Mom to Baby Girl Smith

October 23, 2015

Alexandria, Virginia

October 15th is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Day.

Last October 15th, I was blissfully, naively pregnant — as one should be — taking belly photos with my husband and dreaming about finally being a family of three.  After struggling with infertility for over 2 years, we were pregnant!  We had seen the baby!  And the heartbeat!  We were over the moon.

Little did I know, by that time, our sweet baby had already slipped away.  She was gone and I was none the wiser.  Isn’t a mother supposed to know when her child is no longer alive? I did not.  It wasn’t until a routine ultrasound on October 23rd, that my doctor would say the words that changed everything:  I’m afraid I don’t have good news.  And for what seemed like an eternity — I stared at the motionless screen, along with my doctor and the ultrasound technician — desperately hoping for some sign of life.  

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Mom to James Bentley

December 24, 2014 – December 25, 2014

Petersburg, Virginia

My story starts when I was 32 weeks pregnant. It was December 24th 2014 and the morning started like any other. I woke up, got my husband up and sent him to work and [then I] laid down across the bed to watch a movie. Out of nowhere, a big gush of water came out. I thought it was just pee; it was my first pregnancy and I was only 18 and I had no idea what was going on. I just ignored it and kept going about my day.

Well at about 8 in the morning I started getting sharp pains in my lower back. I thought it was Braxton Hicks. I mean, I’m only 32 weeks. How can I be in Labour? So I tried to walk it out. I tried to sleep it off. Well, at about 5:30 p.m. the pain got HORRIBLE so my husband rushed me to the hospital where I was admitted, sat in a bed and left in a room for an hour and a half. The nurse came in, said I must have pulled a muscle and told me to go home. I was in so much pain by that point, I was shaking and crying.

I left the hospital at 7:32 p.m. I was on the way home when I delivered my son at 8 p.m. in the front seat of my husband’s truck. James Bentley entered this world at 3 pounds 6 ounces 17 inches long and so gorgeous. I called 911 and returned to the hospital with my son where they told me he was fine for 6 hours and wouldn’t let me see him.

At 3 a.m. they came in the room and said he most likely wouldn’t make it through the night and had to be ambulanced to another hospital. Upon arrival they told me he had a hole in his throat the size of a breathing tube and that unless he made it 72 hours, his chances of survival were low. I got to really meet him at this hospital. I spent some time with him once they got him stable and I tried to lay down after knowing he was okay. At 8 am on December 25, 2014, the doctors rushed into my room and told me he was gone. Once they quit manually pumping his oxygen, he was done. Twelve short hours wasn’t long enough. The emotions I feel are unreal. It feels like a dream honestly.


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Mom to Two Babies

March 9, 2009 and September 4, 2015

Richmond, Virginia

It’s hard enough when you are terrified from the moment you find out you’re pregnant. Having multiple miscarriages makes it even harder. When you’ve tried for over 5 years to get pregnant after the first miscarriage, I think fear doesn’t even begin to explain the feelings you have during that time.

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Mom to Emma Rose

January 9, 2015 – April 23, 2015

Salem, Virginia

My daughter Emma Rose Kelly was born January 9, 2015 and passed away April 23rd. I laid her in her playpen that morning and checked on her at around 10:15, she was fine. I checked on her again at 10:30 and I found her unresponsive. Between the paramedics and myself we performed CPR for an hour before they declared her time.

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Mom to Caleb Rex

February 19, 2013

Cartersville, Virginia

It was October when I took a pregnancy test. I remember taking it at work. It was positive and I was like, that’s not possible. My husband and I had just starting trying in September. Being so shocked, I decided to take another one; it too was positive. I couldn’t contain my excitement and just had to tell my husband. I called him at work and he was ecstatic, as I knew he would be. We never imagined getting pregnant so quickly and we also never imagined losing Caleb so quickly. It is still so unreal. This week will be 8 weeks and it feels like yesterday that I was pregnant [at time of writing]. It all seems like a terrible dream.




Mom to Evie Caris

11/8/2012 – 11/9/2012

Norfolk, Virginia

In July of 2012 I had my 20 week ultrasound to find out the gender #2 (baby #1 is a boy, Micah, born in December 2010). We found out that I was carrying a baby girl but there were some concerns about low levels of amniotic fluid. After an extensive ultrasound by a specialist in maternal/fetal medicine, we were informed that our baby girl had some major birth defects that would not allow her to live outside of the womb. She had no bladder and nonfunctioning kidneys which would prevent her from making amniotic fluid and her growing environment would not be able to grow big enough so that her lungs could develop properly. The news was just heart-wrenching but we were trusting the Lord for His best. [Read more…]



Mom to angel babies
Oct 2008, July 2009, October 2009, January  2012, July 2012


Sophia Marilyn
Born still on July 26, 2013

Fort Lee, VA

My journey began when my first son was born blue, and somehow survived after a long labor and heart fluctuations, in June 2007. October, 2008, we found out after a trip to the ER that I was pregnant with an ectopic pregnancy. I had been on birth control pills, and I had no idea what “ectopic” meant, but we were told to “wait it out” or I could take a shot that would speed up the process. A few days later, I had the shot. It was a hard thing.. but I imagined these things happened, and I blamed myself a lot. [Read more…]


Hazel Marie

Mom to Kayden Raileigh

Lost January 31, 2012 at 13 weeks’ gestation


An angel baby
Lost October 18, 2012 at 10 weeks’ gestation

Rocky Mount, Virginia

Around mid-November 2011, I had started getting very nauseated day by day, and wondered constantly if I was in-fact pregnant with my second child. After about a month of testing and getting nothing but negative pregnancy tests, I finally got a positive. My husband and I were so happy to be having another little one. Around the time I had found out, it was about Christmas, so my primary doctor’s office was closed and getting plowed with tons of snow. They couldn’t get me scheduled in until about mid-January to get me checked and confirmed for my pregnancy, and to check how far along I was. [Read more…]



Mom to Makenna Allene

Born still September 1, 2012 at 39 weeks

Alexandria, Virginia

I am the face of…a yearned for baby that was taken from me, full term.

Geoff and I had thoroughly discussed and planned for having a child; we thought this was the penultimate display of our love and commitment to each other. So, when I went for a fertility consultation at 38 years old and was told, basically, that I “should not” be thinking about having a child and that I potentially could not at “this age”, imagine our shock and surprise when I became pregnant a month later. We considered our baby girl, Makenna, a miracle baby from the beginning. We celebrated announcing our pregnancy with a party, and when we found out at 18 weeks that we were having a healthy baby girl we celebrated with another “gender reveal” party. Our friends threw us a huge co-ed baby shower. Every chance we could, we joyfully jumped headlong into planning for and celebrating her arrival. All through the pregnancy I avoided caffeine and alcohol, ate right, drank water, exercised, slept on my side – you name it, I did it. [Read more…]



Mom to Camden Katherine

February 14, 2012 – May 17, 2012

Shenandoah, Virginia

My beautiful daughter, Camden Katherine, was born February 14th, 2012.  She picked the best birthday to have!  I am a lover of everything pink — so it was only natural that my 1st born, and destined to be princess, was born on the pinkest holiday that exists.  My husband and my “Love day” was now shared with so much more love than ever before.  She was our everything.  After 1 miscarriage 2 years earlier, at 12 weeks.  We longed for a child — it was our passion in life, to be parents. [Read more…]



Mom to Quinton Edward and Owen Scott

Born and passed April 27, 2012

Edinburg, Virginia

Wednesday April 25th, 2012 started out like any other day.  I woke up tired and sore from being pregnant.  We had just returned from our babymoon and that weekend we painted the twins’ nursery.  I was so happy.  I got through my work day picked up pizza for dinner and headed home.  My husband and I ate, and I went to the bathroom for one of my many pee breaks, except this time when I wiped there was blood.  I immediately began to panic.  I told my husband I was bleeding; I tried to call my Mom, no answer.  I became more frantic.  I called the doctor on call, but he was in surgery.  My mom called me back to tell me she was on her way. She arrived in seconds and we headed to the hospital.  That was the longest 30 minutes of my life…a thousand scenarios went through my head, but I tried everything to stay positive. [Read more…]



Mom to three angels:

Caden – November 2003

Skylar – January 2008

Alex – February 2009

Lynchburg, Virginia

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Mom to Justin Allen

 April 22, 2008 – August 11, 2008

Roanoke, Virginia


I was 17. Me and my on again off again boyfriend had just found out we were going to have a baby. We had just gotten back together and were completely surprised. I never once questioned what I was going to do. I had wanted to be a mommy ever since I could remember. [Read more…]



Mom to Rory Benjamin Halpern

August 19, 2011

Alexandria, Virginia

David and I had our first date a little over three years ago.  I began to fall madly in love with him each passing day and I knew in my heart this was the man I would spend the rest of my life with.  I was overwhelmed with love for him and I had never been happier.   

We did things our own way, on our own timetable.  In less than a year we bought our first home and a little more than a year after that he asked me to marry him.  There was so much love between us that we didn’t want to wait to get pregnant. We were ready to start a family before our second anniversary passed.   Rory likely had other plans though as it wasn’t until a week after David put a ring on my finger that we found out we were pregnant with our sweet baby. [Read more…]



Mom to Little Angel

Lost August 31, 2011

Portsmouth, Virginia

When my kids were 8 months and 2 years old, we got the shock of a lifetime when we found out I was pregnant with our third child. I was so shocked and scared. We were not financially stable enough to have another child, we lived in a small two bedroom townhouse, and my 8-month old stayed sick and was in and out of the hospital. [Read more…]



Mom to Dominic McDylan, Feb 2, 2007 (EDD: Oct 10, 2007)
Gwendolyn Elizabeth, Jan 30, 2008 (EDD: July 8, 2008)
Aiden Alexander, Nov 10, 2008 (EDD: July 20, 2009)
Jillian Evelyn, Jan 19, 2010 (EDD: Sept 28, 2010)
Katherine Anne and Samuel Kenneth, Dec 31, 2011 (EDD: Aug 19, 2012)

Winchester, VA

Our journey started unexpectedly in January 2007 when we conceived our first son. We hadn’t been trying and in fact had just started birth control. We lost our little boy before we even knew of his existence. For the longest time, I didn’t even tell Chris (or anyone else for that matter). I just dealt with it on my own and reminded myself that we were nowhere near ready to have a child together. [Read more…]



Ectopic pregnancy

July 29, 2011

Stafford, Virginia

My husband and I hadn’t planned on having a baby for a few years, since were both still young and starting out our marriage. On July 21st, I went to my physician to get my hypothyroidism checked out like I do every 6 weeks, and while I was there I had asked the physician randomly about how my thyroid disease would affect my fertility. She had said, “You will have a hard time getting pregnant, if it even happens at all.” After this I had just given up hope of ever having a child, even though it’s all I had ever wanted. [Read more…]



Mom to Deron Mekhi Rountree

Born Born June 11th, 2011 at 10:43pm

Died June 12th, 2011 at 12:08am

Chesapeake, Virginia

On February 14, 2011 I had my first OB/GYN visit to determine if I was pregnant.  I found out I was 6 wks pregnant.  I was told my uterus was bigger then it should be and found out my fibroids had returned.  I didn’t know how to feel at that time cause I never thought I could get pregnant again.  I had  a miscarriage in 2003 due to fibroids and other problems and the Dr told me I wouldn’t be able to have anymore kids. I also wasn’t sure how the father would take it cause when I told him I thought I may be pregnant the first thing he said was we needed to get rid of it. So all of those things consumed my thoughts and I didn’t have time to have joy of being pregnant.  My Dr set an appointment for 2/25/11 for a sonogram to see where the fibroids are and if they would effect my pregnancy.  I went home and had so much to think about, but in the end I decided to keep my baby and go through with the pregnancy. [Read more…]



Early Twin Miscarriage at 11 weeks

January 2nd, 2011

 and “Spock” – Miscarried at 14 weeks

August 4th, 2011

Virginia Beach, Virginia

My story begins in March 2010 when my husband and I started trying to conceive. We are in our twenties and like any young, military couple, we wanted to start our family a little earlier than most. A long seven months later, we discovered we were pregnant! At just 5 weeks, we made multiple ER visits due to bleeding and spotting and discovered there was not just one but TWO gestational sacs. Shocked and in disbelief, my husband and I started telling all our family and friends. Although my hormones were still increasing, it was still too early to see any heartbeats. [Read more…]



Mom to Hope Snider

July 23rd, 2011

Portsmouth, Virginia

My angel daughter, Hope, was stillborn on July 23, 2011 at 20.4 weeks.  At 17.5 weeks, I went to see my doctor because I was having some bleeding. I was diagnosed with a small placental abruption (a condition where the placenta begins to pull away from the uterus). At that time they were not too concerned because it was so small. I was ordered to do no heavy lifting or exercise and to just take it easy. I did that, but ended up back at the doctors a few days later with some cramping and continued bleeding. At that point, they put me on a modified bed rest to try and get everything under control. [Read more…]


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