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Crystal

Mom to Madelyn Rose

July 21, 2014

Baytown, Texas

When the ultrasound tech told us we were having a girl, my jaw dropped. My automatic thought was, “I am not very girly. I can’t even dress myself, much less dress a girl. I hate bows. How am I going to do this?” Joel put me at ease with a trip to Old Navy after our ultrasound. He was ready to shop for his baby girl. Once I saw all the cute dresses and outfits, I thought, “I can do this. She will always look cuter than I will. But I can do this.”

I loved being pregnant. My favorite memory was lying on the couch with Joel. As usual, he was talking and rubbing my belly. He leaned in to tell her a secret and BOOM! Baby girl hit him in the face. I’m not sure if it was a punch, kick, elbow or booty bump, but it was the funniest thing. Besides the constant morning sickness, that lasted my whole pregnancy; everything was great.

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Debbie

Mom to Adalynn Grace

November 15, 2013

Princeton, West Virginia

It was November 12, 2013…13 days before my due date. I laid in bed with Matthew watching Adalynn move around in my belly. She liked to kick me as hard as she could whenever I would talk to her, but little did I know, this would be the last time I would feel her move. She wasn’t moving the next morning, though I didn’t worry as this was normal for her, especially since she was getting so cramped in my tummy. So I went about my day, washing her clothes and organizing her things for her arrival. [Read more…]

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Mom to Finnley Joseph Charles

Sarnia, Ontario, Canada

February 12, 2015

[This is] the story of our angel baby, Finnley Joseph Charles. Although this is not the story we had planned in our imagination on the days leading up to our due date, we still feel that our story needs to [be] shared and our baby boy be celebrated. Born still but still born.

On June 13, 2014, my life changed forever. I had been feeling so tired, sleeping all the time and [having] tons of headaches. Shawn had said to me multiple times, “Babe, you’re pregnant!” but I was in denial. I couldn’t be pregnant. When I finally decided to take a pregnancy test on Friday, June 13th at 3:15 p.m., I couldn’t believe my eyes. The test was POSITIVE!! I was filled with so many emotions. I was so happy but so nervous to share the exciting news with everyone. Shawn was working until 4:00 p.m., so I had 45 minutes to come up with a game plan to break the exciting news to him. I decided to write him a long love letter and wrap the test in the letter.

I remember it like it was yesterday; my heart was racing.  It was 3:59 p.m. and Shawn would be home any minute! I saw him pulling up, so I went to the back door to meet him. I handed him the rolled up letter and I ran outside crying (LOL). He didn’t even read the letter; he just glared at the test and ran outside after me [yelling] “You’re pregnant!” and I shook my head yes. We hugged and cried tears of joy for what felt like hours. He was so excited too!  I’ve always wanted to be a mommy and this was my dream come true. We were so excited but nervous to break the news to our parents. When we did, we got the reaction we had hoped for [and] they were all SO excited to be grandparents to our first born child.

I had an amazing pregnancy. The first 12-16 weeks were a little bit rocky with lots of migraines. I also had quite a bit [of] “morning sickness” that seemed to last all day! We had originally decided we were going to find out the sex of our baby. But as our 20 week anatomy scan approached, we decided that we were already half way through the pregnancy and we would wait for the amazing surprise!

From the day we found out I was expecting, I just had a weird feeling we were having a baby boy. Shawn (along with many others) said we would have a girl.

By the time I was 6 months pregnant, we had the nursery all painted, decorated and set up! We were so ready for our little bundle of joy. I have always loved looking at “baby gear” and I was so excited that I could finally buy it for myself to use as a mommy. I did so much research on the safest carseats and the best stroller for our active lifestyle. We had almost everything we needed for our baby by the time I was 7.5 months pregnant.

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Heidi

Mom to Avery Mae Chandler

July 2, 2008

Plano, Texas

I was a little hesitant to begin having children. I knew I wanted them, and, though my husband and I dated for seven years and were married for three when we finally decided to start trying, I was incredibly nervous about the whole process. (In hindsight I can’t help but wonder if a part of me subconsciously knew about the pain in my future.) I was a teacher and had a self-mandated “baby window” so my baby would be born during summer break, and, much to my amazement and delight, everything went as planned.    

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Mom to Alana

Stillborn October 4, 2013

Katonah, New York

Alana Marie Banerjee was born on October 4th, 2013 at 2:21 a.m. – 6 lbs 8 oz of pure joy for me and her father. At 20 inches long, she was a tall baby, with long skinny legs, slender fingers with perfect miniature nails, and big soft feet with all the requisite toes. She had her father’s nose and ears and eyelashes, my lips and eyebrows, the softest skin I’ve ever felt, and a full head of silky black hair. There was only one thing wrong with this storybook ending; following nine months of a perfectly healthy and blissful pregnancy, our daughter was born dead.

Alana died at 39 weeks 5 days, just two days short of her due date.  Up until the moment the nurse couldn’t find a heartbeat, she’d been healthy and strong.  The doctors had called her fetal monitor read-outs “textbook.”  She’d been active and lively, rolling around in my belly, suffering adorable bouts of in-utero hiccups (often more than once a day) for weeks.  She’d passed every prenatal test with flying colors.  There was never a cause for concern – never a single warning sign.  Until, all of a sudden, she was gone.

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Jamie

Mother to Samuel Robert

January 29, 2015

Greenville, Pennsylvania

Samuel was our “Bonus Baby” or so we called him.  The news of our pregnancy was a surprise.  Our kids were 9 and 11 when we found out we were expecting.  We had always wanted a third child but so much time had passed we didn’t think it would happened.  We so excited to learn that we would be adding a new member of the family.  My children helped with names and dreamt of the future they would have with their new brother or sister.  The day we learned that our Bonus Baby was a boy, we immediately went shopping and bought the most adorable baby outfits.  My son, who is a baseball fanatic, picked out a special baseball rattle for his brother.  The two of them also agreed on a stuffed Dumbo for Samuel that would hold a special place in his nursery.

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Tori
Mom to Tyson River 3/28/12-3/28/12 stillborn
and Skylar Jones 7/14/14-10/10/14 Complex CHD
New Madrid, Mo

My name is Tori. I am the face of stillborn & CHD Loss. I was expecting our second baby in 2012. Pregnancy was going great. I was 34 wks & 5 days on March 38, 2012 when I wasn’t feeling Tyson moving. Those words “I’m sorry we can’t find a heartbeat” are engraved in my mind. [Read more…]

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Paul

Dad of Johnathan Paul

February 3, 2015

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

It is 4 o’clock, four hours after we found out that Johnathan Paul is no longer with us. We walk into the hospital, to check in. My family is waiting in the waiting room, and Amanda’s is on their way. Amanda and I check in, and we walk to our room. Amanda climbs on the bed, the place she doesn’t move from for the next few days, while I set our bag down, and start to to ‘move in’.

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Mom to Johnathan Paul

February 3, 2015

Milwaukee, Wisconsin

After 8 months of trying to get pregnant, one Sunday morning in August I finally saw two pink lines!  After taking it 3 or 4 more times just to be sure, I got my shaking somewhat under control and ran downstairs to tell my husband! I always had a plan of how I would tell him but found myself too excited to follow through on that plan. I couldn’t hold it in much longer! He was ecstatic! We couldn’t believe we were finally having a baby!

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Jennifer

mom to Luke

Stillborn September 10, 2012

Placentia, California

My first pregnancy felt like a dream come true. 

My husband and I had decided in December 2011 that now was the time–We’d officially try for a baby.  We had no idea that things would go so smoothly.  After literally one month of trying, I missed my period, took a test, and there it was–Positive. It was also Friday, January 13, 2012. Maybe that was foreshadowing? I don’t even believe in superstitions, but I still wish I’d taken that test on any other day… [Read more…]

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Heather

Mom to Lydia

Stillborn November 6, 2014

Columbus, Ohio

On Wednesday, November 5, 2014, I was driving to my regular OB check-up. My 34 week check up. I enjoyed some extra time with my toddler son that morning, thinking how our time was limited since his sister would be here soon.  It had started to hit me how soon the baby would be here – with a planned c-section date of December 12, it was just over 5 weeks away.

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Stella

Mom to Eliannah Elisabeth Samuel

Stillborn October 4, 2014

Isaiah 14:24 “The LORD Almighty has sworn, Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will happen.”

This has been the verse of my life. I preach this verse to myself time and time again.

I was blessed to be pregnant with our third child after years of trying to conceive. From the moment I knew I was pregnant I knew I was having another beautiful girl. I started searching girl names and came across Eliannah, which means my God has answered me. It was so fitting and perfect since I had prayed for her, and The Lord answered my prayer. I felt such a strong bond with her from the very beginning. I have a very small frame and start showing early on in my pregnancies. I was seven weeks pregnant with a baby bump that I was so proud to show. I start feeling her move at 14 weeks. My children prayed for Eliannah every night. They prayed that God would keep her safe and healthy.

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Edith

Mom to Avalon

Born still December 13, 2012 at 20 weeks gestation

Ann Arbor, Michigan

I’ve always wanted a daughter. I’m the seventh in a line of mothers and daughters, through which the property I own has been passed down. The mothers and daughters in my family are very close, and there was nothing I wanted more than the next girl of our line. My sisters both had little girls as well, and my mother was rooting for a girl from the start. I used a sperm donor to conceive, and got pregnant on the fourth try. I was one week away from my 19 week anatomy scan when I suddenly began to bleed. I was hospitalized with a suspected partial placental abruption, but luckily the baby was ok and my cervix was closed, although on the thin side. [Read more…]

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Mom to AJ

January 29, 2014

Grethel, Kentucky

We were trying to conceive for 6 years and nothing had happened in that time frame. I decided to start dieting and exercising and amazingly my periods started to come ever month, but I was still not pregnant. In 2013, we decided to find an OB to see what could be wrong after that long. We just knew something wasn’t right. My appointment was in August of 2013. That day we found out that I’ve been suffering from PCOS. That’s the reason why I couldn’t get pregnant, so my doctor decided to put me on Clomid (150mg tablets) to see what would happen. As me and my husband were leaving the appointment, we was so very happy and excited to finally know what had been going on and that we would have a chance at this. After the round of Clomid, I called and got my blood work results and they came back 13.7 for my progesterone level. As soon as I hung up the phone, I called my husband crying saying,”It worked baby!” I couldn’t believe it and was very surprised that it helped.

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Mom to Joel

Born sleeping March 30, 2011

Croydon, Victoria, Australia

My husband and I started trying to conceive in March 2010. It took us five months to conceive Joel. I tested on the first day my period was due and it came back negative. I waited five days and tried again on the 13th of August and it came back positive. I showed the positive test to my husband who was half asleep and obviously he couldn’t go back to sleep [after finding out]. We immediately started thinking of names. It took me awhile to get used to it as I have anxiety and depression and take a while to adjust to change.

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Meghan

Mom to Samuel (miscarriage) July 18, 2012 and

Reagan Catherine (born sleeping) October 31, 2012

Fort Mill, South Carolina

I married my college sweetheart on May 26, 2007 after dating for 4 years.  He was the love of my life.  Everything seemed to work out perfectly as we met in our first class as college freshmen and married 2 weeks after graduation.  Life was easy and going exactly according to plan.  We decided in 2009 that we wanted to have children.  I figured it would take 2 months, 3 tops.  And then we could share the joy with our families that year at Thanksgiving.  And then at Christmas.  His birthday party?  Maybe 4th of July?  Football tailgate reunions??  And on it went.  No pregnancy, month after month.

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Mom of Max Michael and Leo William

Born and died July 16, 2013

Boston, Massachusetts

My husband and I found each other when we were both in our late 30’s. We were ready to be married and we were ready to be parents. In the next 14 months (after our honeymoon) when we weren’t yet pregnant, our excitement turned to surprise and then soon to worry. I changed my diet (I’m a registered dietitian so of course this would help, right?) to follow the “fertility diet plan”, reduced my work hours from full to part time, started acupuncture, reduced my caffeine, reduced my physical activity to keep my heart rate under 110… you name it and I did it. My husband too, though all of his tests were fine, started reading about increasing his testosterone with cold showers, more cholesterol from food, etc. Basically, we felt like we had nothing to lose and if there were a chance it could help, why not?
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Mom to Tate Kordell

July 1, 2014

Durant, Oklahoma

We found out we were pregnant with our third baby. It was our first since we had been married. We were together since our oldest. He is eight years old and we will be married three years January of 2015. We have two beautiful boys and I was hoping for another. My husband secretly wanted a girl. LOL. I remember crying tears of joy when we found out it was a boy.
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Morgan

Mom to Avery Michele

March 25, 2013

Eureka, California

My name is Morgan, my husband Rick and I met when we were both pretty young, about 13 years ago this February [at time of submission] we worked together at a local grocery store and well that’s, where it all began. I moved on to different jobs, and by Spring of 2004, Rick asked me to Marry him. I of course, said “Yes”. We married July 9th 2005, and bought and moved into our first home shortly their after. Life was going great and we decided we were ready to have a family.

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Amy

Mom to William

April 27, 2013

Wichita, KS

My son, William, was stillborn. That is the hardest sentence I have ever said. He was born still at 38 ½ weeks from a true knot in his cord. He was our last child, the final chapter in our family. I have three teenage daughters and a 7 year old son. We wanted one more and tried for several years to have a baby. I had two miscarriages before William. Those two losses made me hesitant to become attached to William in the first half of my pregnancy and now I regret losing those precious months.

 

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