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Kayla

Mom to Jaylen and Quincy

Born/Passed June 17, 2008

Mom to Payton Ann

Born/Passed August 27, 2011

It all started June 17, 2008. I was about six months pregnant with twin boys. I noticed some bleeding which is of course a red flag in pregnancy. I immediately called my doctor who told me to come in so he could give me an examination. I raced over to the office upset and thinking the worst. He started by doing an ultrasound. I watched the screen intently and saw both little guys moving around. “Yes, they are ok,” I thought to myself.

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Natasha

Mom to Miguel Angel Jr. – Born into Heaven June 12, 2000

Ontario, California

We found out I was pregnant in March of 2000. We were so excited until I started bleeding on Mother’s Day. I went to the Emergency Room and they told me there was nothing they could do- it was a threatened abortion and to make an appointment with my doctor. Heartbroken, they sent me home.
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Erin

Mom to Brooklyn Eloise

Born Sleeping June 27, 2012

Toledo, OH

I found out I was pregnant 2 days after our 6th wedding anniversary. We had been not trying not preventing for about 6 months. I might have been trying a little bit)… I had a perfect, uneventful pregnancy, never any morning sickness, active. I felt great up until the end. I would remark to friends I didn’t know what all the complaining was about, that I could be pregnant for another 6 months.

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AnnieBerndtAnnie

Mom to Oliver

December 24, 2012

Minneapolis, Minnesota

It’s been 12 days [at time of writing]. I haven’t talked to anyone really. I keep thinking the day must be coming soon where I’ll be able to talk about it, out-loud, with words. Right now the only time I can do that is if I’m crying and screaming already, and you can’t cry and scream in public. So I stay home. It’s not that I want to hide that it happened. I don’t care if people know. I just want to hide from what they’ll say. What if someone says, “well maybe you’ll get your girl now”, “well at least you didn’t have any memories with him”, “well at least he was only 24 weeks and not really a person yet”…??? Cause if people say anything like that, I just wont make it.

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Kyla

Mom to Tossie Adaline

Stillborn on September 10, 2012

Around noon on September 9, 2012, I started having contractions before I went to the family Sunday dinner at my mother’s house. I was 36 weeks pregnant and had just been given the good news that my preeclampsia was under control on September 7th. The contractions were between 15- 30 minutes apart. Around 3:00 p.m., they switched to every 7- 15 minutes apart. At 5:00 p.m., they were 5-7 minutes apart and I was starting to have back pain. My Bumble Bee (3 1/2-year-old daughter) was being amazing by bringing me cool glasses of water and chocolate covered nuts. My hubby was still far, as he was coming home from drill. To help relax and pass the time while waiting for him, I got in the shower and my mother watched Bubby (my 1 1/2-year-old son). Bee kept bringing the snacks and cool glasses of water the whole time. She also started giving me updates on Daddy’s whereabouts. I was glad to finally be able to labor at home and not be confined to a bed with an IV.

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Kimberlee

Mom to Elijah Alexander Larsen

Born still August 9, 2013

California

We found out we were pregnant with our third baby at only two and a half weeks, I was filled with joy! It had taken us a year almost to get pregnant. Each week kept passing and our pregnancy was so perfect. I had lost a lot of weight, but during week 17-19 I put on my first pounds, a total of 6! How exciting that was for me. I also had this beautiful big bump. [Read more…]

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Marisa

Mom to “Bug”

November 14, 2013

Oak Harbor, Washington

Time has never gone by so slow…
It has never hurt so much to live another day… [Read more…]

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Brittany

Mom to Kylee Victoria

Born still October 21, 2013

San Antonio, TX

10-21-2013. That day is forever changed in my mind.  It’s the day I had to say hello and goodbye at the same time.  My husband and I went in to the hospital because I didn’t feel our sweet baby move for the past two days.  In my mind I knew something was terribly wrong because our little girl was normally very active and moved all the time.  I even remember telling my husband Matt just prepare yourself for the worst because it’s not going to be good.   [Read more…]

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Kristina

Mom to angel babies
Oct 2008, July 2009, October 2009, January  2012, July 2012

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Sophia Marilyn
Born still on July 26, 2013

Fort Lee, VA

My journey began when my first son was born blue, and somehow survived after a long labor and heart fluctuations, in June 2007. October, 2008, we found out after a trip to the ER that I was pregnant with an ectopic pregnancy. I had been on birth control pills, and I had no idea what “ectopic” meant, but we were told to “wait it out” or I could take a shot that would speed up the process. A few days later, I had the shot. It was a hard thing.. but I imagined these things happened, and I blamed myself a lot. [Read more…]

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Elyse

Mom to Emma Kate

Born still September 26, 2013

Richardson, TX

 Emma Kate is our first child. We were so unaware, joking around about guessing the gender as we went into our 1st trimester screening. We learned that day that something was very wrong and went straight to another specialist to have a CVS Test performed. We quickly learned that our precious girl had Turner Syndrome, a chromosomal condition that is not hereditary. Her DNA was just missing a puzzle piece. [Read more…]

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Tabitha

Mom to three angels
June 23, 2006
February 1, 2007
April 15, 2011

 and

Wesley
Born sleeping December 4, 2012

Portsmouth, Ohio

My husband(34) and I(32) will be married for 10 years on April 17, 2014. The following month(May) we will also approach the 10th year of trying to conceive our first child.

My story and our journey through losses starts back when I was diagnosed with PCOS(Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome at the age of 14. When diagnosed, I was told that it would be difficult if not completely impossible for me to have children. It scared me to death because I have always wanted to be a mother and always thought I would have a big family. [Read more…]

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Rachel

Mom to Gracelyn, “Gracie”

Born still February 1, 2014

Allen, Texas 

I was 18 weeks pregnant when my daughter was diagnosed with Turner’s Syndrome (TS). For those of you who are unfamiliar with TS it’s the missing of all or part of the second X chromosome. My daughter also had a large Cystic Hygroma which measured 40 mm and Fetal Hydrops. The Maternal-Fetal Specialist told my husband and I that “with the combination of Cystic Hygroma coupled with Fetal Hydrops poses an extremely poor prognosis with the risk for fetal demise approaching nearly 100%.”  We were told that we would lose our baby within the next 4 weeks. Just minutes before we found out that we were expecting a little girl, moments later we find out that she would likely die. Our hearts were broken. [Read more…]

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Hillary

Mom to Sierra Dawn
February 15, 2010

and

Sidney Alexander
Jaimie Quinn
Maxx Tristan
Riley Jordan

Sylvan Lake, Alberta Canada

My husband and I were married September 19, 2009, and we were elated to find out that we were pregnant 2 short months after marriage. I was horribly sick with morning sickness, but I didn’t care; I was going to be a mother. At a routine Doctor’s appointment, my Doctor tried to find the heartbeat, he couldn’t, so just in case, he sent us to get an ultrasound at the local hospital. He said there’s nothing to worry about, it’s just routine. I was excited that I was able to see my baby on the big screen earlier than expected. When we arrived, and got the ultrasound done, the nurse could not hide her concern. I knew something was wrong, and she wouldn’t tell me. An hour later, our Doctor called, and told us our baby had a mass in her abdomen, and they didn’t know what it was. She was also much smaller than she should be for how far along I was. They sent us down to the hospital in Victoria, and the nurse there hid her emotions well. She showed us our baby, her head, her feet, her face. Then she left, and the Doctor came in. And he said those horrible words. I can still hear them ringing in my ears; “I’m sorry. Your baby has died.” [Read more…]

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Taylor

Mom to Caleb Joshua

Born still March 19, 2008

Kent, Washington

My husband, Jack, was traveling the day my dear sister-in-law, Semmelle, and I excitedly walked into my OB’s office for my 36 week appointment.  She had never been to an ultra sound before, and I was so excited to show her a sneak peak of her new nephew.  I met her at my mother’s that afternoon, where relatives were still visiting after throwing me a beautiful baby shower that weekend before.  My cousins and I had stayed up until late the night of the shower unpacking gifts, laundering tiny clothes, and decorating the nursery while we ate chocolate cake, giggling like little girls.  Caleb was the first grandchild in both Jack’s and my side.  After years of my fighting an extreme case of bipolar disorder and wondering if I would ever be well enough to bear my own children, we felt the world was celebrating with us as we prepared to welcome our victory child.   [Read more…]

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Alesha

Mom to Baby Staley- Morgan

Born still August 23, 2012

Buckhorn, Kentucky

I was 19 weeks pregnant and had found out I was carrying an unhealthy baby and the baby would more than likely lose its fetal heartbeat within the next few weeks or month. I had gone in for a routine ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby, but instead found out that the baby had a massive cyst and was gathering fluid around its heart. I was in complete shock, which was supposed to be a day of joy not sadness. I was lying on the bed during the ultrasound while my doctor was telling me all the horrible news. In complete shock, I instantly started praying and asking God to remove the cyst and make my baby healthy. My OB doctor said the baby more than likely had Turners Syndrome, a disease more common in girls. We had trouble finding out the sex because we couldn’t see much of the baby because of all the cysts. I was very thankful I had a few family members there with me during this time. They were all very excited as well as me about getting to find out the sex of the baby. [Read more…]

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Odette

Mom to Sylas

Lost May 11, 2012

On May 11, 2012 I gave birth to my baby boy Sylas. He was a few days shy of six months.  He was strangled by the cord.  I was unable to get pregnant, so I thought, due to undetermined infertility.  I had tried for 6 years with my ex-husband and then later with a boyfriend of two years.  I got pregnant from my lover and of course it was a complete surprise.  [Read more…]

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Jennifer

Mom to Agustin
Born and died September 30, 2012

and

Aristeo
Born sleeping September 30, 2012

Bradenton, Florida

 

Knowing I was pregnant was the scariest and happiest day of my life. It was even scarier telling my mother; she already knew, but was scared to ask me. One day she handed me a pregnancy test and told me to take it. I was so scared, but after taking the test, which you could hardly read what the results were, I told her I was already 3 months.  She was happy because she was not yet a grandmother.. I was frightened I’d be a mother at 18. [Read more…]

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Rosanna

Mom to Alexander

Born and died May 13, 2012

Fresno, California

Due date, May 11, 2012:

On Friday, May 11th, our first child Alexander still wasn’t ready to come out. I went to my doctor’s appointment on his due date. He was perfect. I was perfect. He just wasn’t ready to meet the world yet.  My doctor scheduled another appointment on Monday to do a stress test because she doesn’t like babies to go very long over their due date. It never crossed my mind that anything bad would happen. It didn’t cross her mind to even mention it to me, either. Death was never discussed. Death wasn’t discussed in any of the three books I read during my pregnancy, either. Not one thing was wrong with me or with Alex during the pregnancy. Late Friday night, I started to have contractions. They weren’t as strong as I expected them to be. I envisioned myself screaming, but they weren’t that intense. However, they were coming closer and closer together. This lasted all night. [Read more…]

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Kate

Delaney Marie

Born still March 22, 2012 at 39 weeks

Maitland, Florida

I am the face of a baby so loved and wanted, that was suddenly robbed from me for absolutely no reason, full term.

It didn’t take long for me to get pregnant. We were so excited and so was our entire family. I had an easy pregnancy, and in fact I wondered why people complained about the side effects of pregnancy. I thought, “Hey, this is easy!” I did everything right. We planned out excitedly how to tell all of our parents and family members. We had a gender reveal gathering at our house with family the day we found out we were having a sweet little baby girl. I was given 3 baby showers. This baby was fully prepared for, loved, and had everything I and she could possibly want. My husband and I decorated her nursery so beautifully, picked out new furniture together and were so excited for her arrival. I had all her clothes and sheets washed, stroller built, swing set up, and the night I began realizing I hadn’t been feeling any movement all day, my husband was setting up her bed that would be in our room for her first few months of life. I will never forget what we were doing the night before we got the worst news we could ever receive… [Read more…]

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Landyn

Born still May 24, 2011

Kokomo,Indiana

My husband and I had only been married for about 6 months, but I just knew I was pregnant. We wanted a baby; we wanted to give my first child (from a previous marriage) a sibling. I took the test, and positive! We were both really excited.

From the beginning there was trouble. After my first appointment I started spotting, so my OB put me on progesterone. I thought everything would be ok after that and was really looking forward to all of my future doctor appointments. We were filed with so much hope. One night I had a dream, well nightmare. I had given birth to my baby, but the nurse had very quickly taken him away and started running down the hall. I screamed, “She’s stealing my baby!” I tried to jump out of the hospital bed but another nurse held me down. She looked at me and said, “She’s not stealing your baby. Your baby is dead.” I woke up in a panic and told my husband about my nightmare. He told me it was just a dream and I was overreacting. I called my mom and a few other people. I needed to hear as many people as I could say everything was going to be ok. [Read more…]

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