Heidi

Mom to Unnamed, lost April 27, 2012
at 4 weeks

and

Jalen Adoniah, lost August 27, 2012
at 7 weeks 4 days

Boonville, North Carolina

As long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a mother. When my husband and I got married, we knew we didn’t want to wait long for kids. We decided to wait a year, but were OK with it happening before that. Once we decided to “officially” try for a baby, we were excited, hoping it would happen quickly for us. When it didn’t happen several months later, we began trying different supplements, etc. and grew more and more discouraged. [Read more...]

Megan

Mom to Byron Matthew
Born and died at 20 weeks on October 10, 2008,

Early miscarriage, June 5, 2009,

and

Isabella Madison
Stillborn at 16 weeks on December 6, 2009.

Jacksonville, North Carolina

Whenever I thought about having children, I never imagined anything bad, scary, traumatic. You see so many women have normal, healthy pregnancies where nothing ever goes wrong and it just never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be one of those “normal” women. Never in one million years would I have imagined that I would be where I am today.

I remember finding out I was pregnant for the first time like it was yesterday. I was 20 years old and had been married to my husband for almost one year. My hand was shaking so hard I could barely show him the test results. I was nervous, excited, scared…so many different emotions all at the same time. I had my first ultrasound when I was 9 weeks pregnant. I cried as soon as I saw my little baby and heard his heart beat. It was such an amazing thing to me to see this life that I had created. That moment was something I could never really find the words to explain. [Read more...]

Tricia

Mom to an angel

Miscarried February 16, 2012

Hickory, North Carolina

My husband and I got married September 3, 2010 and began trying to conceive pretty much right away. I had very irregular cycles already and I decided to see my doctor about having some tests done. I was diagnosed with PCOS in May of 2011. After discovering I am resistant to oral fertility medications and one failed round of intra-uterine insemination, we decided to take a break from fertility treatments. I was not expecting to be able to become pregnant on my own in the mean time. [Read more...]

Chirleen

Mom to Caleb Reed Evans

Born still April 17, 2012

Hertford, North Carolina

I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now, but it never seemed to be the “right” time.  I have kept that night close to my heart but have managed to get a lot of the details out of order and confused in my head.  My mom was thoughtful enough to take photos immediately following Caleb’s birth.  It must have taken an incredible amount of strength to do what she did; looking at the photos I know it must have been difficult to hold the camera steady to capture those precious moments.  I will forever be grateful to her.  These photos tell a story that although I was present for physically, my heart was trying so hard to be somewhere else, where Caleb’s heart was still beating and where Caleb would hear our voices as we told him how much we love him… [Read more...]

Melissa

Mom to twins

Lost June 28, 2012, between 7 and 9 weeks’ gestation

Hickory, North Carolina

I want to start with my good things. Between me and my spouse, we have 7 healthy , happy (for the most part) children, 3 each from previous marriages and 1 together, ranging from age 22 down to 3. He has a set of identical twins that will be 16 this year. We are blessed. Therefore…it was shocking to us while being on the pill to get a positive home test on June 5, 2012. Two more positive tests at home to follow, but I was bleeding and spotting so I went to the doctor. June 6, they did a vaginal exam and drew blood for hCG. I was pregnant. But a follow up hCG on June 8 was next. When I went in, they did another vaginal exam and decided based on info I did not know yet – my hCG was high – to do an ultrasound. [Read more...]

Grace

Mom to Ryder Benjamin

Born sleeping January 21, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

In May 2011 I found out I was expecting our third baby. At first I was nervous and scared since we had just relocated and we were hours from any family or friends and I was scared about my husband’s job that we had relocated for. As time went on I got really excited and when I found out I was having a boy…I was over the moon! After 2 daughters I was so happy we were going to have our son. [Read more...]

Annie

Mom to Carpenter

Born to Heaven February 19, 2011 at 23 weeks 6 days

Winston-Salem, North Carolina

In 2008, I was at a crossroads.  Continue dating a person everyone (including myself) knew I shouldn’t be with, or be alone in what seemed to be a couples-only world.  A night of crying and drinking with my best friend cemented it for me…  But I have never been a solo kind of person.  So, I vowed that day that I would find my future husband in the next man I met.  So, I signed up for eHarmony, met Mike, went on a date and started talking about marriage–all within about a month of my vow.  11 months later, we were engaged.  11 months after that, married.  And just 5 days after our one year anniversary, our daughter was born.  [Read more...]

Ashley

Mom to Sweet Angel Baby

Died on April 18, 2011 due to early miscarriage at 5 weeks

Indian Trail, North Carolina

My husband and I have been together for 11 years and married for 5 of them and we always knew we wanted children.  We officially stopped “NOT” trying in February 2011, and on April 2, 2011 we discovered we were in fact pregnant.  I took 5 pregnancy tests to be sure.  We were definitely preggo. I had already scheduled a doctor’s appointment for that Monday so it seemed everything was just falling into place.  The doctor confirmed we were pregnant and told us she would see us again the later part of May for my first ultrasound.  Sadly, we never made it that far. [Read more...]

Molly

Mom to Eden Elizabeth

Stillborn March 18, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

Around 8 p.m. on Saturday, March 17th, I noticed I was having a few small contractions. I didn’t think too much of them since I had been having painless contractions for the past week or so. I had been at the hospital earlier that day for my blood pressure and for the 3 hours I was there, only 1 contraction had been shown on the monitor. I figured that these contractions were either fake or still the very, very start of early labor at 38 weeks. I went about my business, putting my 2-year-old son Isaiah to bed, and then fell asleep on the couch after watching my boyfriend Keith and his friend play a few games of pool. I woke up around midnight and realized the contractions were still coming pretty consistently. I asked Keith to stay up and watch a movie with me, even though I knew it was a bad idea considering it was the last full night of sleep we’d be getting for a while. We stayed up, watching Nightmare on Elm Street and talking about how unprepared I felt while Keith rubbed my back and reassured me that everything would be taken care of. At about 5 a.m., my contractions were about 7 minutes apart. Keith had already fallen asleep and even though I felt un-ready, nervous, and anxious, I decided to try to get a few hours of sleep. [Read more...]

Monica

Mom to Ryan Alan – December 7, 2011
and
Andrew Jonathan – December 8, 2011

Oak Island, North Carolina

After trying to conceive for 4 years my husband and I discovered we were pregnant with triplets in September.  We were happy but overwhelmed; at 7 weeks we met with the maternal fetal specialist who explained the risks and options.  She sent us to Duke to meet with another specialist who did genetic testing and advised us to reduce to twins.  It was a very hard decision but we felt that it would give the other two the best chance.  It was a horrible procedure to go through, and in hindsight I don’t know that I would do it again, but at the time I thought I was increasing my babies’ odds…It was so strange to grieve one and yet be excited for two. [Read more...]

Roxie

Mom to Corbin Michael

February 13, 2012 – February 16, 2012

Salisbury, North Carolina

The day we found out that we were going to be parents was filled with joy, nervousness, etc. I was so excited to start shopping for little baby clothes, hats and so much more. My first ultrasound was on October 4, 2011 @ 11 weeks 5 days and Josh was so entertained with the thought that his baby looked like the Predator in the picture. That day we started picking out names, I was wishing for a little girl and Josh was wishing for a little boy. On November 12, 2011 @ 17 weeks 2 days we went to Watch Me Grow and saw our baby in 3D/4D and found out that we were having a little boy. Josh was extremely happy. We already decided that we were going to name him Corbin Michael. Over the first 7 months of my pregnancy everything was wonderful. I never had any issues, no morning sickness, only a little back pain as I got towards the end of the 2nd trimester. Everything was always fine at my doctors appointments.  On Saturday, January 28, 2012 @ 28 weeks 2 days, we had another 3D/4D ultrasound and got to see our handsome son. We got to see his little fingers and watch him play with his nose. Every ultrasound that we did he was always sitting Indian style (legs crossed) which Josh said he got from me. [Read more...]

Megan

Mom to Baby Christian

Born on January 27, 2012

Died on January 24, 2012

Mooresville, North Carolina

It’s hard to even believe what has happened in the past few weeks, but I’ve been told it could be therapeutic to share my story.  I know how much it’s helped me reading other people’s stories, so here goes. [Read more...]

Teneal

Mama to Kamryn Avery, bornstill March 11, 2006
and
Oliver Cullen, bornstill January 17, 2012

Raleigh, North Carolina

My husband and I have 5 beautiful children, Lauren is 13, Hailey is 11, Kaleb is 8, Bodie is 3, & Lilah is 1.  After Kaleb, in 2005, we decided to try and conceive again and were so excited to find out very soon after starting that we were pregnant again.

Traci

Mom to Victoria Elizabeth

Lost at 6 Weeks, D & C at 11 Weeks

Archer Nicholas

June 29th, 2004 – July 8th, 2004

Thatch, Lost at 4 Weeks

and Ella Mae, Lost at 8 Weeks

Sylva, North Carolina

It was my 38th birthday. My husband and I were on a mini vacation in Las Vegas, and I got pregnant for the first time ever. When I found out I was beyond thrilled! I had recently started seeking adoption information because I thought I couldn’t conceive. [Read more...]

Ashley

Mother of Gavin Michael

August 16th, 2011 – August 18th, 2011

Kernersville, North Carolina

His name is Gavin Michael and he was beautiful.  He had his mom’s hands, skin tone and hair color and his dad’s everything else.  He came into this world weighing 1 pound 7.34 ounces, without a doubt, the tiniest baby we had ever seen, but also the most perfect.  He had a iron will and the heart of lion.  He was pure and gentle.  As we joyfully welcomed our tiny miracle, we soon also welcomed the most unwanted visitor, death.  We would never be able to hold our son, not until he was taking his last breaths.  We would never be able to dress him, not until he was being dressed for his funeral.  We couldn’t cradle him, or kiss his beautifully crafted face until he was in the quiet throws of death.  Never would be able to comfort his cries, hear his laughter, feed him or even change a dirty diaper.  He would never come home, not until he was brought inside a tiny, palm sized urn and placed ever so delicately into a music box, instead of his crib.     [Read more...]

Heather

Mom to Gracie

January 29th, 2010

Maiden, North Carolina

Well, I guess I’ll start from the very beginning… Me and my husband had just had our first little Girl Sophie Leeann Stultz. She was a month old when we found out we were pregnant again. Ohh boy is what I thought… We could barely afford Sophie and now we’re going to add another little life into this mess… [Read more...]

Felicia

Mom to Malik DeShawn Perry

April 15th, 2010 – June 29th, 2010

Lost to SIDS

and Baby Miscarried at 12 weeks

September 2011

Hendersonville, NC

I didnt know I was pregnant.  I found out I was on march 30th, 2010.  I was due April 3. [Read more...]

Amber

Mom to Dakota Blakely

Born to Angels May 24th, 2011

Fort Bragg, North Carolina

I suffer from a serious condition during pregnancy called Cholestasis. I found out I was getting it again with my daughter a few days from my doctor appointment, so I waited. I went in and they did the blood test and called me back a few days later to come in for a NST. [Read more...]

Marilia

Mom to Emily Grace

October 6th, 2010

Raleigh, North Carolina

 

It was my second child.

My husband and I got married and decided shortly after to start a family. I got pregnant right away and had a wonderful uneventful pregnancy. I delivered a beautiful healthy girl with no complications. I was a bit concerned that because of being of advanced age I might had difficulties but with my little girl it proved that there is nothing wrong about getting pregnant after 35. A year after we decided to try for our second child. I was very confident that nothing would go wrong as it was with my first. I knew of mothers that lost their babies and I knew it could happen but it was more like thinking driving and having a car accident. [Read more...]

Melissa

Mom to Cohan and Gavin

June 11th, 2011

Wilmington, North Carolina

March 9, 2011 was one of the happiest days of my life.  After eight months of being off of the pill, I had a positive pregnancy test.  Later I found out I was exactly five weeks on that day.  This was the first pregnancy for my husband and I.  We were not really trying, but we were not preventing… we were just going with the flow. We were so excited to begin this new chapter in our lives.  I consulted my OBGYN the following week to confirm my pregnancy and schedule my first appointment.  We couldn’t wait.  At ten weeks we went for our first visit and ultrasound.  To everyone’s surprise, we saw not one, but two little peanuts on the screen.  We couldn’t believe it, and neither could our family.  We were totally beside ourselves with joy.  Two tiny miracles, on our first pregnancy, and without fertility help. [Read more...]

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