May 12, 2012 By 4 Comments

Esmeralda (Lala)

Mom to Ezra Alix

Born sleeping December 12, 2011 at 40 weeks 6 days

San Pedro, California

I kind of had a rough pregnancy with Ezra, but he was always “healthy,” and that’s what kept me going.

I started having severe back problems at 21 weeks and was never the same. In fact, it only got worse in the third trimester, until my insurance finally approved me for physical therapy at 36 weeks . It helped, but I still had pain. I also had rib pain and trouble breathing from about 30 weeks due to Costochondritis. But he always had a strong heartbeat and was constantly moving. (Always always on the move and I loved it). [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 40 weeks, Fullterm, Genetic Disorder, Stillbirth
May 12, 2012 By 7 Comments

Molly

Mom to Eden Elizabeth

Stillborn March 18, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

Around 8 p.m. on Saturday, March 17th, I noticed I was having a few small contractions. I didn’t think too much of them since I had been having painless contractions for the past week or so. I had been at the hospital earlier that day for my blood pressure and for the 3 hours I was there, only 1 contraction had been shown on the monitor. I figured that these contractions were either fake or still the very, very start of early labor at 38 weeks. I went about my business, putting my 2-year-old son Isaiah to bed, and then fell asleep on the couch after watching my boyfriend Keith and his friend play a few games of pool. I woke up around midnight and realized the contractions were still coming pretty consistently. I asked Keith to stay up and watch a movie with me, even though I knew it was a bad idea considering it was the last full night of sleep we’d be getting for a while. We stayed up, watching Nightmare on Elm Street and talking about how unprepared I felt while Keith rubbed my back and reassured me that everything would be taken care of. At about 5 a.m., my contractions were about 7 minutes apart. Keith had already fallen asleep and even though I felt un-ready, nervous, and anxious, I decided to try to get a few hours of sleep. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 38 weeks, Fullterm, North Carolina, Stillbirth
May 1, 2012 By 9 Comments

 Amy

Mom to Anna

Born still April 25, 2011

Early loss December 2011

Troy, Michigan

 

In honor of my daughter, Anna, who would have been 1 year old this April 25th, I have decided to share her story in hopes of creating awareness and helping even just one person experiencing the death of a baby.  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 37 weeks, Cord Compression, Early Miscarriage, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident, Umbilical cord hypercoiling
April 14, 2012 By 8 Comments

Jianna

Mom to Mackensie Owenn

Born still November 2, 2011

Parker, Colorado

I’ve always dreamt of having a really big family of my own, I love being around people (shocker, I know!) and I absolutely love that we have such a HUGE family now (between Brad and I, we have 5 siblings and 9 nieces and nephews).  I love watching all of the kids play with one another and knowing they will all be able to grow up together (and get into trouble together)!  I remember telling my Mom that I thought having an ‘odd’ amount of kids is better than even, why, I have no idea; I think I just always wanted more than 2, so an ‘odd’ amount sounded good to me.  When Brad and I had Jace we instantly knew that we wanted a big family- 3 to be exact!  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 38 weeks, Colorado, Cord accident, Fullterm, Stillbirth
April 14, 2012 By 3 Comments

Natalie

Mom to Noel Mary

Born still September 22, 2011

Fenton, Michigan

I am 36 years old, and my husband of 2 years is 34.  We have been together for a long time and he decided 3 years ago to make an honest woman out of me.  John is my best friend…he has been for almost 12 years now.  We share everything and can hide nothing from each other.  We are very much in love still and when we found out on January 14, 2011 that we were going to be parents after only trying for a couple of months to conceive. We were elated.  My pregnancy was okay as far as they go, until the last 4 weeks or so.  I had a very active baby girl in there and she was always on the move.  She loved to listen to me talk and when I did start talking she would move up in my belly just to be closer to my voice.  She would literally dance when a good song came on the radio, she had a knack for kicking or punching the beat out, my doctor thought this was me being CRAZY until she actually felt it for herself on a regular OB visit in the summer. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Cord accident, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, true knot
April 3, 2012 By 9 Comments

Anissa

 Mommy to Isaac Louis

January 31, 2012

 Center Township, Pennsylvania

I couldn’t have been more prepared to welcome our second child, Isaac into this world.  The nursery was stocked full of all the necessities. (items that with our first child I was sending my husband out in the middle of the first night to get). [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, Fullterm, Pennsylvania, Stillbirth
March 27, 2012 By 12 Comments

Tarni

Mummy to Ava Madison

Born February 25, 2012

Passed February 25, 2012

Queensland, Australia

 

At 39 weeks and 2 days I went for my routine check-up. My daughter’s heartbeat was 145 bmp and she was kicking up a storm. As I walked out of the doctor’s office his last words to me were “Next time I see you, I’ll get to meet your baby.” That turned out to be anything but the truth. This is my story. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 40 weeks, Australia, Fullterm, Stillbirth
March 10, 2012 By 2 Comments

Grace

Mom to Grace-Ann Drew Wynter (“Wynter”)

Born and died January 18, 2010

Phoenixville, Pennsylvania

January 2010 proved to be month of raging storms, literally and figuratively. Deemed the coldest winter ever by weather announcers throughout the east coast, I had no idea I would feel the cold so deeply that it reached the core of my being. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, Fullterm, Pennsylvania, Stillbirth
February 25, 2012 By 2 Comments

Lani

Mom to an early miscarriage (2005)
and
Sky Gabriel, stillborn December 14, 2011

Portland, Oregon

Sky Gabriel was born still on December 14, 2011, 2 days before his due date. This is his story, or, more accurately, our story of his life and death. I’m sharing this story because it is so very important to me that Sky be remembered. I hope hearing his story is as encouraging and healing for you as sharing it is for me.

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Filed Under: 2005, 2011, 39 weeks, Early Miscarriage, Fullterm, Oregon, Stillbirth
February 11, 2012 By 5 Comments

Katy

Mom to Isla Marie
Stillborn on September 27, 2011

Smyrna, Georgia

On February 3, 2011, I got the news my husband Todd and I had been hoping (and trying) for during the previous 6 months. A positive pregnancy test confirmed my suspicions. I was pregnant with my second child. I was relieved, excited and anxious! Mostly, I was happy for my daughter, Emma (age 4), who had been asking for a “baby” for some time. She immediately began insisting she was going to have a sister. Well, her wishes came true because in May 2011 an ultrasound confirmed that indeed Emma was going to have a little sister of her own. She came to the ultrasound with us and was fairly non-phased. “I told you so” is what she said to us as we were leaving the office!  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Fullterm, Georgia, Stillbirth
January 19, 2012 By 7 Comments

 

Abi

Mama to Corbin David

Still born January 19th, 2011

Sacramento, CA

 

My second son, Corbin David, was born on January 19th, at 11:10 A.M.  He was beautiful.  Past full term, he was born at forty-one weeks gestation.  A chubby nine pounds and thirteen ounces.  Twenty-one inches long.  Black hair that curled as it dried.  Long fingers and legs.  Sweet turned up newborn nose.   I gush about him like any other new mama. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, California, Fullterm, Stillbirth
January 19, 2012 By 5 Comments

Alliena

Mom to Alexys Annajoy

Still born November 8, 2011

Springfield, Missouri

I knew at a young age that I would not have children and those fears were confirmed in the fall of 2008. I was in and out of the hospital several times for abdominal pain and the doctors couldn’t figure out the reason for it. It was a couple of weeks after the pain started when I was diagnosed with insulin resistant Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). The doctor told me my chances of getting pregnant were slim to none. His exacts words were “You cannot get pregnant without help.” The news wasn’t as devastating because I knew this already from my lack of periods as a teenager. [Read more...]

Filed Under: Fullterm, Missouri, PCOS, Stillbirth
December 30, 2011 By 7 Comments

Cristina

Mom to Lorelei

Born sleeping November 5, 2011 at 10:08 p.m.

California

I am really not sure where to begin…but I will start by saying that my life and those of my husband and our families has been changed forever. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 39 weeks, California, Fullterm, Spotting, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident
November 16, 2011 By 6 Comments

Jolon Sherin

Mom to Larissa

Stillborn on her due-date, November 15, 2010

Pittston, PA

It was March 11th, 2010 when the word ‘pregnant’ on a Clear Blue digital pregnancy test changed my life forever.  From that moment on, I was a mom.   [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, Fullterm, Pennsylvania, Stillbirth
October 12, 2011 By 2 Comments

Stephanie

Mom to Jack Michael Ryan

Stillborn August 15th, 2011

Edmonton, Alberta

Canada

I was 20 years old and on top of the world.  A year prior I had met Jon. He was 5 years older than me had a 13 month old daughter. They had both become my entire world. The reason I wanted to wake up every morning. His daughter lived in New Brunswick and us in Alberta. We hit it off right away, our parents being from the same small community in Newfoundland. I thought I was going to marry him. We moved in with each other 3.5 months after we started our relationship. He treated me like a princess. We began getting very serious, he bought a house and we moved in. That was June 2010. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Canada, Fullterm, Stillbirth
October 11, 2011 By 1 Comment

Samantha

Mom to Kayden Kristoffer Catalan

January 8th, 2009

Calgary, Alberta

Canada

I had a very easy pregnancy.  I was super healthy, not a thing wrong with me, and little stress in my life.  At about 37 weeks, I had lost a couple lbs, nothing big.  They asked how I felt, and I had felt the same…

At my 38 weeks check up my weight was fine, nothing was wrong at all. At my 39 week check up, I lost weight again and my belly measured a bit smaller..  The doctor wanted to send me for an ultrasound but decided not to because I probably wouldn’t get in until after my due date…  Little did we know that ultra sound could have saved my babies life.

My due date (January 2) came and went. I went to the doctor on January 7 around 10am… I had gotten all 10 movements plus more everyday so it came as a complete shock when no heartbeat was found..  Then they tried to tell me it had to have been days because there was little fluid… I had to have 3 ultra sounds that day, have a bunch of different people tell me my baby was gone, it was awful. The worst part was seeing everyone around me crying, and I couldnt cry, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t cry.

[Read more...]

Filed Under: 2009, 40 weeks, Canada, Fullterm, Stillbirth
September 30, 2011 By 5 Comments

Marilia

Mom to Emily Grace

October 6th, 2010

Raleigh, North Carolina

 

It was my second child.

My husband and I got married and decided shortly after to start a family. I got pregnant right away and had a wonderful uneventful pregnancy. I delivered a beautiful healthy girl with no complications. I was a bit concerned that because of being of advanced age I might had difficulties but with my little girl it proved that there is nothing wrong about getting pregnant after 35. A year after we decided to try for our second child. I was very confident that nothing would go wrong as it was with my first. I knew of mothers that lost their babies and I knew it could happen but it was more like thinking driving and having a car accident. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 40 weeks, Fullterm, North Carolina, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord hypercoiling
September 21, 2011 By 2 Comments

Sara

Mom to Lucas Alexander

Born Still on October 18th, 2010

Old Fields, West Virginia

I found out very “late” that I was an expecting Mommy…I conceived while on birth control pills, and my partner & I used condoms as well…..so needless to say, “surprised” didn’t quite cover the emotion I felt when I discovered I was pregnant! I was already almost six months into my pregnancy, with only 8 pounds of weight gain, no skipped periods, no nausea, NO signs what-so-ever. At any rate, once I recovered from the shock of “Wow, how did this happen?!?!”, I was elated! I couldn’t wait to see my Little Man, hold him in my arms, and watch him grow. All of my neonatal appointments went smoothly, his heartbeat was always strong. Clockwork. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 38 weeks, Fullterm, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident, West Virginia
September 19, 2011 By 2 Comments

Lindsey

Mom to Garrett

Stillborn July 31st, 2004

Eden Prairie, Minnesota

My baby angel Garrett was stillborn July 31, 2004 at 38 weeks.  I had a perfect pregnancy and had no reason to suspect anything would go wrong.  I was surprised to wake up one morning at 2:30am with a horrible feeling that something was wrong.  It wasn’t until a few hours later that I realized I wasn’t feeling my baby move.  Despite that, I was completely blindsided when the doctor told me my son’s heart had stopped beating.  After delivery, we learned that Garrett had died from an umbilical cord accident.  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2004, 38 weeks, Fullterm, Minnesota, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident
September 1, 2011 By 7 Comments

Nikki

Mom to C.R.

Born May 18th, 2011

Died May 19th, 2011

Biloxi, Mississippi

To say that I never thought this could happen to me– to us– my family–  is a gross understatement.  I was happily pregnant with my second son who was to be delivered 5 days prior to his due date via a repeat c-section.  My pregnancy was, for the most part, fantastic.  I had no issues with my health and each and every ultrasound showed a thriving (and big!) baby boy.  Our sweet C was the perfect was to complete our family.  The RCS was easy– I laughed and joked with the CRNA and chatted during the surgery.  I still remember that swelling in my heart and the welling of tears in my eyes as my wonderful doctor rumbled around behind the curtain.  My husband and I laughed with each other and he snapped a silly picture of my face.  Moment later, Collins was born, all 9 lbs 1 oz of chubby perfection!  He yelled and I just knew my world was complete.  He hollered and grabbed the OB’s gown as she lifted him from me.  He began grunting– having breathing issues– almost immediately.  I kissed his sweet lips 3 times and he was whisked to the NICU.  I sensed something was wrong but tried to talk myself out of it.  Even the doctor, in a loving way, told me to hush and that it would all be okay.   [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, C-Section, Fullterm, Infant loss, Mississippi, Neonatal death, NICU, Undetectable
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