Mom to Eden Elisabeth
Born still September 19th, 2007
Indianapolis, Indiana
My husband and I, having been married for 2 ½ years, decided that we wanted to start trying to conceive, so on January 2, 2007, when I took my first home pregnancy test, we were thrilled!  In the spring, we found out we were having a girl, which my husband was kind of nervous about at first.  He had originally wanted a boy, but as my pregnancy continued, he got more and more excited about our Eden! 

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Mom to Apple
Miscarried May 20th, 2009
New York
I went for a 12 week ultrasound and saw my little one.  I had been having nightmares for weeks that there would be no heartbeat during the sonogram.  I was so scared to go.  I call her Apple but I don’t know if this baby was a girl or a boy.  I just think of her as a girl, I don’t know why.  Apple was sucking her thumb and moving around.  Her heartbeat was low but not too low and the tech said it was perfectly normal.   Well she appeared fine and my boyfriend said “See you were worried and nothing is wrong”.  Since we were past the 12 week mark,  I told everyone I was pregnant.  I was so happy and relieved she was fine.  I walked around happy for the next few weeks and bought an outfit for her.

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Mom to twin boys
Jonah Harrison, Born and died February 5th, 2010
and Noah Daniel, Born and died February 10th, 2010
Fort Worth, TX

Here’s my story of the pre-term births of our twin boys, Jonah Harrison and Noah Daniel, born 2.5.10 and 2.10.10 due to an unforeseen complication called incompetent cervix.

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Mom to Hannah Katherine Larsen, September 21st, 2009
Angel Baby, November 23rd, 2006
and Angel Baby, December 28th, 2009
Morgan, New Jersey

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Mom to Taegan Kennedy
April 28th, 1999 – October 14th, 1999
Reston, Virginia
The day started out like any other “office” day. (I worked 2 days from home, and 3 days from the office.) It was the third day of Taegan’s cold. She had slept through the night, and her cold seemed much better that morning. She had a 4 oz. bottle, then played with me on the bed for a while. She played and watched TV while I took my shower. Then I put her in our doorway jumper while I got ready for work. She was bouncing happily, and laughing at me brush my teeth (she got a real kick out of that).

I dropped her off at the child care home that morning, kissed her, and said “I love you, and I’ll see you soon.” Later that day, I stepped across the street to get something to bring back to eat, and once back in the office, I saw my voice mail light on. It was a hysterical message from Tanya, our child minder. She said Taegan stopped breathing, and to get to the hospital right away. I was thinking, “What does that mean? And why is she saying Taegan? Taegan is fine.” I called my husband right away and told him to go to the wrong hospital, I’m not sure if I misunderstood, or just couldn’t think straight. Once in my car, I called Tanya again, and she told me the correct hospital. She said Taegan was still not breathing when she left for the hospital.

Once at the hospital, I had to park far away, and I ran as fast as I could.. almost hyperventilated, I couldn’t breath. I told the nurse my husband went to the wrong hospital, and she said he already called, the other hospital found Taegan’s location, and he was on his way. She took me in to see Taegan. She looked so little on the table, with only her diaper on. She had a tube in her throat, and they were doing CPR. The told me it looked like SIDS. I knew nothing about SIDS. I held her hand, and was crying to her, “Mommy’s here, please don’t leave me!” then “This isn’t happening, this just a bad dream!” I called my sister in NC, and we cried together. (We have no family the live close by.) My husband got there about 5 min. before they stopped CPR. We were allowed to hold her for a while after she died. We were in total shock. She still looked so beautiful. The only difference was the blue spots on her lips.

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Mom to Baby Maes #1 – missed miscarriage July 16, 2009 at 15 weeks
Baby girl Maes- missed miscarriage March 11, 2010 at 10 weeks
and Baby Maes #2- Chemical pregnancy August 16,2010 at 4 weeks
Stockton, CA

In spring of 2009 after 7 months of TTC my husband and I were finally blessed with a baby. We were elated to be expecting our first baby. We knew pregnancy would be complicated due to my preexisting diabetes. My OB was on top of it and worked hard getting my insurance to approve a state funded program for pregnant diabetics to control my blood sugars as well as diet.

The pregnancy progressed fine. At 6 weeks we saw our baby heartbeat flickering away. At 9 weeks we saw our baby bouncing all over as we had an ultrasound. The baby was measuring a little small, but my OB said there were no worries. I got into the Sweet Success program and was immediately started on insulin injections and met with the nutritionist to set up my diet plan. In the meantime I was awaiting approval from my insurance to see the perinatologist. I started my insulin and over the next couple of weeks my sugars were under control.

On July 14, 2009 at 15 weeks I went to the perinatologist and have a level 2 ultrasound. I was excited that maybe we would see the sex of the baby. My husband couldn’t get off of work but he told me to find out the sex if they were able and bring home pictures for him. As they put the probe on my belly I knew instantly something wasn’t right.

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Mom to Oliver Tyler
July 29th, 2010
United Kingdom
On Monday the 26th July 10 my baby was quite active, I went to go for my nap around lunchtime, and the baby was kicking like mad, I laid in bed and felt a really big kick/odd movement, I remember thinking that was weird, I fell asleep and woke up at 2pm.  For the rest of the day i felt nothing but i had my ten movements and he had been active so i was not worried.  

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Mom to Adrian
Stillborn January 2nd, 2010
British Columbia, Canada 
I got married in 2008 to a wonderful man.  Six months later, we decided to start trying for a baby, since I wanted to get pregnant before I turned thirty.  That was a while ago.  I have turned thirty a few times since. And got pregnant a few times since.  I have been pregnant THREE TIMES THIS YEAR and it is only September.  Still have a few more months to go. I am currently recovering from transabdominal cerclage, which I have had done on September 28, 2010.

After many many attempts, about ten IUI’s and clomid and repronex and superovulation, we landed at the IVF clinic and got pregnant for the first time on the very first IVF.   Yes, that actually did happen to me, although it is mostly a blur now.  It wasn’t even so long ago, a little over one year.  At Christmas, when I was coming back home from visiting my parents, at 20 weeks gestation, I lost my mucus plug, and went to the hospital to get checked out.

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Melissa Joy
Mom to
Covenant Hope, Miscarried July 2007
Glory Hesed, Miscarried March 2009 
Promise Anastasis, Miscarried June 2009
Peace Nikonos, Miscarried November 2009 
Mercy Kyrie, Miscarried January 2010 

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Mom to Tristan Jerome
Born May 9th, 2010
Grew Wings May 20th, 2010
My story start in December of 2009 when on Christmas day I took a home pregnancy test and to my husband’s and my joy we were pregnant.  I went off the pill in August.  We were so thrilled!  In January we got confirmation from my OB that we had alittle bean on the way.  

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1st Angel- December 3rd, 2008 (Our Pre-Wedding Surprise)
2nd Angel- May 20th, 2009 (Our Honeymoom Angel)
3rd  Angel- October 2009 (OOPS Angel)

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Mom to Michael Francis Latterell, II
August 12th, 2010
Nashville, TN
Becoming a mother had always been an ambiguous thought for me growing up, until I met Mike. I felt there was no better way of expressing love for another person than to share yourself in the union of persons and conceive a child. A little piece of us, together, to show and share with the world. Mike was and still is an amazing man and I wanted nothing more than to create a family with him!
We found out we were pregnant on the morning of Jan 14 2010. Mike and I had been in Minnesota visiting his family for the Christmas holidays and were returning home when I realized that I was late for my period. We decided about 8 months earlier when we got engaged to stop using oral contraceptives and begin using NFP (natural family planning). We weren’t getting any younger and we wanted our children to come into our family as they may. Granted we had a wedding date planned, we were ready to become parents no matter what.

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Mom to September, Miscarried on March 4th, 2005 at 12 weeks
October, Miscarried on February 13th, 2006 at 5wks
November, Miscarried on April 8th, 2007 at 6wks 4days
May, Miscarried on August 31st, 2007 at 4wks 
and Pumpkin, Miscarried on April 1st, 2008 at 8wks 4days
Amarillo, Texas

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Mom to Alexander James Struzik
April 17th, 2002
Waterloo, New York
It was amazing to see so many women and there are so many stories, but we all loved our babies. We had a baby boy, Alexander James, 04/17/2002 who we lost to stillbirth. 

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Mom to Lucia Paz Yingst
Died December 21st, 2008
Stillborn December 22nd, 2008
Philadelphia, PA
I remember the day I conceived Lucia. It was a warm Spring morning and the breeze blew across my face. We had been trying for a few months, thinking it would be hard to get pregnant. It only took us four months. I was simply ecstatic with this uneventful, lovely pregnancy. I always wanted to have two daughters, so when we chose Beatrice’s name, we also chose Lucia’s name as well. We were also incredibly excited to find out she was due on my birthday, January 4th. I had predicted many months ago, that my second daughter would be born on winter solstice. My first daughter was born at 37 weeks, and I assumed this baby would be a little early too. 

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Winner announced

I am happy to announce the winner of our first ‘Story of Hope’ give away.
The random number generator (aka ~ my 6 year old) chose comment #25.

CONGRATULATIONS Beryl ~ you have won a $75 store credit to Beyond Words Designs.

Thank you all for supporting Faces with your Stories of Hope.  We are excited and honored to share them with all our readers!

Mom to twins, Chloe Danielle and Zoe Grace 
Stillborn at 22 weeks on August 20th, 2007
Due to undiagnosed Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome
Frederick, Maryland
I was 39 years old, working full-time and trying to divide myself between two toddlers, two high school seniors and a full blown (and quite ugly) custody battle over my two elementary school aged daughters who had been kidnapped by their father (my ex) two years prior. My marriage wasn’t exactly the Rock of Gibraltar sort of relationship during that time and honestly having a baby wasn’t exactly in the forefront of my mind. But there I was. Pregnant. Again. 

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Mom to Logan Ray Gill
Stillborn October 6th, 2008
Baytown, Texas
I am a mother and I have two children.
After a very long, disappointing journey and over six years trying to get pregnant, my husband and I turned to IVF as our last hope and it worked!  On March 10, 2008 we found out we were having TWINS.  We had known there was a chance, but still weren’t really expecting that.  Now, not only were we going to have the baby we’d always dreamed of and become a real family, we were going to have TWO babies.  It was shocking to say the least, but I fell in love with both babies instantly.  I went to my many appointments and watched them on the ultrasound screen and moment by moment, image by image, I fell deeper in love.  I already loved them more than I could imagine.   We found out we were having a boy and a girl and we were elated.  We named them Logan Ray and Ella Ann.  Oh how excited we were (and scared)!  I couldn’t wait for them to get here so I could have them in my arms.  I couldn’t imagine what it would feel like to have them here, to actually BE a mother like I’d dreamed and hoped for so very long, to know what that felt like. 

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Mom to Angel Baby Squirt- September 15th, 2009
and Angel Baby Turtle- May 9th, 2010
Miami, FL
In August 2009, I started dating Mr. M. After all the heartache I’d been through, he was just what I needed. In September, I found out that I was pregnant. I was both terrified and thrilled. I immediately fell in love with the tiny life growing inside of me. Tragically, I lost the baby at around 6 weeks, before I even had my first OB appointment. I spent a week in the hospital because I had a UTI which caused me to have a “septic abortion”.  At the time, I was more focused on getting well enough to leave the hospital. 

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Mom to Hope
Miscarried on September 16th, 2010 at 16 weeks
Springdale, Arkansas
June 28, 2010 was one of the happiest days of my life. That day my life was changed forever as I sat on the bathroom floor with Stephen, hands shaking, as I held on to the pregnancy test and watched as a faint pink line slowly appeared. My heart was immediately overwhelmed with love for this tiny little life that I was carrying in me, my precious son or daughter.

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