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Jeanine

Mom to Diana Hope

June 13, 2017

West Babylon, New York

I want to tell you all a story about a girl named Diana.

I delivered my stillborn beautiful baby girl, Diana Hope on June 13, 2017 at 8:10 pm. She was 4 lbs, 1 oz, 18 inches long. She had dark hair and eyes, just like her dad, Gaetano. He says she looked like me and that makes me happy. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2017/09/8536.html

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Brittany

Mom to Carter

Ball Ground, Georgia

January 7, 2015

Carter Scott Combs was born an Angel on January 7, 2015 at 36 weeks and 3 days.

…and to think, the first thing he saw when his little eyes opened was the face of Jesus?

I was born to be a Mom and I knew I wanted babies since I was young. If I knew then what I know now, I still wouldn’t change having our son.

Our baby boy has touched more lives in the past few months than some people do in a lifetime. I know God gave us this baby for a reason and I knew that I needed to tell his story.

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/10/7943.html

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Dayna

Mom to Eva Lucia

September 19, 2012

Seattle, WA

We became pregnant with Eva in May of 2012, and she was a baby we wanted very much. She was our third baby and third pregnancy. My previous pregnancies had been blessedly uneventful and complication-free, so were completely blindsided when I started bleeding heavily at almost six weeks pregnant. I was devastated, certain I must be having a miscarriage. We went to the ER the next day, and after doing a lot of tests and ultrasounds, they found a strong heartbeat and a growing baby. It was such an unexpected relief! The doctor said that bleeding in early pregnancy is common, usually happens when the placenta implants, and he gave us reason to hope, saying that there was about a 50/50 chance that the bleeding would stop and everything would be fine. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/02/7118.html

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Heather

Mom to Breely Grace

November 27, 2012

Hartford, Kentucky

I lost my sweet Angel, Breely Grace on November 27, 2012. I was 39 weeks pregnant. I went in that morning around 9:00 a.m. for my weekly appointment. I was having contractions off and on, so I thought I was already in early labor. I brought her diaper bag as well as my hospital bag with me because I was prepared to be sent over to the hospital. I told my husband to keep his phone handy at work, just in case and sent my little boy to my mom’s with his overnight bag.

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2015/01/6628.html

Samantha

Mom to nine lost children:

#1 Oct 2007: Miscarriage at 6 weeks,
#2 Aug 2008: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#3 June 2011: Twin loss at 8 weeks,
#4 Aug 2011: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#5 Oct 2011: Miscarriage at 4 week 2 days,
#6 Feb 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks,
#7 March 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks 3 days,

and

#8 April 2012: Miscarriage of a little boy at 8 weeks
Ended with D&C on June 6, 2012

North Vernon, Indiana

I was one of those girls who wanted a large family with a home of my own and a fantastic husband. Well, I got part of my wish: I have my husband Troy and an amazing little boy, Kyle, who we love so much. Beginning our family did not start out so easily, though. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6138.html

Jillian

Mom to Avalon

Lost May 29, 2010

Antelope, California

After having my daughter, I spent a few years trying to figure out the health problems that I was having. When we finally felt comfortable to try again for another little one, it took over a year to get pregnant. Thirteen long months. I was so relieved and excited when I felt off one morning, and had a positive pregnancy test later that day. The next day, I found out that my husband had been laid off. I felt sick. How were we going to afford this baby?  Otherwise, things were going well.  I felt “pregnant”. I hadn’t thrown up, but my stomach wouldn’t settle. I had told my daughter, and my mother. I started feeling like nesting, and was knitting little baby hats in neutral colors.  I had scheduled my first OB appointment. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6082.html

Stacie

Mom to Kaiden Gray, stillborn November 10, 2005

Miscarriage December 2008 at 4 weeks

and

“Burger baby,” Madilynn, miscarried August 2010 at 6 weeks

Cleveland, Tennessee

 

My story begins in 2005 at the ripe young age of sixteen. I met a boy who I thought I was going to be with forever. I found out I was pregnant with my son May 10, 2005 and my life as I knew it was about to turn every way but right. His father left me when I was just three months pregnant for another girl…so it was just me and my family. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5412.html

Amber

Mom to Gunner Cruz

Born still April 19, 2012 at 27 weeks

Morrison, Tennessee

I found out I was pregnant at 5 weeks on November 10, 2011. It was the most exciting day! I took 3 pregnancy tests just make sure I wasn’t imagining it. I surprised my husband when he got home by leaving the pregnancy tests on the bathroom counter. We were both so excited and already making plans for our future with this new chapter of our lives. We told our families we were expecting on Thanksgiving Day, 2 weeks later. I’ll never forget the feeling of telling everyone else, pure joy! [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5403.html

Nora Anne

Mom to three angel babies:

Mackenzie Lynn, miscarried at 15 weeks 2 days, June 2005

“Angel Baby”, miscarried at 5 weeks, June 2011

and

“Cucumber”, miscarried at 9.5 weeks, February 2012

Tuckerton, New Jersey

My story begins in March 2005 when my husband (then boyfriend) surprised me by proposing while on vacation in Palm Springs, California. Upon returning home to New Jersey, we quickly began planning our wedding for November 2005. We wanted to marry soon since my mother’s health was not good and it was so important to her and to me that she be there to see us get married. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5270.html

Pam

Mom to Isaac Thor

Born Sleeping March 4, 2011

Warrensburg, Missouri

Making the decision to have another baby was a long and prayerful process. We had a desire to add to our family and felt we were in a position to do so. Isaac was to fill that final child chapter in our book of life. Little did we know that his chapter would take the turn it did while changing and blessing our lives the way it has. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/02/4716.html

Lindsey

Mom to Lily Sarah Ellen

Lost on August 31, 2011

Mountain View, CA

 

“There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.” ~Mahatma Gandhi

My daughter Lily went from living in my womb to residing forever in my heart on August 31, 2011. I was 14 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At the time I am writing these words, it has been nearly three months since I lost my baby girl, just about the length of time I carried her in my body. Many of these lines were lifted straight from the journal I started while I was hospitalized following her death. If it seems disjointed, it’s because it was written over a period of many days, during many different moods. It has been a difficult process, putting them to type, but one done in loving memory of the baby who will always be, to me, my first child. Not a “miscarried fetus” or a “hope of a baby that never was,” but my first child: a true, unique and beloved individual. My story is a tribute to her memory, and is written in the hope that it may bring both comfort to other mothers who have lost their precious unborn babies, and awareness to those who, having never experienced such a tragedy themselves, are struggling to understand the experience.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/11/3855.html

Courtney

Mom to Angel Baby

Lost at 5 weeks, 5 days on November 6th, 2010

and second Angel Baby

Lost at 5 weeks, 5 days on January 15th, 2011

My story starts in October when I found out (to my great surprise) that I was pregnant.  After the initial shock, I was ecstatic and rushed to tell my husband.  We’ve always wanted children, that we birth ourselves and those others birth for us…we are baby people you could say.   [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/10/3248.html

Jennifer

Mom to Jason

May 5, 2008

Metro Atlanta, GA

 

My name is Jennifer, and boy am I terrible at pregnancy. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/07/2647.html

Samantha

Losses on December 31, 2006

January 20, 2009

October 20, 2009

December 23, 2009

July 12, 2010

April 2011

Cohoes, NY

My name is Samantha and I am a 33 year old woman who has had one live birth and has suffered 6 miscarriages.  My husband and I were married in August of 2006 and decided we wanted to try and have children right away.  We found out in November that were pregnant and were so excited.  We decided to tell our families right away.  They were all so excited, as were we.  We had no idea what to expect, but things were going well.  I started having some spotting just after Christmas, and was very scared by what was going on.  I went to the ER with my husband and they said that it did not look good.  By now I was having heavy bleeding and spotting.  I ended up miscarrying our first child at 7 weeks.  It was December 31, 2006.  Sadly as I was in one hospital miscarrying, my niece was being born in another.   [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/06/2387.html

Melani

Mom to Evan Matthew, January 15th, 2010

and Kayden John, March 6th, 2011

Pima, Arizona


We found out I was pregnant with our 4th child Sept. 2009, two weeks later we found out my husband was going to be deployed to Iraq in May 2010, the same month this baby was due, so he would most likely miss the birth with due date and deployment date being so close together. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/04/1077.html

Lindy
Mom to Grace June
February 25th, 2010
Angel Baby
October 5th, 2010
and Angel Baby
January 10th, 2011

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/03/741.html

Natasha
Mom to Aiden William
November 2nd, 2010
Sugar Land, Texas
In the words of my niece Kayla Marie….“my whole life!” My whole life all I’ve ever wanted to be is a wife and a mother. I have the best husband in the world. I was so so close to having my perfect baby boy here with me. Here is his story……

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/03/734.html

Leah
Mom to Isaiah Jack
October 28th, 2010
Minnetonka, Minnesota

I was pregnant with my third baby and couldn’t have been happier. I already had two beautiful children, and was excited to have the third and then be done having kids. We were going to be such a happy little family! My pregnancy was going well and I never could have imagined that anything would happen that would take my precious little baby away from me.

Throughout my pregnancy I had the feeling that something was wrong with my baby. I first felt him move around 15 weeks, but then didn’t feel him very regularly. I was thinking that I was probably just paranoid because I was just so anxious for the baby to be here. I was never good at kick-counting anyway, so I just tried to dismiss those anxious thoughts.
My husband Gary and I went in for the 20-week ultrasound on Wednesday, October 27th, 2010 and were so excited to see our little baby for the first time. This was the first baby that we didn’t find out the sex, so the ultrasound was just going to be to make sure that the baby was healthy and everything was looking good. When the ultrasound tech started the scan, I could tell right away that something was odd. I also noticed that the baby on the screen wasn’t really moving. After a few measurements, and her questioning our due date, she stood up to excuse herself and said that she’d be right back.
After she was gone for a couple minutes, I turned to Gary and said, “Something’s wrong, she shouldn’t be gone this long.” Sure enough when she came back into the room she told me that my midwife was on the phone to talk to me. I knew right then, and could hardly believe the words I was hearing when my midwife told me that my baby was no longer living. Total shock. I had to hold onto the counter because I could feel my legs giving out from under me.
So on the day we went in to see our healthy little baby, we ended up planning my stillborn baby’s birth. We were planning to give birth at a birth center, which could no longer happen, so we found ourselves traveling to a faraway hospital where we knew no one. Our midwife would meet us there and work closely with the OB to help us through labor and delivery.
I got induced on Thursday morning and then the waiting began. One of the most important things on our minds was choosing a name for our little angel. We thought we had 4 more months to figure out a name! And since we still didn’t know the baby’s gender, we picked out a boy and a girl name. 
I am forever grateful that labor went as smooth as possible. We were in such good hands and felt truly cared for. And then our baby was born. I can hardly describe what I was feeling at the time, but it was a mix of complete awe at this little miracle that was born, mixed with the deepest sorrow imaginable. Gary looked a little closer and announced that it was a boy. A boy!! I had wanted a boy so badly for our third. We named him Isaiah, which means God is my Help. We gave him the middle name Jack after his big brother, who was always so excited for his little brother to be here (throughout the pregnancy he insisted that it was a little boy, even though we didn’t know).
We held Isaiah for a long time and just wept. We talked to him, prayed for him, and kissed him. We poured out our love in hugs and tears, knowing this would be the last time we would hold him. I wanted him to be crying. I wanted to nurse him. It was horrible to feel absolutely helpless as his mother; I could do nothing to bring him back.
He was beautiful and perfect in every way and there was no obvious reason for his death. When we held him we admired the ways in which he looked like our other children. He had such amazingly long fingers, big feet, and he was tall. He was our baby.
After having him we decided to get some testing done to see if we could find a reason for Isaiah’s death. To our surprise I was diagnosed with two blood-clotting disorders, MTHFR and Factor V Leiden. This diagnosis made me very aware of two things. First, that I was insanely blessed to have two healthy children. Second, that losing Isaiah possibly saved my life. I would not have known about this had I not lost Isaiah, and that could have put my life in danger. So Isaiah truly is my little angel baby.
There are many days when the sadness is overwhelming. The sadness comes in seeing my children or other babies around me and thinking of all the dreams I had for Isaiah’s life. I know that the sadness will not go away, and that’s okay because I lost my child. But I hope and pray that the sadness will lessen over time, so that I can live a life full of love and happiness- a life that would make Isaiah proud.
 You can contact Leah at Leahjean8@hotmail.com

http://facesofloss.com/2011/02/681.html

Susan
Mom to Angel A & Angel B
Born Pre-Term on April 22, 2010
Wilton, Connecticut

My husband and I got married on August 30, 2008. We wanted to start trying to conceive right away. Eight months after we got married, I started thinking something was wrong. We had actively tried to conceive every cycle, and for some reason, it just wasn’t happening for us. In June 2009, I went to a Reproductive Endocrinologist. After a myriad of tests, we were diagnosed under “Unexplained Infertility”. We endured three failed IUIs, until finally, in December 2009, we were successful with our first IVF.

I found out that I was pregnant only four days before Christmas Eve. I can’t even explain in words how happy I was to finally see a positive pregnancy test. As soon as I found out, I hurried to a bookstore and bought my husband a book called “The Expectant Father,” wrapped it, and gave it to him as an early Christmas present. I’ll never forget the look on his face when he opened the present. It was utter, complete happiness. We hugged each other and started dreaming of our upcoming new life together. It seemed our dream was finally going to come true. Our babies’ due date was August 31st, which is two days after my birthday, and one day after our Wedding Anniversary. What a birthday/wedding anniversary it was going to be! We shared the news with our family on Christmas Eve. We gave my parents a frame with a picture of the baby embryos inside. Next to the picture, it said, “Baby Fords will Arrive on/around August 30, 2010”! It was the best Christmas ever!

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/01/651.html

Jenel
Mom to Addisyn
Stillborn on June 29th, 2010 at 12:09 a.m.
Lake Charles, Louisiana
My story starts at the end of August 2009. My boyfriend (now husband) had just proposed, I had just started a new semester in college, and was working full time. We never talked about when we would begin to have children but we both knew it was something that would be a great experience for us.


About a week after my husband proposed I ended up in the hospital. I was in horrific pain and could not move, talk, laugh, or cry without being in the worst pain I had felt. After several tests it was determined that I had E.coli poisoning and it had travelled down and created a small hole in my uterus. The doctors said it would be quite difficult for me to get pregnant and if I did I probably would have a quick miscarriage. We didn’t think much about what our future would hold and put off talking about the issue until after I graduated from college.

[Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2010/12/616.html

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