Angira
Mom to Shreya Asha Draggon
July 1st, 2010 – July 30th, 2010
Orlando, Florida
My journey with my daughter Shreya begins like most other baby stories, with a pregnancy test, or in my case with five pregnancy tests.  I took the first on February first.  It showed a light blue line, very faint.  I tried not to get excited since it was way too early to be very accurate. So I waited and took one every day for the next three days, light blue.  Cautiously optimistic, I finally took a digital pregnancy test, PREGNANT!  We were so excited, it wasn’t long before our parents and friends were told the good news. I called my ob/gyn to make my first prenatal appointment.
   

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Emily
Mom to 
“Baby Bean,” Born February 24th, 2010, Due September 4th, 2010
and Jakob Bean, Born August 17th, 2010, Due February 24th, 2011
LaVerne, California
My story is two, separate stories. I am a 30 year old woman, and after trying for nearly 2 years to become pregnant, on January 4th, 2010, to my surprise received a late Christmas present. I was finally expecting! Praise the Lord! I was ecstatic! I couldn’t believe it! 

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Angela
First Baby, Miscarried @ 5.5 weeks, September 2009
Second Baby, Miscarried @ 7 weeks, January 2010
Paislee Ann born still at 24 weeks, September 2nd, 2010
Louisville, Kentucky
Nick and I had been happily married for nine months, when we decided that children were our next step to becoming a family. So in August of 2009, we started trying to conceive and lucky for us we were immediately pregnant. I had never even thought about miscarriage. My friends had never talked about it and I thought, it can never happen to me. Well I was wrong. I started having brown spotting about a week later after getting our BFP and went to a festival five hours away only to start bleeding heavily. That night I stood in the shower crying and crying over again.

We went to the doctor and she told us to wait one cycle, so that is exactly what we did.  We got a BFP in November of ’09. We were pregnant again, but this time tried not to get to excited. I read the odds of reoccurring miscarriages weren’t too high so I was expecting a healthy August ’10 baby. Not so much. At 10 weeks I started spotting brown again and went in to the doctor where they told me the baby died a 7 weeks and 1 day. I was scheduled for a D & C five days later. I woke up the day before by D & C to horrible cramping and sat on the toilet only to pass so much blood I wasn’t sure what to do. I ended up having an emergency D & C due to the heavy blood loss and drop in blood pressure.

Again we sat at the doctor’s office where we were told, wait a cycle and you can try again. We ended up getting our BFP April 2010. I would go to the office very three days to get blood work to make sure my HCG counts were doubling and they were.
 

We went in for an US at 7 weeks and there she was beating heat and all. At 8 weeks I woke up from a nap only to be welcomed by bright red blood. I remember crying and calling my husband home to go to the ER. The baby was healthy and had a heartbeat of 181. Every week after that until 12 weeks, our doctors brought us in to do US to make us feel better. Baby girl was moving every time we saw her. She looked perfect!

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Samantha
Mom to Leo Allen
Stillborn August 7th, 2005
Minnesota
My husband and I had been married 2 years when we found ourselves at a crossroads. We were far along in the process to become Peace Corps Volunteers, when an opportunity for a job came up that fit him perfectly. He applied and interviewed, and we decided that if he didn’t get the job, we’d go forward with the Peace Corps. If he did get the job, we’d stay and start a family. I was never the type to think about babies, but at this point, my maternal longing was kicking in big time. The Peace Corps was a long- time goal of mine, but the urge for a baby was growing. He got the job. We stayed, and I got pregnant right away. I remember taking three pregnancy tests in a row and showing him, my hands shaking. We went out for ice cream to celebrate.

 
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Kelley
1st loss- February 12th, 2009
2nd loss- October 13th, 2009
3rd loss- December 16th, 2009
Chemical Pregnancy- January 22nd, 2009
Long Island, New York 
In 1 year, I have suffered 3 miscarriages, I chemical pregnancy, 3 D&Cs, 2 cycles of IVF, 6 IUIs, an HSG and Lap procedure, OHSS, given hundreds of vials of blood, given myself hundreds, if not a thousand shots, been diagnosed with auto immune and thrombophilia issues, and have cried an infinite number of tears.  My journey to become a mother has changed me.  This is my story. 
Like many infertile women would say, I thought getting pregnant would be a piece of cake.  Each month, I thought, “this is it.” My first pregnancy came after 7 months of trying and using an ovulation fertility monitor.  It was off to a fantastic start.  I experienced all of the early pregnancy symptoms, each day reminding me of my new found excitement, pregnancy and becoming a mother.  When I woke up and started bleeding, I knew something was wrong.  I always trust my instincts; however, the blood tests were great and showed my beta levels rising.  My OB didn’t prescribe a sono until 4 days later, only because the bleeding continued.  I already knew what the sono would confirm, that there was a gestational sac and yolk, sac, but no fetal growth.  I had a D&C at 7 weeks, 3 days.  Tissue tests came back inconclusive.    
After our 1st loss, my husband and I decided that we would give it our all, to start a family.  After 5 long months, we took the next step and scheduled a consult with a Reproductive Endocrinologist at a top notch Long Island clinic.  Without much investigation or testing, I now had a DR in charge of my fertility, who prescribed the well known fertility drug, Clomid. We did two cycles of IUIs and I was pregnant again.  “Cautiously optimistic “were the Dr.’s words.  My beta again was great but fetal development was slow to grow.  I began naturally miscarrying at 6 weeks.  One of the most physically painful experiences of my life is where natural miscarriage is listed in my book.  If I let myself, I can recall the intense back pain, horrible contractions, cramping and bleeding.  It was beyond terrifying and I hope to keep those feelings safely tucked away.  I was given no explanation for this miscarriage, just that “miscarriage is common.” 

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April
Mom to
Caseylynne Marie November 25th, 2004
Jacob Alexander September 2005
Rebekah Elizabeth Faith October11th, 2008

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Jillian
Mom to Sterling
September 10th, 2010
San Diego, California
At 23 years old you’re still at the stage of life of it will never happen to me.  I’m not going to lie up until last month I still lived with that frame of mind in regards to anything bad ever happening.  My husband and I already have two beautiful little girls, close in age, who both have started asking us recently for a baby brother or another sister.  This summer we decided we were finally ready to start trying for another.  With my first two pregnancies I got pregnant fairly quickly, so expected this time would be no different.   Of course as soon as we decided to try my cycles started getting wacky so when mid August rolled around and I started having light spotting I thought nothing of it; just chalked it up to another wacky cycle.  


I went through all of August with slight cramping on my left side and off and on bleeding.  I kept thinking nothing of it until I started passing large clots in the beginning of September, as soon as I saw that I knew something was wrong but at that point still had no idea what.  At my appointment with my OBGYN after describing my symptoms and telling him about the slight pain my doctor informed me he felt I was pregnant but in the middle of a miscarriage.  That day I got my first set of blood pregnancy tests and went home to cry and wait for the next day to call and find out the results so we could continue with the next step.
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Dondra
3 First Trimester Miscarriages
Dallas, Texas
We starting trying for a family in October 2008. We were thrilled when we finally saw two lines after a couple of months in Jan 2009. We went in for our first ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. We had a follow-up a week later and still no heartbeat. I had a D&C the same day. It was really hard time for us.

We started trying again and I found out I was pregnant again in September 2009. We were so excited that it happened again so quickly and thought that was it. A week later I started bleeding and my second miscarriage was confirmed. After that my doctor had a repeat pregnancy loss panel run and nothing came up.

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Marissa
Mom to Baby Ayden
October 14th, 2009
Texas
After a year of marriage, we decided we wanted to try for our first child. On June 26, 2009 we found out we were expecting our first child. It was the happiest day of our lives. We told out parents immediately and we even texted my husband’s Mom a pic of the pregnancy test at 5 oclock in the morning. We were elated!

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Jamilyn
Mom to
Dallin James, born at 27 weeks 
October 9th-16th, 2001
and Anthon McKay, stillborn at 25 weeks 
November 12th, 2009

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Tammy
Mom to Baby Ratliff
Missed Miscarriage January 2008 at 13 weeks
Chemical Pregnancy in May 2010
Midland, Texas
My husband and I started to try for a family in October 2007. I was so excited and did not expect to get pregnant on the first month of trying. I couldn’t believe it we were going to be parents. I also felt like I was having a smooth pregnancy with absolutely no morning sickness and more energy than expected. 

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Cherish
Mom to McKenzy Christine
March 19th, 2007 – August 1st, 2007
San Angelo, Texas
On March 19th 07 I brought a precious baby girl into this world named McKenzy weighing in at 6 pounds and 3 ounces and 19 inches long. She was daddys girl and mommy’s world. Her brother loved her as well and he was only seventeen months old. 

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Amy
Mom to Noah
September 29th, 2008
Virginia

The last week of January 2008 we found out that I was pregnant. Although it wasn’t planned, we were very excited. I went to the doctor for the first time on Feb. 18th. I saw the heartbeat in the little black circle that would become the baby that we were already in love with. Seeing the heartbeat just made the love even stronger. I was about 4 to 5 weeks along and due to deliver in October. The doctors and I disagreed on the actual due date. They thought I was about 2 weeks farther along than I thought I was. 

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Crystal
Miscarriage May 5th, 2009
Taylorsville, Utah
My husband and I wanted to have all of our children close together. Our first two are 16 months apart. I knew that our 3rd wouldn’t be as close, but we just kept trying. On April 28th I had a positive pregnancy test. We were so excited! We told everyone and started making plans. My dad has a condo in Snowbird that we visit every year so we drove up there and were staying overnight for a couple of nights.

 Our last day there May 5th, I was sitting at the table and I felt a little crampy (nothing to worry about) I thought. I know cramping a little bit in early pregnancy is normal. I went into the bathroom and noticed a very small spot of blood on my underwear, again I thought (nothing to worry about.) We decide to go swimming so we went down to the pool. We’d been there for about a half an hour when all of the sudden I started getting the worst pain I’ve ever felt. It radiated all the way into my back. The only way I could get any relief was to swim. I couldn’t play with my kids because that required me to sit still. I told my husband that I was in too much pain and had to get out.

I got out of the pool and walked the 2 feet it took me to get to my cover up and flip flops. I was grabbing my things so I could go rinse off and I saw a pool of blood under my feet, I looked at my legs and blood was just running down them. I told my husband and then went to the shower, hoping that the warm water would make the pain go away. It didn’t.

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Melissa
Mom to Landon and Gavin
August 3rd, 2008
Austin, Texas
It was March 2008 when we found out we were pregnant with our second child. We were so excited to give our two year old daughter Camryn a sibling. About 2 weeks later I went into my obstetrician’s office for a checkup because I had had a little bit of spotting earlier in the day. An ultrasound was performed in which we found out we were having twins! I was scared but overjoyed.
 
The shock subsided and the excitement set in. Over the next 4 months the pregnancy continued normally. We were told our twins were identical and they were boys. We were so excited (especially my husband). We had started on their nursery; painting it blue, buying the furniture, the bedding, and even several matching outfits.

At around 20 weeks the problems started. I had tremendous pain and swelling in my belly. My doctor just assured me it was twins and that all was normal. I did my best to get through each day. On Saturday August 2, I could bear no more and had my husband take me to the emergency room. After a very detailed ultrasound I was diagnosed with polyhydramnios; excess fluid in the gestational sac.
 

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Farrah
Missed Miscarriage 
Discovered September 27th, 2010
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
9/27/2010 at 2pm. My fiancé and I took several home pregnancy tests on the evening of 8/20/2010 and were shocked but happily surprised to discover I was pregnant. Anxious and eager to ensure a healthy pregnancy, I called my OB-GYN’s office expecting to make an appointment right away. Little did I know that it was standard practice of this medical office and many others not to schedule a first appointment until the 10 week marker. So I anxiously waited for 9/17/10 to come, signifying my 10th week and my “readiness” to see the doctor. My fiancé accompanied me to the first appointment, which lasted 3 hours! We left excited and happy with an ultrasound scheduled for the following week and a due date projected of 4/18/2011. Fast forward to 9/27/2010.


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Heather
Mom to Baby “C”
July 19th, 2009
Burlington, North Carolina
I have always wanted to be a mom, so when the second pink line showed up on the pregnancy test(s) in June 2009, I was nothing less than thrilled. My husband and I were married in July 2008 and had recently stopped using birth control, so the news of this pregnancy was wonderful. I would say it was a surprise, but I knew I was pregnant long before I took the tests. I just felt different and knew that there was life inside of me. I even picked up some children’s books that I planned on using in a special way to tell my husband about the pregnancy two weeks before the test came back positive. Once I told him we were both so thrilled and couldn’t hold our joy in! We immediately started dreaming of what the future would be like with our little peanut and decided to tell our friends and family right away.  

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Mary
Mom to
Bumblebee EDD June 12th, 2010 – Grew wings October 2009
M&M (twins) EDD September 25th, 2010 – Grew wings January 2010
Peanut EDD December 23rd, 2010 – Grew wings April 2010
Desire EDD March 26th, 2011 – Grew wings July 2010
Dayton, Ohio
My husband and I married in December 2008. We were so excited to start our new life together and thrilled at the prospects of a happy life together. We had decided that we wanted to wait at least a year before having kids, then we’d see where we were at physically and financially and proceed from there. 

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Ally
Mom to Collin Michael
Born and Died August 9th, 2008
Little Angel, Miscarried December 2008
Little Angel, Miscarried July 2009
San Diego, California

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Alison
Mom to Mutalah
December 27th, 2009
Calgary, Alberta, Canada
In September 2009, I was so thrilled to find out I was pregnant… 

On the December 7th, 2009, I went for my 18 week ultrasound and the technician said that they suspect a problem with the baby’s heart.  She couldn’t see the “hockey sticks” but they were not able to say anything else, I would have to wait to hear from my doctor.  The next day, my Dr’s office called and asked me to come in for an appointment that day…  They said that they believe that the baby’s heart is not developing properly and referred our case urgently to the Fetal Medicine Clinic here in Calgary.  I went for another ultrasound and a fetal ECG on December 16th and we were given the news what the little heart is in really bad shape – the left side is seriously under-developed.  They said it was a congenital heart defect known as Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome and in addition, the baby only had a two vessel umbilical cord which is often an indicator of other issues..

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