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Shanecia

Mom to Gabriella Cadena

July 1, 2016

Las Cruces, New Mexico

You never truly know how precious life is until a horrible tragedy happen before your eyes. 

June 30, 2016. Thursday afternoon was a normal day. I ran errands with my son and did everything I normally do. Thursday morning while still in bed, I felt my baby girl move around and kick me. That afternoon was a normal routine prenatal checkup. I was 22 weeks along. I was so excited but also fearful to go in and hear the heartbeat because no parent wants anything to go wrong. I went in for my appointment with the intentions of leaving with a healthy baby girl, and a strong heartbeat. This moment changed my life completely. I was so heartbroken. I was in shock. I was numb.

My OB and I started off with the simple routine questions. The measurements of Gabriella and the part I dread but yet can’t wait for…hearing her heartbeat. My OB couldn’t find her heartbeat. At any other appointment it was so easy and quick to find her heart. But this time was different. It took longer than expected and I knew something was wrong. As I looked at her face I could tell something was wrong and she looked worried. She then rolled in the ultrasound monitor to see if she could get the heartbeat on the machine. She couldn’t. She told me she was going to get the head OB to help her. At that point I was so confused and freaked out. I was shaking and so scared. I didn’t know what to think. I began crying and praying. Praying it was just a glitch and she was just being stubborn. The doctor came in and began another ultrasound. It took him 10 minutes (which felt like a lifetime) because he wanted to make sure what they were saying and seeing was accurate. He started explaining to me what he found on the screen. He stated she had a lot of fluid and swelling around her head. He confirmed she had passed. By far the WORST feeling I have ever felt.

My husband had stayed home with our son while I went to my appointment because again, who would think anything like this would happen? I immediately called my husband hysterically crying telling him everything that happened. My doctor went over some options with me. He told me to go home and discuss with my husband what we wanted to do. We could either wait and let my body go into labor itself or be admitted that day and induced. I couldn’t hold off any longer, I had to be admitted and induced. I went straight home after my appointment and as soon as I walked through the door, my husband was there, I broke down. We were so devastated. We were told to go back to the hospital in 1 hour. We went in and as I was pushed in a wheelchair up to labor and delivery, I was so frustrated and angry that this was actually happening. All I could think about was why was this happening to us? What did we do to deserve this? Where did I go wrong with taking care of myself? Everything was running through my head. As they wheeled me upstairs, they pushed me to my room, passing all the beautiful newborn baby pictures on the walls, made me feel even worse thinking I’ll never be able to hold our baby girl that way.

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552732_4274233256686_1586568086_nHillary

Mom to Shiloh

June 25, 2013

Grand Rapids, Michigan

Our baby girl was diagnosed with a cystic hygroma (extra fluid on the back of her neck) at our 13-week ultrasound. The doctors told us she most likely had a chromosomal abnormality that caused the hygroma, and there was a chance she could die before she was born. We were devastated, as we wanted everything to be perfect with our first baby. We took a blood test that tested for Down Syndrome, Turners Syndrome, Trisomy 13, and Trisomy 18. The tests came back negative for all, and that is when we found out we were having a daughter.

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166738_10151522987259508_437982741_nTricia

Mom to Isabelle Skye

Stillborn February 13, 2013

Schenectady, New York

To make a long story short, I had finally conceived after 2 years of trying and was so happy, but it sadly ended in miscarriage faster than I ever imagined. I literally found out I was pregnant and lost the baby a week later. It was devastating for me . Thankfully, my husband was by my side the whole time and was very supportive. After that, we gave TTC a little break as I could not handle it emotionally. After a few months, we decided to go ahead and keep trying and two more years later, nothing still. I was starting to get discouraged and bummed out. Also my cycles started to become a little off and I would skip a month here and there, or sometimes two. Well, in September we really put all effort into this baby-making thing and we tried every day. I was drinking some herbal teas to enhance fertility and really just trying to not have any stress.

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Erica

Mom to Nathan Christopher and 5 other angel babies

Pell Lake, Wisconsin

My name is Erica, and I’m 33 years old [at time of writing]. My husband Jeff and I have been married for over 5 years. We have been together since 2006. During our time together, we have suffered six first trimester miscarriages. Our first loss was in 2006, followed by two losses in 2011, two losses in 2012 and our last loss in 2013.

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Rachel

Mom to Gracelyn, “Gracie”

Born still February 1, 2014

Allen, Texas 

I was 18 weeks pregnant when my daughter was diagnosed with Turner’s Syndrome (TS). For those of you who are unfamiliar with TS it’s the missing of all or part of the second X chromosome. My daughter also had a large Cystic Hygroma which measured 40 mm and Fetal Hydrops. The Maternal-Fetal Specialist told my husband and I that “with the combination of Cystic Hygroma coupled with Fetal Hydrops poses an extremely poor prognosis with the risk for fetal demise approaching nearly 100%.”  We were told that we would lose our baby within the next 4 weeks. Just minutes before we found out that we were expecting a little girl, moments later we find out that she would likely die. Our hearts were broken. [Read more…]

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Kristal

Mom to Graham Lee

March 18th, 2010

and Slade Douglas

October 11th, 2010

Weatherford, Texas

My angels in Heaven…

I’ve never wanted anything more than to be a wife and mommy all of my life. My amazing husband and I were married in November of 2007, and following that December 1, 2009 was the another happy day of our lives. We were surprised to find out we were expecting our first bundle of joy. [Read more…]

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Melissa

Mom to Anna Melissa

Lost on July 13th, 2011 at 15 weeks

Racine, WI

I have always considered myself blessed, even though things haven’t always been easy for us.
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Kara Masi

Mom to Filomena Lucille Masi

Stillborn on March 10th, 2011 at 24 weeks and 3 days

Newark, Delaware

Ever since I was little, I knew I’d always have a house full of children. [Read more…]

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Molly
Mother to Audrina Capri Williams
Born on June 23rd, 2010 and grew her wings an hour later
Edmund, OK
The past few months have been more than a crazy roller coaster ride. There are no words to express the pain/joy/hurt/happiness I have been through. I guess I am ready to share my story and I hope to bring others hope and peace. Losing a baby is one of the most devastating things any mother can go through. From the time that you see that test that says positive, you are a mother. But, my story is a little different…


On January 25, 2010 I picked up my first pregnancy test. Scared.out.of.my.mind. I kept telling myself there is no way, nooo way. Right? Well, hmm… maybe I am. So I sucked it up took the test and….

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