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Lauren

Mom to Andi Michelle

June 18- September 7, 2014

Winder, GA

Andi was my second pregnancy and different from my first one, I knew I was pregnant the day I missed my period even if multiple test told me different. Until I had one test that showed a very faint two pink lines, I went to the doctor that day and they confirmed what I had already known.

I was so sick for 13 weeks, things grossed me out completely and while having a one year old at home, I was EXHAUSTED! Since the pregnancies were both so different I swore this time we would be having a boy, but that was wrong when two nurses told us “It’s a girl”. Andi was born at 39 weeks via c section (my choice), she was 8.4lbs and 21 inches long, completely different from Emma (her sister). Andi was 2 ounces bigger but so very petite, she was like a little doll.

July 24th, 2014 is a date I will never forget- it’s the day our lives changed. Andi woke up that morning and was “twitching” and her eyes would flicker, which lasted a few minutes. I knew something wasn’t right.  I had literally just started the job of my dreams; my aunt took Andi to the pediatrician to see what they thought it was. Her pediatrician said it looked like a seizure but it was hard to tell, we weren’t able to get an appointment with a neurologist for A MONTH! Talk about crazy stupid.

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Melody

Melody

Mom to Emma Rose

January 9, 2015 – April 23, 2015

Salem, Virginia

My daughter Emma Rose Kelly was born January 9, 2015 and passed away April 23rd. I laid her in her playpen that morning and checked on her at around 10:15, she was fine. I checked on her again at 10:30 and I found her unresponsive. Between the paramedics and myself we performed CPR for an hour before they declared her time.

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Mom to Tyler Hayes

August 31, 2011 (43 minutes of life)

Pensacola, Florida

(I’m not sure if this is the type of story that you would want to share, but I thought maybe it might help someone.)
What keeps me awake.

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Heather

Mom to Camden

August, 17, 2013 – May 21, 2014

York, Pennsylvania

On August 17, 2013 our baby Camden was born at 37 weeks. He was born via c-section due to being breech the entire pregnancy. He didn’t cry when he was born and had a hard time breathing in his own, so he had to spend the first night in the NICU. The next morning they brought him to our room and my husband and I took turns loving on him and talking about everyone who was going to come see him that morning. I decided to take a shower and my husband spent that time with Camden. After my shower, I picked Camden out of the bassinet and he seemed a little pale to me, so I set him on the bed. I started to undress him to make him a little more uncomfortable, just to make sure he was ok. I got no response from him. I pushed the nurses’ call button and the nurse came in. I asked her if he looked ok to her and she looked at him, picked him up, put him in the bassinet and ran with him out of the room. [Read more…]

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Sara

 Sara

Mom to Boston

1/9/15-3/17/15 

Sioux Falls, South Dakota 

On May 24th, 2014, I found out I was expecting my second child. On May 24th, 2015 my son will have been gone for as long he was here. 68 days. My pregnancy was a healthy one. Unfortunately, morning sickness ruled my world for 5 months with both of my children, but I was expected to have a perfectly healthy baby boy. On January 9th 2015, I did. Boston was the epitome of perfection, and the autopsy that I received 3 and a half weeks after his death concluded the same. There was not a single thing wrong with any part of him, not a single toxin in his body, literally nothing. His death is “undetermined.” This is the story of the day my son became an Angel.

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Emily
Mom to Calvin Michael
3/25/15 – 3/27/15
Dover, NH

My husband and I had wanted a second child for some time.  When we were finally financially secure and healthy in our relationship we began trying.  It took two years but finally a positive pregnancy test!  We were thrilled, and our five year old son was too.  We began planning right away, I did all the “right” things – ate healthy, exercised, and tried to relax.  I had terrible morning sickness for about 18 weeks but otherwise had a perfectly healthy pregnancy.  Everything looked normal, baby was growing just fine.  I wanted to have a vbac and so they did a few extra ultrasounds to be sure our baby was head down, we discovered our baby was going to be big!  I didn’t care.  There was one slight question about me possibly having gestational diabetes, but I began testing at home and being very careful about my diet and exercise.
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Hanna

Mom to Maddox Tye

July 13, 2014 – October 17, 2014

Columbia, Kentucky

My husband and I found out we were 6 weeks pregnant in March of 2014. We were so excited. Shortly afterwards, I had a few concerns with my pregnancy and I went to the ER. Come to find out I had a placenta abruption. The doctors told me it would either resolve on its own or get worse. Only time would tell. So time went on and things were fine until I was about 12 weeks, I had another round of issues so I decided to be seen again. It was the same problem, it hadn’t gotten worse but it hadn’t resolved either. The doctor sent me home on mild bed rest. Things went well again and we found out we had a healthy growing baby boy.

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Amanda
Mom to Benjamin David
October 20, 2014 – November 19, 2014
Lorain, Ohio
When midnight struck, I decided that Ben was sleeping deep enough to lay him in his Arm’s Reach Co-sleeper. He would start out in there every night. But man, he despised not being in my arms! I thought  [my son] Trae was the biggest Momma’s boy, ever. Then, I had Ben lol! Ben slept in his co-sleeper until about 2 or 3 am. I awoke to him fussing, so I put him next to me, laid on my side, and latched him on to eat. And as crappy as it is, I don’t even remember falling asleep. I just did. I never heard another fuss, cry, or anything from Ben that night. He was always so content when sleeping next to me. He had started sleeping so good in the early hours of the morning. Ben was starting to love sleep, almost as much as he loved to eat.
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Mom to Jesco Riley

November 9, 2012 – January 25, 2013

Hendersonville, North Carolina

Sweet Jesco was only 2 months and 16 days old that icy, cold Friday, January 25, 2013. That day was like always. Daddy fed him his morning bottle before work and we slept in. Jesco slept with me and his sister slept in her own bed in the next room. Daddy left for work. Later on, as I woke, I did as usual and rubbed his soft tiny body. This time, I immediately knew something was different.

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Mother to Sarah

November 12, 2009 – November 15, 2009

Grove City, Pennsylvania

Sarah Elisabeth was born on November 12, 2009. She weighed 6 pounds, 9 ½ ounces and was 19 ¼ inches long. She had black curly hair and dark blue eyes. She was my first child. My pregnancy journey began on April 7, 2009, when I found out I was pregnant. Much of my pregnancy was normal. I felt sick and needed to eat every few hours. I was so tired I would take naps.

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Lesley Grobler

Mom to Emma Hayley “Emma Kalema” 

June 10, 2014 – June 12, 2014

Triangle, Zimbabwe, Africa

When I found out I was pregnant with our first child in January, I was already 14 weeks along. I didn’t know because when I first went for a pregnancy test, they found nothing, however they did see that I had some fibroids, one of which was as large as a woman who is 4 months pregnant. I was so happy as my older sister was also pregnant, and we were both due within a couple of weeks of each other. We were even more excited when we found out that my sister was having a boy and I was having a girl.

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Mom of Max Michael and Leo William

Born and died July 16, 2013

Boston, Massachusetts

My husband and I found each other when we were both in our late 30’s. We were ready to be married and we were ready to be parents. In the next 14 months (after our honeymoon) when we weren’t yet pregnant, our excitement turned to surprise and then soon to worry. I changed my diet (I’m a registered dietitian so of course this would help, right?) to follow the “fertility diet plan”, reduced my work hours from full to part time, started acupuncture, reduced my caffeine, reduced my physical activity to keep my heart rate under 110… you name it and I did it. My husband too, though all of his tests were fine, started reading about increasing his testosterone with cold showers, more cholesterol from food, etc. Basically, we felt like we had nothing to lose and if there were a chance it could help, why not?
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Mother to Keaton Scott

Born September 6, 2012 and passed September 10, 2012

Bellingham, Washington

My name is Kim and I am the proud mother of a beautiful baby boy, Keaton Scott. I am sharing our story in hopes to encourage other mothers to listen to their “inner mama voice” if they have any concerns or worries during their pregnancy. I also want to let other families impacted by congenital CMV know they are not alone. 

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Mom to Damian

September 15 – 18, 2012

Cold Lake, Alberta, Canada

On January 28, 2012, I found I was expecting my first child with my boyfriend. It was finally good news because we were trying for 5 months! We finally were about to have a baby. I had a normal pregnancy and no complications through the whole thing. I was due October 5, 2012.

On September 14th, I went into labor at about 5 p.m. I had a very easy labor. I finally had my son the next day, 2 weeks and 6 days early. [He was born] at 12:02 p.m. and he weighed 5 pounds 9 ounces and he was 18 ¾ inches long. The doctor told me he was healthy and my gosh, he was a beautiful baby. We finally got to bring him home the next day and got him all set up and comfortable in our home.

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Katrina

Mom to Tremayne Lewis Randolph Parker, Jr. “TJ”

March 28, 2014 – May 1, 2014

Millsboro, DE

On March 28, 2014, at 4:34PM, my husband and I became proud parents of a beautiful baby boy, Tremayne Lewis Randolph Parker, Jr affectionately known as TJ. TJ was born 26 weeks premature, through emergency c-section, weighing 1lb 2.69oz. He has delivered at Christiana Hospital and was a patient in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) until he passed away in my arms on the morning of May, 1, 2014.

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Mom to Emma Lynn

March 27, 2012

Independence, Kentucky

I had my daughter Emma Lynn on March 27, 2012. It was an infant loss. I was 19 when I got pregnant and even though I was super young and her father wasn’t involved, I was super excited to become a mom and have a daughter. When I was 25 weeks pregnant, my doctor called me and said my ultrasound pictures came back not looking good. They said her brain wasn’t developing right and she wasn’t going to make it out of alive. But I kept going through the pregnancy being hopeful, thinking she was going to come out perfect. I got to spend 10 hours with her after I had her. No doubt the most amazing 10 hours of my life. I found a quote the other day and I think it fits perfectly.

“The death of a child is the single most traumatic event. To lose a child is to lose a piece of yourself.”

You can contact Elizabeth at: robertsonlizz@aol.com

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Mom to Liam James

March 25, 2014 – May 28, 2014

Las Vegas, Nevada

I’ve been with my high school sweetheart since 2005. After many ups and downs of regular life, we decided to get married in 2012. It was a dream come true, but of course we were now ready to take yet another step forward – children.

After suffering a miscarriage in April 2013, we were thrilled to find out that we were again pregnant in July. We were expecting a son April 15, 2014. We couldn’t have been any happier. Our family and friends showered us with gifts, love and support. We spent hours designing and building a nursery and converting our house to welcome out baby boy. Everything throughout the pregnancy was perfect. I had little nausea and fatigue, I worked out lightly throughout the entire pregnancy and made sure to take vitamins and eat well. On March 25th, I began having contractions. I planned on having a natural birth, but Liam had other plans. His heart rate wasn’t as strong as they wanted it to be for any pain medication. After monitoring him for some time he seemed to become distressed and aspirated meconium. It was time for a cesarean. 

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Hillary

Mom to Liam Scott

April 9, 2007-May 17, 2007

Greeley, Colorado

After being a single mom for three years to my son, Jayden, I found myself pregnant with baby number two!  I was so excited and so happy to have another bundle of joy on the way. My first pregnancy was extremely stressful due to being on bed-rest. First for placenta previa and then for preterm labor, so my doctors were automatically on guard my second pregnancy. Things were smooth sailing until I hit 20 weeks, when I began to leak a small amount of amniotic fluid. I was put on bed-rest and put on Brethine to stop labor since contractions had started right around the time my water began to leak.
 

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Faces of LossKrystal

Mother to Conner Timothy & Benjamin Michael

Born and lost on January 10, 2014

Illinois

I look at pictures of myself while I was pregnant, just a short 5 months ago [at time of writing]. I can’t help but think that I was so young back then; I have hardly aged since the pictures were last taken, but my heart now bears the weight of what seems like a million losses. It took nearly two years for my husband and I to get pregnant. Our babies were the fruition of the emotional and physical turmoil of IVF, and they were taken from us.  And yet, they were worth every single second of despair and frustration.

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Ruth

Mother to Corbin Walker

February 20, 2011 – May 15, 2011

Crawley, West Virginia

 July 4th, 2010-I find out I’m pregnant. Again. Only three months after I gave birth to my first son. When I tell my best friend, she doesn’t believe me. “No you’re not!” [Read more…]

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