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Jaime

Mom to Mason Scott

Born Sleeping May 5, 2016

Chicago, Illinois

ASK ME ABOUT MY SON!

I want to talk about him! Honestly! I want to tell the world how he was so active that I was sure he was practicing dribbling a soccer ball. I want to talk about the times when my husband put his face close to my stomach and talked to our son and got punched in the face. I can imagine him, being a volleyball player, thinking “good spike, son!”. Those are the stories I enjoy sharing but I know that isn’t the story everyone is wondering about.
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Alison

Mom to Meredith

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

April 29, 2016

And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you. -Psalm 39:7

We buried our baby on her due date. We found out our sweet baby Meredith’s heart stopped beating on April 28th. One week before – she had a strong heartbeat, my belly was growing. Two weeks before, I had a non-stress test and she was healthy and reactive. Three weeks before, she was perfect on our last ultrasound – 47th percentile in growth – what a perfect baby. Six pounds already. In the next three weeks she gained almost two more pounds and was moving like crazy. Yes, she had quiet moments during the day, but I never felt her stop. I never felt her die. I was 39 weeks and 3 days pregnant. There is no fetal heartbeat. Sometimes this just happens. Your baby is beautiful – perfect. Except she is dead. 7 lbs, 12 ounces, 21 inches. Much bigger than her big brother Cameron when he was born. I prayed throughout my pregnancy that my girl would have a head of dark hair, like me. And she did. Maybe I should’ve prayed more for her health…how dare I take that for granted. There was not a time during my pregnancy that I doubted she would be born healthy and alive. How dare I be so bold. I already had one healthy pregnancy and one perfect child – why would this be any different? [Read more…]

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TheFaceOfFulltermStillbirthSamantha

Mom to Alana

Stillborn October 4, 2013

Katonah, New York

Alana Marie Banerjee was born on October 4th, 2013 at 2:21 a.m. – 6 lbs 8 oz of pure joy for me and her father. At 20 inches long, she was a tall baby, with long skinny legs, slender fingers with perfect miniature nails, and big soft feet with all the requisite toes. She had her father’s nose and ears and eyelashes, my lips and eyebrows, the softest skin I’ve ever felt, and a full head of silky black hair. There was only one thing wrong with this storybook ending; following nine months of a perfectly healthy and blissful pregnancy, our daughter was born dead.

Alana died at 39 weeks 5 days, just two days short of her due date.  Up until the moment the nurse couldn’t find a heartbeat, she’d been healthy and strong.  The doctors had called her fetal monitor read-outs “textbook.”  She’d been active and lively, rolling around in my belly, suffering adorable bouts of in-utero hiccups (often more than once a day) for weeks.  She’d passed every prenatal test with flying colors.  There was never a cause for concern – never a single warning sign.  Until, all of a sudden, she was gone.

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Jennifer

mom to Luke

Stillborn September 10, 2012

Placentia, California

My first pregnancy felt like a dream come true. 

My husband and I had decided in December 2011 that now was the time–We’d officially try for a baby.  We had no idea that things would go so smoothly.  After literally one month of trying, I missed my period, took a test, and there it was–Positive. It was also Friday, January 13, 2012. Maybe that was foreshadowing? I don’t even believe in superstitions, but I still wish I’d taken that test on any other day… [Read more…]

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046Alexandra

Mom to Georgia Andrews

January 22, 2014

Bangor, Northern Ireland

I just wanted to share my story with you all. I fell pregnant with my second child in May of 2013. We had planned it. I have an 8-year-old son, Parker, from a previous relationship so this child was the first for my current partner, and pretty new to me again after 8 years!! We were all so excited. My pregnancy was great the whole way through; a bit of the usual sickness but generally easy. All my checkups where great, baby was a good size, strong heartbeat and everything going so well. We got a due date for January 30, 2014!

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Heather

Mom to Breely Grace

November 27, 2012

Hartford, Kentucky

I lost my sweet Angel, Breely Grace on November 27, 2012. I was 39 weeks pregnant. I went in that morning around 9:00 a.m. for my weekly appointment. I was having contractions off and on, so I thought I was already in early labor. I brought her diaper bag as well as my hospital bag with me because I was prepared to be sent over to the hospital. I told my husband to keep his phone handy at work, just in case and sent my little boy to my mom’s with his overnight bag.

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Kate

Delaney Marie

Born still March 22, 2012 at 39 weeks

Maitland, Florida

I am the face of a baby so loved and wanted, that was suddenly robbed from me for absolutely no reason, full term.

It didn’t take long for me to get pregnant. We were so excited and so was our entire family. I had an easy pregnancy, and in fact I wondered why people complained about the side effects of pregnancy. I thought, “Hey, this is easy!” I did everything right. We planned out excitedly how to tell all of our parents and family members. We had a gender reveal gathering at our house with family the day we found out we were having a sweet little baby girl. I was given 3 baby showers. This baby was fully prepared for, loved, and had everything I and she could possibly want. My husband and I decorated her nursery so beautifully, picked out new furniture together and were so excited for her arrival. I had all her clothes and sheets washed, stroller built, swing set up, and the night I began realizing I hadn’t been feeling any movement all day, my husband was setting up her bed that would be in our room for her first few months of life. I will never forget what we were doing the night before we got the worst news we could ever receive… [Read more…]

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Heather

Mom to Makenna Allene

Born still September 1, 2012 at 39 weeks

Alexandria, Virginia

I am the face of…a yearned for baby that was taken from me, full term.

Geoff and I had thoroughly discussed and planned for having a child; we thought this was the penultimate display of our love and commitment to each other. So, when I went for a fertility consultation at 38 years old and was told, basically, that I “should not” be thinking about having a child and that I potentially could not at “this age”, imagine our shock and surprise when I became pregnant a month later. We considered our baby girl, Makenna, a miracle baby from the beginning. We celebrated announcing our pregnancy with a party, and when we found out at 18 weeks that we were having a healthy baby girl we celebrated with another “gender reveal” party. Our friends threw us a huge co-ed baby shower. Every chance we could, we joyfully jumped headlong into planning for and celebrating her arrival. All through the pregnancy I avoided caffeine and alcohol, ate right, drank water, exercised, slept on my side – you name it, I did it. [Read more…]

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Claudia

Mom to three little angels

Baby 1: Miscarriage at 8 weeks

Baby 2: Miscarriage at 8 weeks on February 23th, 2011

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Gabrielle Marie
Born still July 2, 2012

Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic

My husband and I love children, and, like any young couple, we wanted to start our family and have many kids. But before we got married, my husband’s doctor told us that he had to go under surgery because he had a varicocele, and that would difficult him to get me pregnant; according to this diagnosis, without surgery, he couldn’t get me pregnant. But a couple of months after we got married, I went to the doctor for a regular checkup, while I was on what I thought it was my period, and that was when the doctor told me that was not my period but a miscarriage threat, and that I must keep rest. The next day that threat became a reality, I had a miscarriage. [Read more…]

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Ashley

Mom to Connor James

Born still May 19, 2012

Eastern Passage, Nova Scotia, Canada

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant like it was yesterday. It was Friday, September 16th, my parents’ anniversary and I had made myself a doctor’s appointment that afternoon because I hadn’t been able to keep anything in my system. I remember trying to figure out what could be making me so sick, and I finally narrowed it down and thought it was dairy products. Boy, was I wrong! I went to the doctor, told her everything that was going on and she said, “Well, Ashley, I think you actually might be pregnant.” My response of course was, “No way, if I was pregnant I think I would know.” My appointment ended with me going for blood work the following Monday but there was no way on earth I could wait that long. I went home and got a home pregnancy test and there it was: a big, bright plus sign. I was pregnant! My boyfriend, Mark, wasn’t home, so, not thinking, I immediately picked up the phone and called him at work. Our conversation went exactly like this : [Read more…]

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Karly

Mom to Savion DeNiro Johnson

Born still June 27, 2012

Eau Claire, Wisconsin

It has been exactly 2 weeks since my baby died. There are no words to take my pain away. Me and my boyfriend Stacy have been together for just shy of 4 years now. We have never once gotten pregnant as much as I wanted to until October 2011! My period had been late and so like all women I rushed to the store and get 2-6 pregnancy tests, because 1 can never be right! It was positive, I had never been happier except for with my other pregnancy 5 years ago. I have a daughter who is 5 years old, turning 6 on December 26th. Me and my partner had some very bumpy times during my pregnancy; we even split up in the beginning of it. I remember the first little flutter that grew into strong little kicks, tumbles and flips. I was healthy; I quit smoking, I did everything most women do to take care of yourself during pregnancy! My daughter and I would sit up at night and she would talk to him and was so excited to be a big sister. I was the happiest I had been in a long time. Stacy and I got back together at the end of April. He would laugh at our son because we would be laying in bed and if Stacy put his arm around me, Savion would kick like crazy! I knew Savion was special, he was so strong already. [Read more…]

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Samatha

Mom to Joseph Gabriel (Joeby)

Born still October 14, 2009

Lancaster, Pennsylvania

It seems so long since I have shared my story; those in your everyday life tire of hearing it. As a Mommy, though, I want to share Joeby’s story as inspiration…or possibly simply for selfish reasons…either way, here is our story… [Read more…]

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Embry

Mom to Jedidiah Mathis

Born sleeping July 14, 2011 (due July 22, 2011)

Laguna Beach, California

We fell in love in what seemed an instant. Just months after we married we decided we wanted to expand our family.  A long year and a half later we welcomed Zealan Alexander at the end of 2007.  My whole life revolved around my Z and we loved watching him reach his milestones. We moved from Texas to California when he was just 4 months old to plant our family by the beach.  All the usual adjustments came into play as a young family, but all in all we were living the life…the dream we had envisioned. [Read more…]

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Nasha

Mom to Isabella Rose

January 13, 2011 to February 22, 2011

Red Deer, Alberta, Canada

In May of 2010 we found out we were pregnant. We were very excited but also a little scared. We had had 2 miscarriages prior – in November 2002 at 11 weeks and December 2008 at 13 weeks. At the time, we had 2 beautiful and healthy kids, Jake who was 6 and Katelyn who was 4, and we couldn’t wait to share this experience with them. [Read more…]

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Lani

Mom to an early miscarriage (2005)
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Sky Gabriel, stillborn December 14, 2011

Portland, Oregon

Sky Gabriel was born still on December 14, 2011, 2 days before his due date. This is his story, or, more accurately, our story of his life and death. I’m sharing this story because it is so very important to me that Sky be remembered. I hope hearing his story is as encouraging and healing for you as sharing it is for me.

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Cristina

Mom to Lorelei

Born sleeping November 5, 2011 at 10:08 p.m.

California

I am really not sure where to begin…but I will start by saying that my life and those of my husband and our families has been changed forever. [Read more…]

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Dawn

Mom to William George

April 1st, 2009

Alpina, MI

William would have been a week old on April 8, 2009, if he’d been alive the day I pushed him into the world. My due date. We’d been anticipating that date for nine months. He lived inside of me for three-quarters of a year. I held him in my womb for three seasons. Spring seems like such a perfect time for birth, when everything is coming alive. Now, for me, everything feels dead, and my baby is dead, and the last thing I want to do is watch the world come to life again.

 

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Amber

Mom to Adalyn Paige

Born still on February 26th, 2011

Waverly, Ohio

Finding out I was pregnant was the scariest and happiest moment of my life. I had been dating my now husband, Jeff, for about three years and we had just moved in together. I was on birth control and just starting to plan our wedding. Getting pregnant at that time was a complete shock for us. After I took my test and Jeff and I talked about everything, we were excited to have a little family. [Read more…]

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Samantha
Mom to Zoie Madisyn Hebert
Born Sleeping November 30th, 2010 at 39 weeks
Plattsburg, New York
 I went into my 39 week doctors appointment Tuesday morning and it was just like every other routine appointment. He checked my cervix and I was 2cm, then he went to listen to her heartbeat and he couldn’t find it. He took me in to check on the ultrasound and he still couldn’t find it. I was sent to an imaging center to check on a better machine…. still nothing! This was the worse news ever.
 

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Jessica
Mom to Maggie Marin
Born still on September 30, 2010
Kansas City, Missouri
 
I don’t really know where the beginning or end of Maggie’s story is, and I think I like it that way. Although there was a clear end to Maggie’s physical journey, she is very much alive in spirit and in the fabric of our family.
Maggie was our second surprise baby. At first I was pretty shocked, but soon felt that familiar surge of love for this new little life. We had decided to find out the sex of the baby at the 18 week scan, and it was then that we learned that we were expecting a little girl. I excitedly imagined my firstborn and her new little sister together.
 

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