Mothers Name: Zita
Baby: Amelie Maria Sayles
June 26th – July 15th, 2011.
Los Angeles, CA.
When I found out I was pregnant on the morning of October 31st 2010, it was one of the best moments of my life. [Read more...]
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Yentyl Ria
Mom to Sovonn Rian
Sleeping Angel taken on September 18,2011
West Sacramento, California
I was 20 weeks pregnant with my first child. [Read more...]
March 15, 2012 By 6 Comments
Ellen
Mom to Austin
Born November 6, 2011 at 12:55 am
Died November 6, 2011 at 2:35 am
San Diego, California
My husband and I were trying to get pregnant for a long time. When we found out we were pregnant on June 25, 2011, it had been something we wanted for so long and we decided to take 5 pregnancy tests to make sure. After all of those tests, we confirmed we got what we had so longed for and we couldn’t have been happier. [Read more...]
March 9, 2012 By 2 Comments
Tesha
Mom to Jonathan Anthony
Born still January 24, 2012 at 20 weeks’ gestation
Mar Vista, California
It all happened very fast and was so unexpected. I went to a routine doctor appointment on Monday, January 23rd. The prior week I had the flu and had to reschedule my January 18th appointment until the following Monday. When I arrived, my blood pressure was high but they thought it was due to my sickness. During the doctors routine examination she began to check for the baby’s heartbeat. After an agonizing 10 minutes or so she said she needed to send me to the emergency room because she could not find his heartbeat. I was worried, but honestly thought everything was fine. After all, we had just seen our little guy on a 3D ultrasound the week before. I thought he was just hiding. I called my husband (Jimmy) and after delivering my five other children to their Mam’s, we proceeded to the hospital.
Once we arrived at the hospital I was pretty relaxed. After all, we had sent text messages to our church family, personal friends and family members, everyone was praying. Surly God would not let that many people down, and besides I have a miracle baby and know that God can come through even in bleak circumstance. The ultrasound confirmed what seemed unimaginable to me: our sweet baby boy was already in Heaven. In shock, we gathered our family to prepare for Jonathan’s delivery the next day. I felt so alone and lost that night; how was it possible my baby was dead? I could have sworn I felt him kick that night. January 24, 2012 will be etched on my heart and mind forever. Although I had given birth to five babies, my arrival at the hospital on this day was indescribable. I had been anxious and afraid before but this time I was embarking on a journey that would forever change me. A road no mommy would ever want to walk. As I lay awaiting Jonathan Anthony’s arrival, I pondered what would life be like now, how I would it feel to leave the hospital with empty arms and a broken heart. Jimmy never left my side, yet I felt alone. My wonderful mother-in-law and sister-in-law joined me for his birth. They looked through the memory box the hospital had provided us, and gave me some helpful information designed to help me through this time.
I never had such conflicting emotions…while desperately wanting it to be over, I knew the end result of his birth would be the ultimate goodbye.
At around 7:30 I felt the urge to push. When the doctor checked me she said we had to wait until I was fully dilated. She informed us Jonathan’s body could be damaged from the delivery. This is when my tears gave way to panic because this had not crossed my mind, the consequence death had taken on his little body. I begged my husband to pray that Jonathan would be born quickly and entirely whole.
March 6, 2012 By 2 Comments
Milagros
Mom to Emmaliese Fuerte
Born December 8, 2011
Died January 15, 2012
Patterson, California
Being pregnant with Emmaliese was wonderful. No signs of high blood pressure, swelling, or morning sickness, and I actually had just my baby bump, not round all over. I had a very uneventful pregnancy and labor. After nine hours of labor and three pushes, Emmaliese was born at 7:32 am weighing 7 pounds, 8 ounces and measuring 20 inches. [Read more...]
March 2, 2012 By 3 Comments
Angelic
Mom to Hannah Grace
Due June 23, 2012
Went to Heaven December 19, 2011
Fresno, California
My husband and I always talked about having a baby together one day. We have been together for 7 years, married for almost 4 years. Each of us has a daughter from previous relationships so a baby would blend our families completely. We had not been planning on getting pregnant but on October 8th I found out, I was pregnant. I was a day late and didn’t think it was even possible since we were using birth control. I decided to take a pregnancy test and it was positive. I took three more tests in amazement, all were positive. I told my husband, who at first was in shock himself. When we told the kids, they were so excited about the new addition to our family. I was beyond thrilled because at 38-years-old I didn’t know if I would get pregnant right away because I had already known that I suffered from hormone imbalance and low progesterone. I called my OB immediately and she placed me on progesterone supplements for the first 12 weeks for my pregnancy. I had morning sickness, fatigue and started to show right so it was hard to keep quiet for long. [Read more...]
February 25, 2012 By 2 Comments
Jody
Mom to Maximus Wright Bloom
Born March 1, 2011 and died March 12, 2011
San Francisco, California
My second pregnancy was uneventful. I did not have high blood pressure like I did with my first pregnancy. I did not have to be hospitalized like I did with my first pregnancy (for a placenta tear). The pregnancy, while tiring, since I was now running around after a toddler, was as perfect as can be. All the tests that were done came back normal. [Read more...]
February 25, 2012 By 2 Comments
Katy
Three miscarriages
8w5d in 2010, 8w1d in 2011 and 9w3d in 2012
San Jose, California
My husband and I decided to start trying for a family in December 2009. We tried for 6 months to conceive our first. I temped, charted, drank tea and Pom juice, the works. It felt like it took forever! And the feeling of seeing those two pink lines for the very first time is something I will never forget. No matter how many times those lines show up again it will also never be the same as that first time. [Read more...]
February 11, 2012 By 2 Comments
Kellie
Mom to Andrew Noah, Benjamin Levi, and Caleb Thomas
Born and died December 30, 2009
Bakersfield, California
We had fought for so long for those babies. Years of infertility. IVF worked almost too well. I ended up with triplets! I was so sick even from the beginning. From ten weeks on I had the worst morning sickness. Nothing stayed down very well.
On December 23rd, 2009, when I was about 16 weeks pregnant, I went on home IV hydration since I had been puking up everything in sight. That night, I managed to clot up my IV and had to go in the next day to get a new one placed. The next morning my head was killing me with a hideous headache that wouldn’t respond to anything. [Read more...]
January 28, 2012 By 5 Comments
Debbie
Mom to Mila
December 15, 2011
Moreno Valley, California
I had butterflies in my tummy the moment I found out I was pregnant. I knew this would be my baby girl instantly. I am the mother of 2 healthy boys and I was finally going to have my baby girl. In October I had my first prenatal visit and heard the heartbeat of my precious angel. My husband and I had not planned on having another child at this time, but we were ready to welcome a new baby. We made plans instantly, planned how we would reorganize the house to make it ready for our baby, we started saving since we were no amateurs and knew how much diapers and formula cost. We decided together not to tell our families until we knew the sex of the baby and we didn’t want the kids to know until we knew if they were having a brother or sister. I had all of my routine first trimester lab work and ultrasound done and everything was fine. We had a due date on May 20, 2012, right before summer which was perfect (I didn’t want to be pregnant in the dry desert heat). [Read more...]
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Sarah
Mom to Baby Bean, lost at 5 weeks on January 23, 2010
and RJ, born still at 19 weeks on August 17, 2010
Yorba Linda, California
In the fall of 2002, my husband and I decided that we were ready to become parents. We were successful on our very first attempt and on July 24, 2003, we welcomed our first child, Preston, a son, happy and healthy. We always knew that we wanted at least 4 children and I was paranoid about secondary infertility, so when our son was just 2 months old, we tried again and 11 months and 18 days later on July 12, 2004, we welcomed a healthy and happy baby girl, Delainey. Life was good and we decided that we needed a break to enjoy our kids. [Read more...]
January 25, 2012 By 2 Comments
Erica
Poppyseed January 2012
San Diego, CA
On December 10, 2011 we got some wonderful news we had two mature eggs. After 4 years of marriage and 2 years of infertility treatments this was only the second time any eggs were seen on our ultrasounds. We were instructed to go home and start trying and take a home test in two weeks. My husband was trying to expect the worst but I was pretty optimistic I kept telling him I knew it would work this time. My family was so excited that I tested right away on Christmas Eve and was very disappointed when the test returned negative. [Read more...]
January 19, 2012 By 7 Comments
Abi
Mama to Corbin David
Still born January 19th, 2011
Sacramento, CA
My second son, Corbin David, was born on January 19th, at 11:10 A.M. He was beautiful. Past full term, he was born at forty-one weeks gestation. A chubby nine pounds and thirteen ounces. Twenty-one inches long. Black hair that curled as it dried. Long fingers and legs. Sweet turned up newborn nose. I gush about him like any other new mama. [Read more...]
January 14, 2012 By Leave a Comment
Marilou
Early miscarriage, August 2006
Ectopic pregnancy, November 2011
Corona, California
I am a mother, but my two babies are in Heaven with Jesus. I am the face of ectopic pregnancy loss and early miscarriage.
My husband and I eloped to Las Vegas in July of 2006 after only dating for one month. In August, we found out that I was pregnant. That was a shocker. We weren’t ready, I wasn’t done with nursing school, we both didn’t have jobs to support a baby (much less ourselves) and quite frankly, we weren’t done growing up. But after the initial shock, we were excited…excited to welcome this baby into the world with loving arms…excited to embark on this unpredictable new journey. That excitement was short lived when I began bleeding while I was at work one day. We went to the doctor the same day and they told me that I was miscarrying. How can you describe the pain of losing a baby? My sorrow was brief because everyone around me seemed to get over it just fine, so I felt like I needed to as well. [Read more...]
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Tonya
Miscarried in July 2010 at 10 weeks,
November 2010 at 9 weeks,
January 2011 at 8 weeks,
and October 2011 at 7 weeks (IVF)
Costa Mesa, California
I had a perfect pregnancy with my son, zero complications getting or staying pregnant. I have miscarried four times since his first birthday:
- July 2010 10 weeks
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November 2010 9 weeks
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January 2011 8 weeks
December 30, 2011 By 3 Comments
Cindra Fox
Cadence Harper Fox (due May 18, 2009 and lost September 18, 2008)
Riley Arden Fox (due June 20, 2010 and lost November 23, 2010)
Orange, CA
In the summer of 2008, I found myself locked in a bathroom stall, staring at three positive pregnancy tests. [Read more...]
December 30, 2011 By 7 Comments
Cristina
Mom to Lorelei
Born sleeping November 5, 2011 at 10:08 p.m.
California
I am really not sure where to begin…but I will start by saying that my life and those of my husband and our families has been changed forever. [Read more...]
November 23, 2011 By 5 Comments
Lindsey
Mom to Lily Sarah Ellen
Lost on August 31, 2011
Mountain View, CA
“There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.” ~Mahatma Gandhi
My daughter Lily went from living in my womb to residing forever in my heart on August 31, 2011. I was 14 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At the time I am writing these words, it has been nearly three months since I lost my baby girl, just about the length of time I carried her in my body. Many of these lines were lifted straight from the journal I started while I was hospitalized following her death. If it seems disjointed, it’s because it was written over a period of many days, during many different moods. It has been a difficult process, putting them to type, but one done in loving memory of the baby who will always be, to me, my first child. Not a “miscarried fetus” or a “hope of a baby that never was,” but my first child: a true, unique and beloved individual. My story is a tribute to her memory, and is written in the hope that it may bring both comfort to other mothers who have lost their precious unborn babies, and awareness to those who, having never experienced such a tragedy themselves, are struggling to understand the experience. [Read more...]
November 16, 2011 By 2 Comments
Autumn Cunningham
Mom to Gemma O’neilCunningham
October 21st 2010
San Diego, CA
After our first daughter was born, my husband and I were told we had passed along genetic birth defects. The chance of passing along similar birth defects was a 25% chance. We went into our second pregnancy knowing the chances but not having a full scope of what those genetic defects could be; even the Geneticist was shocked by the outcome. [Read more...]
November 16, 2011 By 4 Comments
Tami
Mom of Elijah Jack Schwartz
June 26, 2011 – June 29, 2011
Wrightwood, California
My name is Tami Schwartz. I’m 26 years old, married and live in Wrightwood,CA. My son Elijah Jack Schwartz was born on June 26,2011 and died on June 29,2011. He was 1lb. 12oz. and 15inches long. I was a high risk pregnancy due to a heart condition called VasoVagal Syncope. I had also already had a pre-term baby whom is beautiful, strong and just turned three. [Read more...]
