Mom to Estelle

June 23, 2015

San Antonio, Texas

Eighteen and preparing to leave for college, I found out I was pregnant on June 20th of this year. To say the least, I freaked out. My boyfriend was with me when I found out, and immediately after I told my parents the news. There was much talk of abortion among some of my family, and adoption, but keeping the baby and not attending school was everyone’s worst nightmare for me. I think I knew right away I wanted to keep it.
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Mom to triplets Jax, Stella and Beck

Dallas, Texas

May 2, 2015

When we found out we were having multiples, we were immediately placed at high risk. We picked an MFM (Maternal Fetal Medicine) Doctor and hoped and prayed we would make it to full term with healthy babies. The statistics we against us. They weren’t pretty to look at, so I chose to ignore them.

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Mom to Madelyn Rose

July 21, 2014

Baytown, Texas

When the ultrasound tech told us we were having a girl, my jaw dropped. My automatic thought was, “I am not very girly. I can’t even dress myself, much less dress a girl. I hate bows. How am I going to do this?” Joel put me at ease with a trip to Old Navy after our ultrasound. He was ready to shop for his baby girl. Once I saw all the cute dresses and outfits, I thought, “I can do this. She will always look cuter than I will. But I can do this.”

I loved being pregnant. My favorite memory was lying on the couch with Joel. As usual, he was talking and rubbing my belly. He leaned in to tell her a secret and BOOM! Baby girl hit him in the face. I’m not sure if it was a punch, kick, elbow or booty bump, but it was the funniest thing. Besides the constant morning sickness, that lasted my whole pregnancy; everything was great.

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Mom to Avery Mae Chandler

July 2, 2008

Plano, Texas

I was a little hesitant to begin having children. I knew I wanted them, and, though my husband and I dated for seven years and were married for three when we finally decided to start trying, I was incredibly nervous about the whole process. (In hindsight I can’t help but wonder if a part of me subconsciously knew about the pain in my future.) I was a teacher and had a self-mandated “baby window” so my baby would be born during summer break, and, much to my amazement and delight, everything went as planned.    

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Baby Bitt 1, died September 25, 2013 (8 weeks)
Baby Bitt 2, died April 19, 2014 (12 weeks)

Austin, Texas

From the time I was a little girl, my life goal was to be a mother. I dreamed of being married – but never of the wedding – and of being pregnant and later being a “mommy”. I have always loved children and started babysitting months before I was legally of age. I was soon a favorite babysitter in my neighborhood, with children congregating wherever I was. It was fun to play and care for all of my neighbors, watching them learn and grow. Pushing babies in a stroller, reading bedtime stories, brushing teeth and picking out pajamas, playing games and cooking meals. As a teenager, I loved it as my job, and I longed for the day I would build my own family.

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Mom to Wesley, ectopic pregnancy, April 13, 2010

Mom to Bentley, missed miscarriage, August 13, 2014

Lubbock, Texas

We began trying for a baby starting the summer of 2009.  We had been married about 4 1/2 years and I had been on birth control pills our whole marriage.  We were not actively trying at first, mostly just preventing.  I really thought that we would get pregnant right away.  I have never had any problems with my cycle and it has always been very regular and predictable.  Well, month after month went by with no pregnancy.  Most months I would get my hopes and then my period would start.  I could probably name off everyone who got pregnant while we were trying.  It was very hard to hear people say that they got pregnant their first month trying.  March of 2010 my period was late.  I took several pregnancy tests and they were all negative.  I was also having some pains in my ovary.  I looked some stuff up online and got freaked out!  Then my period started, so everything was fine.  I had decided not to stress about getting pregnant and just leave it all in God’s hands. [Read more…]

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Mother to two Angels, Hope & Faith

Hope: February 21, 2014 – February 22, 2014
Faith: February 21, 2014 – February 23, 2014

San Antonio, Texas

When  found out I was pregnant, I was 10 weeks that same day. I was full of surprise that I was expecting twins. My husband and I were so shocked because we already had two kids and the only thing we did was look at each other while the doctor was doing an ultrasound. She told us she had to step out to get a different doctor. When she got back, she was not alone. She had 4 more doctors coming in to check my ultrasound.

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Tyler, Texas

Even though I did not experience a stillbirth myself, I had two miscarriages several years ago. Back then in 1998, I never even really talked about them with anyone except my husband and my mother. The first one was 9 weeks and we just moved on and kept trying. I was lucky even though I was an older woman, I was able to conceive and give birth via C-section to my beautiful girl who is now 17 years old [at time of writing]!

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Baby Gamez & Baby Steinfink

April 2006 & December 15, 2008

Dallas, Texas

I have always known that I wanted to become a mother. I am what you would call an “old soul.” I have been mature for my age for as long as I can remember. Because of this, I have always loved watching, teaching and spending time with children. For whatever reason, this seems to be a mutual connection. No matter where I am, I’m almost always able to connect (on some level) with a child. This has given me opportunity to tutor kids, babysit, mentor and even serve as a teaching assistant. It was because of this amazing connection that I knew (in my heart of hearts) I would definitely want to become a mother at some point in my lifetime. As I grew older, although I still had the desire to become a mother, I also wanted to achieve my dreams. I wanted to finish high school, attend and graduate college and move up the ladder from there. I had big aspirations to become a child psychologist and hopefully someday, help a child in need. It’s funny how your dreams change as time goes by.

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Mom to Baby Smith

Angelversary December 10, 2013

Fort Hood, Texas

Back in 2008 I found out that I was unexpectedly pregnant with twins.  At my 12 week appointment they found out that one of the babies had stopped growing shortly after my 8th week appointment and its heart had stopped.  I was warned that this could lead to a miscarriage of the surviving twin, but nothing happened…no pain…nothing…and I went on to have a healthy little girl who is now four years old. I had lost a baby but I didn’t truly understand miscarriage. It didn’t truly feel like a loss. I went on to also have a healthy pregnancy of a now 1 year old little boy.

My husband just returned from a tour in Afghanistan and we decided to try for baby number 3. I got pregnant almost right away. Things seemed fine.  I had totally different pregnancy symptoms as I had with my other two pregnancies.  The baby was measuring okay at the 8 week appointment/ultrasound.  I, like all pregnant women I’m sure, looked forward to that 12 week “safety” even though I really didn’t comprehend why.  But a couple of days before I reached the “safety” of the 12th week, I started feeling this uncomfortable pressure in what I thought was my kidney area. When I wiped after I urinated, I did see pink on the toilet paper, but everyone told me that it was probably just a UTI and to not worry about it.

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Mom to Joseph Alton

June 7, 2012

Madisonville, Texas

For awhile I knew I was pregnant even though every test said negative. I felt his presence in me. Only a mother knows that feeling. I even looked pregnant! We were so excited our little girl was going to have a little sibling!!! On Wednesday, June 6th we found out, from a faint positive at the doctor’s office, that we were definitely pregnant. I was so relieved to know that I was not crazy and I knew what I was talking about. We told everyone as soon as we left doctor’s office.

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Mom to Noel Elizabeth

Born sleeping on October 27, 2012

Austin, Texas

I found out I was pregnant on July 22, 2012. My husband and I had not been trying as we have three boys already, two from his previous marriage and a 3-year-old together. The timing was just not right for our family. After letting it sink in for a few days, we started to get excited about a new baby. What if this one was a girl? We started talking about plans and how excited we were at the possibility of having a little girl. I dreamed of pink ribbons and tutus. We went in for our first appointment August 16th. We saw our little peanut with the heart just flickering away. We fell in love immediately. The first trimester flew by without any major problems except for terrible morning sickness. I took this in stride and with the help of Zofran was able to go about my days normally. Before I knew it, it was time for our NT scan. I couldn’t wait to see Peanut again. It was there that we found out Peanut was most likely a girl. I was so incredibly happy. Everything was falling into place. With her birth, our family would be complete. My husband and I immediately started thinking about names. We kept going back and forth on different names. I wasn’t worried about picking out a name right away, as we had plenty of time.

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Mom to Kylee Victoria

Born still October 21, 2013

San Antonio, TX

10-21-2013. That day is forever changed in my mind.  It’s the day I had to say hello and goodbye at the same time.  My husband and I went in to the hospital because I didn’t feel our sweet baby move for the past two days.  In my mind I knew something was terribly wrong because our little girl was normally very active and moved all the time.  I even remember telling my husband Matt just prepare yourself for the worst because it’s not going to be good.   [Read more…]


Mom to Emma Kate

Born still September 26, 2013

Richardson, TX

 Emma Kate is our first child. We were so unaware, joking around about guessing the gender as we went into our 1st trimester screening. We learned that day that something was very wrong and went straight to another specialist to have a CVS Test performed. We quickly learned that our precious girl had Turner Syndrome, a chromosomal condition that is not hereditary. Her DNA was just missing a puzzle piece. [Read more…]


Mom to Eric Peter

September 8 – September 22, 1982

San Antonio, Texas

In 1982 sonograms were not routine with pregnancy, I don’t recall having a sonogram during my pregnancy. I always told everyone that my baby had a large butt, because I always felt my baby’s bottom moving up high into the middle of my chest. I could wrap my hand around my baby’s rear end, if only it would have been that easy. [Read more…]


Mom to Alexys

Born and died August 1, 2012 at 22 weeks

Killeen, Texas

I have never wanted anything more than to be a Mom. After several years, it finally happened. It was quite unexpected and the situation not ideal, but I was excited all the same. I had blood tests done for something unrelated but because I’d missed a period (that had happened many times before), and they decided to do a blood test to make sure. That night I got the call saying I was pregnant. I had so many emotions all at once, but was so excited. It was finally happening! I was only 5 weeks. I promised myself I wouldn’t buy anything until after the first trimester. I kept my word. After the second trimester started, I couldn’t wait. Then I realized it was hard without being gender specific. [Read more…]


Mom to Joshua Allen

Due April 20, 2013
Grew wings August 30, 2012 at 6w2d
D&C September 14, 2012

Tyler, Texas

My husband and I decided that after 2 little girls, we were ready for a little boy. We started trying when our youngest was 5 months old, fully aware just how close our children would be if we conceived immediately, but also realizing that it took 6 months of trying to conceive our second, so the actual possibility of it happening seemed slim to none. People told us we were crazy for wanting our children so close together, but we LOVED the fact that our daughters were 19 months apart. Those two little girls had an amazing relationship and were as close as can be, and we were hoping the same for future children. So, we began trying to conceive again. [Read more…]


Mom to Raekwon Kemel
Stillborn December 2, 2000

Houston, Texas

A week and a half before my due date I am getting excited that I am about to bring my firstborn child into the world.  The only thing on my mind is making sure everything is in place so that when he comes I will not have to worry about buying anything else.  I just had a baby shower at work a week or two before so everything was really coming together.  It is Monday morning and I am scheduled for a routine weekly prenatal checkup.  Everything looked good even though it took the doctor a couple of minutes to find the heartbeat I then mention that the baby did not move as often as he used to.  The doctor did not say anything about it; he just kept looking for his heartbeat and he finally found it.  [Read more…]


Mom to Armony Lane

Lost December 6, 2010

San Antonio, Texas

Most believe every pregnancy ends in a baby, but for me that was not the case. I was 17, a senior in high school, and three months before my 18th birthday when I made the decision to have unprotected sex with a co-worker. His name is Dustin, and was everything I wanted in a guy, plus was from my home state of Texas (at the time I was residing in Montana with my step-dad and mom). [Read more…]


Mom to Eli Walker Weatherly

Born still April 18, 2012

Dallas, Texas

After 3 years of marriage, and serious struggles with infertility, my husband and I finally conceived our first child together. He was a boy, who we named Eli Walker. We could not have been any happier to find out that the week of our 3rd wedding anniversary we had finally been given the answer to our prayers. A baby. A baby boy, nonetheless. We went through the first 13 weeks as happy as two clams in our shells. There was nothing that could bring us down off of the high that we experienced knowing that we were going to finally start a family after such a tough journey with infertility. At 14 weeks we got a call from the maternal-fetal specialist that my OB had sent me to for a preliminary Downs Syndrome scan. The results of that test showed that our baby had a 1 in 11 chance of having Trisomy 13 or 18, but no risk of Downs. Trisomy 13 & 18 are little more than a death sentence of the chromosomal deficiency type. We did every test available, with the exception of an amniocentesis, to determine if he was going to be affected with T 13 or T18. After 4 weeks of tests and waiting for results, we got the answer that we were hoping for. No evidence of T 13 or 18 with Eli. Praise God! [Read more…]

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