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Liz

Mom to Lola

April 26, 2014 – April 29, 2014

Santa Cruz, California

“There’s two in there!”

The midwife’s words, spoken at my first trimester ultrasound in October 2013, came as a delightful surprise. Never in the world did I imagine I would give birth to twins! My husband Kenny and I were very excited. We had suffered a miscarriage just a few months earlier, so we took this news as a happy, karmic reward. Twins don’t run in either of our families, but as I soon found out, identical twins (which is what we were having), aren’t tied to genetics at all. They happen randomly–when the egg splits in two after being fertilized–and occur in about 1 in 300 to 400 pregnancies.

Twin pregnancies, and especially identical twin pregnancies in which just one placenta nourishes both babies, are considered high-risk. While I was fearful about having this label attached to me, I felt more at ease as my pregnancy progressed. Everything seemed to be going okay. I was being seen approximately every two weeks, by either my delivering OB, or by the consulting specialists affiliated with Lucille Packard Children’s Hospital—one of the best hospitals in the nation. (Although Lucile Packard is located in Palo Alto, an hour’s drive away from my home in Santa Cruz, they fortunately have a satellite office/diagnostic center here in Santa Cruz, so I didn’t have to drive too far for my appointments.) And, starting at about 30 weeks, I had twice-weekly non-stress tests at the hospital in town where I would be delivering (Dominican Hospital). I was scheduled to be induced at 37 weeks gestation–on May 1st, 2014. I wanted to at least try for a natural birth, even though I knew that many sets of twins are delivered via C-section. [Read more…]

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Erin

Mom to twins:

Baby B, lost April 2012 at 10 weeks,

and

 Jaxon Gray,
Born still on June 28, 2012 at 20 weeks

Dayton, Ohio

On March 27th, a week after our son turned 5, we found out we were expecting. We were so happy! We had been trying for 2 years. Our son had been asking for a sibling for awhile, so we were so happy that we could finally give him one! At 7 weeks we had an ultrasound to check for a healthy baby and get an exact due date since we had no idea when we conceived. Well, were we really surprised when we saw 2 little peanuts and 2 little fluttering hearts! Never did we ever expect to naturally get pregnant with twins! And identical twins at that! Baby B was a little smaller but looked good and had a strong heartbeat. I had never been so tired in my life; these little babies were taking everything from me! By 10 weeks I had lost almost 15 pounds! [Read more…]

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Kelly

Mom to Faith Elizabeth and Grace Katherine
Stillborn November 3, 1996 at 26 weeks’ gestation

and

Thomas Patrick
Born and died July 14, 1998

Ohio

Tim and I were married in March of 1994. We had a son, Timothy. Two years into our marriage, I was expecting again…and there were many surprises…First of all, everything was different with this pregnancy…there was more fatigue, more nausea, more belly, and more “stretching pains”. At our first ultrasound appointment around 6-8 weeks, the doctor confirmed, after a series of disconcerting “Hmmmms…” that we were expecting TWINS. I had a slight panic attack on the table, immediately overwhelmed with all the additional concerns and possible complications that could come with a twin pregnancy. Tim’s twenty-year-old face was covered in shock, bewilderment, and stunned excitement. I staggered my way off the examining table, and once safely behind the curtain, I began to change out of the napkin gown we ladies wear at the OB, and the fears started to emerge in the form of tears, which gave way to sobs. [Read more…]

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Stacy

Mom to Mattingly Lynn

Died October 2, 2009

Kansas City, Missouri

I found out very early that I was pregnant, about 4 weeks. I just woke up one morning and had a feeling; took a test and it was positive!  My husband was scared to death when I told him, but we both started planning about the nugget growing inside of me. I had to scare my husband even more by telling him all the jokes I’d made in the past about having two little blonde girls, was more than a dream of mine – my father was a twin as well as my maternal grandfather. We had a high chance of multiples. [Read more…]

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Sarah

Mom to Kayden David and Alex John

Lost August 13, 2011 at 18 weeks

New Zealand

I had only been dating my boyfriend for 5 months when I discovered I was pregnant. It was a huge shock as I was only 17 and I had never really thought I wanted to be a mum; I was just happy being an aunty to my beautiful nieces. When I told Bryan I was pregnant he was soooo excited! He wanted the whole world to know he was going to be a daddy, but I made him promise we wouldn’t tell anyone until we were over 12 weeks and passed miscarriage stage. Of course, we had to tell our parents, though. I was terrified to tell my mum as I thought she was going to be so disappointed, but to my surprise she was thrilled to have another grandchild on the way. [Read more…]

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Krystal

Mom to Alana Monique Rodriguez & Selena Monique Rodriguez

January 31, 2011 to January 31, 2011

Forever in our hearts

Portland, Oregon

It was early October of 2010 when my boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant. We had so many different emotions that day. We had just moved to a new state and were staying with family until we were able to get on our feet. So finding out we were having a baby was a lot to put on us at that time, but of course the feelings of “what are we going to do” went away and on came the pure excitement. We told everyone in the family and they were all supportive. This being my first pregnancy I was very nervous but anxious at the same time. [Read more…]

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Stephanie

Mom to Identical Twins

Emmerson Claire and Vivienne Catherine

Born and Died June 30th, 2011

Avon, Indiana

On March 5, 2011, I took a pregnancy test. I’m still not a hundred percent sure as to why I took it. I had none of the typical symptoms of early pregnancy. I woke up and something told me to take one. The pregnancy test showed a plus sign within seconds. I was shocked! I went downstairs, got my husband, and told him there was something upstairs I needed him to see. I had him look at the test and asked him to tell me what he saw. He said, in a very nonchalant voice, “I see a plus sign,” and then he left the room!  [Read more…]

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Melissa

Mom to Cohan and Gavin

June 11th, 2011

Wilmington, North Carolina

March 9, 2011 was one of the happiest days of my life.  After eight months of being off of the pill, I had a positive pregnancy test.  Later I found out I was exactly five weeks on that day.  This was the first pregnancy for my husband and I.  We were not really trying, but we were not preventing… we were just going with the flow. We were so excited to begin this new chapter in our lives.  I consulted my OBGYN the following week to confirm my pregnancy and schedule my first appointment.  We couldn’t wait.  At ten weeks we went for our first visit and ultrasound.  To everyone’s surprise, we saw not one, but two little peanuts on the screen.  We couldn’t believe it, and neither could our family.  We were totally beside ourselves with joy.  Two tiny miracles, on our first pregnancy, and without fertility help. [Read more…]

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Meredith

Mommy to Ava Meredith, Our Beloved Twin B

Passed Away April 14th, 2009

Born April 30th, 2009

Modesto, California


During an ultrasound at 12 weeks, my OB asked me, “Are you seeing what I’m seeing?“ The answer to his question, confirmed what I already knew in my heart, and would in fact, change my life forever. [Read more…]

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JoAnna
Mom to Nathan
October 9th, 2009 – October 25th, 2009
Imperial, Missouri

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Susan
Mom to identical twin boys
Born and died May 31st, 2009 at 22 weeks 5 days
Marlborough, Massachusetts
My husband Matthew and I grew up a town away from each other. In fact, we were high school rivals. He was an identical twin, so I always heard about the twins or Matt & John the twins….being at the age of 14, 15 everyone had crushes on the twins.

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Dana
Mom to Wyatt Jaxson
Born November  26th, 2009
Grew his wings on December 20th, 2009
Vancouver, B.C. Canada
It all began at my cousins wedding; My sister in law was about 20 weeks pregnant and showing beautifully. My Fiancée Tyler immediately fell in love with her growing belly and seemed to cater to her every need that night. It didn’t come to much shock when he said that next day that he was ready to be a dad. Three weeks later, sure enough I saw those two pink lines. We were ecstatic!! 

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Danielle
Mom to Harley Elizabeth 

Born June 24th, 2009 and Died August 10th, 2009
Coral Springs, Florida
Twin to twin transfusion syndrome or TTTS is a disease of the placenta that affects only identical twins sharing a placenta…this is Hannah’s and Harley’s story.. 
Chris and I found out we were pregnant 28th of Dec 2008..We were not planning it but we were very happy!!! Our first sonogram was the first week of January and since fraternal twins run on both sides of the family we knew at least that kind of twins were possible (Chris has a twin sister as well) the sonogram tech assured us that there was only one baby one heart beat. When I was 12 weeks I had an apt with a perinatologist ,the tech put the wand on my stomach and after a few minutes said, there’s 1 and there’s the other– I said “other what”? she said other baby!!! i said “what other baby”? she said ‘oh you didn’t know you were having twins”?  I told her matter of factly “does it look like I know I was having twins???  This I regret saying every day and wish i didn’t freak out as much as i did.  After the scan the doctor talked to us about all the twin things that can happen and confirmed that they were identical sharing a placenta.  She told us of TTTS and said, but don’t worry about it its very rare, it probably won’t happen but we have to tell you about it.

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Melanie
Mom to Tabitha Faith
Passed away May 21st, 2009, and was born with her surviving twin sister, Heidi Faith, August 7th, 2009
Bossier City, LA
In December 2008 going into the new year, I found myself abnormally exhausted. All I wanted to do was sleep! I am a nurse and worked nights, so I figured it was just the rigorous work schedule taking a toll. I hadn’t had my period in about a month and a half, but I have always been irregular, so didn’t think much of it…even with the fact I had been off my birth control a month, I still didn’t think pregnancy was a real option. I took a test the beginning of January 2009 and it was negative. 

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Trudi
Mom to Amie-lee and Emily
Stillborn on February 25th, 2002
South Australia

My beautiful twin daughters were born sleeping at 27.3 weeks on February 25th, 2002. My girls were diagnosed with twin to twin transfusion syndrome at 19 weeks, we were monitored every 2 days and everything seemed perfect for them both… suddenly with no warning sign or symptom both of their little hearts just stopped beating… just like that.

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Melissa
Mom to Rachel and Rebecca, 18-22 weeks, TTTS, September 1st, 1999
Brock Edward, 21 weeks, May 22nd, 2006
Erik Justin, 18 weeks, October 25, 2006
Baby Joe, 15 weeks, February 11, 2008
Noah Micheal, 15 weeks, June 25, 2010
Glendale, AZ

Rachel and Rebecca

While on birth control, a year after we married, I discovered I was pregnant. We were both very shocked, but also very excited. Things were great with us, and we were ready to expand our family. Sadly, the joy was short lived, when at just 5 weeks, I started bleeding heavily, and my HCG numbers were dropping.

I was devastated. Then a miracle happened. My numbers started to go back up, and very fast. I was told I was likely pregnant with twins, and one died, and the other should be just fine. I was filled with mixed emotions. Grieving for my baby that died, yet having hope for my baby still alive. At about 7 weeks, it was confirmed. I still had a live baby in my womb. We started making plans to buy a house, and move into a safer place.

When I was about 16 weeks, my doctor called to tell me the results of my AFP test showed the baby had a very high chance of having spina bifida. She set up an ultrasound for the next day with a high risk clinic. I was very nervous as I didn’t know what to expect, but I knew we could handle any special needs baby. We were very shocked to find out that we were having twins! Identical girls. The doctor and ultrasound tech kept whispering about placenta and membranes, but I didn’t understand any of it. They told me I should hear from my doctor the next day or so. I never did. The only thing they told me is they couldn’t tell how far along I was, because the babies were measuring very different sizes. And they mentioned fluid issues, but I was still processing twins.

A couple weeks had passed and I never heard from my doc. I kept on working in the vet office and just tried to lighten my work a little. Then on Aug 31, 1999, I went to work feeling off. I didn’t know what it was so I just kept on working. I started having bad cramps, and I called my doc and she said it was normal with twins. So I ignored it and went to lunch. While walking through the grocery store, buying my lunch, my water broke. I started crying immediately. I drove across the street to my work where I was driven to the hospital by a co-worker. Someone else called my husband.

When I got there, we discovered that one of the babies cords had slipped through my cervix and was pinched. That baby had died. I was so scared. I wanted to save the other baby, but they kept telling me that there was no chance of the baby surviving, and they wouldn’t even try. Because these babies were monoamniotic and monochorionic, there was no chance of me delivering one baby and then trying to stop labor. I was devastated. I didn’t want to be induced. But labor was not happening. I felt scared, and like no one was talking to me, telling me what to expect. After several hours, I started to run a fever and they were worried I would have an infection in my uterus. They convinced me to let them begin induction. Several painful hours later, my girls entered this world. Both silently. Rachel was born at 1252am and Rebecca was born at 1254 am. Both beautiful. Rachel was much smaller that Rebecca. It was obvious there was a problem in the placenta they shared. It wasn’t until 8 months later I heard the term twin to twin transfusion syndrome. It was confirmed that TTTS took the lives of my girls, and a big part of my heart.

Brock Edward

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Carrie
Mom to Caleb and Lucas
Born June 1st, 2010
Caleb was stillborn, and Lucas passed away on June 2nd, 2010
Springfield, MO

When we found out we were having identical twins who shared a placenta, I quickly did loads of research. I came across TTTS in many sites and learned the early signs and such. I knew it was a possibility for our twins, but prayed daily that it wouldn’t happen to us.

On Saturday, May 29th, Willy and I arrived at the hospital due to me thinking I was leaking fluid. We knew from a previous ultrasound that both sacs has excess fluid. I quickly had gone home and knew that as long as they had close amounts of fluid and they were the same size, TTTS was not to blame. On the way to the hospital we talked about what might happen if I was leaking fluid and just hoped and prayed it wasn’t the case.

We were at the hospital for an hour and a half when the test came back saying that I was indeed leaking fluid. I cried so hard and I was so scared. Willy sat there, strong, holding my hand. I asked what happened next. The nurse said they would do an ultrasound, a visual exam, and then I would be in the hospital on bed rest until I delivered. I was 24 weeks and wanted to keep my babies in until 36 weeks. I was going to be on hospital bed rest for 12 weeks and I was ready for it. Anything to keep my boys in me as long as possible. She told me that they have had moms in there for several weeks, so I kept this as my positive thought.
The ultrasound tech then came in to get measurements. He measured Lucas at 1lb 4oz and Caleb at 1lb 7oz. He couldn’t measure the fluid because he was having a hard time locating the sac line between them. But he did claim that there seemed to be quite a bit of fluid around both babies. Their heart rates were great and they were moving around.

The on call dr came in and confirmed that I was not dilating. She said they would admit me to labor and delivery. I would be given IV fluids, antibiotics, and steroid shots. The steroids were to mature their lungs and brains for in case we had to deliver early. She said the first 48 hours were the most crucial and I put that down as a milestone. She then said we needed to get them to 2lbs and 25 weeks. Then 2.5lbs and 26 weeks. I was in this for the long haul and ready to do it. And I was terrified! My babies lives were at stake. But I knew I was in the right place and we were being monitored.

That night was a rough one. I had to use a bedpan for the first time. Although I really didn’t like it, I was willing to do it. Even after I was informed it would be two weeks before they would allow me up to use a bed side commode. They came in to monitor the boys and me every couple of hours. The steroid shot burned as they shot me in the rear. I was uncomfortable and scared. But I was going to do this, with minimal complaints. They were my babies and I had to fight for them. They also could not put me on regular monitors for the boys since they were so small, and moved so much. But they did monitor my Braxton Hicks contractions to make sure they did not change into real contractions.

Sunday afternoon, more ultrasound techs came down with some high-end equipment to get a better look at Lucas and Caleb. They were quiet the whole time, looking hard at things I couldn’t see. Willy was eating lunch and I was panicking a little. I wanted to know what they were looking at, what they found, and if our plan of action was changing.

My new on call doctor came down 15 minutes later to give me the results. It looked as though Caleb’s sac had ruptured as he had less fluid than Lucas. This was rare because he was the top twin and usually it was the bottom twin whose bag would rupture first. She said they looked closely at the placenta and cords. And everything looked good. They couldn’t find anything that would show signs of TTTS. I didn’t ask specifically, but from her report and my research, I felt confident. The plan was to keep on our path and maybe Caleb’s bag would reseal itself.

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