We arrived at the hospital at 11:45 pm. When I got to the labor and delivery floor, the nurses were bickering about what room I should go in. I changed into a gown and laid down on the table at 12 midnight. The nurses put the digital stethoscope on my belly and instantaneously the mood in the room changed. The nurses took turns looking for the baby’s heartbeat, nurse after nurse poured into room. At that point, we knew we might have lost our baby. I only heard one heartbeat. My husband was still standing their with my daughter as the friend was having a hard time locating us in the hospital, So he ran downstairs to pass her off to the babysitter, the last thing I said to him was, don’t leave me. I was so scared. Those words echo in my head.
My pregnancy progressed very fast, doing everything right. Taking my vitamins, getting rest and limiting stress as much as possible. Our doctors’ appointments were always the funniest, knowing that each one was one step closer to getting to meet our bundle of joy. When we found out that we were having a beautiful baby girl. We were so excited, began our future planning. We picked out a perfect name for her, Grace Elizabeth Lynn, my due date was September.24th, 2010.
It is Dakota’s (my niece) birthday and we have a small party for her at our house, we have a few presents and a fewer less people but my sister was taking her cake that I made to a friends house to have it there….my uncle David was here because it was a Saturday, you mostly only see my Uncle David on Saturdays’..
Can you believe it’s already October 15th tomorrow!? One more day until National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. We are so, so thankful for everyone’s amazing support of our first annual I AM THE FACE campaign so far.
Thank you for all the work you’ve done promoting this cause on your blogs, facebook, twitter, support forums, etc, over the last few weeks. The internet is definitely buzzing with our message!
Through this campaign, we are showing the world that pregnancy/infant loss is very common. And that while it’s incredibly sad, it’s not something anyone needs to be ashamed of. Just like breast cancer survivors, we are all survivors too. It wasn’t long ago that breast cancer was a taboo subject, and look at it today! You can’t escape the pink if you tried! We’re confident that if we all continue to unite as one collective voice, baby loss will one day too be a perfectly acceptable thing to talk about in our society. That soon, no one will feel like they are alone in their grief.
So please, we ask that tonight, on the eve of October 15th, you make one of the following badges your profile picture on facebook (and wherever else you go online!), and keep it up all day tomorrow, National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.