badly as I wanted that baby, I was in a state of shock, I fell in to my husband, Michael’s, arms and just cried. 

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Mom to Wyatt Jaxson
Born November  26th, 2009
Grew his wings on December 20th, 2009
Vancouver, B.C. Canada
It all began at my cousins wedding; My sister in law was about 20 weeks pregnant and showing beautifully. My Fiancée Tyler immediately fell in love with her growing belly and seemed to cater to her every need that night. It didn’t come to much shock when he said that next day that he was ready to be a dad. Three weeks later, sure enough I saw those two pink lines. We were ecstatic!! 

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Mom to Emma Kate
March 9th, 2001 – March 17th, 2001
Johnston, Iowa

After a normal pregnancy and the birth of a healthy son two years earlier, I was pregnant with my first daughter when I went to the hospital at 35 ½ weeks with contractions. My greatest concern at the time was that I might deliver early, but delivering anything other than a healthy baby never even entered my mind. Yet my naivety would not last long as just hours after entering triage signs began to indicate that something was wrong. An ultrasound showed fluid in the abdomen, a sign that my baby’s girl’s heart might be in trouble. Within a few hours our worst fears were confirmed by the pediatric cardiologist, who diagnosed multiple congenital heart defects and congestive heart failure in-utero.

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Mom to Shreya Asha Draggon
July 1st, 2010 – July 30th, 2010
Orlando, Florida
My journey with my daughter Shreya begins like most other baby stories, with a pregnancy test, or in my case with five pregnancy tests.  I took the first on February first.  It showed a light blue line, very faint.  I tried not to get excited since it was way too early to be very accurate. So I waited and took one every day for the next three days, light blue.  Cautiously optimistic, I finally took a digital pregnancy test, PREGNANT!  We were so excited, it wasn’t long before our parents and friends were told the good news. I called my ob/gyn to make my first prenatal appointment.

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Mom to 
“Baby Bean,” Born February 24th, 2010, Due September 4th, 2010
and Jakob Bean, Born August 17th, 2010, Due February 24th, 2011
LaVerne, California
My story is two, separate stories. I am a 30 year old woman, and after trying for nearly 2 years to become pregnant, on January 4th, 2010, to my surprise received a late Christmas present. I was finally expecting! Praise the Lord! I was ecstatic! I couldn’t believe it! 

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First Baby, Miscarried @ 5.5 weeks, September 2009
Second Baby, Miscarried @ 7 weeks, January 2010
Paislee Ann born still at 24 weeks, September 2nd, 2010
Louisville, Kentucky
Nick and I had been happily married for nine months, when we decided that children were our next step to becoming a family. So in August of 2009, we started trying to conceive and lucky for us we were immediately pregnant. I had never even thought about miscarriage. My friends had never talked about it and I thought, it can never happen to me. Well I was wrong. I started having brown spotting about a week later after getting our BFP and went to a festival five hours away only to start bleeding heavily. That night I stood in the shower crying and crying over again.

We went to the doctor and she told us to wait one cycle, so that is exactly what we did.  We got a BFP in November of ’09. We were pregnant again, but this time tried not to get to excited. I read the odds of reoccurring miscarriages weren’t too high so I was expecting a healthy August ’10 baby. Not so much. At 10 weeks I started spotting brown again and went in to the doctor where they told me the baby died a 7 weeks and 1 day. I was scheduled for a D & C five days later. I woke up the day before by D & C to horrible cramping and sat on the toilet only to pass so much blood I wasn’t sure what to do. I ended up having an emergency D & C due to the heavy blood loss and drop in blood pressure.

Again we sat at the doctor’s office where we were told, wait a cycle and you can try again. We ended up getting our BFP April 2010. I would go to the office very three days to get blood work to make sure my HCG counts were doubling and they were.

We went in for an US at 7 weeks and there she was beating heat and all. At 8 weeks I woke up from a nap only to be welcomed by bright red blood. I remember crying and calling my husband home to go to the ER. The baby was healthy and had a heartbeat of 181. Every week after that until 12 weeks, our doctors brought us in to do US to make us feel better. Baby girl was moving every time we saw her. She looked perfect!

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Mom to Leo Allen
Stillborn August 7th, 2005
My husband and I had been married 2 years when we found ourselves at a crossroads. We were far along in the process to become Peace Corps Volunteers, when an opportunity for a job came up that fit him perfectly. He applied and interviewed, and we decided that if he didn’t get the job, we’d go forward with the Peace Corps. If he did get the job, we’d stay and start a family. I was never the type to think about babies, but at this point, my maternal longing was kicking in big time. The Peace Corps was a long- time goal of mine, but the urge for a baby was growing. He got the job. We stayed, and I got pregnant right away. I remember taking three pregnancy tests in a row and showing him, my hands shaking. We went out for ice cream to celebrate.

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