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Brittany

Mom to Aulbrey Lynn Myers and Two Other Angels

Born Sleeping on May 28, 2017, March 27, 2016 and December 26, 2016

Graham, North Carolina

After 2 early pregnancy losses within a few months, I became pregnant again with high hopes. In February 2017, my husband and I were so scared but blessed and so excited at the same time to finally have the luxury of being parents. At my first appointment, I was 6 weeks pregnant. I was so terrified waiting on the doctor to come in to do my ultrasound. After having such bad luck with my other 2 pregnancies (one chemical and one blighted ovum), I was so full of hope. [I was] praying continuously for a heartbeat. I saw the flicker before my doctor could even measure the baby’s heart beat. I began to cry with joy.

We were so happy. Her heartbeat was 109 bpm, strong and healthy! I went in routinely as this was a high risk pregnancy because of the recurrent losses I’ve suffered. Everything was perfect. At 7 weeks, my baby was able to move around (couldn’t feel her yet) but we could see it on the screen at every appointment; she was very active. No problems at all. She grew fast. I had severe morning sickness up until I was 12 weeks. I went in for my NT scan. She was wiggling everywhere. She wouldn’t sit still for the scan, lol. My perfect active baby! I was so happy, happier than I’d ever been. I also had bloodwork done to check the baby for genetic defects, down syndrome and to find out the gender. The scan came back at 14 weeks, negative for any defects and I was told we were expecting a healthy and happy BABY GIRL!!! I was over the moon excited. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2017/09/8530.html

CHPICCrystal

Mom to Jesco Riley

November 9, 2012 – January 25, 2013

Hendersonville, North Carolina

Sweet Jesco was only 2 months and 16 days old that icy, cold Friday, January 25, 2013. That day was like always. Daddy fed him his morning bottle before work and we slept in. Jesco slept with me and his sister slept in her own bed in the next room. Daddy left for work. Later on, as I woke, I did as usual and rubbed his soft tiny body. This time, I immediately knew something was different.

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Mom to Dakota

August 19, 2013

Carrboro, North Carolina

My husband and I have been together since I was 18 and he was 20. We married young and had our first daughter shortly after. At 4 years of age, right around the time we started thinking about another baby, our sweet little girl was diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes. To say we were devastated was an understatement. With this disease and all that comes with it–multiple daily shots, multiple daily finger pricks to test her blood sugar, frightening high and low blood sugars, we thought that having a baby would be more than we could handle and decided to put it off until we got the hang of diabetes.

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http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7181.html

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Andrea

Mom to Baby Still

Born May 29, 2008

Charlotte, North Carolina

My husband and I had only been trying to get pregnant for about 3 months when I got my positive pregnancy test. It was Sunday morning and I woke my husband by saying, “Get up and ready for church! We need to go thank God for our baby!” and gave him the positive test. We were both ecstatic and took pictures of ourselves holding the test with big grins on our faces.

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Stephanie

Mom to Bella Grace Brown

Stillborn September 26, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

On September 25th 2012 I had a doctor’s appointment at 2:30 pm to check for Gestational Diabetes. Little did I know I would receive the most heartbreaking news an expecting mother can receive. The nurse called me back and checked my vitals and then handed me the sugar drink and timer and said the doctor would be right in to check on me.

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Torie

Mom to Aaron James Brooks

September 28-October 26, 2012

Raleigh, North Carolina

I replay every detail in my head of Aaron’s story over and over again. I lay in bed at night and relive it. I long and ache for my little one.

September 28, 2012 I was scheduled for a 25-week check-up. The doctor’s office was about 30 minutes away. Normally my husband would accompany me on these visits. That morning he was planning to, but we got into a fight. I told him that I would just go alone. Thankfully, though, we made up and he came with me. We left our oldest son with a babysitter, and we were on our way.

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Heidi

Mom to Unnamed, lost April 27, 2012
at 4 weeks

and

Jalen Adoniah, lost August 27, 2012
at 7 weeks 4 days

Boonville, North Carolina

As long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a mother. When my husband and I got married, we knew we didn’t want to wait long for kids. We decided to wait a year, but were OK with it happening before that. Once we decided to “officially” try for a baby, we were excited, hoping it would happen quickly for us. When it didn’t happen several months later, we began trying different supplements, etc. and grew more and more discouraged. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6086.html

Megan

Mom to Byron Matthew
Born and died at 20 weeks on October 10, 2008,

Early miscarriage, June 5, 2009,

and

Isabella Madison
Stillborn at 16 weeks on December 6, 2009.

Jacksonville, North Carolina

Whenever I thought about having children, I never imagined anything bad, scary, traumatic. You see so many women have normal, healthy pregnancies where nothing ever goes wrong and it just never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be one of those “normal” women. Never in one million years would I have imagined that I would be where I am today.

I remember finding out I was pregnant for the first time like it was yesterday. I was 20 years old and had been married to my husband for almost one year. My hand was shaking so hard I could barely show him the test results. I was nervous, excited, scared…so many different emotions all at the same time. I had my first ultrasound when I was 9 weeks pregnant. I cried as soon as I saw my little baby and heard his heart beat. It was such an amazing thing to me to see this life that I had created. That moment was something I could never really find the words to explain. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/09/5913.html

Tricia

Mom to an angel

Miscarried February 16, 2012

Hickory, North Carolina

My husband and I got married September 3, 2010 and began trying to conceive pretty much right away. I had very irregular cycles already and I decided to see my doctor about having some tests done. I was diagnosed with PCOS in May of 2011. After discovering I am resistant to oral fertility medications and one failed round of intra-uterine insemination, we decided to take a break from fertility treatments. I was not expecting to be able to become pregnant on my own in the mean time. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/08/5742.html

Chirleen

Mom to Caleb Reed Evans

Born still April 17, 2012

Hertford, North Carolina

I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now, but it never seemed to be the “right” time.  I have kept that night close to my heart but have managed to get a lot of the details out of order and confused in my head.  My mom was thoughtful enough to take photos immediately following Caleb’s birth.  It must have taken an incredible amount of strength to do what she did; looking at the photos I know it must have been difficult to hold the camera steady to capture those precious moments.  I will forever be grateful to her.  These photos tell a story that although I was present for physically, my heart was trying so hard to be somewhere else, where Caleb’s heart was still beating and where Caleb would hear our voices as we told him how much we love him… [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/07/5642.html

Melissa

Mom to twins

Lost June 28, 2012, between 7 and 9 weeks’ gestation

Hickory, North Carolina

I want to start with my good things. Between me and my spouse, we have 7 healthy , happy (for the most part) children, 3 each from previous marriages and 1 together, ranging from age 22 down to 3. He has a set of identical twins that will be 16 this year. We are blessed. Therefore…it was shocking to us while being on the pill to get a positive home test on June 5, 2012. Two more positive tests at home to follow, but I was bleeding and spotting so I went to the doctor. June 6, they did a vaginal exam and drew blood for hCG. I was pregnant. But a follow up hCG on June 8 was next. When I went in, they did another vaginal exam and decided based on info I did not know yet – my hCG was high – to do an ultrasound. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/06/5627.html

Grace

Mom to Ryder Benjamin

Born sleeping January 21, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

In May 2011 I found out I was expecting our third baby. At first I was nervous and scared since we had just relocated and we were hours from any family or friends and I was scared about my husband’s job that we had relocated for. As time went on I got really excited and when I found out I was having a boy…I was over the moon! After 2 daughters I was so happy we were going to have our son. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/06/5541.html

Annie

Mom to Carpenter

Born to Heaven February 19, 2011 at 23 weeks 6 days

Winston-Salem, North Carolina

In 2008, I was at a crossroads.  Continue dating a person everyone (including myself) knew I shouldn’t be with, or be alone in what seemed to be a couples-only world.  A night of crying and drinking with my best friend cemented it for me…  But I have never been a solo kind of person.  So, I vowed that day that I would find my future husband in the next man I met.  So, I signed up for eHarmony, met Mike, went on a date and started talking about marriage–all within about a month of my vow.  11 months later, we were engaged.  11 months after that, married.  And just 5 days after our one year anniversary, our daughter was born.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5379.html

Ashley

Mom to Sweet Angel Baby

Died on April 18, 2011 due to early miscarriage at 5 weeks

Indian Trail, North Carolina

My husband and I have been together for 11 years and married for 5 of them and we always knew we wanted children.  We officially stopped “NOT” trying in February 2011, and on April 2, 2011 we discovered we were in fact pregnant.  I took 5 pregnancy tests to be sure.  We were definitely preggo. I had already scheduled a doctor’s appointment for that Monday so it seemed everything was just falling into place.  The doctor confirmed we were pregnant and told us she would see us again the later part of May for my first ultrasound.  Sadly, we never made it that far. [Read more…]

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Molly

Mom to Eden Elizabeth

Stillborn March 18, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

Around 8 p.m. on Saturday, March 17th, I noticed I was having a few small contractions. I didn’t think too much of them since I had been having painless contractions for the past week or so. I had been at the hospital earlier that day for my blood pressure and for the 3 hours I was there, only 1 contraction had been shown on the monitor. I figured that these contractions were either fake or still the very, very start of early labor at 38 weeks. I went about my business, putting my 2-year-old son Isaiah to bed, and then fell asleep on the couch after watching my boyfriend Keith and his friend play a few games of pool. I woke up around midnight and realized the contractions were still coming pretty consistently. I asked Keith to stay up and watch a movie with me, even though I knew it was a bad idea considering it was the last full night of sleep we’d be getting for a while. We stayed up, watching Nightmare on Elm Street and talking about how unprepared I felt while Keith rubbed my back and reassured me that everything would be taken care of. At about 5 a.m., my contractions were about 7 minutes apart. Keith had already fallen asleep and even though I felt un-ready, nervous, and anxious, I decided to try to get a few hours of sleep. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5238.html

Monica

Mom to Ryan Alan – December 7, 2011
and
Andrew Jonathan – December 8, 2011

Oak Island, North Carolina

After trying to conceive for 4 years my husband and I discovered we were pregnant with triplets in September.  We were happy but overwhelmed; at 7 weeks we met with the maternal fetal specialist who explained the risks and options.  She sent us to Duke to meet with another specialist who did genetic testing and advised us to reduce to twins.  It was a very hard decision but we felt that it would give the other two the best chance.  It was a horrible procedure to go through, and in hindsight I don’t know that I would do it again, but at the time I thought I was increasing my babies’ odds…It was so strange to grieve one and yet be excited for two. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/04/5142.html

Roxie

Mom to Corbin Michael

February 13, 2012 – February 16, 2012

Salisbury, North Carolina

The day we found out that we were going to be parents was filled with joy, nervousness, etc. I was so excited to start shopping for little baby clothes, hats and so much more. My first ultrasound was on October 4, 2011 @ 11 weeks 5 days and Josh was so entertained with the thought that his baby looked like the Predator in the picture. That day we started picking out names, I was wishing for a little girl and Josh was wishing for a little boy. On November 12, 2011 @ 17 weeks 2 days we went to Watch Me Grow and saw our baby in 3D/4D and found out that we were having a little boy. Josh was extremely happy. We already decided that we were going to name him Corbin Michael. Over the first 7 months of my pregnancy everything was wonderful. I never had any issues, no morning sickness, only a little back pain as I got towards the end of the 2nd trimester. Everything was always fine at my doctors appointments.  On Saturday, January 28, 2012 @ 28 weeks 2 days, we had another 3D/4D ultrasound and got to see our handsome son. We got to see his little fingers and watch him play with his nose. Every ultrasound that we did he was always sitting Indian style (legs crossed) which Josh said he got from me. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/03/4804.html

Megan

Mom to Baby Christian

Born on January 27, 2012

Died on January 24, 2012

Mooresville, North Carolina

It’s hard to even believe what has happened in the past few weeks, but I’ve been told it could be therapeutic to share my story.  I know how much it’s helped me reading other people’s stories, so here goes. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/02/4710.html

Teneal

Mama to Kamryn Avery, bornstill March 11, 2006
and
Oliver Cullen, bornstill January 17, 2012

Raleigh, North Carolina

My husband and I have 5 beautiful children, Lauren is 13, Hailey is 11, Kaleb is 8, Bodie is 3, & Lilah is 1.  After Kaleb, in 2005, we decided to try and conceive again and were so excited to find out very soon after starting that we were pregnant again.

http://facesofloss.com/2012/02/4620.html

Traci

Mom to Victoria Elizabeth

Lost at 6 Weeks, D & C at 11 Weeks

Archer Nicholas

June 29th, 2004 – July 8th, 2004

Thatch, Lost at 4 Weeks

and Ella Mae, Lost at 8 Weeks

Sylva, North Carolina

It was my 38th birthday. My husband and I were on a mini vacation in Las Vegas, and I got pregnant for the first time ever. When I found out I was beyond thrilled! I had recently started seeking adoption information because I thought I couldn’t conceive. [Read more…]

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