Mom to Victoria
December 6, 2016
Mom to Victoria
December 6, 2016
Mom to Brady
September 4, 2015 – Septemner 12, 2015
My husband and I were married in August of 2012. It was a great day. We got married after three years of dating. We also took our time and decided to be just the two of us for a little over two years before starting to think about expanding our family. We were lucky enough to get pregnant in December 2014. Meaning our first little one was set to be born just after our three year anniversary and right around my birthday. [Read more…]
Mom to Edward Malcolm Joseph October 29, 2013
Baby M #1: 11 weeks, July 2014
Baby M #2: 9 weeks, November 2014
Posterior Urethral Valves (PUV)
Three years after marrying my amazing husband Michael, we decided to start a family. After a few months of unsuccessful trying, I had a feeling there had to be something wrong… I called my mom and luckily she knew a fantastic fertility doctor who could see me right away.
It was a pretty quick diagnosis – it only took one ultrasound to discover I have polycystic ovaries. We tried a couple cycles of Clomid and then opted for surgery to get my ovaries to respond. Two months later I was pregnant with our absolutely gorgeous and wonderful little girl, Halina.
Mother to Johnny Pickup Jr.
Sadly lost November 29, 2012
Parksville, British Columbia, Canada
Mom to Damian
September 15 – 18, 2012
Cold Lake, Alberta, Canada
On January 28, 2012, I found I was expecting my first child with my boyfriend. It was finally good news because we were trying for 5 months! We finally were about to have a baby. I had a normal pregnancy and no complications through the whole thing. I was due October 5, 2012.
On September 14th, I went into labor at about 5 p.m. I had a very easy labor. I finally had my son the next day, 2 weeks and 6 days early. [He was born] at 12:02 p.m. and he weighed 5 pounds 9 ounces and he was 18 ¾ inches long. The doctor told me he was healthy and my gosh, he was a beautiful baby. We finally got to bring him home the next day and got him all set up and comfortable in our home.
December 29th 2009 – Loss at 12 weeks
May 19th 2010 – Loss at 7 weeks
August 8th 2010 – Loss at 8 weeks
May 1st 2012- Loss at 9 weeks
Oshawa, Ontario Canada
This is the letter I wrote to our 4th angel baby.
Three weeks ago [at time of writing] I took a deep breath and I peed on a stick. Before I could blink or even process a thought, I saw those two lines appear. My heart stopped, my heart skipped a beat, I started to shake and take deep breaths. I looked across the room at my beautiful little girl as she played in the dining room. I looked back at myself in the mirror and saw the tears streaming down my face.
I was in absolute shock. How could this be? A natural pregnancy!? The last time we conceived naturally was in November 2009. Back then Miscarriage was just something we had heard of, but didn’t know just how common it was. Nor did we ever think it would happen to us. We faced our biggest fear on my husbands 25th birthday in 2009, at the end of December just after our 12th week of pregnancy. I miss my baby every day and I have never fully recovered from that loss.
Mom to Asjiah-Fate
September 18, 2012 – October 8, 2012
Toronto, Ontario, Canada
It all started when I was 7months pregnant. I had my 18 week ultrasound done over and over. They kept repeating it, saying they just were not getting clear pictures of baby’s heart. Then I was told I had to go to Mount Sinai hospital to have it done, just because they had better equipment. I was so confused about what was going on. I had 3 previous miscarriages back to back prior to this pregnancy, so was very worried. I asked, “Are you sure that is the only reason, because I’m going to be going alone?” They told me everything was fine. [Read more…]
Mom to Jaron Robert
August 3, 2012 – August 8, 2012
Thunder Bay, Ontario, Canada
Being diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome at the early age of 14 felt like a death sentence, as the possibility of infertility was so high. My husband and I had been married 5 years and together for 13. During that time, we had said if pregnancy happens we will embrace it, but if it doesn’t, then we will embrace that, too…although, deep down I think we both wanted a child so badly and were using the “whatever happens, happens” motto to ease our pain. After 6 years of not using contraception, we became pregnant. It was the happiest day of my life. I came into our bedroom hysterically crying, and my husband thought something was wrong until I showed him the stick. [Read more…]
Mom to Henry Lefebvre Bonnell
Born and died September 28, 2012
Montreal, Quebec, Canada
We had our first ultrasound on September 19, 2012 – the day we found out that everything was not OK.
While an ultrasound uses sound vibrations to get an image of babies inside their mummies, these sound waves crashed into the depths of our lives and reverberated throughout the universe in a spiral until it came to a deafening halt on September 28. We’re now trying to pick through the rubble and aftershock.
We had no idea anything had been awry during my pregnancy – no false contractions, bleeding, or anything else – just a regular, easy pregnancy to date that brought us a lot of joy.
During our first ultrasound, we were, at first, elated. It was our first time seeing our child. We found him to be the most beautiful little baby, and we were so proud. [Read more…]
Mom to Thing 1
Lost June 21, 2011 at 16 weeks
Lost April 16, 2012 at 14 weeks
Melfort, Saskatchewan, Canada
My now-husband, B, works shift work in Alberta. One day in June, 2011, as we were driving down a gravel road, I blurted, “I’m pregnant.” This is the point the truck skidded to a stop and B looked at me. The ‘WTF Did You Say?!??’ look. I explained how I knew and after a dumbfounded silence, he started driving again. We started talking about him leaving a truck up at work, baby furniture, saving money and finding a bigger apartment. We were happy, the baby was flipping around in my belly and we went about our days, not really realizing what was happening in my body. [Read more…]
Dartmouth. Nova Scotia, Canada
In 2009, I was 22 and probably the happiest person in the world. I had a wonderful boyfriend, the best family and friends in the world, a great job, and a sweet puppy; life was good.
Anyway…HAPPY…my boyfriend and I had just bought a house, on a lake, by a beautiful beach, just the perfect little place for 2 people starting out! We both had alright jobs, and while we didn’t have any immediate plans for the future we just knew we wanted to be together!! [Read more…]
Mom to Connor James
Born still May 19, 2012
Eastern Passage, Nova Scotia, Canada
I remember the day I found out I was pregnant like it was yesterday. It was Friday, September 16th, my parents’ anniversary and I had made myself a doctor’s appointment that afternoon because I hadn’t been able to keep anything in my system. I remember trying to figure out what could be making me so sick, and I finally narrowed it down and thought it was dairy products. Boy, was I wrong! I went to the doctor, told her everything that was going on and she said, “Well, Ashley, I think you actually might be pregnant.” My response of course was, “No way, if I was pregnant I think I would know.” My appointment ended with me going for blood work the following Monday but there was no way on earth I could wait that long. I went home and got a home pregnancy test and there it was: a big, bright plus sign. I was pregnant! My boyfriend, Mark, wasn’t home, so, not thinking, I immediately picked up the phone and called him at work. Our conversation went exactly like this : [Read more…]
Mom to four babies
Born still August 17, 2011
Baby #1 – lost February 2010
Baby #2 – lost September 2010
Baby #4 – lost July 2012
Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
My husband and I got married in July 2008 and didn’t think we were quite ready yet to start trying for kids. We started trying to conceive and got frustrated because we were not getting pregnant right away. I bought an ovulation kit and the 2nd time I used it, we were pregnant in December 2009. We were so excited to see that little word on the stick: “pregnant”. At 11 weeks into the pregnancy, I began to have some spotting and went to my doctor. I was sent for blood tests on 3 days and they determined that I was losing the baby. I decided to have a D&C because I didn’t think I could emotionally handle miscarrying naturally. After the D&C we found out our little one only grew to about 7-8 weeks. The doctor just told us to keep trying and that miscarriages happened more often than we thought. [Read more…]
Mom to Finley
Born March 23, 2012 and died March 26, 2012
in Naples, Italy
From Canada, but currently lives in
My husband and I were married in July 2011 and 2 days later we moved to Italy on a military posting. About 2 weeks after being in Italy is when we found out we were expecting.
There is a British midwife who helps with the care there, but my care was mostly done in an American naval hospital, which is where I would deliver.
I had early scans at 7 and 9 weeks, then the regular scans at 12 and 20 weeks. We had the detailed scans at a private clinic in Naples, as the American hospital did not have machines that would scan in enough detail. At the 20 week scan, it was observed that there was high blood pressure in one of the arteries in the cord, which was giving reduced blood flow to our son. The American doctor was not overly concerned by this. We were told he would likely be small though. I was also told I would be closely monitored and that if at any point they were concerned, I would deliver in an Italian hospital, as they don’t have the facilities to deal with high risk situations in the American one. I went on to have more scans at 24, 28, and 32 weeks. By 32 weeks, although Finley was small (approx. 25th percentile), the pressure problem had corrected itself and they were happy with the consistency of his growth. I was put as low risk. [Read more…]
Mom to Carter Cooper Barry
Born sleeping October 20, 2011 at 38 weeks 2 days
Toronto, Ontario, Canada
October 20, 2011.
It was a day like nothing I have ever gone through, or nothing I ever want to go through again.
I woke up on Wednesday, October 19 and got my 3-year old, Jackson, ready for our day. I babysit another child, so I was able to stay home with Jackson, who I still have a hard time separating from. We went to the drop-in at our neighbouring school, where Jackson will attend when he goes next year. I was 38 weeks and 2 days pregnant…I am so busy every day that I noticed movement from the baby mostly in the evening. I went to the drop in and really didn’t feel movement, so when we got home I put the kids down for a nap, and drank a cold glass of milk…nothing, then juice…nothing. I called my doctor and no answer, so I left a message. I called the hospital and they said to come in. The kids woke up and I called the mother of the child I babysit and asked her to come and get her daughter a little early. I had to go to the hospital to see what was going on. [Read more…]
Mom to River Angel Marshall
Stillborn April 8, 2012
Smith Falls, Ontario, Canada
There is Grief and there is Gratitude.
Life can be so very cruel on occasion. I could list a dozen examples, heck, if I really tried I could probably list a hundred. What would be the point?
My personal tragedy isn’t unique to me, although my experience of it, and how I react to it and how it has changed me is unique.
After months of trying to get pregnant, Jason and I came to terms with the fact that we were unable to conceive without assistance. We contemplated seeking fertility treatments, but in the end we decided that was not the best option for us. We had a few reasons for coming to that decision; mainly there was a financial consideration, and secondarily was the concern about how hormone treatments might affect my already fragile emotional state, given that I suffer from anxiety disorder and depression. [Read more…]
Mom to Tristan
Died May 9, 2009
Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
On the evening of Mother’s Day 2009, I lost my baby. I was 6 weeks pregnant, and had been trying to have a baby for almost two years. [Read more…]
Mom to Brody Stewart
Born and died March 6, 2012
Hamilton, Ontario, Canada
We got married in August 2011. Eric and I have wanted children for a long time. Just after our wedding, we got pregnant right away. We knew this baby was special, as our pregnancy went problem free. I felt amazing the entire time, and every kick from him was a reminder of how lucky we truly were. Every OB appointment that passed was so exciting, and getting to hear his heartbeat month after month, made us more and more excited to have our little guy at home soon. [Read more…]
Mom to Jordan
Lost September 9, 2011,
Ectopic pregnancy, September 2009
Missed miscarriage, March 2009
Kitchener, Ontario, Canada
My name is Kaitlin and I am 29 years old. I am married to Scott and have a daughter Emma.
I am sharing our journey with you as demonstration of our commitment to this process. Please take the time to understand where we have been and how we got to this place. [Read more…]
Mother to Emelina Danyelle
Received her Angel Wings February 21, 2012
Chilliwack, BC Canada
Emelina’s Birth Story
My husband I met in August 2001 and knew shortly that we were meant to be; in 2003 we welcomed our first daughter.
We decided after almost 6 years to finally start trying for a second child, so in June 2011 we went decided to start trying and on July 2 2011 we found out we were pregnant with our second child. My pregnancy had a few challenges one being morning sickness through the whole thing…as well as this baby decided it did not like me to eat any meat other than chicken. I had back and hip pain that made working a challenge but my whole pregnancy was normal…until February 18… [Read more…]