Story of HOPE

Amy and Mike Laird
Angel baby miscarried 04/15/02

My angel baby was miscarried between 6-7 weeks on April 15, 2002, for reasons unknown.  I am currently diagnosed with infertility. 

After holding my feelings in for so long, I’ve recently discovered an organization called Angels of Hope .  Angels of Hope is a organization that gifts grants to help pay for funeral/burial costs and also to help infertile couples pay for fertility treatments.  They also just had a fundraising 5K walk/run.


I have chosen to work and serve with Angels of Hope in order to channel my energy and help my grief process.  It helps me to be involved.   I have been sitting on my emotions for a very long time and it’s time that I work my grief out.  I’ve been suffering with anxiety/depression long enough and now I need to channel that grief into something worthwhile!   The guilt I have of not being able to give my husband a child disturbs me everyday.  I do not know how to rid myself of this guilt.  The thought of not having a family ~ my dream since I was a little girl is devastating!  However, I have to find a way to deal this.  


There are only about 100 or so Angels of Hope throughout the US.  We have an Angel of Hope in a nearby community that has bricks engraved with with angel names as a memorial.  My husband and I purchased a brick with our ‘Angel Baby’s’ name on it as a way to honor and show support for this organization.

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Story of HOPE
(Magdalena’s Feet ~ March of Dimes Walk)
Julie ~ Magdalena’s Birthday Balloons
& March of Dimes
Magdalena Grace 08/06/08 – 01/13/09
Magdalena was born with Trisomy 18 and lived 167 amazing days.  The things that come naturally to babies (like eating and breathing) didn’t for Magdalena due to her condition.  Despite the doctor’s diagnosis of ‘incompatible with life’…she had an amazing life with help from research done through March of Dimes. 

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Mary ~ Micah’s Gift
Mommy to Micah Quinn 8/18/10

Micah Quinn was due on April 7, 2011.  We found out that our baby had died on August 18, 2010.   Micah Quinn was lost to an early miscarriage on August 18th, 2010 at only seven weeks gestation.  I have started a blog in Micah’s honor where I take pictures of angels’ names on blades of grass for their families.   I have named this project ‘Micah’s Gift.’

The inspiration for Micah’s Gift was like thunder ~ loud and clear.  I knew exactly what I wanted to do after I took the first picture of Micah’s name on a blade of wild grass.  After I lost Micah, I had a need to find some special way to remember my baby.  Since I lost my baby early, I felt like I had nothing.  I saw that other angel mommies had name galleries for their children and thought that was such a special way to remember their angels.  I wanted to add to their galleries for their angels and start one for my angel too.  

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Kristin ~ Hailey’s Hope & Project Sweet Pea
Mother to Hailey Marie
December 1, 2009 to January 6, 2010

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Taryn ~ Ella’s Halo
Mother of Ella Jo
March 25, 2009 to June 16, 2009
 
Our daughter Ella was born at 24 weeks and died 83 days later.  As a result of our experiences with Ella in the NICU, my husband and I started a nonprofit called ‘Ella’s Halo.’   Our purpose is to help families who have to stay an extended time in the hospital with their premature or sick baby.  We try to bring a little bit of home to the hospital by donating blankets and care packages to these families.  We feel that helping other babies who are like our daughter is doing what Ella would have wanted us to do.  Starting Ella’s Halo and helping other families has brought us hope and healing.

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Amanda ~ mother to Angel

who was stillborn on 05/18/2009
My daughter Angel was stillborn on May 18, 2009, at 19 weeks 5 days, as a result of a placental abruption with uterine infection.  What has helped me to heal is sharing my loss through public speaking.  It has helped significantly. Without being able to speak out about my daughter, I don’t think I would be as far in my healing as I am.

My inspiration started with a fundraiser for the March of Dimes that I did this year in memory of my daughter. I was in contact with a couple of ladies at the March of Dimes.   I kept telling them “I feel like I want to do something more.”  They put me in contact with a wonderful lady at UNC Hospital ( University of North Carolina) who organizes different hospital events.  She was actually organizing an event called Perinatal Quality Care Collaborative of North Carolina (PQCNC). It is a conference that focuses on improving the quality of care of patients.  All disciplines attend, including doctors, nurses, and other staff. 

I was asked to speak about my personal experiences as a stillbirth parent.   The PQCNC was scheduled for May 18, 2009 ~ my daughter’s 1st birthday!!!  I was so excited and nervous (I think that it was Angel’s way of reassuring me that it was the right thing to do).  This was the 3rd or 4th year for this event, yet I was the first Stillbirth parent they ever had speak.  

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Jodie
Mom to Jasper
Stillborn September 2nd, 2009 at 20 weeks
My name is Jodie and last September 2nd 2009, i had my beautiful baby son Jasper at 20 weeks, he was stillborn. It has been just over a year and i still cry for him , i still long for him and i still feel empty without him.

 

 I am an insulin diabetic so i have always known that i would most likely never have children , or if i did there could be major complications, but it was a risk i was willing to take. Before my first son Jakson was born in 2004, i felt very blessed to have a very healthy child in my arms. He was a dream come true as before he was born i had suffered up to 5 miscarriages. Even though he came a month early , he was still completely healthy.
 

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Kristen
Mom to Angel Baby
Miscarried September 13th, 2010 at 13 weeks
Rochester, NY
We lost our precious baby on September 13, 2010. I was exactly 13 weeks pregnant. It was a Monday. It was 2pm. There was no heartbeat.  Life will never be the same. I haven’t yet been able to go more than an hour without crying, regardless of where I am; home, restaurant, church, doesn’t matter. There’s never a shortage of tears. There’s never a shortage of sadness. I loved that baby, I love that baby. I would have easily and without question given my life so that my baby could live. If only I’d had the option.

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Trish
Mom to Michael
Born and died December 22nd,2007
Canada
It was Dec 22nd 2007, we were 24 weeks pregnant… and I’d been having some spotting off and on thru out the pregnancy… We have an older son, who was the dream pregnancy… I mean, so dreamy in fact that I didn’t even know I was pregnant for the first 4 months of it! Scary I know, but I’ve always been a little off when it came to the whole regular period deal… and low and behold, came to find out we were preggers!! (A side bar note… we didn’t really think we could have kids! My hubby had childhood leukemia) 

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Caroline
Mom to Cale Harrison
June 28th, 2010

Columbus, GA

It’s hard to write this story. All the entries on this site are sad, but it’s important for others to know they are not alone. And while Cale’s story is a story of loss, it’s also a story of love. While the ending is tragic I want people to know Cale’s story and know him as best they can. He was and always will be our first born son. His life, as short as it was, deserves to be acknowledged and celebrated.

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Kassandra
Mom to Zaynah Nevaeh
Miscarried August 2009
San Antonio, Texas
My angel was a very welcome surprise.  I remember the day that I took the first pregnancy test, and the second and the third.  I can still remember the first time I heard her heartbeat and saw her on the ultrasound screen.  I remember the horrible morning sickness and aching breasts.  At 6 weeks my doctor told me that the baby was doing great and had a strong heartbeat.  My boyfriend Johnny and I cried and wished for a little girl.  I was so excited for my next appointment. 
 

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Marybeth
Mom to Joshua Dylan
February 23rd, 2007
Drexel Hill, Pennsylvania
I had a perfect pregnancy. My ob called it a textbook pregnancy. No problems what so ever. I had decided to have a planned c-section which was to take place @ 39 weeks 4 days. I had an appointment for my pre-admission testing @ exactly 39 weeks and then I was to see my ob immediately after. 
 

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Angela
Mom to Baby August, Lost December 22nd, 2009 at 8 weeks
and Baby February, Lost July 22nd, 2010 at 11 weeks
Louisville, Kentucky
I can’t say I am one of those women who have always wanted to be a mom. In fact, before my husband and I got married, we often envisioned our lives together as free and roaming the world. That all changed on Christmas Eve of 2008 as I held my cousin’s newborn baby in my arms. Somehow this tiny little girl reached deep into my heart and pulled a string that I didn’t even know existed. I wanted it and I wanted it bad. At first I tried to ignore it. After all, I had put a lot if effort into dreaming up a life without children. But babies seemed to be following me everywhere. Babies on Fischer-Price commercials. Pregnant women pushing their bright red shopping carts in Target. Babies cooing in radio ads for the local hospital. Even women clamoring to be the next to hold the baby during a wake. Yes, I had Baby Fever.  

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Sara
Mom to John Dillan, Miscarried at 14 weeks on July 7th, 2009 
Fish, Miscarried at 10 weeks on March 1st, 2010
Baby #5, Miscarried in May 2010
and Hope, Miscarried on August 24th, 2010
Brown Mills, New Jersey

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Alecia
Mom to Kason Michael, Stillborn October 7th, 2009
and Kai Xavier, Stillborn June 18th, 2010
Overland Park, Kansas
In April of 2009, my husband and I were elated to find out we were expecting our first baby.  My pregnancy was very easy, hardly any pregnancy symptoms at all.  As my pregnancy progressed and I started feeling our baby boy move, I couldn’t be more excited until one day in October, when I thought to myself, “I haven’t felt this baby move lately.  I called my doctor’s nurse and she said not to worry but maybe come in and they would check everything out.  She said he probably is turned and that is why I am not feeling him move.  

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Heather
Mom to Nathan Jeremy Potter
July 1st, 2010
Thetford Center, Vermont
My husband and I were high school sweethearts.  We started dating when I was 14 and he was 16 and have had an amazing 22 years together (16 years married).  I am currently 36 years old.  A couple of years ago I started to realize that I might like a family.  We talked about it A LOT!  Once we made our decision to start trying, it took us a little more than a year to conceive.  In March of 2009, my husbands mother passed away.  Our lives were consumed by grief and a nightmare of an estate, but the day after the 1 year anniversary of her death we conceived.  We looked at it as a gift from her, as if to say “You’ve had enough, it’s time to focus on something happy”.
 

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Michelle
Mom to Eden Elisabeth
Born still September 19th, 2007
Indianapolis, Indiana
My husband and I, having been married for 2 ½ years, decided that we wanted to start trying to conceive, so on January 2, 2007, when I took my first home pregnancy test, we were thrilled!  In the spring, we found out we were having a girl, which my husband was kind of nervous about at first.  He had originally wanted a boy, but as my pregnancy continued, he got more and more excited about our Eden! 

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Ellen
Mom to Apple
Miscarried May 20th, 2009
New York
I went for a 12 week ultrasound and saw my little one.  I had been having nightmares for weeks that there would be no heartbeat during the sonogram.  I was so scared to go.  I call her Apple but I don’t know if this baby was a girl or a boy.  I just think of her as a girl, I don’t know why.  Apple was sucking her thumb and moving around.  Her heartbeat was low but not too low and the tech said it was perfectly normal.   Well she appeared fine and my boyfriend said “See you were worried and nothing is wrong”.  Since we were past the 12 week mark,  I told everyone I was pregnant.  I was so happy and relieved she was fine.  I walked around happy for the next few weeks and bought an outfit for her.

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Trisha
Mom to twin boys
Jonah Harrison, Born and died February 5th, 2010
and Noah Daniel, Born and died February 10th, 2010
Fort Worth, TX

Here’s my story of the pre-term births of our twin boys, Jonah Harrison and Noah Daniel, born 2.5.10 and 2.10.10 due to an unforeseen complication called incompetent cervix.

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Katy
Mom to Hannah Katherine Larsen, September 21st, 2009
Angel Baby, November 23rd, 2006
and Angel Baby, December 28th, 2009
Morgan, New Jersey
 

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