Putting a face on miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss
Jessica
Mom to Claudia Leigh
August 26, 2011
Madison, Wisconsin
Ali
Mom to Zachary Conner
Born still on November 10, 2011 at 5:53am at 20 weeks
Due March 22, 2012
Sammamish, Washington
I prepared for nearly a year, getting my body in what I thought would be perfect condition for carrying a baby.
We were more than ready to add to our family and were extremely excited when we got pregnant the first month of trying. [Read more...]
Jody
Mom to Maximus Wright Bloom
Born March 1, 2011 and died March 12, 2011
San Francisco, California
My second pregnancy was uneventful. I did not have high blood pressure like I did with my first pregnancy. I did not have to be hospitalized like I did with my first pregnancy (for a placenta tear). The pregnancy, while tiring, since I was now running around after a toddler, was as perfect as can be. All the tests that were done came back normal. [Read more...]
Lindsey
Mom to Lily Sarah Ellen
Lost on August 31, 2011
Mountain View, CA
“There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.” ~Mahatma Gandhi
My daughter Lily went from living in my womb to residing forever in my heart on August 31, 2011. I was 14 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At the time I am writing these words, it has been nearly three months since I lost my baby girl, just about the length of time I carried her in my body. Many of these lines were lifted straight from the journal I started while I was hospitalized following her death. If it seems disjointed, it’s because it was written over a period of many days, during many different moods. It has been a difficult process, putting them to type, but one done in loving memory of the baby who will always be, to me, my first child. Not a “miscarried fetus” or a “hope of a baby that never was,” but my first child: a true, unique and beloved individual. My story is a tribute to her memory, and is written in the hope that it may bring both comfort to other mothers who have lost their precious unborn babies, and awareness to those who, having never experienced such a tragedy themselves, are struggling to understand the experience. [Read more...]
Adrienne
Mom to Avery Jace
Born still September 5, 2006
Traverse City, Michigan
My name is Adrienne, my husband’s name is Justin. We lost our first born to stillbirth of unknown reasons on September 5, 2006. I had no prior losses and my pregnancy was easy. At my 32 week appointment I measured 35 weeks, an ultrasound was scheduled for my 34 week appointment to see if I was having a big boy. Two days before my appointment, Avery Jace was stillborn. [Read more...]
Meagan
Mom to Madison Grace Morales
Stillborn on September 12th, 2010
Arlington, TX
September 11th means the same thing to mostly everyone, the day the twin towers fell. But to me September 11th, 2010 marks the day that in my opinion my world fell apart.
Stephenie
Mom to Baby K
Stillborn at 22 weeks 2 days
September 15th, 2009
Seattle, Washington
I had my first son in June of 2007 and he was a happy, healthy boy. My pregnancy was in most respects, a breeze and though the delivery had a few minor complications, everyone was no worse for the wear. We really felt lucky that everything had gone so well. When he was almost two we decided to start trying again. It has never seemed to take very long for us to conceive and this time was no different. Within a week of trying we had conceived. I felt a difference in this pregnancy, fairly early on. I may have been mildly nauseous with my first pregnancy, but I never vomited. This time, I vomited easily and frequently. Sometimes it was so violent; my husband would find me crying on the bathroom floor. Nevertheless, my ultrasound at 8 weeks showed a little heartbeat and what I called our little “gummy bear.” The doctor prescribed some medication for the vomiting and off I went. Because we went out of town and soon after my doctor went out of town, we weren’t able to get my next ultrasound scheduled until my 21st week, but we were all convinced I was having a girl. My mom said that was why I was so nauseous and why I carried the baby differently. In my gut I knew it was a girl as well, but I also felt like something else was wrong. I had hardly felt the baby move. I convinced myself I was being paranoid and waited for the ultrasound. [Read more...]
Kenzie
Mommy to Lukas Allen Bradberry
July 21st, 2011
Robinson, Illinois
My husband Larry and I were married on July 10th, 2010. We took our honeymoon in early August, and the day we got back I stopped taking the pill. I had been taking it for 4 years. On February 28th, 2011, I found out I was pregnant! I was so excited, and kind of suprised it only took about 6 months. My husband was thrilled as well, and he was just convinced it was a boy! We told everyone right away, and everyone was so happy. I have a niece that will be 1 in October, and that was exciting because I was due early November, they would only be a year apart! I had a feeling from the get go that I was having a boy, but I told myself it could be a girl (I would have been happy either way!). [Read more...]
Tam
Mom to Esther Grace Slagle
Stillborn June 18th, 2007
San Diego, California
October 2006 my husband and I found out we were expecting our 3rd child, we had one girl and one boy, we were thrilled to be adding to our family. At 8 weeks I started cramping we headed to the ER and then bleeding as we entered into the hospital, my husband was so flustered that he told the nurse I was 8 months pregnant and bleeding. [Read more...]
Heather
Mom to Brinley Nicole
Stillborn at 37 weeks on August 18th, 2010
Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
From the beginning, I was scared of the little life inside of me. I didn’t know what I would do with a baby. I didn’t feel ready yet to be a mother. Of course, I loved little kids, but babies? Babies were a different kind of commitment. They completely rely on you for their comfort of living. It took me 8 months to be ready to have this new baby in my life. I was feeling ready to take care of her for the rest of my life. I looked forward to holding her, dressing her, feeding her, and playing with her. She was going to be a new chapter in my life that I was excited to start writing. [Read more...]
Kasey
Mommy to Brandon Thomas
Stillborn on December 29th, 1997
Bowling Green, KY
At 18 years old, I found out I was pregnant. I was a month out of high school and supposed to start college in the fall. My pregnancy went forward like something out of a textbook: very healthy, no complications. I gained an acceptable amount of weight. I was four days overdue and had to be induced because my amniotic fluid started leaking. The delivery of my 1st child was completely normal. The only thing that was surprising was my son’s weight – he weighed in at a whopping 10 lbs 6.5 oz and was 23.5 inches long! His blood sugar and temp were low at birth, but after a few hours he was fine. My midwife told me that I “was born to have babies.” [Read more...]
Cori
Mom to Rosalia Evelyn
December 28th, 2010 – July 7th, 2011
Lincoln Park, Michigan
It took my husband Jeff and I three years to start our family. We finally gave up and said we would be great Aunts and Uncles. After coming home from a family trip to Germany to meet my cousins for the first time we found out that we came home with more than pictures and great memories. I was pregnant! We were so happy. The first couple of months were great. No morning sickness, cravings, etc. At 20 weeks I went into my OBs office for my ultrasound, I had a scheduled appointment with the doctor afterwards… [Read more...]
Bethany
Mom to Lucas Allan Tucker
Born still on June 8, 2011
Danville, Virginia
On June 6th, 2011 -I was 22 weeks pregnant. After not feeling movement over the weekend, I called the doctor just to be cautious. After having two kids already I figured it was probably nothing. Just to ease my mind, the doctor told me to come in. As I lay on the table sort of anxious, the doctor used the Doppler to search for an audible heartbeat. I honestly expected to hear that sound just as I …had heard at all my other visits. Afterall, I just had an ultrasound two weeks prior and everything was fine. She searched and searched — the only heartbeat heard was my own. [Read more...]
Cass
Mom to Our Bub
Miscarried on July 13th, 2011
Queensland, Australia
My husband and I got married in early October 2008. We always spoke about children, but it wasn’t until New Years Eve in 2010 we decided that 2011 was going to our year to create our own little family. So I went off the pill in early January 2011. After going off the pill I had been on for around 10 years, my cycles were all over the place. I then got reading books and reading about charting my temperature as well as using ovulation kits to work out when I was ovulating and when my period was about to arrive. [Read more...]
Amanda
Mom to Aubre Lynn and Colton Scott
Miscarried June 23rd, 2011 and June 24th, 2011
Washington/Prosperity, Pennsylvania
Where to start? Well, my husband (Scott) and I tried for 3 years to conceive on our own. Finally, we went and saw a fertility specialist. Long story short we conceived on our 1st try! We both were very excited. My fertility Dr. told me with what my blood count was at he was thinking it was multiples. We ended up conceiving twins. We both were very excited; matter of fact our whole family was excited. I was doing great, feeling great and all of the ultrasounds were great. We had an ultrasound on June 22nd, 2011 (I was 18 weeks 1 day). Both babies were very active and moving around a lot. [Read more...]
Nicole De Leon
Mom to Isabella “Bella” Pearl
March 5, 2011 at 37 weeks and 5 day
Schertz, Texas
We found out we were pregnant in July 2010. This was definitely God’s plan. We already had three children at home, a daughter and two sons. We prayed for a little girl. [Read more...]
Hannah
Mom to Uriah Daniel
Jan.3 2010 – Jan. 5, 2010
Galesburg, MI
When I found out I was pregnant I was shocked. I had a 16 year old and a 9 year old. I was thrilled though. My family and I couldn’t wait. We found out we were having a boy and chose his name together. We worked on his little nursery, and bought all the baby stuff. He couldn’t get here fast enough. [Read more...]
Ann
Mom of Makenzie Marie
Stillborn April 29th, 2011
Puyallup,WA
My husband, Chris, and I have been married for 3 years (together 7). We decided to start our family shortly after I graduated college. It only took us just under 3 months. We were exstatic and when we found out we were having a girl my world felt complete! No one knew that tragically we’d lose her at the end. [Read more...]
Lisa
Mom to Michael Joseph
Born Still at 28 weeks 3 days on February 20th, 2010
Groveport, Ohio
In February 20, 2010, at 28 weeks and 3 days of pregnancy, our baby boy, Michael Joseph was delivered still. I had gone to my midwife that morning after not feeling any movement for a couple days. I had felt a funny twinge a couple days before that, but didn’t think much of it because I had that same feeling a few weeks prior. My midwife could not locate a heartbeat, and my blood pressure was quite high, so she suggested we go to the nearest hospital emergency room. [Read more...]
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