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Mom of Max Michael and Leo William

Born and died July 16, 2013

Boston, Massachusetts

My husband and I found each other when we were both in our late 30’s. We were ready to be married and we were ready to be parents. In the next 14 months (after our honeymoon) when we weren’t yet pregnant, our excitement turned to surprise and then soon to worry. I changed my diet (I’m a registered dietitian so of course this would help, right?) to follow the “fertility diet plan”, reduced my work hours from full to part time, started acupuncture, reduced my caffeine, reduced my physical activity to keep my heart rate under 110… you name it and I did it. My husband too, though all of his tests were fine, started reading about increasing his testosterone with cold showers, more cholesterol from food, etc. Basically, we felt like we had nothing to lose and if there were a chance it could help, why not?
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Mom to Lydia

March 15, 2014

Dedham, Massachusetts

We were going to call her Itty, Bitty, Liddie. Her real name was Lydia Mae. She was perfect! It’s funny how when you become pregnant, your imagination runs wild. You think about what they will look like and whose personality they will have. What funny things will they do? All of it. But you never imagine, what if they don’t make it? What if we lose our child? At least that’s one thing I didn’t imagine. How does anyone get through that? Well, Kevin and I have to. We lost Lydia when I was 26 weeks pregnant. It was our worst nightmare and something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
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Mom to Tate Kordell

July 1, 2014

Durant, Oklahoma

We found out we were pregnant with our third baby. It was our first since we had been married. We were together since our oldest. He is eight years old and we will be married three years January of 2015. We have two beautiful boys and I was hoping for another. My husband secretly wanted a girl. LOL. I remember crying tears of joy when we found out it was a boy.
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Mom to Baby Johnson

May 5, 2013

Frederick, Colorado

My husband and I had tried to conceive for 11 months before we got to see those two beautiful pink lines on a home pregnancy test. The emotional excitement and relief that we finally got pregnant was probably one of the most amazing experiences I had ever felt in my entire life. Five weeks after we got that positive pregnancy test, our lives turned a completely different direction.
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Morgan

Mom to Avery Michele

March 25, 2013

Eureka, California

My name is Morgan, my husband Rick and I met when we were both pretty young, about 13 years ago this February [at time of submission] we worked together at a local grocery store and well that’s, where it all began. I moved on to different jobs, and by Spring of 2004, Rick asked me to Marry him. I of course, said “Yes”. We married July 9th 2005, and bought and moved into our first home shortly their after. Life was going great and we decided we were ready to have a family.

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Amy

Mom to William

April 27, 2013

Wichita, KS

My son, William, was stillborn. That is the hardest sentence I have ever said. He was born still at 38 ½ weeks from a true knot in his cord. He was our last child, the final chapter in our family. I have three teenage daughters and a 7 year old son. We wanted one more and tried for several years to have a baby. I had two miscarriages before William. Those two losses made me hesitant to become attached to William in the first half of my pregnancy and now I regret losing those precious months.

 

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Stacy

Mom to Ryley, Timothy and Daniel

March 3, 2004, May 5, 2012 and May 18, 2013

Alvin, TX

You never think your life will end up with your babies dying. I never thought as a kid/teen, that it would end with me losing babies. It is just something that you don’t even think happens. Until it happens. Then it feels like it is going to kill you. I didn’t even know the depth and grief of miscarriage until I had Ryley. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

 

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Brandi

Mom to Abbi-Claire

Haines City, Florida

I’ll never forget the moment I heard the words…”I’m sorry, your baby’s heart has stopped beating”. How can one sentence shatter my world and rock everything that I found to be steady and true? For the next five to six minutes I felt every emotion there was to feel. I was so incredibly sad, angry, heart broken and a host of others. I immediately held tight to the one I love and begin to pray. That was the only thing I knew to do. I knew that God heard every cry for help and every prayer. Even though I was an emotional train wreck I knew that Gods grace was clinging tightly to me. Through that I began to find comfort. [Read more…]

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Face of LossLaura

Mom to Jared Wayne & Jackson

October 28, 2012

St. Matthews, South Carolina

On May 28, 2011, my husband and I celebrated our first wedding anniversary. On June 3rd, I noticed that I was 3 days late… and I’m NEVER late. I took a pregnancy test that afternoon and to my not-so-much surprise, it came back positive. My husband and I were both excited and nervous. We waited to tell our family until Father’s Day. We had made coffee cups for our fathers that said “To Be Grandpa, Feb. 2012.” My first doctor’s appointment was in the middle of July. We had an ultrasound done at our first appointment. I was around 10 weeks or so and to our astonishment, there were two little babies showing up on the monitor. My husband and I were floored! We went home and shared the news with our families and my side [of the family] reminded me that when I was little, I always said I was going to have twins.

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Mother to Keira Jocelyn

Born August 22, 2012
Departed December 5, 2012

Akron, Ohio

9 January 2013
A year ago today, there was a girl sitting in the Cleveland MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station). She was cold. Young. Over caffeinated. She was curled into herself as if protecting something that lived deep inside her. She was scared. She was humiliated. She waited four cold, embarrassing hours, looking at the people she should have followed as they did what she always dreamed she would– protect and defend their country. That girl was me.

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Kylie

Waipahu, Hawaii

They say that ignorance is bliss. And they are correct. I went off of birth control in July of 2006. I was so excited! I had finally talked my husband into having a baby! I just knew that I’d get pregnant right away and have a bundle of joy in my arms within a year. Eight months later, I finally got that long awaited positive! My excitement could not be contained. I blissfully told everyone I met I was having a baby. And if they didn’t ask, I came up with a reason to tell them. Oh, you like cheeseburgers? Well, I’m pregnant!

My doctor wouldn’t see anyone before their ninth week so I took the first available appointment after that, making my first appointment scheduled for 11 weeks. My husband had to work that day but that was ok. I would bring him a picture of our amazing little one. I talked excitedly all through the ultrasound. My ignorant bliss blocking my ability to see that the ultrasound technician wasn’t excited. She listened to me tell her how excited I was. How much I wanted a son. How I’d already picked out names. How I couldn’t wait to start showing. Bliss. Ignorant bliss. [Read more…]

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Mommy to Baby Girl Eva born still on September 29, 2006 and
Baby Boy Elijiah on November 30, 2012

Anza, California

My name is Margarita. I was born and raised in the Ukraine. I moved to CA when I was 17 so I could go to a college here. When I was 21, I met my future husband, that I’m still over the hill in love with. We got married one year after we met each other. Six months later, we found out that we were expecting our first child. We were beyond happy and could not wait to meet our baby. We found out that it was a girl. I already had a name for her that I had in my mind for years and years… Eva! I had an easy, without any complications pregnancy.

My family and friends had a beautiful baby shower for me, where we got tons of pretty pink stuff, and we just put the crib together in our bedroom. On the September 28th, I had my regular check-up appointment. That day I felt weird and I felt like I haven’t felt the baby move. After my husband got home, we went to see our OB and that’s when they confirmed that there was no heartbeat. I was a little over 35 weeks of pregnancy. I remember how heartbroken we were, how confused, but yet we trusted our God. That night we went to the hospital and I was induced into labor. Baby Eva was born silent the next day. We got to hold her, share her with family and friends and take some pictures of her beautiful little face. We end up doing an autopsy, because there were no reasons of her death that we could see. The tests showed us that she had a genetic disorder. My husband and I got tested too, the results came back normal. So, we got an ok from our OB to start trying for another baby.

We got pregnant 3 months after our loss with Eva. We end up having a healthy little boy that was born at 36 weeks of pregnancy, who is 5 years old now [at time of writing]. When he was 9 months old, I got pregnant again with our next son, who is also healthy and was born at 37 weeks of my pregnancy.

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Mother to Keaton Scott

Born September 6, 2012 and passed September 10, 2012

Bellingham, Washington

My name is Kim and I am the proud mother of a beautiful baby boy, Keaton Scott. I am sharing our story in hopes to encourage other mothers to listen to their “inner mama voice” if they have any concerns or worries during their pregnancy. I also want to let other families impacted by congenital CMV know they are not alone. 

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Leigh

Mom to Sarah Ashleigh and Elizabeth Reilly

Stillborn on November 15, 2001

Oxford, Maryland

My story is long, but I hope it might help someone else like me.

I got married in April 2001, and my husband and I decided on the honeymoon to “let nature take its course” so I went off the pill.  We used alternative contraception for three months, as advised,  assuming we’d probably wait months or even years to have our first child.  [Read more…]

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Mom to Katie

Born sleeping May 26, 2009

Aberystwyth, Ceredigion

This is for our precious angel, Katie Isobel.

She didn’t have a long life. In fact she never even took her first breath in our world, but despite all of that, she was — and still is — loved by so many. [Read more…]

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Mother to Johnny Pickup Jr.

Sadly lost November 29, 2012

Parksville, British Columbia, Canada

Everything is still very new to me [at time of writing]. I even find myself thinking I’m still pregnant at times. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I lost my baby boy 4 days ago, and it’s been a roller coaster since.

I found out he had anencephaly, a neural tube defect, causing him not to form a skull. I found this out when I was 5 months pregnant, shortly after my second ultrasound. I then had to come to accept the fact that I needed to end my pregnancy. There is a 0% chance of survival for babies with anencephaly.
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Mom to an Unexpected Angel

May 27, 2013

Charleston, West Virginia

October 2012- Our second little boy E was born at home, welcomed by Daddy, Mommy, and big brother D who was nearly 2 1/2. We knew this wasn’t the end of our journey, but for now we were happy and planned to have our third baby when E was 3 or 4 years old.

This time, we decided to use FAM as our only method of birth control. Since I didn’t get my period back for 10 months after I had D and had anovulatory cycles (until I completely weaned him a month before E was conceived), I didn’t bother with charting right away.

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May 2012

Marshfield, Missouri

I guess the only way to start this off is by telling you a little about me. I was 20 years old and sure of where my life was going. I always knew I wanted kids. I worked at a daycare 5 days a week, watched my niece as much as I could and even babysat other children just for the fun of it. So, I was beyond excited when I got a pregnancy test that was positive. It was April of last year [at time of writing]. I told my boyfriend and my immediate family. My sisters were so excited for me, the older who already had one of her own and the younger one who was ready to pop. They decided to tell the rest of my family by posting it on Facebook.

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Mom to Naima Kali

Birth Date: March 25, 2011
Angel Day: August 3, 2011

Bay Area, California

Naima was my firstborn and only child (so far) and the light of my life. I had a normal and easy pregnancy with her, which as an older mom (I was 38 when I got pregnant) made me feel so blessed and happy. My husband, Henry, and I had waited a long time to get pregnant but I had wanted a child for many many years, so I was so happy to finally have a baby to look forward to. Naima was born on her due date (a rare occurrence I was told) after about twelve hours of active, natural labor. She cried as soon as she was born, and even lifted her head to look me straight in the eyes after they placed her on my chest! I knew from even the time she was in my belly that she was a gentle, wise and special soul. 

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Mom to Kaleb Mark

August 28, 2011 – May 22, 2012

Cathedral City, California

I found out I was pregnant for the 2nd time on January 11th, 2011. I was labeled as a high risk pregnancy because of our genetics test coming back abnormal. We knew our baby was not going to be 100% healthy, but we were going to love him no matter what. On Aug 28th 2012, I gave birth to Kaleb Mark.

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