DOD 3/11/08 ~ DOB 6/30/2008
04/30/09 – 05/06/09
Cade and Nylah born 3/21/10
This has helped me heal because I am able to talk with people about her and not cry the second I mention her name or think of her. Going to visit her as much as I can has really helped and moving back home where she passed away has helped as well. Being in the last place that she was and remembering her all the time helps. We love her so much and continue to show this by being everywhere we can in order to still feel close to her.
I have chosen to work and serve with Angels of Hope in order to channel my energy and help my grief process. It helps me to be involved. I have been sitting on my emotions for a very long time and it’s time that I work my grief out. I’ve been suffering with anxiety/depression long enough and now I need to channel that grief into something worthwhile! The guilt I have of not being able to give my husband a child disturbs me everyday. I do not know how to rid myself of this guilt. The thought of not having a family ~ my dream since I was a little girl is devastating! However, I have to find a way to deal this.
There are only about 100 or so Angels of Hope throughout the US. We have an Angel of Hope in a nearby community that has bricks engraved with with angel names as a memorial. My husband and I purchased a brick with our ‘Angel Baby’s’ name on it as a way to honor and show support for this organization.
& March of Dimes
Amanda ~ mother to Angel