Sara

 Sara

Mom to Boston

1/9/15-3/17/15 

Sioux Falls, South Dakota 

On May 24th, 2014, I found out I was expecting my second child. On May 24th, 2015 my son will have been gone for as long he was here. 68 days. My pregnancy was a healthy one. Unfortunately, morning sickness ruled my world for 5 months with both of my children, but I was expected to have a perfectly healthy baby boy. On January 9th 2015, I did. Boston was the epitome of perfection, and the autopsy that I received 3 and a half weeks after his death concluded the same. There was not a single thing wrong with any part of him, not a single toxin in his body, literally nothing. His death is “undetermined.” This is the story of the day my son became an Angel.

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Amanda
Mom to Benjamin David
October 20, 2014 – November 19, 2014
Lorain, Ohio
When midnight struck, I decided that Ben was sleeping deep enough to lay him in his Arm’s Reach Co-sleeper. He would start out in there every night. But man, he despised not being in my arms! I thought  [my son] Trae was the biggest Momma’s boy, ever. Then, I had Ben lol! Ben slept in his co-sleeper until about 2 or 3 am. I awoke to him fussing, so I put him next to me, laid on my side, and latched him on to eat. And as crappy as it is, I don’t even remember falling asleep. I just did. I never heard another fuss, cry, or anything from Ben that night. He was always so content when sleeping next to me. He had started sleeping so good in the early hours of the morning. Ben was starting to love sleep, almost as much as he loved to eat.
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Mom to Jesco Riley

November 9, 2012 – January 25, 2013

Hendersonville, North Carolina

Sweet Jesco was only 2 months and 16 days old that icy, cold Friday, January 25, 2013. That day was like always. Daddy fed him his morning bottle before work and we slept in. Jesco slept with me and his sister slept in her own bed in the next room. Daddy left for work. Later on, as I woke, I did as usual and rubbed his soft tiny body. This time, I immediately knew something was different.

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Mom to Xavier

July 7, 2013 – August 2, 2013

Stanton, Kentucky

“Well, this sucks.”

That was the actual thought that went through my head as we were driving home from the hospital. Driving home without our baby. Without our little Xavier. I remember thinking to myself, no…that’s not the right emotion. That’s not the proper reaction. Why am I not having the proper reaction to this situation? I hadn’t been having the proper reaction to things all morning. Why do I feel so weird. I later learned that I was in a very deep state of shock and I didn’t fully understand what had happened until I saw my Xavier laying in his casket the day of the funeral.

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Mother to Sarah

November 12, 2009 – November 15, 2009

Grove City, Pennsylvania

Sarah Elisabeth was born on November 12, 2009. She weighed 6 pounds, 9 ½ ounces and was 19 ¼ inches long. She had black curly hair and dark blue eyes. She was my first child. My pregnancy journey began on April 7, 2009, when I found out I was pregnant. Much of my pregnancy was normal. I felt sick and needed to eat every few hours. I was so tired I would take naps.

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Mother to Keira Jocelyn

Born August 22, 2012
Departed December 5, 2012

Akron, Ohio

9 January 2013
A year ago today, there was a girl sitting in the Cleveland MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station). She was cold. Young. Over caffeinated. She was curled into herself as if protecting something that lived deep inside her. She was scared. She was humiliated. She waited four cold, embarrassing hours, looking at the people she should have followed as they did what she always dreamed she would– protect and defend their country. That girl was me.

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Mom to Naima Kali

Birth Date: March 25, 2011
Angel Day: August 3, 2011

Bay Area, California

Naima was my firstborn and only child (so far) and the light of my life. I had a normal and easy pregnancy with her, which as an older mom (I was 38 when I got pregnant) made me feel so blessed and happy. My husband, Henry, and I had waited a long time to get pregnant but I had wanted a child for many many years, so I was so happy to finally have a baby to look forward to. Naima was born on her due date (a rare occurrence I was told) after about twelve hours of active, natural labor. She cried as soon as she was born, and even lifted her head to look me straight in the eyes after they placed her on my chest! I knew from even the time she was in my belly that she was a gentle, wise and special soul. 

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richRich

Daddy to Sarah-Taran

February 20, 2013 – April 23, 2013

Nashua, New Hampshire & Paharganj, New Delhi, India

For two Dads-to-be, Gestational Surrogacy in India was our only option. Sarah-Taran Katherine was our first child together, born through a Gestational Surrogate-Mother. Sarah entered the world 9 weeks too early. Alone, in an Indian Hospital, she waited for me as I rushed from Boston Logan International Airport to Indira Ghandi International Airport in New Delhi, India. Twenty-seven hours by plane, three hours by auto, another 20 minutes to make my way through the sea of people, stopped by each and every security guard for appearing “out of place.” I guess that is the reality for a 6’2” 185 lb Eastern European blonde, blue-eyed 34-year-old in the company of so many people whose faces where covered. I wished I could have covered my face without looking even more inconspicuous than I already did.

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Hillary

Hillary

Mom to Liam Scott

April 9, 2007-May 17, 2007

Greeley, Colorado

After being a single mom for three years to my son, Jayden, I found myself pregnant with baby number two!  I was so excited and so happy to have another bundle of joy on the way. My first pregnancy was extremely stressful due to being on bed-rest. First for placenta previa and then for preterm labor, so my doctors were automatically on guard my second pregnancy. Things were smooth sailing until I hit 20 weeks, when I began to leak a small amount of amniotic fluid. I was put on bed-rest and put on Brethine to stop labor since contractions had started right around the time my water began to leak.
 

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Mom to Greyson Eliana

June 11, 2012 – June 13, 2012

Punta Gorda, Florida

My sweet hubby and I had been married barely a year when we were surprised with our first pregnancy. We were so shocked, but so excited and so thankful for this little miracle the Lord was giving us! After a pretty uneventful pregnancy, I went into labor 2 weeks early!

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Sylvia

mom to Audrey Katniss

born September 21, 2012; died November 23, 2012

Sparks, Nevada

I was a happy-go-lucky mom and wife.  I was happy with the way my family and life were.  Then came the surprise.  I was in the ER dealing with some major cramping, and the nurse looked me dead in the eye and asked me if I could be pregnant.  I honestly looked at her and laughed til I almost peed myself.  She said it was protocol to ask and that they have to do the test anyways so I gritted my teeth and peed in the cup.  Lo and behold, the nurse came back with a positive test result.  I honestly was in a daze because I was on the [birth control] shot. I so wasn’t expecting this. They did a quick ultrasound, and everything was okay as far as the ultrasound could tell.  She wouldn’t let me see the baby but she said the heartbeat was strong and that it appeared I was 22 weeks along.   [Read more…]

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Erica

Mom to Carter Alexander Rogers

Born October 25, 2011, Died April 15, 2012

Fountain Inn, South Carolina

It was a Saturday night, and everything was going as usual. My 3-year-old James, my 5-month-old Carter and I had spent the day playing together and sitting around outside. Both my kids went to bed at 8pm, so when 8 rolled around I put James to bed, and Carter did not seem tired, so I brought him in my room, and we watched some TV together.

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Kelsey

Mom to Audrinna Lynn

August 18, 2012 – September 19, 2012

Tulsa, Oklahoma

I am a teen mother and unlike most teen moms I had my priorities straight from the get go. My daughter, Audrinna Lynn Pike, was born on August 18th, 2012 and she got her wings on September 19th, 2012. Although my daughter was a surprise, I would never call it a mistake. I was a single parent to her throughout my whole pregnancy and the month that she was alive. I had a very normal non-eventful pregnancy for the most part, and my daughter was born very healthy and normal into this world at 41 weeks on August 18th, weighing 8 pounds and 15 ounces. We spent a few days in the hospital, as any normal mother and child would, and then we were free to go home. [Read more…]

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Tabitha

Mom to Tanner Ryan

Born March 9th, 2007 and passed March 19th, 2007

Ada, Oklahoma

So…my story is a little long but I will try my best to keep it short.

I was about 8 months pregnant with my second child; my first was a little over a year old at the time. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship that one night became physical. Early the next day I realized that something was wrong. I was, for lack of a better term, ‘leaking’. My mother took me to the ER, each of us saying it was just “better to be safe than sorry.” I was told there that I was actually leaking amniotic fluids and that I was going to be rushed to a hospital two hours away to find out whether or not labor would be induced. My mother stayed in our home town, keeping my oldest until one of my sisters could watch him while she made the drive up. [Read more…]

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Rebecca

Mom to Lauren Ashley

April 7, 2000 – September 9, 2000

New Port Richey, Florida

I was 22 and in a relationship that I thought was built on “love”. I was at work when the smell of cinnamon made me feel nauseous. My co-worker chuckled and said, “Uh, oh,” and we laughed. I honestly didn’t think I was pregnant. When I discovered I was pregnant, I was scared but absolutely thrilled. I shared the news with my boyfriend and he informed me he was not ready for a child. He basically gave me an ultimatum, which I wanted no part of. Basically, I chose baby and gave my boyfriend the boot. I was scared, but I had great parents and friends and knew they would be there for me. The pregnancy went by rather quickly and my daughter Lauren Ashley was born on 4/7/2000. [Read more…]

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Molly

Mom to Jovi Sloan

March 16, 2012 to July 10, 2012

Idaho

Jovi was born March 16th, 2012. She was the most content baby we’d seen. She was so happy and so full of life. She did have some major vomit episodes. At one week of age, she had a large vomit (soaked the clothes/floor/bed) and stopped breathing. We had to call 911. She was ok by the time the paramedics arrived. We never had to do CPR, but did have to blow a breath in her face to get her to take in breaths for a bit. The ER checked her out, deemed her fine and sent us home. I encourage everyone to look into ALTE’s (apparent life threatening events) and the treatment for them. Jovi continued to have these large vomits and continued to have a hard time recovering from them. We did see an Ear, Nose, Throat specialist and she did have a swallow study. She also had terrible reflux. This is what we were told was causing the big vomits. She was on meds and we were told to side sleep her, which we did. When she could roll to her tummy, we unswaddled her and let her tummy sleep. She would never sleep on her back. If she rolled to her back, she would wake up in an instant. Reflux babies don’t sleep well on their backs…despite the numerous health scares (also admitted at 5 weeks of age for a fever), she was the best little girl. She was so fun. So happy. [Read more…]

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Alice

Mom to Rory Marshall Richardson

January 28, 2012 – February 20, 2012

Leeds, England

At 19 I found out I was pregnant, our little serendipity – happy surprise. On the 6th September we found out we were having a baby boy and the first name was decided in an instant. Rory has been my favourite name for years; when I was little it reminded me of lions, and Daddy loved the name, too, luckily.  The middle name was decided when my Dad fell critically ill with cancer. One day in the hospice he said to me, “Alice, don’t you dare name that little boy after me. I don’t want that and I’ve always hated my name anyway.” I didn’t name him after my Dad’s first name; I choose my Dad’s family name that he gave me as Rory’s middle name. A few days before my Dad died, I told him that my baby’s name would be Rory Marshall Richardson. Only Rory’s dad, my Dad and I knew Rory’s name before he was born. Rory was like a little light at the end of a tunnel, not just for me and Nathan, but for my whole family. It was something to look forward to after the loss of someone so important. My 13-year old sister was overjoyed, more than what was normal. We needed Rory. [Read more…]

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Elly

Mom to Camden Katherine

February 14, 2012 – May 17, 2012

Shenandoah, Virginia

My beautiful daughter, Camden Katherine, was born February 14th, 2012.  She picked the best birthday to have!  I am a lover of everything pink — so it was only natural that my 1st born, and destined to be princess, was born on the pinkest holiday that exists.  My husband and my “Love day” was now shared with so much more love than ever before.  She was our everything.  After 1 miscarriage 2 years earlier, at 12 weeks.  We longed for a child — it was our passion in life, to be parents. [Read more…]

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Holle

Mom to “Peanut”
Miscarried April 1, 2010 at 10 weeks 4 days gestation

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Declan Lloyd
November 18, 2011 to February 14, 2012
(Died at 12 weeks and 4 days old)

St. Peter, Minnesota

My daughter was 4 months old when my husband and I found out we were expecting our third child.  I remember feeling overwhelmed at the thought of another little one to take care of and honestly, a little ashamed that we hadn’t been more careful.  It took me a few weeks to fully embrace my pregnancy, but once I did I was so excited to have another baby.  It felt like we were finally going to be complete.  I had a scheduled ultra sound on April Fool’s Day, 2010.  My husband could not attend; I was there by myself.  I had been chatting with the nurse prior to having the ultrasound and was telling her how different this pregnancy had been and that I was feeling great, with no morning sickness at all.  When I went into the ultrasound, the ultra sound tech got everything ready and started the procedure.  I quickly was able to recognize two little arms and two little legs. It was love at first sight…She didn’t have the picture up more than 45 seconds before she told me she suspected a “demise” and left to get the doctor.  I sat there, all alone, beginning to feel waves of emotions start taking their toll…love for the baby I saw, fear for what the doctor would say, anger at the ultrasound tech, hope that she was wrong…when the doctor came in she confirmed what the tech had thought.  Our baby had passed away…there had indeed been a ”demise”.  His/her short life ended at 10 weeks and 4 days. I found out on April 1st, 2010.  The worst April Fool’s joke you can imagine. [Read more…]

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Kendra

Mom to Roy

December 17, 2007 – May 19, 2008

Atlanta, Georgia

Well, where do I start? I guess I should start by telling you how we found out we were pregnant, which was kind of a funny story really. Well, it was the scariest day of my life to say the least. I had only been with my boyfriend for about 8 wks when we found out we were 6+5. The other scary thing was that my boyfriend was technically still married according to the Marines. But anyway, I had been going to work all week prior to us finding out, when my boss had suggested that I might be pregnant and I thought she was nuts, lol! So, I decided to say something to my boyfriend about it when we decided to buy a pregnancy test. I took one that night and it came out positive, so I decided to take another one the next morning. When that one came out positive, I decided that I should probably make a doctors appointment. That’s when we found out I was 6+5. We then had to tell my parents that I was pregnant. My dad was shocked, I think, and the rest of my family was surprised because I don’t think they ever thought I who’d get pregnant, let alone married. [Read more…]

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