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Leah
Mom to Lyla
December 4, 2015
Elgin, Illinois

My beautiful Lyla Danielle was born December 4, 2015 at 4:48pm weighing in at a whole whopping 4.12lbs. She was the prettiest baby I’d ever seen, she was the only one of my children with my curls and she was still so perfect even though she was stillborn. This is her story: 

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Jaime

Mom to Mason Scott

Born Sleeping May 5, 2016

Chicago, Illinois

ASK ME ABOUT MY SON!

I want to talk about him! Honestly! I want to tell the world how he was so active that I was sure he was practicing dribbling a soccer ball. I want to talk about the times when my husband put his face close to my stomach and talked to our son and got punched in the face. I can imagine him, being a volleyball player, thinking “good spike, son!”. Those are the stories I enjoy sharing but I know that isn’t the story everyone is wondering about.
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Sarah

Mom to Chad Michael

February 13, 2016 – February 14, 2016

Chicago, Illinois

So this pregnancy was a surprise to my husband and I because we thought I couldn’t get pregnant. In October we found out we were; Steve wanted to tell everyone that day I told him to wait until we knew for sure and to find out how long [I’d been pregnant]. Two days later, I was taken to the hospital because I was bleeding. Everything turned out to be okay (Due date was April 26th, 2016). From our first ultrasound up until December 2, 2015, everything was great. On December 2nd at 18 weeks, my water broke. My coworker at the time took me to the hospital. They ran some test on me and it turned out that in fact my water had broken.

I did not go into labor and so I was sent home 3 days later on bedrest. At this point I was going to my OB doctor specialist doctor every week. [I was] getting blood taken at every appointment to make sure my white blood count was low, because with very low fluid it could [cause] infection and that would be bad for the myself and the baby.By week 24 on January 6th, 2016, I was taken to the hospital again but this time to stay until the baby was born. I was on 24-hour care between monitoring and more blood work, this time every 3 days and anything else needed to keep this baby boy in longer.
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Amanda

Mom to Jack Daniel 

Chicago, Illinois (Living in Bucharest, Romania)

05-11-15 to 05-12-15

The best things in life aren’t planned, or so I’ve been told.  And that’s exactly what everyone said to me when I found I was pregnant just two months shy of my fortieth birthday.  I wasn’t trying; on the contrary I was actively trying not to get pregnant. “Bob” and I had just decided not to continue dating.  After a great vacation he’d called it quits at the airport.  A few weeks later we got together for one last hurrah.  And what a last hurrah it was, our son was conceived that day.

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Taylor

Mom to Bernie

Stillborn on September 11, 2014

Chicago, Illinois

 “Sweetie… There’s no heartbeat,” my doctor almost whispered. I cannot stop going over these words in my head. My doctor wasn’t as sympathetic as he was shocked. Really, I had known for weeks. When I felt his little kicks stop at 21 weeks, I insisted on getting an ultrasound immediately. There was a “normal heartbeat..155,” a very serious-looking doctor in the practice had confirmed. Even with that assurance, I watched my baby lay still on the ultrasound screen and knew that the heartbeat meant nothing.

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Mother to Conner Timothy & Benjamin Michael

Born and lost on January 10, 2014

Illinois

I look at pictures of myself while I was pregnant, just a short 5 months ago [at time of writing]. I can’t help but think that I was so young back then; I have hardly aged since the pictures were last taken, but my heart now bears the weight of what seems like a million losses. It took nearly two years for my husband and I to get pregnant. Our babies were the fruition of the emotional and physical turmoil of IVF, and they were taken from us.  And yet, they were worth every single second of despair and frustration.

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Jen

Mom to Olivia Madilynn

Stillborn November 23, 2011

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Asher James September 10- October 23, 2012.

Schaumburg, IL

In June 2011, I found out I was pregnant and I was beyond excited. I told everyone right away and started planning the nursery. I couldn’t wait to find out what we were having, hoping for a little girl. We started picking out names and could only agree on a girl’s name – Olivia Madilynn. On my husband’s birthday, we found out we were having a little girl. I started making cute things for her and for her room. Even though I wasn’t due ’til February, our families had our baby showers in November. We received so many cute things for this little girl. I couldn’t wait till she was here and she could wear all the cute things but that all changed the week of Thanksgiving when I was 27 weeks.

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Yesenia

November 17, 2012

Stone Park, IL

On September 25, 2012 my boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant. We were both happy and anxious. A day before Halloween I had my first ultrasound. I couldn’t believe it- seeing my baby on the screen and thinking, “that’s my little one”. I was 10 weeks. I asked the doctor if we were going to hear the heartbeat and he said no. We went home and showed our family.  I couldn’t explain the happiness I felt inside. I [was] only 20 years old, but I was ready to give up everything for my baby.
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Lisa

Mom to Maddox Ford

November 7, 2011 – December 26, 2011

Plainfield, Illinois

I found out I was pregnant with Maddox Ford May 20, 2011. It was a Friday and I was at work. I was so excited about being a mom and my family was, too…finally, grandkids! The first ultrasound and every doctor’s appointment I grew more and more anxious and fell more and more in love with my child I hadn’t even met yet. My pregnancy was easy, no morning sickness, no issues. I was a healthy 26-year old with a whole new world in front of me. I didn’t get any of the genetic tests done, or any of the other tests done, because I was a low risk pregnancy. Once the first trimester passed, I thought like everyone else thinks, I’m in the clear. It never really occurred to me that something might actually happen to my baby. [Read more…]

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Heather

Mom to Noelle Kathryn 

Born still March 1, 2012

Rock Island, Illinois

I gave birth to my second child, our beautiful daughter, on March 1, 2012. She was already in Heaven with our Savior.

I found out I was pregnant in August of 2011. We had been waiting to try for our second child because my husband had gotten a new job at the end of 2010 and we were without insurance for 7 months. As soon as that probation period was up, we started trying to conceive, and we were elated when it happened so quickly. As with my first pregnancy, I had quite a bit of “morning” sickness (that came at all hours of the day and night) and honestly felt reassured by it. I had many people tell me that sickness is a sign that things are going well. Though I had lost some weight and was having a hard time keeping food down, the baby was growing right on track. [Read more…]

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LaTanya

Mom to Kennedy Joi

Born April 14, 2012 at 24 weeks
Died May 21, 2012

Chicago, Illinois

My water broke week 22 of my pregnancy. A pregnancy that we had been working at for the past year and half and finally, through the use of 3 IUI sessions, Kennedy Joi was conceived in November 2011. I had a great pregnancy, no morning sickness, adjusted really well but nervous up through the 1st trimester, so was not very open until we got past that 12 week mark. Being pretty healthy before pregnancy and not having any real problems, my water breaking at 22 weeks was alarming for my husband and me. We assumed with all the medical advancements that it would be something that could be fixed, but after being in hospital for 2 days and having numerous ultrasounds, we knew we were in for something more. [Read more…]

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Adriana

Mom to Santiago

April 29, 2009

Round Lake Heights, Illinois

I read a statistic today that 1 in 4 women experience a miscarriage. I would most likely not have paid much attention to this number if I had not experienced one myself, but experience always aims to give us greater awareness.  [Read more…]

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Melissa

Mom to Willow and Darwin

  Lost March 11, 2012

  Lisle, Illinois

We made it 12 weeks and 1 day I  kept dreaming they were girls so I named them the girl names we picked out. [Read more…]

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Ashlee

Mom to Baby Howell
Miscarried December 26, 2008 at 9 weeks

and

Dalton Michael
Born sleeping February 21, 2012

Pinckneyville, Illinois

My husband and I were so excited to start a family after we were married.  We were so excited to announce on Christmas day 2008 that we were expecting.  The next day our lives crumbled.   [Read more…]

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Elizabeth

Mom to Bean Bunny

Lost on February 24, 2012

Decatur, Illinois

 

My husband and I found out January 7, 2012 that we were expecting our first child. We were so excited and happy.

After my first doctors appointment we learned that my gestational sac was empty and our baby had stopped developing very early on. We waited two weeks for another doctor since the first showed no sympathy, not even a simple “sorry”. So after seeing the second doctor who was much kinder, he informed us that the sac was still empty and now starting to collapse. We had been grieving already for the past two weeks and decided to do a d&c the next morning with the new doctor. I would have been one day short of 11 weeks. I miss my baby so much and it hurts when people think that because the sac was empty that there never was a baby, because there was they just didn’t make it past a couple of weeks. I grieve for my first child and dream of him or her playing in a field of daffodils (my favorite flower) in Heaven.
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Miranda

Mom to two angel babies

Natural miscarriage 7 weeks 5 days on October 13, 2011
(EDD May 28, 2012)

Misoprostal-assisted miscarriage 9 weeks 3 day on January 16, 2012
(EDD August 17, 2012)

Washington, Illinois

My husband and I were married in January 2009. He came with three children from previous relationships and we had planned on having one of our own and working on that within the first year of marriage. Because of some things going on in my life at that time, we pushed it back a couple of years and in November 2010, I went off the pill and we were just going to stop preventing to see what happened. By August of 2011, nothing had happened, so we tried OPKs and got our first positive pregnancy test on September 15. We were elated. Our EDD was 5/28/12, which we thought would be perfect. The baby would be here before summer got too hot and it would be nice enough that birthday parties could be held outside, etc. On October 4, at 6 weeks, 2 days, we had our first prenatal appointment and all we could see on the ultrasound was a gestational sac and yolk sac measuring less than five weeks. They took a beta draw which confirmed the pregnancy was not viable. I was given the choice of having a D&C, taking Cytotec/Misoprostol, or waiting for a natural miscarriage. I chose to wait and see and within a few days I began spotting. The spotting was very off and on for about five days. Once things really started happening, it lasted 14 hours and was over. Our first angel left us on 10/13/11 when it should have been 7w5d. [Read more…]

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Alicia

Mom to “Bo”

October 4th, 2011

Illinois

We found out on August 31st via a blood test that we were pregnant. We went back to the doctor on September 12 for the first official sonogram and they were going to try and hear the heartbeat.  The doctor heard the heartbeat, all my husband and I heard was white noise, but we could see the little peaks on the monitor when they measured it.  We did see the heart flickering and nothing could make us happier. We left that appointment knowing there was a flicker and that we were 6 weeks along.  The date we were looking forward to the most was May 8, 2012, our little one’s due date.  I was feeling pregnant: nauseous, tired, smelling everything, and overjoyed to be pregnant.  I had scheduled an appointment with my OB for October 7, but got a call on September 30th that they needed to move it up due to scheduling conflicts…no big deal, I just adjusted my work schedule and was now going in to hear the heartbeat and see a picture of our growing baby. [Read more…]

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Kenzie

Mommy to Lukas Allen Bradberry

July 21st, 2011

Robinson, Illinois

My husband Larry and I were married on July 10th, 2010. We took our honeymoon in early August, and the day we got back I stopped taking the pill. I had been taking it for 4 years. On February 28th, 2011, I found out I was pregnant! I was so excited, and kind of suprised it only took about 6 months. My husband was thrilled as well, and he was just convinced it was a boy! We told everyone right away, and everyone was so happy. I have a niece that will be 1 in October, and that was exciting because I was due early November, they would only be a year apart! I had a feeling from the get go that I was having a boy, but I told myself it could be a girl (I would have been happy either way!). [Read more…]

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Kendra

Mom to Baby Miscarried March 5th, 2010

and beautiful baby boy, Parker Wayne

May 21st, 2011 – June 6th, 2011

Flat Rock, Illinois

My story starts on Feburary 20, 2010 my husband was gone on the road traveling for his job.  I had missed my period and knew that wasn’t normal for me.  I went to Wal Mart and bough a pregnancy test.  To my amazement it was positive I was excited and scared at the same time.  I told my hubby the next day and we both were so excited.   I called the doctor and made an appointment and told most of my famiy.  A week later I started spotting my I went to the ER and they checked me and said everything was fine but to consult with my doctor on Monday.  The next week my doctor kept checking my Quant number.  On Friday March 5 I got a call that the doctor wanted to see me right away.  I got there and they informed me that I had a miscarriage my heart dropped and asked them to get my mom.  The next day I went in for a D&C.  I was devistated how could something so special be taken.  On March 30th I got another call that changed my life my mother in law Rose was at the hospital with a bleed in the brain.  They transfered her to Carle Clinic in Champaign where she passed away.  I thought maybe God knew this would be to much stress on me and thats why this happened. [Read more…]

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Nikki

Mom to Aiden

April 10, 2011

Chicago, IL

I got those beautiful pink lines. Dark, pink, and very big positive in February of 2011. I took a second 5 minutes later just to me sure. And 4 more through out the night. They were all positive. I was so afraid to tell my BF, but so so so excited. All of those doctors who told me I would never get pregnant were wrong and I was going to be mommy after all. The only thing I have ever truly wanted out of life was to be someone’s mommy, and I thought my dream was really going to come true. It wasn’t planned, or expected, but it was certainly welcomed. All seemed to be going ok. [Read more…]

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