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April

Mom to Kristian

December 16, 2015

Rocky Point, New York

I am the face of stillbirth. I am April. I’m 23 years old and a mother of a beautiful daughter Areanna and my sleeping handsome son Kristian, who was too beautiful for earth.

Here is my story: Expecting for the second time was so exciting for my boyfriend and I; when we found out we were going to have a boy we couldn’t have been any happier. My pregnancy was well, no issues but one; my cervix was shortening so I was on bedrest. All my boyfriend would talk about was his son and how he couldn’t wait for his arrival. [There was] so much he wanted to teach him and tell him (since his father was never around) Then December 16, 2015 came the date for my scheduled c-section. [Read more…]

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Deb

Mom to Samuel

Born and Died on October 1, 2015

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

I married the most wonderful man and my best friend in September 2013. We decided we’d start trying to have a baby in January 2015, with the thought it may take awhile to get pregnant. I was so anxious and excited to get pregnant that I would take so many pregnancy tests. When I saw that first positive stick, I couldn’t believe it. Mark and I were supposed to take a vacation in Saint Martin in December 2015 and I remember telling him that I didn’t think we would be able to go. He said “why not”. That was when I showed him the positive test and said “Because I’m pregnant!” That was a happy moment.

I was so blessed not to have morning sickness or anything too severe. Smelling beer, charcoal grilling, and the dishwasher made me feel nauseous but that was nothing compared to some mamas. Mark swore we were having a girl because I craved sushi, couldn’t stand the smell of beer and charcoal grilling. Our plan was to not find out the sex of the baby. We all know that plans don’t really work out the way we intend though.

At 10 weeks, I bled. I bled a lot. I woke up early that morning and went downstairs to feed the cat and get some cereal. While downstairs, I felt something warm dripping down my legs which turned out to be blood. I thought I miscarried. I woke Mark and we laid in bed and prayed. I was so scared. I went in for an ultrasound that morning and I couldn’t believe my eyes. Our little squirming coil (as my husband liked to call the baby) was wiggling around and with a strong heartbeat. I was told I had Placenta Previa and was put on pelvic rest for 5 weeks. 

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Christine

Mom to Matthew

Saint Louis, Missouri

July 13, 2015

I always knew I wanted a family, but I was terrified of being pregnant.  Always having been acutely aware, in a borderline hypochondriac sort of way, of the range of things that could go wrong in pregnancy, I’d already thought of all the terrible possibilities.

Eventually deciding my desire to expand our family trumped my intense fear of statistically small probabilities of worst case scenarios, I decided I wanted to take a leap of faith, after 6.5 years of marriage.  The timing was perfect – we were both approaching 30 and finally ready for a new chapter.  We were over the moon excited when we found out I was pregnant!  And I was still terrified.

Pregnancy was easy for me, at least physically.  In the early days, I freaked out about aforementioned worst case scenarios.  Dr. Google and I were frenemies – I was an accountant by day and an internet-trained maternal fetal medicine specialist by night.  I cried during the first several ultrasounds, so scared we’d get bad news.  Much to our delight, everything went perfectly.

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Temi

Mom to Mercy

Phoenix, AZ

October 22, 2014- April 19, 2015

I was in my 29th week of pregnancy when I found out that Mercy had a hole in her heart.

At first, I was told that it was just a small hole that the hole will close up before she was born. I was sent to a specialist who performed an ultrasound. I will never forget his words as he said, “I have some bad news for you, while it is true that your baby has a hole in her heart, unfortunately this is the kind that doesn’t close up on its own.” I could not stop crying after receiving this news. As the doctor tried to calm me down, he explained to me further that “we see two holes in Mercy’s heart and she is measuring a size smaller than what she should be.” He continued to explain to me “I believe that Mercy may have Down syndrome.” I asked him “what do you mean by, may have Down syndrome? What is Down syndrome? How can we find out for sure?”. He continued on to explain that there was no sure way of knowing for certain if she really has Down syndrome but they can draw my blood and that would tell us if she carries an extra copy of chromosome which is also called Trisomy 21.

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Heather

Mom to Camden

August, 17, 2013 – May 21, 2014

York, Pennsylvania

On August 17, 2013 our baby Camden was born at 37 weeks. He was born via c-section due to being breech the entire pregnancy. He didn’t cry when he was born and had a hard time breathing in his own, so he had to spend the first night in the NICU. The next morning they brought him to our room and my husband and I took turns loving on him and talking about everyone who was going to come see him that morning. I decided to take a shower and my husband spent that time with Camden. After my shower, I picked Camden out of the bassinet and he seemed a little pale to me, so I set him on the bed. I started to undress him to make him a little more uncomfortable, just to make sure he was ok. I got no response from him. I pushed the nurses’ call button and the nurse came in. I asked her if he looked ok to her and she looked at him, picked him up, put him in the bassinet and ran with him out of the room. [Read more…]

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Mother to two Angels, Hope & Faith

Hope: February 21, 2014 – February 22, 2014
Faith: February 21, 2014 – February 23, 2014

San Antonio, Texas

When  found out I was pregnant, I was 10 weeks that same day. I was full of surprise that I was expecting twins. My husband and I were so shocked because we already had two kids and the only thing we did was look at each other while the doctor was doing an ultrasound. She told us she had to step out to get a different doctor. When she got back, she was not alone. She had 4 more doctors coming in to check my ultrasound.

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 Kaitlyn

Mom to Andrew

November 13, 2012

Ottumwa, Iowa

On the day I was 30 weeks pregnant, it started as a normal day. I didn’t have to work so I decided to spend the day relaxing and spending time with Derek, the father of my son. When I was laying in bed, I started shaking a lot, but was not in any pain, yet. After the shaking had calmed down, I decided I was going to get up and take a shower. As soon as I stood up, I had this pain in my belly. I really had no idea what was happening but at first it didn’t seem so serious.

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Mom to Chloë Rutten

July 25, 2011 – July 28, 2011

Uden, Netherlands

My husband and I were so excited when we found out that we were pregnant. My pregnancy was going great, I couldn’t feel more like a woman/mother during this period. All ultrasounds and checks were ok and we were just waiting for our baby to be born. To see what the baby’s gender would be and how it would look like.

But on Monday the 25th of July 2011, when I was 37 weeks pregnant, it goes terribly wrong. That evening, I was brought to the hospital by ambulance because of serious belly ache. I passed out several times. By the time I arrived in the hospital I was in shock. I was rushed to surgery to get the baby out. In surgery they found out that I had an internal bleeding. I lost about 3.5 liters of blood.

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Tanya

Mom to Atticus Erin

Born Easter Sunday, April 24, 2011

Died November 15, 2011

Greeley, Colorado

When my daughter self-weaned at 13 months, my husband and I decided we wanted to start trying for a second baby (we wanted to wait until my daughter was finished breastfeeding before we tried). [Read more…]

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Pam

Mom to Isaac Thor

Born Sleeping March 4, 2011

Warrensburg, Missouri

Making the decision to have another baby was a long and prayerful process. We had a desire to add to our family and felt we were in a position to do so. Isaac was to fill that final child chapter in our book of life. Little did we know that his chapter would take the turn it did while changing and blessing our lives the way it has. [Read more…]

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Jodi

Mom to a little one 

Lost to ectopic pregnancy October 2008

Akron, Ohio

At nineteen years old I was diagnosed with PCOS. I was told many different things from many different doctors, ranging from, “You will never be able to have children,” to “The only way I tell someone they will never have children is if they do not have a uterus.” December 25, 2007, at the age of 33, I found out I was pregnant (exactly 17 weeks 4 days…yes I missed my entire first trimester!). I had defied the odds that were against me…this was a miracle!! At this point I was single, finishing grad school and a full time teacher. May 29, 2008, Jacob came into this world and today he is a healthy, happy, intelligent light in my world!! 

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Autumn Cunningham

Mom to Gemma O’neilCunningham

October 21st 2010

San Diego, CA

After our first daughter was born, my husband and I were told we had passed along genetic birth defects. The chance of passing along similar birth defects was a 25% chance. We went into our second pregnancy knowing the chances but not having a full scope of what those genetic defects could be; even the Geneticist was shocked by the outcome. [Read more…]

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Stephine

Mom to Silas Hunter

July 23, 2011 – August 1, 2011

Newark, Ohio

I started having Braxton Hicks at around 19 weeks. Nothing to be worried about, except once after we moved. I was having them for a good 45 minutes about every 4-5 minutes. I called my doctor and we stopped them. About 2 weeks later (maybe sooner, it’s all been a rush), I woke up about 6:15am with Braxton Hicks…the ones I had gone to bed with.  But then I started getting pains..”Oh crap, I’m constipated.” These pains, oh my goodness, they kept getting worse. I went downstairs and tried to walk around, drink water, and I laid down. Boyfriend was upstairs in bed still, it was a Saturday. About 11 or so, I woke him up because I couldn’t take it anymore. I called Labor & Delivery and they told me to get some Milk of Magnesia. My boyfriend ran to the store and got it, came back a half hour or so later, but it wasn’t working and the pain was getting worse. [Read more…]

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Madelene

Mom to Ivy Antrim Uppekha Jones

Born and died April 13th, 2011

We found out we were pregnant right away. Even a few days before my period was late, the over the counter test came back positive. At six weeks, right on schedule, I started to feel a little morning sickness, but that went away quickly. Too quickly. I felt too good, and I worried that I was going to miscarry. I was going crazy with worry, as a labor and delivery nurse I knew that the third pregnancy could be a little different, I knew each pregnancy was different, but I felt like something was wrong. I demanded an early ultrasound, something I’d never had with either of my other pregnancies. I was surprised and relieved to find that there was a heartbeat.

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Kendra

Baby Sala

Early Miscarriage April 2010

Cooper Michael

August 19th, 2011 – August 28th, 2011

Wichita, Kansas

My husband, Michael, and I had been married for a little less than a year when decided wanted to start our family.  We decided we would let nature take its own course, we weren’t ‘exactly’ trying but we weren’t preventing either.  When it happened it would happened. We were extremely surprised to get a positive pregnancy test the next month. We were so excited; we called everyone we knew to tell them the exciting news! Less than a month later we were devastated to discover that the baby had never developed. It was extremely heartbreaking to have to tell everyone that we had lost our baby. [Read more…]

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Nikki

Mom to C.R.

Born May 18th, 2011

Died May 19th, 2011

Biloxi, Mississippi

To say that I never thought this could happen to me– to us– my family–  is a gross understatement.  I was happily pregnant with my second son who was to be delivered 5 days prior to his due date via a repeat c-section.  My pregnancy was, for the most part, fantastic.  I had no issues with my health and each and every ultrasound showed a thriving (and big!) baby boy.  Our sweet C was the perfect was to complete our family.  The RCS was easy– I laughed and joked with the CRNA and chatted during the surgery.  I still remember that swelling in my heart and the welling of tears in my eyes as my wonderful doctor rumbled around behind the curtain.  My husband and I laughed with each other and he snapped a silly picture of my face.  Moment later, Collins was born, all 9 lbs 1 oz of chubby perfection!  He yelled and I just knew my world was complete.  He hollered and grabbed the OB’s gown as she lifted him from me.  He began grunting– having breathing issues– almost immediately.  I kissed his sweet lips 3 times and he was whisked to the NICU.  I sensed something was wrong but tried to talk myself out of it.  Even the doctor, in a loving way, told me to hush and that it would all be okay.   [Read more…]

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