October 18, 2012 By 4 Comments

Sarah

Mom to Silas Theodore
Lost September 2, 2011 at 18 ½ weeks gestation,

and twins Asher Saul
Lost May 10, 2012 at 19 weeks gestation

and

Sadie Irene
Lost May 14, 2012 at 20 weeks gestation

Michigan City, Indiana

I was absolutely ecstatic and shocked beyond belief when I found out I was pregnant with Silas. I think it took me 6 pregnancy tests over the course of a weekend to really believe I was finally being blessed with a child at 32 years of age. I had tried to conceive naturally for almost two years and I think I had just given up hope that it was ever going to happen. Needless to say, I was very involved with my prenatal visits and constantly read up on everything I could be expecting and what I should do to ensure a healthy pregnancy.  I don’t think I ever prayed so much in my whole life! But as I got bigger, my pregnancy started to cause me concern. I had a lot of unexplained shooting pains when I would stand up or sneeze, and I sneeze a lot when I’m pregnant! The doctors always reassured me everything was normal and I got extra ultrasounds and examinations to ensure this. By the time Silas was born at 18 1/2 weeks, I think I already had 4 pictures of him proudly displayed around the house and near my bed! [Read more...]

Filed Under: 18 weeks, 19 weeks, 20 weeks, 2011, 2012, Incompetent Cervix, Indiana, pPROM, Preterm labor, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth, Twins
July 13, 2012 By 4 Comments

LaTanya

Mom to Kennedy Joi

Born April 14, 2012 at 24 weeks
Died May 21, 2012

Chicago, Illinois

My water broke week 22 of my pregnancy. A pregnancy that we had been working at for the past year and half and finally, through the use of 3 IUI sessions, Kennedy Joi was conceived in November 2011. I had a great pregnancy, no morning sickness, adjusted really well but nervous up through the 1st trimester, so was not very open until we got past that 12 week mark. Being pretty healthy before pregnancy and not having any real problems, my water breaking at 22 weeks was alarming for my husband and me. We assumed with all the medical advancements that it would be something that could be fixed, but after being in hospital for 2 days and having numerous ultrasounds, we knew we were in for something more. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 24 weeks, Illinois, Infertility, IUI, NICU, pPROM, premature birth, Renal Failure
June 30, 2012 By 3 Comments

Tiyama

Mom to Azriel Aiden

Born and died April 14, 2012

Sacramento, California

My husband and I always wanted to be parents. We spent hours talking on the phone early in our relationship discussing how many we wanted, discipline, names. We were blessed with 3 beautiful boys, but they weren’t without their unique and stressful/scary entrances. My last 2 were IC (incompetent cervix) issues. When DH and I talked about #4, we were excited, this would be our first planned pregnancy, determined to make this one much smoother and make it to term again, I had done it once with my oldest and just barely with my second. We tried for just over a year, and felt something wasn’t right. We both got checked out, I was just fine but DH not so much, he had secondary infertility. We couldn’t believe it, it would take IVF with ICSI to have another child. DH did not want to do that but felt terrible because I could get pregnant and his refusal meant I wouldn’t. A few nights later, DH brought up a subject we had talked about in passing years ago, sperm donation. We kept talking and decided to look into it to see if it was something we really wanted to explore. We were delighted to not only have found a donor website that we felt safe about but a donor that lived about an hour away. I got in touch with him and we exchanged emails, talked on the phone and felt we were all compatible. Four cycles/donations later, we found out we were pregnant a few days before Christmas 2011. Best gift ever! :) [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2012, Incompetent Cervix, Neonatal death, pPROM
June 30, 2012 By 7 Comments

Katariina

Mom to Evelyn May

Born April 29, 2012 and died June 6, 2012

Las Vegas, Nevada

I am writing this exactly 3 weeks after my precious little girl passed away in my arms.

It all started December 21st, 2011, when we found out we were expecting. I went to the store off of a hunch that I was pregnant (despite being on the birth control pill for over 2 years) and bought 2 pregnancy tests. I knew deep down that one positive test would not convince me. As soon as I got home, I took the one, positive, and then the other, also positive. I was shocked! To unexpectedly have a baby is a scary and exciting feeling wrapped into one anxious, live-changing moment. I called my boyfriend into the bathroom and fell to my knees crying. The fear that he would be upset was in my heart, but to my surprise, he picked me up and held me. I said to him, “What are we going to do…?” He replied with a smile, “We’re going to have a baby, that’s what we’re going to do.” I went telling my whole family about the change in our lives. I even took a third pregnancy test that night to be EXTRA sure. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, NEC, Neonatal death, Nevada, pPROM
June 23, 2012 By 3 Comments

Jill

Mom to Ethan Corbett

Born and died March 14, 2012

Pawtucket, Rhode Island

I found out I was pregnant on November 7th 2011, I woke up with a strange urge to take a pregnancy test even though I wasn’t expecting my period for another two days, when the test came out positive, I was so happy and spent the rest of the day peeking at the test to make sure there were still two lines. My boyfriend and I were beyond happy, we had our beautiful daughter and now we would be expecting a new addition to our happy little family. My due date was July 16th. The pregnancy was great, no problems other than a little morning sickness and some heartburn. The whole entire pregnancy I thanked God for giving me the gift of another baby, my daughter is so loved by us and so many others, I knew this baby would be just the same. When we told everyone we were expecting again, we received so much love and support everyone was so excited to meet our new baby, he was going to be the first boy in the family! We made it past the “3 month” mark and I took a breath of relief, the time you have to “worry about” had passed and everything was great. We were so happy. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 22 weeks, Neonatal death, pPROM, premature birth
June 10, 2012 By 2 Comments

Helene

Mom to Andreas (Lille)

Born and died April 4, 2001

Helsingborg, Sweden

I’m Helene, the proud mother of 3 boys: one with cancer, one without, and one who lives only as a memory in my heart.

On April 4th 2001, I gave birth to a little tiny baby boy, who was  far from ready for this brutal world , and who never would have been, no matter how I would have loved him and cared for him had I been given the chance.

He lives now only in my heart, in my memory of what was, and my dreams of what should have been. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 19 weeks, 2001, Late Miscarriage, Oligohydramnios, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Sweden
May 12, 2012 By 3 Comments

Jen

Mom to Mariah and Juliette

Born and died March 5, 2012

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

My husband and I have been married seven years and through patience, hard work, dreaming, and a bit of luck – we have managed to build a beautiful and fulfilling life together. A couple years ago we decided we were ready to start trying for our family. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2012, Pennsylvania, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth, Twins
April 3, 2012 By 6 Comments

Jessica

Jacob Austin

Born February 10, 2012

Due June 3, 2012

Jacksonville, Texas

January 22nd I started the hardest journey of my life. I woke up about 5:30am, after having the chills and what felt like a fever all night. 

I kissed my husband goodbye, since he had to be at work at 6:30 that morning… went and sat on the couch and noticed that all wasn’t right.  We had company over so I just tried relaxing on the couch since I had been placed on complete bed rest. About 8:15 or 8:30 I began noticing a sensation I hadn’t before. My water had broken.  I called my mother and my husband and let them know I was going to the emergency room.  After that I told my company I had to leave, and they so kindly packed all of their things and drove me the 50+ miles to the closest hospital. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 23 weeks, Infection, pPROM, Stillbirth, Texas
December 7, 2011 By 5 Comments

Bianca

Mom to Olivia Sky

Born May 7, 2011-Went back with her angels May 7, 2011

Santa Fe, New Mexico

 

“Come under cover of night and I’ll waiting
I’ll be biding my time, just to see you again
But please, don’t ask me questions
Cause you may not like what the answers might be”

“Let’s not speak of faith
We’ll tell only lies
Here, love is what you might find…”

                Steve Reynolds “Cover of Night”

My story

I had a feeling that I wasn’t able to get pregnant, but then again in the past, I never intentionally tried to. I was busy finishing my school, my goals and my fun that I still wanted to have.

I was in Oklahoma City visiting my mother for the Christmas holiday last year and I have this memory of a conversation that we had about babies. “Are you going to ever have kids?” “Are you ok if you don’t?” My mom asked. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 23 weeks, pPROM, premature birth, Preterm labor
November 23, 2011 By 5 Comments

Lindsey

Mom to Lily Sarah Ellen

Lost on August 31, 2011

Mountain View, CA

 

“There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.” ~Mahatma Gandhi

My daughter Lily went from living in my womb to residing forever in my heart on August 31, 2011. I was 14 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At the time I am writing these words, it has been nearly three months since I lost my baby girl, just about the length of time I carried her in my body. Many of these lines were lifted straight from the journal I started while I was hospitalized following her death. If it seems disjointed, it’s because it was written over a period of many days, during many different moods. It has been a difficult process, putting them to type, but one done in loving memory of the baby who will always be, to me, my first child. Not a “miscarried fetus” or a “hope of a baby that never was,” but my first child: a true, unique and beloved individual. My story is a tribute to her memory, and is written in the hope that it may bring both comfort to other mothers who have lost their precious unborn babies, and awareness to those who, having never experienced such a tragedy themselves, are struggling to understand the experience.  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 14 weeks, 2011, Antidepressants During Pregnancy, California, D and E, Grief and loss, Infant loss, miscarriage, MTHFR, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Spotting, Suicidal, Unexplained loss, Unknown reason
October 14, 2011 By 1 Comment

Jessica

Early Twin Miscarriage at 11 weeks

January 2nd, 2011

 and “Spock” – Miscarried at 14 weeks

August 4th, 2011

Virginia Beach, Virginia

My story begins in March 2010 when my husband and I started trying to conceive. We are in our twenties and like any young, military couple, we wanted to start our family a little earlier than most. A long seven months later, we discovered we were pregnant! At just 5 weeks, we made multiple ER visits due to bleeding and spotting and discovered there was not just one but TWO gestational sacs. Shocked and in disbelief, my husband and I started telling all our family and friends. Although my hormones were still increasing, it was still too early to see any heartbeats. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 11 weeks, 14 weeks, 2011, first trimester loss, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Virginia
October 13, 2011 By 3 Comments

Kristal

Mom to Graham Lee

March 18th, 2010

and Slade Douglas

October 11th, 2010

Weatherford, Texas

My angels in Heaven…

I’ve never wanted anything more than to be a wife and mommy all of my life. My amazing husband and I were married in November of 2007, and following that December 1, 2009 was the another happy day of our lives. We were surprised to find out we were expecting our first bundle of joy. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 21 weeks, 25 weeks, Cystic Hygroma, hydrops, Multiple loss, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Texas
October 11, 2011 By 1 Comment

April

Mom to Hope Snider

July 23rd, 2011

Portsmouth, Virginia

My angel daughter, Hope, was stillborn on July 23, 2011 at 20.4 weeks.  At 17.5 weeks, I went to see my doctor because I was having some bleeding. I was diagnosed with a small placental abruption (a condition where the placenta begins to pull away from the uterus). At that time they were not too concerned because it was so small. I was ordered to do no heavy lifting or exercise and to just take it easy. I did that, but ended up back at the doctors a few days later with some cramping and continued bleeding. At that point, they put me on a modified bed rest to try and get everything under control. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2011, pPROM, Stillbirth, Virginia
September 30, 2011 By 1 Comment

Victoria

Mom to Gideon Raymond Matthew

March 30th, 2011 – April 16th, 2011

Conwy, United Kingdom

Gideon, my first child, a tiny warrior, died in the special care baby unit at only 17 days old. This is his story.

We had been trying to get pregnant for 2 years, so the day we got our first ever positive pregnancy test was the most exciting and happiest of my life. But I was also cautious; I was terrified I was going to miscarry, and so we tried not to tell people for a while. But at 8 weeks we had a scan, and our baby was fine, measuring on target with a good heart rate, so we plucked up the courage to announce the pregnancy. Everyone was so happy for us, having assumed we’d need fertility treatment to get pregnant. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Infant loss, Neonatal death, NICU, pPROM, premature birth, UK
July 11, 2011 By 2 Comments


Rachel Deitz

Mom to Vala Faith June 2010

and

Jordan Alexander lost to pProm born May 14, 2011 and Passed May 15, 2011

Orange Park Florida

 

In the beginning of 2010 my husband and got a surprise when he took me to the doctor since my voice was gone.  They did a pregnancy test before they gave me any medicine. She came back in and told us I was around 6 weeks along. I was so happy but scared too cause I was bleed pretty bad but they kept telling me as long as I was not passing any clots me and the baby would be fine.   [Read more...]

Filed Under: 10 weeks, 20 weeks, 2011, Early Miscarriage, first trimester loss, first trimester miscarriage, Florida, Incompetent Cervix, pPROM, Second trimester loss
April 16, 2011 By 2 Comments

Melissa

Mom to Hadley

February 28th, 2011

Haslet, Texas

Scars and Bruises

We lost our sweet Hadley on February 28, 2011.  On February 12, I woke up and realized that my water had broke and I was losing fluid quickly.  Hadley survived on little to no fluid for 17 days.  She was born and then welcomed into Heaven on February 28, and she has changed my heart forever.  Here is a blog post I wrote a couple weeks after she went to be with our Jesus… [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, pPROM, premature birth, Texas
January 19, 2011 By 4 Comments
Lisa
Mom to Lewis Jack Warner
December 29th, 2010
Indianapolis, Indiana
I married my high school sweetheart, Jon, nearly eight years ago. After years of playing with nieces and nephews and talking incessantly about what our children would be like, we decided it was time to expand our family. On September 27th of last year we saw two pink lines. We jumped up and down. We kissed. We danced. We nicknamed our little one Ziggy. We immediately shared the news with family. We only made it a few more weeks before we told the world. My due date was set for June 7th, one day before my birthday. My pregnancy was great. Other than being tired and having some headaches, I felt wonderful. My baby bump grew fast, and I loved it. I couldn’t wait to look down and not be able to see my toes. I was blessed to be able to feel butterfly kicks really early too. I never imagined that those kicks wouldn’t get stronger.

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Filed Under: 17 weeks, 2010, First child, Indiana, Infant loss, pPROM, premature birth, Second trimester loss
November 5, 2010 By 5 Comments

Heather
Mom to Stellan Gregory
May 18, 2010
Columbus, OH
 
There are some who say that I had a miscarriage. In no way would I ever want to downplay how horrible a miscarriage is, but I’m telling you, I didn’t have a miscarriage.
I found out on my birthday, March 1st, that I was pregnant. My husband and I had been trying for 3-4 months, and at age 34, I was a little worried that it wouldn’t be easy. But, we surprised ourselves, and here I was, happily pregnant for the first time! I immediately starting worrying about the chances of miscarriage; I learned all the signs and symptoms, but, to my relief, everything was going great. At the 12 week mark, I finally stopped worrying, and thought, “Wow, this is really going to happen.”
 

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Filed Under: 2010, ohio, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth
November 2, 2010 By 2 Comments

Jennifer
Mom to Aidon William Pointer
December 12th, 2006
Marshall, Missouri
My son Aidon was born at 20 weeks on December 12, 2006 at 5:40pm. I had 4 first trimester losses in the years before I was with my husband but I was clueless to a lot of it then. I would find out I was pregnant then miscarry. 


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Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2006, Missouri, pPROM, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth
October 30, 2010 By 2 Comments

Stacey
Mom to Dillan Jesse P. Leombruno
September 17th, 1999
12:20 a.m. – 1:52 p.m.
Clifton Park, New York
Dillan’s Life…..

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Filed Under: 1999, Neonatal death, New York, NICU, pPROM, premature birth
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