Dana

Mom to Kaleb Joseph

Born February 20, 2012
Passed February 22, 2012

Baraboo, Wisconsin

My husband and I found out we were pregnant shortly after we were married August 27th. On October 18th, I had gone to the clinic for my yearly PAP. I was told that I would get the results in the mail unless something major was wrong. So that same day at like 4pm, I got a call from the doctor telling me that the blood test had come back and I was 8 weeks pregnant. We were so excited. We set up an ultrasound and my first prenatal checkup. During the ultrasound, the doctor played our baby’s heartbeat on the speaker; it was so amazing to hear. Tears began to build in my eyes as my husband already shed a few. Everything felt so perfect. We told everyone about it, how our child’s heart rate was 176 and strong. So far everything in the pregnancy went great. [Read more...]

Hazel

Mom to Matthew Aaron

Sunrise and sunset July 28, 2012

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

We had been trying for a baby for 3 years, and by some miracle, after giving up, we found out I was pregnant. Matthew was my second baby and my boyfriend’s first. We were so excited and happy, and so were all our friends. [Read more...]

Karly

Mom to Savion DeNiro Johnson

Born still June 27, 2012

Eau Claire, Wisconsin

It has been exactly 2 weeks since my baby died. There are no words to take my pain away. Me and my boyfriend Stacy have been together for just shy of 4 years now. We have never once gotten pregnant as much as I wanted to until October 2011! My period had been late and so like all women I rushed to the store and get 2-6 pregnancy tests, because 1 can never be right! It was positive, I had never been happier except for with my other pregnancy 5 years ago. I have a daughter who is 5 years old, turning 6 on December 26th. Me and my partner had some very bumpy times during my pregnancy; we even split up in the beginning of it. I remember the first little flutter that grew into strong little kicks, tumbles and flips. I was healthy; I quit smoking, I did everything most women do to take care of yourself during pregnancy! My daughter and I would sit up at night and she would talk to him and was so excited to be a big sister. I was the happiest I had been in a long time. Stacy and I got back together at the end of April. He would laugh at our son because we would be laying in bed and if Stacy put his arm around me, Savion would kick like crazy! I knew Savion was special, he was so strong already. [Read more...]

Bridget

Mom to angels lost in June 2011 and January 2012

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

In the past year I have been pregnant 5 times.  Each pregnancy has been different, unique in its own way.  Each has changed me and forced me to become a more accepting, understanding and patient person.  May 2, 2011 I found out I was pregnant for the first time.  It was unplanned but a welcomed surprise.  During this pregnancy I was naive – positive, hopeful and unaware of the possibility of loss.  We were thrilled to see the heartbeat and growing baby but weeks later the heartbeat stopped.  Closure for this pregnancy was the easiest of all because I got married 2 weeks later.  My pain was turned to joy and excitement…and so began our life of TTC – ovulation kits, lots of sex and hundreds of pregnancy tests. [Read more...]

Amie

Mom to Little Ellie

Miscarried May 11, 2012

Lodi, Wisconsin

I am Amie. I am married to a wonderful man named Jeremy. We have two boys. Jeremy and I have been together for over 14 years. This is my first miscarriage. I am so sad and heartbroken. I know Jeremy is sad, too; I can see the hurt in his eyes as he tries not to show it. He is dealing with it in his own way. Christmas will be so hard. Ellie was due on December 8th. I can’t believe I will never hold her. I knew something wasn’t right a few weeks ago, but I tried to put it out of my mind. I have been waiting for this pregnancy and baby for so long that I tried like hell to ignore my instincts. When I started spotting on the Monday before, I knew I couldn’t ignore the signs anymore. As the bleeding progressed I started to become more scared. I call the OB nurse and she scheduled an ultrasound. I was 12 weeks along. Ellie had no heartbeat. Her gestational sac only measured 5 weeks and 4 days. She was gone. [Read more...]

Maya

Mom to Aiden/Abbey

Lost March 15, 2012

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

I was nowhere near ready to be a mother. I was barely out of high school. My boyfriend and I had only been together a little more than half a year. We were close. We were young. We were in love. We had a near perfect relationship. When I missed my period, we both promised not to panic. Despite our promise, we were both scared. And we knew it. I was scared to lose him; I was scared of not being able to achieve my dreams and goals of college. He was scared to face our family; He was scared of putting his own dreams on hold. And yet, we managed to hold strong together. At least for a while. [Read more...]

Jessica

Mom to Claudia Leigh

August 26, 2011

Madison, Wisconsin

Last spring my husband and I found out we were pregnant with our third child, due in December. To be perfectly honest, I was shocked. Michael and I had talked on several occasions about having another baby but we were always undecided. After the initial shock passed, we were thrilled. Our daughters were so excited for their future sibling. We talked about it everyday, several times a day. 

Cassie

Mom to a baby boy

November 2010

Grafton, Wisconsin

So we went to my parents house for Thanksgiving and had a good visit with family on the actual day. And the Saturday after Thanksgiving we had a baby shower and that was nice.

Now Sunday after Thanksgiving is the day that my life as I knew it changed… [Read more...]

Melissa

Mom to Anna Melissa

Lost on July 13th, 2011 at 15 weeks

Racine, WI

I have always considered myself blessed, even though things haven’t always been easy for us.
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Angie

Mom to

Baby Bean

February 23, 2011

&

Baby B

June 24, 2011

Madison, WI

My husband and I decided in October of 2010 that we would try to start our family in January 2011.  After talking to my Sister-In-Law on January 23, I realized that I was able to take an HPT.  I was 5 days out from my next period and I was almost shaking as I took the test.  PREGNANT!  My husband and I stared at in in disbelief.  We both started laughing and crying and hugged each other.  “It actually works!  Making a baby actually works!” we were saying.  We were so cocky.  Looking back I feel so embarrassed about how overly confident we were. [Read more...]

Elizabeth

Angel November 2005 – 5 Weeks

Angel July 2006 – 6 Weeks

Angel September 2010 – 11 Weeks

Angel June 2011 – 5 Weeks

Waukesha, WI

 

2005 was a big year for me, I met the man who would become my husband and in October we found out we were expecting.  We had not planned it, but we were both thrilled.  Of course, I told everyone, family, friends, co-workers right away.  A couple of weeks later, in the morning as I was brushing my teeth I noticed I was bleeding.  I panicked, and called my doctor, who was really nonchalant.  He told me if I was having a miscarriage there was nothing he could do, and to just rest with my feet up.  It would be like having a bad period.  My husband took me to the emergency room.  [Read more...]

Lyric

Loss #1 November 2001

#2 July 2005

#3 August 2008

#4 November 2011

#5 December 2011

Portage, WI


All my life I was sure of one thing and that was someday I was going to be a mom.  I was never sure of what I wanted to “do” for a living but I KNEW I had to have kids.  I wanted a lot of kids.  When I was 18 I was diagnosed with PID and told that this would decrease my chances of being able to have a baby by 25% I cried and was sad but moved past that quickly as at 18 I wasn’t planning on kids anytime soon. [Read more...]

Krystal
Mom to Stella Grace
Stillborn at 37w 4d gestation on October 28th, 2010
Rochester, Wisconsin
Thursday Oct 28th, 2010.

I was 37weeks 4 days pregnant with our 3rd and what we were calling, our last, addition to the family. Everything was in place, planned, prepped and ready for her arrival. I had been preparing for my first natural homebirth for the last 9 months and was extremely excited for labor to begin. The entire pg was excellent, healthy and the most active baby I have ever carried. I thought for sure she was going to be a huge child and very active (that or there were 2 in there).

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Emily
Mom to
Avery Mae,
Trinity Noel
Langston Todd
Born Still on November 7, 2010
Milwaukee, Wisconsin
 


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Nycole
Mom to Catherine Lynn Kaat, Born and died January 2nd, 2005
Dakota and Adrianne Kaat, June 18th & 20th
Sheboygan, Wisconsin
I found out I was pregnant with Catherine when I was 15, she was my first child. I didn’t find out till I was already 12 weeks pregnant with her, and at first I had planned on giving her up for adoption. When I was 20 weeks pregnant with her, I went into false labor, and she ended up dropping into the birth canal. 
 For the next 7 weeks I was on bed rest. At 2:00 am on Jan 2, I had contractions again. I didn’t know I was having them since I was only 15, my first pregnancy, and it felt like I had gas, or like I was constipated. My mom called the hospital and they said if I wasn’t bleeding not to come in. While my mom was on the phone, I ended up delivering her in our bathroom. Only two pushes and she were out. My water never broke, so she drowned. I got to the hospital and the doctors straight out said there was nothing they could do. They didn’t even try.  It’s been 5 and a half years since I said good-bye, and there isn’t a day I don’t think of her, and wonder what life would have been like if she would have made it.

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Kelly Doris
Mother to Baby due August 18th, 2010, Miscarried December 22nd, 2009
and Baby due December 3rd, 2010, Miscarried April 6th, 2010
Sparta, WI

After several months of fertility treatments I found out I was pregnant in early December 2009. I was excited. Blood tests confirmed also I was pregnant. Several days after the blood work all the pregnancy symptoms I had disappeared. I took an at home pregnancy test, and it was negative. The next day I had another blood test, and it was confirmed that I would miscarry. I miscarried at home the following day.

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Mary
Mom to Baby Autumn and Baby Spring
2009
Wisconsin

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Deanna
Mom to River Daniel April 30, 2009-May 6, 2009
Milltown, Wisconsin 
 

Our first born son, River was born April 30, 2009 and passed away May 6, 2009.


The pregnancy was completely normal, despite the fact that I fractured a bone in my foot and was on ordered bed rest for 3 months so it could heal. This was to avoid surgery during pregnancy or after he was born. 

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Christy
Mom to fraternal twins Aiden (4/13/09-4/14/09) 
and Sophie (born and died 4/13/09)
Lacrosse, WI
I married my husband in August of 2006.  We wanted to start trying for a family right away, so I immediately stopped taking my oral contraceptives.  I had a suspicion I might have a little trouble in the baby-making area because my periods had always been irregular.  So we just decided we wouldn’t really “try,” we’d just not use protection and see what happens.  Well, because my periods were so irregular, I kept thinking I was pregnant.  I must have taken 35 pregnancy tests in the next year-each one of them saying “Not pregnant.”  So by the next fall, I was ready to actually start trying.  I started to chart my temps and use Ovulation tests, reading forums online and talking to friends that had fertility issues.

A year later, we still weren’t pregnant, so my doctor sent me to someone in the women’s center of my hospital.  She immediately diagnosed me with PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) after looking at me and listening to my symptoms.  She gave me one month’s worth of the lowest dose of clomid and said we’d go from there.

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Melissa
Mom to Mikayla Grace 
6/13/10-6/15/10
Madison, Wisconsin
We found out we were pregnant with our second child in early January and were overjoyed! The same day I took my positive test, I had a little pink spotting and my heart just dropped…maybe I was having my period after all. I did several more tests, which were all positive, so I thought it was nothing. We started telling our family right away, but then at 6 weeks I started having some faint bleeding on Friday morning. Over the weekend the bleeding continued and it was at this point where I actually admitted that I was probably having a miscarriage. It was so painful and we said a lot of prayers to ask God for strength to help us through it. My husband bought a candle to remember our baby as we hoped this angel was in heaven. Even though I had only had this baby with me for a mere 3 weeks at this point, we had already begun to make room in our lives for this baby and it was truly devastating. On Monday, we went to see the doctor, and the exam didn’t tell her much besides that my cervix wasn’t open and there wasn’t any tissue visible. They did an HcG blood test which she explained would likely not tell us much until we do a second one. I felt in my heart I had lost my baby, but for some reason felt that I needed this information too. I continued to have more blood and my cramping picked up as well. Any bit of hope I had that this may be normal bleeding was gone.


BUT on Wednesday, my doctor called to say that my Beta HcG test on Monday was really reassuring and normal (167,000), so she ordered an ultrasound for Friday. I was in such shock and didn’t really understand how it could be normal with so much bleeding. I was still extremely nauseous and had several big gushes of bright red blood. Going to the ultrasound appointment was not fun at all, but I was really hoping that it would give us some answers. I knew that the tech probably wouldn’t tell us much, but she was taking all these measurements and was totally silent. I figured that her silence meant there was no baby and that I had indeed miscarried, but then suddenly she said “heartbeat is 139.” I will never forget how shocked I was to hear that….there is a baby still alive in there? What a miracle!! I was told that the baby was fine and that I had something called a subchorionic hemorrhage that explained the bleeding. She said that most likely this would resolve over time but that the bleeding may continue. There was nothing to do, but let mother nature take her course and wait. It was hard to know whether to be excited again or scared at this point. I was put on pelvic rest and we did another ultrasound at 9 weeks. We were so relieved that in the first view of Mikayla she was moving. I was still having bleeding though, so I definitely didn’t feel like I was out of the woods yet.

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