Bethany

Three ectopic pregnancies:

January 8, 2009 (9 weeks),

January 8, 2010 (5 weeks),

and

December 13, 2011 (5w5d with a heartbeat)

Mercersburg, Pennsylvania

My name is Bethany Anderson. My husband and I live in a small rural community in Pennsylvania called Mercersburg. I am twenty-two years-old and my husband, Thomas, is twenty-eight. Thomas and I have been together for almost 5 years and we were married in August of 2011. We have a dog, which is like my child, Chino Taco Anderson. My husband has a son, named Cadon, who is now 6 years old. Although I wish he would be with us every single day, he lives with his mother and we don’t get to see him as often as we’d like. We were told the only way for us to conceive after our extremely difficult losses, was through in-vitro fertilization.   This is our infertility story. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6143.html

Samantha

Mom to nine lost children:

#1 Oct 2007: Miscarriage at 6 weeks,
#2 Aug 2008: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#3 June 2011: Twin loss at 8 weeks,
#4 Aug 2011: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#5 Oct 2011: Miscarriage at 4 week 2 days,
#6 Feb 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks,
#7 March 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks 3 days,

and

#8 April 2012: Miscarriage of a little boy at 8 weeks
Ended with D&C on June 6, 2012

North Vernon, Indiana

I was one of those girls who wanted a large family with a home of my own and a fantastic husband. Well, I got part of my wish: I have my husband Troy and an amazing little boy, Kyle, who we love so much. Beginning our family did not start out so easily, though. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/10/6138.html

Susan

Mom to Baby A,
Lost April 10, 2009 at 5 weeks

and

Baby M,
Lost April 26, 2010 at 8 weeks

I’ve always wanted to be a mom, but circumstances in my life had always seemed to conspire against it.  So when I had a positive pregnancy test just three weeks before my 40th birthday, I felt overjoyed and blessed.  The doctors estimated that I only five weeks along and had only known about my pregnancy for a short time, but just knowing I was pregnant flooded my heart will a profound love. I never felt calmer and more peaceful in my life. The feeling of that first pregnancy was magical. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/07/5733.html

Rebecca

Mom to Poppy Kate
Born still December 15, 2011,

Five tiny angels, each lost at 5 weeks
April 2009, April 2010 and November 2010,

and

Heterotopic twins (one ectopic, one uterine)
Lost at 6 weeks and 11 weeks in January 2011

Melbourne, Australia

From Rebecca’s blog post: 2011…the year that, well, sucked:

It seems as though the best place to start is to get all of the terrible, awful stuff that happened last year out on the table, so you know what you’re getting into.  It gives you some perspective as to where I’m coming from.  Don’t get me wrong, my life is definitely not crap.  I have a wonderful husband, let’s call him G, and he’s my soul mate and my strength.  Not to mention the love of my life :). We have a little boy, Xavier, who is known by many nicknames, including ‘X’, ‘Xav’, ‘Xavi’ and ‘Trouble’.  He took a bit of work to get, 2 years of TTC and 6 months of the fertility drug, Clomid, before we fell pregnant with him.  Xavier is now 5, and about to start school.  We have a great extended family; G’s parents and my dad and his partner all live nearby, along with a couple of our siblings.  Everyone else lives near enough that we see them often and we have an array of nieces and nephews (even a grand niece!) who Xav loves playing with.  We have great friends and workmates, who are a big support to us and lots of fun to hang out with! [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/07/5709.html

Ashley

Mom to Sweet Angel Baby

Died on April 18, 2011 due to early miscarriage at 5 weeks

Indian Trail, North Carolina

My husband and I have been together for 11 years and married for 5 of them and we always knew we wanted children.  We officially stopped “NOT” trying in February 2011, and on April 2, 2011 we discovered we were in fact pregnant.  I took 5 pregnancy tests to be sure.  We were definitely preggo. I had already scheduled a doctor’s appointment for that Monday so it seemed everything was just falling into place.  The doctor confirmed we were pregnant and told us she would see us again the later part of May for my first ultrasound.  Sadly, we never made it that far. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5360.html

Nora Anne

Mom to three angel babies:

Mackenzie Lynn, miscarried at 15 weeks 2 days, June 2005

“Angel Baby”, miscarried at 5 weeks, June 2011

and

“Cucumber”, miscarried at 9.5 weeks, February 2012

Tuckerton, New Jersey

My story begins in March 2005 when my husband (then boyfriend) surprised me by proposing while on vacation in Palm Springs, California. Upon returning home to New Jersey, we quickly began planning our wedding for November 2005. We wanted to marry soon since my mother’s health was not good and it was so important to her and to me that she be there to see us get married. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/05/5270.html

Tiffany

Mom to Brayden Nicholas, died on May 23rd, 2009 at 8 weeks
and
Angel Christopher, died on March 17th, 2011 at 5 weeks

Eastern Pennsylvania

When I was15 years old I found out I was pregnant with my ex. He was 17 at the time. Ninth grade was coming to an end. It was the middle of May when I told my boyfriend. He was more than ecstatic. He was beyond elated with happiness. He had always wanted a family. A few days after I told him, I got up and got ready for school like any normal day. History class was my first class of the day. There was a guy in that class that constantly fought with me. Sometimes physical, sometimes not. Well, he decided to pick a fight with me that day and punched me directly in the stomach. I remember the pop feeling and the pain. I went home early due to INSANELY HORRIBLE cramps and miscarried around eight weeks. It was May 23rd, 2009. I know I was nowhere near finding out the sex but I knew in my heart and soul that it was a baby boy. My mom or family still to this day doesn’t know about the miscarriage. It just would cause more problems that aren’t needed. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/02/4652.html

Sarah

Mom to Baby Bean, lost at 5 weeks on January 23, 2010

and RJ, born still at 19 weeks on August 17, 2010

Yorba Linda, California

In the fall of 2002, my husband and I decided that we were ready to become parents. We were successful on our very first attempt and on July 24, 2003, we welcomed our first child, Preston, a son, happy and healthy. We always knew that we wanted at least 4 children and I was paranoid about secondary infertility, so when our son was just 2 months old, we tried again and 11 months and 18 days later on July 12, 2004, we welcomed a healthy and happy baby girl, Delainey. Life was good and we decided that we needed a break to enjoy our kids. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/01/4563.html

Marilou

Early miscarriage, August 2006

Ectopic pregnancy, November  2011

Corona, California

I am a mother, but my two babies are in Heaven with Jesus. I am the face of ectopic pregnancy loss and early miscarriage.

My husband and I eloped to Las Vegas in July of 2006 after only dating for one month. In August, we found out that I was pregnant. That was a shocker. We weren’t ready, I wasn’t done with nursing school, we both didn’t have jobs to support a baby (much less ourselves) and quite frankly, we weren’t done growing up. But after the initial shock, we were excited…excited to welcome this baby into the world with loving arms…excited to embark on this unpredictable new journey. That excitement was short lived when I began bleeding while I was at work one day. We went to the doctor the same day and they told me that I was miscarrying. How can you describe the pain of losing a baby? My sorrow was brief because everyone around me seemed to get over it just fine, so I felt like I needed to as well. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2012/01/4466.html

Kathi

Elkton, MD

So here it goes, I’m ready to break the silence on something that is so common yet, so many women keep it inside and to themselves. And I need to do this, more for myself, and my husband, then for anyone else. I’ve told this story, I feel like a thousand times, already. But getting it here, will help put all those thoughts an emotions into some sort of sense. I do understand why so many women keep it inside. All the feelings of loss, hurt, anger, confusion, pain, and just being lost. I can’t deny myself those feelings, it’s grief. Like any other normal grieving process. It’s something you have to go through. And, simply put, it sucks. But with each new day, it gets better. That doesn’t mean I’ll forget about it, or it doesn’t matter to me anymore; but, just like any other loss, each day becomes a little easier. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/12/4106.html

Courtney

Mom to Angel Baby

Lost at 5 weeks, 5 days on November 6th, 2010

and second Angel Baby

Lost at 5 weeks, 5 days on January 15th, 2011

My story starts in October when I found out (to my great surprise) that I was pregnant.  After the initial shock, I was ecstatic and rushed to tell my husband.  We’ve always wanted children, that we birth ourselves and those others birth for us…we are baby people you could say.   [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/10/3248.html

Monica

Mom to angel baby Emily Rose

Early Miscarriage, August 17th, 2011

Syracuse, New York

I am Monica.  I’m 28 and had been on the pill for about 12-ish years.  I recently married Kevin, the love of my life, on May 28 and I stopped taking the pill as soon as we came back from our honeymoon.  We had talked about having children for a long time and were anxious to start our family.  I was really surprised (that it happened so fast) and super excited to see what I thought was a positive pregnancy test on 8/10/11… I was so nervous that I bought a digital test on 8/11/11… “PREGNANT”… there was no questioning that… and I was thrilled!  My husband was so excited! [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/09/3076.html


Heather

Mom to Chloe Lee

March 31, 2011

Miscarried

July 8, 2011

Buckfield, Maine

My name is Heather. My Fiancé Travis and I were ecstatic when we found out we were expecting on October 29th 2010. We had just got our own apartment and everything seemed to be falling right into place. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/09/3005.html

Courtney

Mom to Cameron “Cam” Henry

Miscarried October 27th, 2010 at 5 weeks

Orlando, Florida

My story is a tough one.  You see, I’m only 19 and I was 18 when I lost my son.  I was in a short relationship with my abusive (now ex) boyfriend and he raped me.  I ended up pregnant from this, and despite being afraid and unsure what the future would hold, I was determined to keep my baby because I already loved him more than anything.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/09/2963.html

Roxanne Dudley

Mom to Baby Dudley

March 29, 2011

Tacoma, WA

My husband and I always wanted to be parents and just before our 3 year anniversary we made the decision to officially begin trying to conceive. We found out December 21st 2010 that we were pregnant! We were completely overjoyed, and proceeded to tell everyone we knew. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/07/2685.html

Steph

Early miscarriage at 5 1/2 weeks

June 13th 2011

Nazareth, PA

 

My husband and I have been together for about 3 1/2 years prior to getting married.  Before the wedding, we knew that we would want to start trying for a baby right away after getting married – due to the fact that he already has two children from a previous marriage and that he is quite a bit older than I am.  We were married on May 20th 2011, and everything went off without a hitch!  We spent our honeymoon in Jamaica, which was a wonderful time. It also couldn’t have worked out more perfectly due to the fact I knew I was also ovulating that week during our honeymoon. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/07/2634.html

Elizabeth

Angel November 2005 – 5 Weeks

Angel July 2006 – 6 Weeks

Angel September 2010 – 11 Weeks

Angel June 2011 – 5 Weeks

Waukesha, WI

 

2005 was a big year for me, I met the man who would become my husband and in October we found out we were expecting.  We had not planned it, but we were both thrilled.  Of course, I told everyone, family, friends, co-workers right away.  A couple of weeks later, in the morning as I was brushing my teeth I noticed I was bleeding.  I panicked, and called my doctor, who was really nonchalant.  He told me if I was having a miscarriage there was nothing he could do, and to just rest with my feet up.  It would be like having a bad period.  My husband took me to the emergency room.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/06/2225.html

Jo

Mom to 4 angles due to miscarriage

July 2000 (7wks), October 2001 (11 1/2 weeks), August 2003 (5 weeks), August 2007 (6weeks)

 

I never knew if I could get pregnant.  I knew I had endometriosis. I used to tell people I did not know if we wanted children, but oh, we wanted a baby so bad.  Imagine my surprise when I was pregnant just weeks after our wedding.  However, deep down, I knew immediately something wasn’t right. At the time there really wasn’t a way to know- no pain or anything. It was just a feeling.  About a week after I found out I was pregnant I began spotting. I was living in a new town and did not have a doctor but I called one to make an appointment.  I was told it was normal to spot. It didn’t feel normal, but noboday seemed to care.  Of course, it would not have mattered even if I could have seen the doctor.  I spotted for well over a week, maybe two.  One rainy, late summer morning I woke up and knew that was it.  I knew that day would be the end of our pregnancy.  I asked my husband to look up directions to the nearest ER and we drove.  I screamed and cried as it all came to end. I shook with fear and sadness so deep I thought I would never escape.

http://facesofloss.com/2011/06/1947.html

Heather

Mom to Liberty John, Lost at 10 weeks in November 2004

Elijah Lee, Lost at 6 weeks in September 2007

Eden Sky, Lost at 5 weeks in August 2010

and Journey Peace, Lost at 11 weeks in May 2011

Lakeville, Minnesota

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of my babies I could never hold here on earth.  No pictures, no foot prints, no lock of hair to hold onto.  Even when my body would physically heal, my heart would still ache with emptiness.  My baby left my body but never made it to my arms … such a strange sad thing to come to terms with.  [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/05/1747.html

Joanna

First Miscarriage at 8 weeks in May 2008

Second Miscarriage at 5 weeks in February, 2010

Mom to Cameron Xavier

April 6th, 2011

Memphis, Tennessee


As soon I found out I was pregnant I was ecstatic. I thought maybe this will be when I get to hold my baby. Everything about this pregnancy seemed to be going well. He was developing right on schedule, I had been eating right and things in general were going well. March 10th i found out I was having a boy. My significant other was not surprised and was happy he was right. I started to dream about the day I’d have my son in my arms. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/04/1227.html

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