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Crystal

Mom to Madelyn Rose

July 21, 2014

Baytown, Texas

When the ultrasound tech told us we were having a girl, my jaw dropped. My automatic thought was, “I am not very girly. I can’t even dress myself, much less dress a girl. I hate bows. How am I going to do this?” Joel put me at ease with a trip to Old Navy after our ultrasound. He was ready to shop for his baby girl. Once I saw all the cute dresses and outfits, I thought, “I can do this. She will always look cuter than I will. But I can do this.”

I loved being pregnant. My favorite memory was lying on the couch with Joel. As usual, he was talking and rubbing my belly. He leaned in to tell her a secret and BOOM! Baby girl hit him in the face. I’m not sure if it was a punch, kick, elbow or booty bump, but it was the funniest thing. Besides the constant morning sickness, that lasted my whole pregnancy; everything was great.

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Photo 5(1)Bonnie

Mom to Delilah

February 13 2013 – February 14, 2013

Livermore, California

My name is Bonnie. I am 30 years old, married to my loving husband since 2010 and this year (2013) [at time of submission] I was supposed to become a mommy. Her name was Delilah Sage and she was born full tern at 40 weeks and 4 days. She was a beautiful little girl, 6 pounds and 6 ounces and she was perfect. She had my nose and big eyes like her daddy. Her upper lip was like hers dad’s while her lower lip was like mine. She had my long toes. I carried her for nine months and every single one of those days I fell in love with her more.

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Lindsey

Lindsey

Mom to Nora

Stillborn December 30, 2013

Minneapolis, Minnesota

My daughter, Nora, was delivered into this world, dead at 40 weeks and 4 days after a perfectly normal and healthy pregnancy.  She was stillborn due to an infection that was from the normal bacteria in my body, that my immune system could not fight off or protect her from.  Her delivery story is below.  (I don’t call it her birth story because she did not have the chance to be born awake into this world.) [Read more…]

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Rosanna

Mom to Alexander

Born and died May 13, 2012

Fresno, California

Due date, May 11, 2012:

On Friday, May 11th, our first child Alexander still wasn’t ready to come out. I went to my doctor’s appointment on his due date. He was perfect. I was perfect. He just wasn’t ready to meet the world yet.  My doctor scheduled another appointment on Monday to do a stress test because she doesn’t like babies to go very long over their due date. It never crossed my mind that anything bad would happen. It didn’t cross her mind to even mention it to me, either. Death was never discussed. Death wasn’t discussed in any of the three books I read during my pregnancy, either. Not one thing was wrong with me or with Alex during the pregnancy. Late Friday night, I started to have contractions. They weren’t as strong as I expected them to be. I envisioned myself screaming, but they weren’t that intense. However, they were coming closer and closer together. This lasted all night. [Read more…]

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Jodie

Mom to Mae Elizabeth

Born still May 18, 2012

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

My husband and I lost our first born baby girl when she was born still on May 18th, 2012.  She was born full-term (40 weeks, 1 day) after 9 months of a healthy pregnancy.  She was wiggling and moving on May 16th and at our 40 week check-up, she was gone. [Read more…]

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Billie Jo

Mom to Stevie Ann KaeLaine

July 16, 2012, 40 weeks old

Park City, Utah

The third week of November 2011, I found out I was pregnant with my fourth child. I was over the moon excited, it had been nine years since I had my last baby. My due date was July 29, 2012, but I suspected I was a couple of weeks further along than that. I had a ton of morning sickness, which was very normal for me. Everything went well as the months went on, always a good strong heartbeat, great ultrasounds. I was going to have a healthy baby girl. Later in the pregnancy I found out had gestational diabetes. I was able to keep it under control with diet and close monitoring of my blood sugar levels. I had NST’s every Tuesday and Friday, she always moved around like crazy and her heart rate was always really good. [Read more…]

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Kathy

Mom to Adam

Born still June 11, 2012

Santa Clara, California

I found out I was pregnant in October 2011. I was 31 years old and this was my first, and I waited to tell everyone until December 2011, after our ultrasound, to make sure he was healthy.  My pregnancy was going well until week 32 when I went in for early contractions and they found too much amniotic fluid; the level was at 26, and I was also dilated to 2 cm at this point.  I was hospitalized for a few days and sent home with meds for the contractions and told to take it easy. [Read more…]

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Grace

Mom to Ryder Benjamin

Born sleeping January 21, 2012

Greensboro, North Carolina

In May 2011 I found out I was expecting our third baby. At first I was nervous and scared since we had just relocated and we were hours from any family or friends and I was scared about my husband’s job that we had relocated for. As time went on I got really excited and when I found out I was having a boy…I was over the moon! After 2 daughters I was so happy we were going to have our son. [Read more…]

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Esmeralda (Lala)

Mom to Ezra Alix

Born sleeping December 12, 2011 at 40 weeks 6 days

San Pedro, California

I kind of had a rough pregnancy with Ezra, but he was always “healthy,” and that’s what kept me going.

I started having severe back problems at 21 weeks and was never the same. In fact, it only got worse in the third trimester, until my insurance finally approved me for physical therapy at 36 weeks . It helped, but I still had pain. I also had rib pain and trouble breathing from about 30 weeks due to Costochondritis. But he always had a strong heartbeat and was constantly moving. (Always always on the move and I loved it). [Read more…]

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Tarni

Mummy to Ava Madison

Born February 25, 2012

Passed February 25, 2012

Queensland, Australia

 

At 39 weeks and 2 days I went for my routine check-up. My daughter’s heartbeat was 145 bmp and she was kicking up a storm. As I walked out of the doctor’s office his last words to me were “Next time I see you, I’ll get to meet your baby.” That turned out to be anything but the truth. This is my story. [Read more…]

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Samantha

Mom to Kayden Kristoffer Catalan

January 8th, 2009

Calgary, Alberta

Canada

I had a very easy pregnancy.  I was super healthy, not a thing wrong with me, and little stress in my life.  At about 37 weeks, I had lost a couple lbs, nothing big.  They asked how I felt, and I had felt the same…

At my 38 weeks check up my weight was fine, nothing was wrong at all. At my 39 week check up, I lost weight again and my belly measured a bit smaller..  The doctor wanted to send me for an ultrasound but decided not to because I probably wouldn’t get in until after my due date…  Little did we know that ultra sound could have saved my babies life.

My due date (January 2) came and went. I went to the doctor on January 7 around 10am… I had gotten all 10 movements plus more everyday so it came as a complete shock when no heartbeat was found..  Then they tried to tell me it had to have been days because there was little fluid… I had to have 3 ultra sounds that day, have a bunch of different people tell me my baby was gone, it was awful. The worst part was seeing everyone around me crying, and I couldnt cry, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t cry.

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Marilia

Mom to Emily Grace

October 6th, 2010

Raleigh, North Carolina

 

It was my second child.

My husband and I got married and decided shortly after to start a family. I got pregnant right away and had a wonderful uneventful pregnancy. I delivered a beautiful healthy girl with no complications. I was a bit concerned that because of being of advanced age I might had difficulties but with my little girl it proved that there is nothing wrong about getting pregnant after 35. A year after we decided to try for our second child. I was very confident that nothing would go wrong as it was with my first. I knew of mothers that lost their babies and I knew it could happen but it was more like thinking driving and having a car accident. [Read more…]

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Hannah

Mom to Uriah Daniel

Jan.3 2010 – Jan. 5, 2010

Galesburg, MI

When I found out I was pregnant I was shocked.  I had a 16 year old and a 9 year old.  I was thrilled though.  My family and I couldn’t wait.  We found out we were having a boy and chose his name together.  We worked on his little nursery, and bought all the baby stuff.  He couldn’t get here fast enough. [Read more…]

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Ann

Mom of Makenzie Marie

Stillborn April 29th, 2011

Puyallup,WA

 

My husband, Chris, and I have been married for 3 years (together 7). We decided to start our family shortly after I graduated college. It only took us just under 3 months. We were exstatic and when we found out we were having a girl my world felt complete! No one knew that tragically we’d lose her at the end. [Read more…]

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Nicole

Mom to Azalea

January 9th, 2011

Waianae, Hawaii

On Saturday January 8, 2011 my life was forever changed. I was 39 weeks and 6 days pregnant, one day before my due date. I woke up and realized that my daughter, Azalea, hadn’t moved since the night before. I called the hospital (Kaiser) and they told us to come in. [Read more…]

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Keleen
Mom to Addison Eloise
Born Still on December 5, 2010
Olympia, Washington
 

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Debbie
Momma to Sophie
Born into the arms of angels December 27th, 2006
Montoursville, Pennsylvania

 

The story of Sophie, Born forever sleeping on her due date, December 27th, 2006

I loved her before I knew her.   She was and is my sunshine that waits for me in heaven.  She is my rainbow on a dreary day.   She is the pretty little redhead that I loved for 40 of the shortest weeks of my life while she was in my belly, and that I now get to carry in my heart and love for eternity. [Read more…]

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Stephanie
Mom to Amelia Rose
Died on March 10th, 2010, born on March 11th, 2010
Lost to Mosaicism, a rare form of Turner’s Syndrome
Strattford, CT
After a rough transition from the south to New England, we found out about baby number four in June 2009. We were  thrille​d to welcome a new life into our family. With much anticipatio​n and delight, I endured the rough first trimester and finally felt that I was in the fun part of pregnancy. We had found a midwife and began planning a home birth.

During my 24th week, our midwife explained that I was measuring larger then I should and she asked us to get an ultrasound to rule out twins. I was so excited about the possibility of twins, but also very aware that other problems could be the result of measuring larger. So, we waited for our ultrasound appointment.

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Shannon
Mom to Savannah Grace Renfro
Born asleep on May 18th, 2009 at 40 weeks, 3 days
Yorktown, VA

I am the face of multiple losses, including a full term stillbirth and 3 subsequent miscarriages.

My husband and I had been married for 4 years and had a son who had just turned one when we found out we were pregnant with our 2nd. We always wanted more children and I especially wanted a little girl. I already had her name picked out, Savannah Grace. To me, it was the most beautiful name ever.

After several months of trying, I found out I was pregnant. I knew it was a girl, my Savannah. The theme of her nursery was to be ballerina. I loved to dance, ballet was my favorite and I hoped it would be hers as well.  Shortly before Thanksgiving, I took the quad screen test and a few days later, I got a call from the doctor.  Savannah had a 1 in 9 chance of Down Syndrome. I was so upset. I wondered what was wrong with me, what I had done wrong. Who would take care of her after my husband and I passed? She would never be a ballerina. Was I strong enough to be the Mom of a special needs child?

We researched Down Syndrome and joined a local Support Group. The more I learned, the more my faith was strengthened and my heart was opened to children of all special needs. I knew that even if she couldn’t dance, she could be a fan of dance. We love her unconditionally. If this was what God planned for us, we would take it with willing and open arms.

We saw a genetic counselor that encouraged us to terminate. Abortion was never an option for us. It simply was never our life to take. Savannah later developed kidney problems as well and again, termination was brought up. Again, we declined. They wanted to perform an amniocentesis on her to see if she did have Down Syndrome. After much research and the only real benefit was knowing definitively if she had Down  Syndrome, the risk from the procedure itself was 1 in 100 of miscarriage, so we declined.

I continued to be seen by maternal fetal specialists at one hospital but continued my prenatal care at another. We prepared for her arrival. I had a special needs group contacted and my husband changed his deployment schedule so that he could be here for her birth, which was expected to be early. We toured different hospitals and different NICUs and met with the doctors so that in a split second, we knew where we wanted her sent for emergency care since the military clinic I was being seen at did not have the resources.

At 34 weeks, I had am elective 3D/4D Ultrasound of Savannah done, just for fun. She looked perfect, beautiful in every way. I have a DVD of her smiling, opening and closing her eyes, practicing breathing, and waving. She was a happy baby and I could not wait to meet her. I knew in my heart, she would be my little ballerina, at least until she was old enough to tell me she liked something else.

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Lori
Mother to John Matthew Ennis, 6lbs, 6oz., 22in. Long
November 28th, 2009-November 29th, 2009
Great Mills, Maryland

My husband and I began to build our family in 1999. He’d just finished flight school in Pensacola, Florida and we were headed to North Carolina for several years of duty. It was a perfect time to start a family.

Life happened. Things didn’t go as planned. We tried on our own for about 2 years and realized that we might need to look into some help as nothing was working. We saw several specialists and I went through several procedures (and he deployments) over the course of the next 4 years and no pregnancy still. The main diagnosis was unexplained infertility, though in one of the many procedures I’d had, mild endometriosis was found and various doctors wavered back and forth on whether that had any effect on my infertility. It didn’t matter; by that time, we had already had several IUIs and were essentially told IVF was the next step.

We were stationed to Maryland in 2006 and looked into various clinics. As we were about to start a cycle, John decided he’d rather adopt because he felt that was a ‘sure thing.’ A year and a half later, as the country from which we were adopting closed, and we were still childless, we turned back to IVF and miraculously got pregnant in March of 2009!

I knew Matthew was a boy from the first ultrasound at 6 weeks! Even when others, including doctors, said he was a girl, I told them they were wrong. And they were. We were finally going to be parents and after over 10 years of trying and waiting faithfully, we had been blessed with our miracle son.

It was a relatively easy pregnancy. At Matthew’s anatomy scan at 20 weeks, the doctor only saw one kidney. This worried me at first, but it is actually very common to have only one kidney and as long as it is a good and functioning kidney, all is fine. It was, though we continued to be heavily monitored for his growth, any other possible problems and my reassurance!

In honesty, though, I felt invincible. Matthew was our promised blessing and I KNEW he was going to be fine. I never, ever doubted that.

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