-MaryEllen

Second pregnancy lost at 16.5 weeks
Third pregnancy lost at 6 weeks
Fourth & Fifth pregnancies lost at 8 weeks

Harrisburg, Pennsylvania

My story, copied from my first blog post:

Med school in our early twenties.

Met shortly after that. Well, his last year and my first in Residency. On a medical mission trip in Costa Rica. Yeah, that’s how God started our life together… years with only a couple hundred miles apart but we had to meet a few thousand miles away.

First kid born full term, we were both 30; he was conceived after two months of “trying.” We’re thankful for fertility.

Human life is a blessing. We learned that in church (Catholic grade school for me, Sunday-school for him) and then again in medical school. When I dissected the hand in Anatomy, I really knew it. Only a divine creator could fathom something so intricately beautiful. And then on those ultrasounds, I really knew it. Finally, when you hold a perfect creation in your arms, it is true. What a gift.

About nine months later, we were pregnant for the second time. Miscarried at 16.5 week, baby number 2 had Trisomy 18. A blessing in disguise, they said. Better to lose her now, than later.

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IMG_1096Vanessa

Mom of Max Michael and Leo William

Born and died July 16, 2013

Boston, Massachusetts

My husband and I found each other when we were both in our late 30’s. We were ready to be married and we were ready to be parents. In the next 14 months (after our honeymoon) when we weren’t yet pregnant, our excitement turned to surprise and then soon to worry. I changed my diet (I’m a registered dietitian so of course this would help, right?) to follow the “fertility diet plan”, reduced my work hours from full to part time, started acupuncture, reduced my caffeine, reduced my physical activity to keep my heart rate under 110… you name it and I did it. My husband too, though all of his tests were fine, started reading about increasing his testosterone with cold showers, more cholesterol from food, etc. Basically, we felt like we had nothing to lose and if there were a chance it could help, why not?
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meJen

Mom to Lydia

March 15, 2014

Dedham, Massachusetts

We were going to call her Itty, Bitty, Liddie. Her real name was Lydia Mae. She was perfect! It’s funny how when you become pregnant, your imagination runs wild. You think about what they will look like and whose personality they will have. What funny things will they do? All of it. But you never imagine, what if they don’t make it? What if we lose our child? At least that’s one thing I didn’t imagine. How does anyone get through that? Well, Kevin and I have to. We lost Lydia when I was 26 weeks pregnant. It was our worst nightmare and something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7330.html

paint 3Shannon

Mom to Chase and Cayden

December 22, 2012

Brooklyn, New York

At 20 weeks, December 22, 2012, I lost my twin boys. Two days prior to going into preterm labor, I noticed a nickel-sized discharge with a speck of pink in it. I called my doctor and he let me know that if I saw more blood throughout the day to go to L&D. I knew in my heart that something was not right. I went to L&D that day and was given a pelvic exam, set up on monitors and assured that nothing was wrong and was sent home. Less than 48 hours later, I woke up at 3:30 a.m. to severe lower back pain and 5 bowel movements in 2 hours. My husband and I rushed to the hospital. I noticed that my pain was every 1-2 minutes and that it was probably contractions.

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552732_4274233256686_1586568086_nHillary

Mom to Shiloh

June 25, 2013

Grand Rapids, Michigan

Our baby girl was diagnosed with a cystic hygroma (extra fluid on the back of her neck) at our 13-week ultrasound. The doctors told us she most likely had a chromosomal abnormality that caused the hygroma, and there was a chance she could die before she was born. We were devastated, as we wanted everything to be perfect with our first baby. We took a blood test that tested for Down Syndrome, Turners Syndrome, Trisomy 13, and Trisomy 18. The tests came back negative for all, and that is when we found out we were having a daughter.

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7175.html

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Shelby

Mom to Elijah ‘Murphy’ Rhett

June 18, 2014

Missouri

Wednesday, June 18th at 10:25pm we welcomed Elijah ‘Murphy’ Rhett.

Our day started like any other–husband had court, W and I got chores done around the house, and everyone was looking forward to seeing the baby and finding out the gender. However, our appointment didn’t go as expected. The doctor saw fluid on the baby’s tummy and skull, which we asked what that meant, and he went on to explain that there was no movement, no heartbeat.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/6987.html

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Chanel

Mom to Christopher – July 8, 2008

Michai – April 9, 2014

Aria Vianne – November 1, 2014 – November 2, 2014

Fort Lauderdale, Florida

I was pregnant with my first son in 2008 when my water broke at 16 weeks and I lost him. I was numb to the pain of this miscarriage, mainly because the people around me convinced me that I would get pregnant again and not to worry. It hurt me, but I didn’t allow myself to grieve. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7014.html

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Amanda

Mom to Brielle

August 2014

Auburn, Massachusetts

As soon as Teddy and I got married, we wanted to have kids right away. We started trying in October 2013, right after our wedding and we were so happy when we found out that I was pregnant by the end of March 2014. Everything went well during my pregnancy. I never got too sick, I was never too uncomfortable and I loved knowing I was growing a little baby inside of me. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7005.html

Faces of LossKrystal

Mother to Conner Timothy & Benjamin Michael

Born and lost on January 10, 2014

Illinois

I look at pictures of myself while I was pregnant, just a short 5 months ago [at time of writing]. I can’t help but think that I was so young back then; I have hardly aged since the pictures were last taken, but my heart now bears the weight of what seems like a million losses. It took nearly two years for my husband and I to get pregnant. Our babies were the fruition of the emotional and physical turmoil of IVF, and they were taken from us.  And yet, they were worth every single second of despair and frustration.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/6972.html

heather

Heather

Mom to Meredith

June 30, 2014

Saraland, Alabama

After almost 6 years of waiting, of doctor visits, research, tests, treatments, diet changes, and going off treatments, Jason & I finally saw that second line on a pregnancy test. i guess it was just intuition because I really had no reason to think I needed to take a test that day. We amazingly got into my doctor the same day. I was 5 weeks. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/6953.html

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Kelly

Mom to Jack Wyatt

Born and died March 19, 2013

Ann Arbor, Michigan

My first trimester had been pretty rocky – I had a what they called “threatened miscarriages” but after no miscarriage actually happened and my hormone levels kept rising – we were eventually told I had a subchorionic hematoma (or blood clot in the uterus) and to try and stay off my feet as much as possible and hope it cleared up on its own. That was stressful and scary. Around week 12, the ultrasound showed no sign of it! We were overjoyed. Then around week 16, more weird problems. I was having trouble urinating – I would feel like I had to go really bad, but nothing would come out. I went into the hospital and they diagnosed me with a super rare condition called “incarcerated uterus”. What happens is that the uterus gets trapped under the pubic bone as the baby grows, which blocks off the urethra, making it impossible to urinate. They had to keep me in catheters for 3 days (so not fun) – then they tried to physically move it out by hand, but it was excruciatingly painful for me, so my Dr. booked an OR and they gave me a spinal, then popped it out and into place. I could describe how scary and painful this whole ordeal was–but it seems almost trivial now, given what happened six weeks later. This was nothing–Jack was still alive, and that’s what mattered. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/6932.html

BeFunky_Instant_1Kendall

Mother of an Angel, Deklin Lane Chance

November 17, 2001

Bremen, Georgia

Let’s see, where do I begin? How I can I even attempt to put this into words? Not really sure but here ya go! Maybe I am writing this to help myself or it could be to help someone else that is going through or has been through the same thing. Or perhaps it’s simply to get my story out there that life truly does begin at the time of conception. Nothing irritates me more than to hear someone call a baby a “thing” or a “fetus”; they are babies plain and simple.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/6904.html

166738_10151522987259508_437982741_nTricia

Mom to Isabelle Skye

Stillborn February 13, 2013

Schenectady, New York

To make a long story short, I had finally conceived after 2 years of trying and was so happy, but it sadly ended in miscarriage faster than I ever imagined. I literally found out I was pregnant and lost the baby a week later. It was devastating for me . Thankfully, my husband was by my side the whole time and was very supportive. After that, we gave TTC a little break as I could not handle it emotionally. After a few months, we decided to go ahead and keep trying and two more years later, nothing still. I was starting to get discouraged and bummed out. Also my cycles started to become a little off and I would skip a month here and there, or sometimes two. Well, in September we really put all effort into this baby-making thing and we tried every day. I was drinking some herbal teas to enhance fertility and really just trying to not have any stress.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6740.html

emilyEmily

Mom to Ethan Andrew, lost on March 23, 2010

Mom to “Little One,” lost in August 2010

St. Paul, Minnesota

I’m Emily. I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome as a teenager, so we knew from the start that it might be difficult for us to conceive. I took my last birth control pill on my 24th birthday and we gave it a few months before asking my doctor for a little extra help. She wrote a prescription for Clomid and sent us on our way. About a week later, when the Clomid didn’t seem to be working, she referred us to a reproductive endocrinologist. Dr. C spent over an hour with us, explaining the plan and the medications. He wanted to reboot my system with a month of birth control pills but needed me to take a pregnancy test first. It was just a formality. I peed in the cup, set it in the little box and joined my husband Andrew to wait for the nurse to bring us the birth control pills. She never came. Instead, Dr. C dropped off a pregnancy test with two beautiful pink lines. We couldn’t believe it! Joy rushed in full force. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6582.html

Jessica Morse

Jessica

Mom to Noel Elizabeth

Born sleeping on October 27, 2012

Austin, Texas

I found out I was pregnant on July 22, 2012. My husband and I had not been trying as we have three boys already, two from his previous marriage and a 3-year-old together. The timing was just not right for our family. After letting it sink in for a few days, we started to get excited about a new baby. What if this one was a girl? We started talking about plans and how excited we were at the possibility of having a little girl. I dreamed of pink ribbons and tutus. We went in for our first appointment August 16th. We saw our little peanut with the heart just flickering away. We fell in love immediately. The first trimester flew by without any major problems except for terrible morning sickness. I took this in stride and with the help of Zofran was able to go about my days normally. Before I knew it, it was time for our NT scan. I couldn’t wait to see Peanut again. It was there that we found out Peanut was most likely a girl. I was so incredibly happy. Everything was falling into place. With her birth, our family would be complete. My husband and I immediately started thinking about names. We kept going back and forth on different names. I wasn’t worried about picking out a name right away, as we had plenty of time.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6489.html

Christen

Mom to angel babies
November 11, 2012 (11 weeks)
June 2012 (15 weeks)
November 2013 (9 weeks)

My husband and I became pregnant with our first child when we were only 19.  After having our healthy baby boy (April 2010), we decided to wait a few years until trying for our second.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2014/03/6332.html

Miranda

Mom to Baby Sellers

Lost October 12, 2012

Vinton, Iowa

My name is Miranda. My husband and I live in a small town in eastern Iowa. I am twenty-three years old and my husband is twenty-seven. We have been together for 6 years, and married since September 2010. We have one dog named Hank (a beagle) who is our baby, and two cats, Peanut and Reggie. This is our story of trying to conceive and a second trimester miscarriage. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/11/6199.html

Candace

Mom to Scarlett
Born and died September 19, 2012

and

Aiden
Born and died September 20, 2012

Fontana, California

I felt like we had been awaiting these babies for over two years; with all the planning and hurdles we had to get through, this was finally going to be the big reward.  We were finally going to have these babies in our arms, only three or four more months to go. Then everything changed and we were in the battle to save our babies lives. We never thought this was the one battle we would lose. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/11/6173.html

Adrienne

Mom to multiple losses:

17 week loss in December 2010,

Chemical pregnancy in March 2012,

Missed miscarriage (possible molar pregnancy) in June 2012,

and

Chemical pregnancy in October 2012

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

My journey began in August of 2010 when I found out I was pregnant after just six months of trying. I was stunned that it happened so easily and quickly. We didn’t chart, take my temperature or use any Ovulation Predictor Kits. I simply went off birth control, relaxed, had fun and it happened! My husband and I were so excited. I was already 8 weeks along when I found out, because I’d had some spotting that I thought was my period. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6133.html

Mel

Mom to Henry Lefebvre Bonnell

Born and died September 28, 2012

Montreal, Quebec, Canada

We had our first ultrasound on September 19, 2012 – the day we found out that everything was not OK.

While an ultrasound uses sound vibrations to get an image of babies inside their mummies, these sound waves crashed into the depths of our lives and reverberated throughout the universe in a spiral until it came to a deafening halt on September 28. We’re now trying to pick through the rubble and aftershock.

We had no idea anything had been awry during my pregnancy – no false contractions, bleeding, or anything else – just a regular, easy pregnancy to date that brought us a lot of joy.

During our first ultrasound, we were, at first, elated. It was our first time seeing our child. We found him to be the most beautiful little baby, and we were so proud. [Read more…]

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