Shan-Nel

Mom to Ashley Antoinette

Born and died April 22, 2011

Rosedale, Maryland

It was St. Patrick’s Day, March 17, 2011 when I went to the hospital from getting the WORST pain in my life to find out after the hospital nurses took samples that I was pregnant.

I was so shocked and thrilled at the same time. How was I pregnant for so long and not really know? I’m pregnant?! Yay! Wow! [Read more...]

Theresa

Mom to Grace

December 16th, 1998 – December 17th, 1998

Tasmania, Australia

After many months of trying to fall pregnant after a miscarriage we were thrilled to learn we were expecting a new baby. This baby was due February 22nd, one day after Granddad’s sixtieth birthday. The whole family was excited to be getting a new arrival. [Read more...]

Tristan

Mom to Gabriel

October 8, 2009 – November 5, 2009

Rockford, Michigan

I woke up early on the morning of February 27, 2009. It was my husband and my first anniversary, and for some reason, although we were not actively trying to become pregnant, I felt compelled to take a pregnancy test even though I wasn’t late yet. I sat there waiting, and honestly terrified. I was 20 years old, and my husband was 19. He had just lost his job, and it was nearly impossible to find work in our area. I pondered what would happen if I was pregnant, and how we could support a child. Finally, I couldn’t take the suspense anymore. I looked and saw two lines. Two. I felt like screaming with happiness, but I just walked into our bedroom where my husband was still sleeping. I woke him up, and told him I had found something important, and handed him the test. He didn’t trust the test, so we went to the local grocery store, and bought a digital test. Almost immediately “pregnant” popped up. We couldn’t have been happier. [Read more...]

Nikki

Mom to Alyssa, born and died February 22, 2008 at 22 weeks,
David, born January 12, 2009 and died January 15, 2009,
and miscarriages in 2008 and 2010

Springfield, Missouri

I had my first miscarriage in June 2007 at 12 weeks along. I was devastated. I blamed myself because I was diabetic, and my sugars hadn’t been controlled. I just knew it was my fault. My doctor told me it would be fine to try again, that we would just get me on insulin sooner and monitor me closely. I did get pregnant again about 3 or 4 months later. I was having a baby girl. [Read more...]

Jodi

Mom to Isaac Joseph

June 26 - June 28, 2004

Waterloo, Iowa

I am the face of neonatal death. In November of 2003, we learned Isaac Joseph was on the way. We were so excited.  This was our second child and we couldn’t feel more blessed. After an early ultrasound, his due date was set for July 7, 2004. I had a fairly easy pregnancy. With the exception of having low iron, everything went perfectly.  [Read more...]

Diane

Mom to William and Nathaniel Feb 1 1995

Emma and Elizabeth June 30th 1997
Baby “P” June 1999
Edan William August 16 2000
Esik Nathaniel March 15 2002
Ellanor November 22 2003
British Columbia, CA

I was 15 when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I didn’t believe it when my doctor told me, I even  told her it was impossible.  I had suffered ovarian cysts for some time and I honestly didn’t think I would ever be able to conceive.  I was also bleeding while my Dr told me from what I believed to be my period. My Dr ordered another urine sample pregnancy test and it came back positive again.  My boyfriend was 21, we were scared. My Dr gave me the advice to have an abortion and I refused. I went home and took it easy waiting for the bleeding to stop. The bleeding would calm when I was laying  down but once I sat up I would bleed again. At 10 weeks I had a huge bleeding spell and went to the ER. I had a very hard time getting the staff to stop suggesting a D&C. I had an ultrasound that showed I had a very tilted uterus and surprise I had TWINS. Shock set it very quickly. I had always dreamed of having twins but how on earth could I have two babies at my age?

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Madelene

Mom to Ivy Antrim Uppekha Jones

Born and died April 13th, 2011

We found out we were pregnant right away. Even a few days before my period was late, the over the counter test came back positive. At six weeks, right on schedule, I started to feel a little morning sickness, but that went away quickly. Too quickly. I felt too good, and I worried that I was going to miscarry. I was going crazy with worry, as a labor and delivery nurse I knew that the third pregnancy could be a little different, I knew each pregnancy was different, but I felt like something was wrong. I demanded an early ultrasound, something I’d never had with either of my other pregnancies. I was surprised and relieved to find that there was a heartbeat.

Tricia

Mom to Baby lost at 8 Weeks – May 1999

Second Early loss at 8 Weeks – September 2001

Ryan James

June 25th, 20004

and Joshua Richard

June 25th, 2004 – June 26th, 2004

Marion, Ohio

We were married on September 21, 1996 and dreamed of having a large family. Little did we know our dreams would be hard won. We began trying to conceieve immediately after we married and we were blessed with a trouble free pregnancy and full term daughter. We had no idea that we would have trouble down the road. [Read more...]

Victoria

Mom to Gideon Raymond Matthew

March 30th, 2011 – April 16th, 2011

Conwy, United Kingdom

Gideon, my first child, a tiny warrior, died in the special care baby unit at only 17 days old. This is his story.

We had been trying to get pregnant for 2 years, so the day we got our first ever positive pregnancy test was the most exciting and happiest of my life. But I was also cautious; I was terrified I was going to miscarry, and so we tried not to tell people for a while. But at 8 weeks we had a scan, and our baby was fine, measuring on target with a good heart rate, so we plucked up the courage to announce the pregnancy. Everyone was so happy for us, having assumed we’d need fertility treatment to get pregnant. [Read more...]

Kate

Mother of Sam Polley

October 23rd, 2010 – October 24th, 2010

Cape Town, South Africa

Saturday the 23rd October 2010 started as any other day. I set off to my much awaited baby shower that morning and friends marvelled as they felt both babies moving around. I left the baby shower and went home to collect the cribs to take back to my parents house. I had a rest and when I got up late afternoon, I felt very restless and uncomfortable. I lay on the couch for a bit, feeling frustrated, tired and like I had had enough! I decided to have a bath. As I got out of the bath, I had a really strong contraction which caused my whole stomach to tense. So much so that I couldn’t bend down and pick stuff up off the floor.  [Read more...]

Milena

Mom to Enzo Leandre

July 28th, 2011 – July 29th, 2011

Columbus, Ohio

My SONshine

On a day when most like to play practical jokes, I found out I had nothing to joke about but, rather, jump of joy. On April 1st 2011, I found out I was pregnant with my first child. My husband, Leandre and I were filled with complete and utter joy! We had wanted to start a family for months. We went through the three months of morning (or should I say, everyday) sickness. The weight gain. The doctor visits. The careful diet. All of those wonderful and amazing things, that most of us take for granted, but that I never will again. [Read more...]

Nikki

Mom to C.R.

Born May 18th, 2011

Died May 19th, 2011

Biloxi, Mississippi

To say that I never thought this could happen to me– to us– my family–  is a gross understatement.  I was happily pregnant with my second son who was to be delivered 5 days prior to his due date via a repeat c-section.  My pregnancy was, for the most part, fantastic.  I had no issues with my health and each and every ultrasound showed a thriving (and big!) baby boy.  Our sweet C was the perfect was to complete our family.  The RCS was easy– I laughed and joked with the CRNA and chatted during the surgery.  I still remember that swelling in my heart and the welling of tears in my eyes as my wonderful doctor rumbled around behind the curtain.  My husband and I laughed with each other and he snapped a silly picture of my face.  Moment later, Collins was born, all 9 lbs 1 oz of chubby perfection!  He yelled and I just knew my world was complete.  He hollered and grabbed the OB’s gown as she lifted him from me.  He began grunting– having breathing issues– almost immediately.  I kissed his sweet lips 3 times and he was whisked to the NICU.  I sensed something was wrong but tried to talk myself out of it.  Even the doctor, in a loving way, told me to hush and that it would all be okay.   [Read more...]

 

 

 Ashley

Mom to Audrina Kay Duke 

  Born on April 21 2011 Earned her Wings May 4, 2011

  Selma, North Carolina

My soon to be husband and I were so happy when we found out we were expecting a little bundle of joy! Unexpected.. VERY but that didn’t make us any less excited to become parents. We were so excited when we finally found out that our little bean was a very healthy baby girl! Words cannot express how you feel when they type out those three little words on a monitor “It’s a GIRL!” We right away started to buy everything in pink and purples! Our whole world unexpectedly changed just a few weeks later. I had changed doctor in the middle of my pregnancy. [Read more...]

Jessica

Mother to Hayden Wyatt Mitchell

June 3rd – June 3rd, 2011

Rolla, MO

My name is Jessica. I am 23 years old. My husband and I have been married for 3 years now, and have one son together. My story starts back in 2010, when we decided it was time to make our family bigger! We actually got pregnant really fast! So shortly after we found out, we made an appointment to go to the doctor. Well, we went to this place that gives a free pregnancy test, and ultrasound. Of course, I couldn’t pass this up! I wanted to see my baby, well, at least the start of him/her! [Read more...]

Dana McCusker

Mom to Shane McCusker

August 9, 2010 – August 11, 2010

Westlake Village, CA

 

I found out I was pregnant in early January.  We were so excited when we saw that positive pregnancy test.  We waited almost 11 weeks before we decided to tell anyone.  When we finally did, everyone was so excited for us, our parents in particular as this baby was going to be the first grandchild on both sides. [Read more...]

Hannah

Mom to Uriah Daniel

Jan.3 2010 – Jan. 5, 2010

Galesburg, MI

When I found out I was pregnant I was shocked.  I had a 16 year old and a 9 year old.  I was thrilled though.  My family and I couldn’t wait.  We found out we were having a boy and chose his name together.  We worked on his little nursery, and bought all the baby stuff.  He couldn’t get here fast enough. [Read more...]

Lanie
Mom to Jake and Sawyer
Jake, August 14, 2005 – August 27, 2005
Sawyer, November 17, 2009 – December 26, 2009
Atlanta, Georgia
 
I am a mother of four. Two of my children share a room down the hall from my room. Two of my children share a plot in a cemetery which is fifteen minutes from our home.

“A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his/her parents is called an orphan. But there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that’s how awful the loss is!” (Neugeboren)
 

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Karen
Mom to Simon Maurice
August 16, 2010
O’Fallon, Illinois

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 Joanne

Mom to Rebecca Marie
Born and died on May 7th, 2007
New Brunswick, Canada
 
I’m the mother to Rebecca Marie . My little angel was born 5 months too early. Here is my story that I’m now ready to tell.
Rebecca Marie was a welcomed angel that I wanted so badly. I had lost babies before through miscarriage however I knew that this little one was different from the rest. I found out that I was 3 months pregnant. I couldn’t believe I had made it thought that first 3 months. I was really excited and wanted my baby girl so much. I called my husband at work. He didn’t call me back right away, so I kept calling until he called back worried that something was wrong. I told him that nothing exactly was wrong but everything was right. I then told him he needed to come asap as there was something going on he had to see right then and there. He was home within the hour and ran in the door asking what’s wrong what’s going on. I said look. I showed him the pregnancy test I had just taken and it was the bluest plus sign we had ever seen. He looked at me and smiled and started crying which made me cry more. We were finally having our miracle baby. We decided that night that we could tell family after the Dr confirmed that everything was alright the next day. We went in for our ultrasound and kept on hoping for a healthy baby. We were told that we were further along then originally thought. We were then asked if we wanted to know what sex the baby would probably be. I looked at my husband and knowing the type of impatient person I am I said yes. We were told its a 90% chance of it being a girl. I started crying right away. I was then asked if I’ve ever had any other losses at any stage. I said yes twins at 26 weeks, multiples in the first 3 months. She said okay with that information I was going to be considered high risk. I pretty much knew that before I considered getting pregnant with my husband. We got pictures and pamphlets of information about classes and breastfeeding which I was interested in doing.

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Vickie
Mom to 
Abigail Frances Bacon, born still at term December 6th, 2003
and Anne Elise Bacon, born April 28th, 2005, died June 28th, 2005
Albuquerque, New Mexico
I’m Vickie, 48 & married since 1985. We have a grown son, who defied the odds & was born in 1986. I had a D&C later that autumn to resolve a miscarriage that didn’t resolve on its own.

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