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Theresa

Mom to Adrienne Rose

November 10, 2013 – November 11, 2013

Glendale, Arizona

If I had to describe child loss using a word, my word would be painful.

And not like I broke my arm and it was painful or my pet passed away and it was painful; this pain is actually quite indescribable. You know when people describe their sadness and say they are “heartbroken,” well let me tell you, the moment I lost my sweet Adrienne, I literally felt my heart break. I felt as if my heart was ripped out of my chest. I felt like I couldn’t breath and I remember asking myself, how am I supposed to live the rest of my life without my child? I questioned my faith, I remember crying to my husband and telling him how sorry I was, and how unfair it was because I wanted her so bad. I loved her.  She had been apart of me, of us for 26 weeks and the only time I ever got to hold her in my arms, was to say goodbye. [Read more…]

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Julie

Mom to Lucas Timothy Dale

July 21, 2014 – February 26, 2015

Phoenix, Arizona

Hi my name is Julie and I am the mother of Lucas who died of USID. I was a single mother for several years with three amazing children, Brittani, Cayltyn and Steven. I was so proud to be their mother and watch them achieve their dreams. Then in 2010 I reunited with my high school sweetheart after 8 years of being single. We were happy. Then, to our surprise, we were pregnant with our son Wyatt who was born on August 3, 2012 and was an amazing blessing to our family. My older children were just in love with him. Then on July 21, 2014, Lucas came along. He was born a fighter. Early in the morning less than 24 hours after his birth, he was taken to the NICU due to low plate count. It was the scariest thing I had ever dealt with. But after a transfusion and 6-day stay in the hospital for him and me, we went home. Everything was great; our family was complete. Lucas was a gentle soul, was happy, slept great, nursed great and was not ill at all during his life.

But then on February 26, 2015, I nursed my son and drove him and his older brother to daycare. That morning I remember him smiling at me and just happy. Then at 11:00 a.m. I got the worst call of my life from the babysitter that Lucas was not breathing. I remember screaming and trying to get to my baby. Then when the nurse told me he was gone, my world died. I sat there trying to understand what was happening to me and how this could happen to me when I had done everything right for my son. When I went to go say good bye, it was like someone killed me along with my son.

After 7 months on this earth, my baby was gone. My life and family changed forever. My family, myself, my husband, my children, and my world will never be the same.

I think to myself daily, what if I stayed home that day, what if I did something different? I also blame myself every day for my son’s death. Grief is not something that is easy and I struggle every day to understand why my son is gone. I will [live] every day honoring my son Lucas Timothy Dale and making sure that he is never forgotten. [Read more…]

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Temi

Mom to Mercy

Phoenix, AZ

October 22, 2014- April 19, 2015

I was in my 29th week of pregnancy when I found out that Mercy had a hole in her heart.

At first, I was told that it was just a small hole that the hole will close up before she was born. I was sent to a specialist who performed an ultrasound. I will never forget his words as he said, “I have some bad news for you, while it is true that your baby has a hole in her heart, unfortunately this is the kind that doesn’t close up on its own.” I could not stop crying after receiving this news. As the doctor tried to calm me down, he explained to me further that “we see two holes in Mercy’s heart and she is measuring a size smaller than what she should be.” He continued to explain to me “I believe that Mercy may have Down syndrome.” I asked him “what do you mean by, may have Down syndrome? What is Down syndrome? How can we find out for sure?”. He continued on to explain that there was no sure way of knowing for certain if she really has Down syndrome but they can draw my blood and that would tell us if she carries an extra copy of chromosome which is also called Trisomy 21.

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Leigha

Mom to Reagan

September 1, 2013

Tempe, Arizona

My name is Leigha, and I am here to tell you Reagan’s story. I found out I was pregnant in June 2013. I was very scared, and didn’t know what to do. I knew one thing, I wanted this beautiful child. I struggled for months with light bleeding. ER visits galore. They found a large cyst on my one remaining ovary that was growing very rapidly, and gave the cyst a month to shrink. The doctor said if it doesn’t get smaller, surgery was my only option. A month passed by, and the cyst shrunk from 8 cm to 2.4 cm!! I was so relieved, and thanked God so much that I didn’t need surgery. Everything was fine I thought… but it wasn’t.

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Cheyenne

Mom to Serenity Lynn

Born April 19, 2014

Tempe, Arizona

I am 21 years old and I have endometriosis. I have to take fertility medicine if I want to have kids. We decided we were ready, so I took it [medicines] and I took three pregnancy tests the next month before I made my doctor’s appointment. We were so excited. We were ready for our lives to change forever. I went to the doctor’s and he told me I was 4 weeks and 5 days, but to be careful because it would possibly be a tubal pregnancy.

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Samantha

Mom to 4 lost little ones

Larkspur Due July 27th 2012, Lost January 6th 2012

Snowdrop Due January 13th 2013, Lost May 13th (Mother’s day) 2012 [Read more…]

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Mom to Lilly

March 21, 2011

Phoenix, Arizona

It has taken me 2 years to write this and share it with the world [at time of submission].

We had been trying for our second child for about 6 months and were starting to get frustrated. In December, we decided to take a break and since we were going away for Christmas, it would be a good time to de-stress. We came home on December 26th. I felt kind of off the whole trip so since I was late, I took a test expecting another disappointing result. To our utter shock, we saw the single most beautiful word you could see on a test result, “Pregnant.” To say we were thrilled would be an extreme understatement.

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Gillian

Mom to Jacob, a twin

Died July 6, 2008 and born September 10, 2008

Tucson, Arizona

My journey started in February 2008. It never occurred to me that I would have anything other than an ideal, fairy tale pregnancy. I would have a healthy baby and it would all be so easy and magical…Wrong! I found out at 13 weeks that I was having twins. This possibility never entered my mind. I was terrified, and my husband was terrified. But we knew it would be ok. We started planning, we picked names: Baby A would be Jacob and Baby B would be Kaleb. I dreamed about their room, I ordered their bedding sets and I bought letters to paint and hang above their cribs. I was secretly afraid I would mix them up so I wanted their names above their cribs. I painted them myself and had so much fun. [Read more…]

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Jimmy and Sherri

Dad and Mom to Andrew and James

Born June 10, 2011, and passed the same day

Tucson, Arizona

We delivered our sons just over 22 weeks gestation. Andy’s heart stopped just prior to delivery. Fifteen minutes later, Jimmy was delivered and died several minutes after in our arms desperately trying to breathe on his own. [Read more…]

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Alex

Mom to an unnamed baby, lost at 8 weeks gestation

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“Angel”, lost May 7, 2009 at 8.5 weeks gestation

Morristown, Arizona

My name is Alex and I am the proud Mommy of 2 angels.

Baby 1 was my first loss and I never had the chance to have an ultrasound. All I had was the pregnancy test. This was my very 1st pregnancy and it was really hard to deal with. I was about 8 weeks pregnant, estimated, when I started bleeding really bad. It was gone. [Read more…]

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Susan

Mom to Hayden Michael

Born and died February 28, 2012

Gilbert, Arizona

I found out I was pregnant the week before Halloween. I was 18 years old, and absolutely terrified. I’d been feeling strange for a week or so, and just had this feeling that I was pregnant. I took the test and was so scared when it came out positive; all I could do was stare at the test and mutter, “Oh. My. Gosh,” over and over. But during my pregnancy, I would look at my stomach and marvel that there was a life, a baby, a precious being that was mine inside my belly. My boyfriend and I fought for months over my decision to A) not abort the baby, and B) place the baby for adoption. He was of the mindset that we weren’t ready for a baby, but if I WAS going to have the baby, he didn’t want his kid to be raised by strangers. I was determined to place for adoption, and to find my baby amazing, loving, and prepared parents who were unable to have children of their own. I am not trying to glorify myself or sound self-sacrificing: I had been careless and irresponsible in his conceiving, but I was going to give my baby the best life I could – better than I could give him. I knew adoption was the right choice. [Read more…]

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Katlyn

 Riley Faith at 6wk4d. Memorial date May 3, 2011

Mom to twins Brielle Grace and Maia Hope at 9wk0d

Memorial date November 4, 2011, birthday November 7, 2011

Phoenix, AZ

My name is Katlyn Hudgins and I married my wonderful husband Andrew February 6, 2010. We knew we wanted a big family with lots of children and most of them adopted. We only planned to have one, maybe two biological children and adopt at least two or three. We wanted to try to start having kids winter of 2011 but to our wonderful and excited surprise we found ourselves pregnant in April of 2011. It was earlier than we planned but we didn’t care, we were over the moon. Things were stressful because we were still both uni students and worked full time but we knew God gave us this baby for a reason. Just a few short weeks later I had some spotting. I knew that little spotting was normal but it was so painful I nearly collapsed on the floor at work. Being blessed that I worked in the same office as my mom I called her on my cell phone and without a word she knew I needed her. She helped me into her classroom and called my doctor for me while I called my husband. The doctor said to go straight to the ER because of the pain. The pain was very sharp and this worried them thinking it may have been ectopic. [Read more…]

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Jamie

Mom to Josiah Michael, stillborn on September 12th, 2000

and Sam, miscarried January 11th, 2008

Sahuarita, AZ

In March 2000, after 10 months of trying, I was finally pregnant.  I was so shocked when I saw the positive on the stick, that I took about a dozen more tests.

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Breonna

Mom to Kaden Leon

October 22nd, 2007

Tempe, AZ

For the first few months of my pregnancy, Kaden was a happy, seemingly healthy little swimmer who loved music. I played songs to him with head phones on my belly and would turn the music up in the car. He would dance around in my stomach as the music played and it always made me smile. He seemed to be normal, healthy and perfect. I didn’t find out anything was wrong until I was around 5 months along in my pregnancy. I had an ultrasound and the doctor was concerned about the length of his limbs and was also worried about his facial structure. He told me about cleft lip/cleft palate and referred me to a specialist. All of that news was very frightening, but my love for my son had no bearing on his physical appearance and I was more concerned for him than anything.

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Courtnee

Mom to Leilani Ramirez

Born August 7th, 2011 at 7:40 a.m.

Died August 7th, 2011 at 8:15 a.m.

Mesa, Arizona

My husband and I started trying for our 3rd child together in December 2010. On our 6th wedding anniversary, April 6th 2011, we found out we were expecting. We broke the news to our 2 daughters and my stepson along with the rest of our family. Super excited to be pregnant and to bring the last addition to our family in December 2011. Cinco de Mayo was our first routine doctor’s appointment which included our first ultrasound. We took both girls to see the ultrasound and their new baby. The baby was perfect healthy and measuring right on track. [Read more…]

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Hannah

Mom to Rae

Miscarried June 1, 2011

and Avery

Miscarried July 22, 2011

Chandler, Arizona

On April 29th, 2011 my world changed forever. I was pregnant, my husband and I were thrilled! Filled with joy and excitement the first 8 weeks of the pregnancy everything seemed to be going fine, but on June 1st, 2011 everything changed. It was a day spent in the ER, a day spent in tears and a day that crushed our spirits. That evening we said goodbye to baby Rae as I suffered a natural miscarriage. [Read more…]

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Kailee

Miscarriage at 9 Weeks in May 2008

Miscarriage at 9 Weeks in September 2010

Phoenix, Arizona

I was blessed to marry my high school sweetheart and best friend in 2005. During this time I had gone to the OBGYN frequently with abdominal pains, irregular periods, and weight gain. I was diagnosed with PCOS, Stage 1 Endometriosis, and was told my chances of conceiving were going to be tough. [Read more…]

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Melani

Mom to Evan Matthew, January 15th, 2010

and Kayden John, March 6th, 2011

Pima, Arizona


We found out I was pregnant with our 4th child Sept. 2009, two weeks later we found out my husband was going to be deployed to Iraq in May 2010, the same month this baby was due, so he would most likely miss the birth with due date and deployment date being so close together. [Read more…]

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Katie
Mom to Jason ‘JJ’ Garrick Dial, Jr
October 29th, 2009
Mesa, Arizona

 I selected my OB based strictly on geography.  When I asked my general doctor for a referral, she knew of only one doctor in the area near my work.  I called the office and scheduled an appointment for infertility.  We had been trying for a year and a half with no success and I was ready to talk to someone who might be able to help.  Since I’m a teacher, I called at the beginning of my summer and they didn’t have any openings until the end of my summer.  However, one week before my appointment I took a pregnancy test and found out I was pregnant.  We were so excited, we’d been married almost five years and now we were going to be parents!  I called the office and changed my infertility appointment to a pregnancy confirmation appointment.

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Samantha
First Miscarriage July 27th, 2009
Second Miscarriage May 6th, 2010
Avondale, Arizona
I still remember finding out that I was pregnant for the first time. I was so happy even though my situation with the Daddy wasn’t the best. Just knowing that I was carrying a little tiny person inside of me made me the happiest person alive. To be totally honest I couldn’t believe that I was actually pregnant so I ended up taking like six tests and of course they all came back positive! At that moment I finally had enough proof to know that it was really true… I was going to be a mommy! I called and told the Daddy that we were pregnant. He wasn’t to happy, because our relationship was on the rocks. I figured he would come around to accept the idea that we were going to be parents. 


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