September 16, 2012 By 2 Comments

Shannon

Mom to Alfonso (Alfy) Anthony

Born into Heaven April 6, 2012

Omaha, Nebraska

From Shannon’s blog post, Alfonso (Alfy):

It took me almost a full month to type Alfy’s story. 

Thursday, April 5, 2012, I had an appointment with my OB.  I was 28 weeks pregnant.  I remember going to work that day and being so excited for my afternoon appointment, for two reasons.  1) I couldn’t wait to hear Alfy’s (note that at this time we still referred to him as “the baby” because we did not know the sex) heartbeat again and to see how we were progressing.  2) We were doing staff interviews for our summer employees and the appointment meant we had to end interviews early that day.  I love my job and even doing the interviews, but interviewing approximately 70 college students in the matter of 5 days can be a bit overwhelming and tiresome at times, especially when you are 28 weeks pregnant.  I even missed an interview that afternoon due to a post office/lunch run with one of my hallway friends.  Either way, I was excited for my appointment, to learn a little bit more about my kiddo. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 28 weeks, Nebraska, No heartbeat, Stillbirth
September 16, 2012 By 7 Comments

Lisa

Mom to Maddox Ford

November 7, 2011 – December 26, 2011

Plainfield, Illinois

I found out I was pregnant with Maddox Ford May 20, 2011. It was a Friday and I was at work. I was so excited about being a mom and my family was, too…finally, grandkids! The first ultrasound and every doctor’s appointment I grew more and more anxious and fell more and more in love with my child I hadn’t even met yet. My pregnancy was easy, no morning sickness, no issues. I was a healthy 26-year old with a whole new world in front of me. I didn’t get any of the genetic tests done, or any of the other tests done, because I was a low risk pregnancy. Once the first trimester passed, I thought like everyone else thinks, I’m in the clear. It never really occurred to me that something might actually happen to my baby. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, Fatal Diagnosis, Genetic Disorder, Illinois, Neonatal death, NICU, premature birth, Skeletal displasia
May 25, 2012 By 2 Comments

Jennifer

Mom to Harlow

Born April 2, 2012 at 28 weeks

Pocatello, Idaho

My thoughts and hopes with telling Harlow’s birth story and continuing our journey is that we may be able to help other Angel Mommies feel like they are not alone, like they are “normal” in their thoughts, and like they can make it through. It’s also to help those in our lives feel more connected with Harlow and me, to know how truly real she was, and will continue to be so in our lives. Because we are so far from friends and family, I was unable to share my pregnancy with everyone, besides pictures. And I was deprived of sharing it during our trip home since we fell short on time. So I will share what I can of our time with her, and our memories. And in this time after…I will find my new self, as my life has changed. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 28 weeks, Idaho, No heartbeat, Stillbirth, third trimester loss
May 19, 2012 By 3 Comments

Katelyn

Mom to Brody Stewart

Born and died March 6, 2012

Hamilton, Ontario, Canada

We got married in August 2011. Eric and I have wanted children for a long time. Just after our wedding, we got pregnant right away. We knew this baby was special, as our pregnancy went problem free. I felt amazing the entire time, and every kick from him was a reminder of how lucky we truly were. Every OB appointment that passed was so exciting, and getting to hear his heartbeat month after month, made us more and more excited to have our little guy at home soon. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2012, 28 weeks, Canada, No heartbeat, Ontario, Stillbirth
February 14, 2012 By 9 Comments

Nicole

Mom to Rory Benjamin Halpern

August 19, 2011

Alexandria, Virginia

David and I had our first date a little over three years ago.  I began to fall madly in love with him each passing day and I knew in my heart this was the man I would spend the rest of my life with.  I was overwhelmed with love for him and I had never been happier.   

We did things our own way, on our own timetable.  In less than a year we bought our first home and a little more than a year after that he asked me to marry him.  There was so much love between us that we didn’t want to wait to get pregnant. We were ready to start a family before our second anniversary passed.   Rory likely had other plans though as it wasn’t until a week after David put a ring on my finger that we found out we were pregnant with our sweet baby. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, Placenta Accreta, Stillbirth, Virginia
November 15, 2011 By 4 Comments

Whitney

Mom to Hunter James

Born Still on October 21, 2011

Westland, MI

My beautiful baby boy, Hunter James, was born still on October 21, 2011.  He was 1lb. 11oz. and 13 inches long. He had my nose and facial features, his daddy’s brown hair and long toes.
My husband and I had been married for just under a year when we decided to start trying for our first child. I was very excited and ready to be a mommy.  I had an IUD, which I had taken out as soon as we decided. We got pregnant right away, within the first few weeks of it being out. This was very unexpected, but very exciting.
Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, Michigan, Uncategorized
November 12, 2011 By 4 Comments

Morgan

Mom to Lyla

Born at 28w6d on July 5, 2010

and Baby V

Miscarried at 12w5d on October 29, 2011

Houston, Texas

My first pregnancy in 2010 with my daughter Lyla was very scary. We found out we were pregnant in January and were so excited! Everything was good until March. I had an extreme amount of bleeding that I woke up to at 2 am one night. I was only 13 weeks. I was so scared but never gave up hope for my baby. I was in and out of the doctor’s office and E.R. that day getting ultrasounds. No one could figure out why I was bleeding the way I was, and some believed I was going to miscarry. The only explanation was that they found that I have a bicornuate uterus (heart-shaped) and maybe that was the cause for the bleeding. They could see the baby, always fine and dancing, in the right horn and a large bleed in the left horn that was about 8 cm.  I was put on complete bedrest to wait it out at home. Once the bleeding subsided after a few days, I starting getting severe cramping/contractions and started passing large blood clots. I was so scared, but still never gave up hope. I remember calling the nurse and asking her about what was going on and she said that if I was going to miscarry, there was nothing they could do. That made me really upset. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 12 weeks, 2010, 2011, 28 weeks, Bedrest, bicornuate uterus, first trimester miscarriage, NICU, Preeclampsia, premature birth, Texas
September 6, 2011 By 2 Comments


Heather

Mom to Chloe Lee

March 31, 2011

Miscarried

July 8, 2011

Buckfield, Maine

My name is Heather. My Fiancé Travis and I were ecstatic when we found out we were expecting on October 29th 2010. We had just got our own apartment and everything seemed to be falling right into place. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 28 weeks, 5 weeks, Early Miscarriage, Maine, Multiple loss, No heartbeat, recurrent miscarriage, Sacrococcygeal Teratoma
September 1, 2011 By 4 Comments

Kasey

Mommy to Brandon Thomas

Stillborn on December 29th, 1997

Bowling Green, KY

At 18 years old, I found out I was pregnant. I was a month out of high school and supposed to start college in the fall. My pregnancy went forward like something out of a textbook: very healthy, no complications. I gained an acceptable amount of weight. I was four days overdue and had to be induced because my amniotic fluid started leaking. The delivery of my 1st child was completely normal. The only thing that was surprising was my son’s weight – he weighed in at a whopping 10 lbs 6.5 oz and was 23.5 inches long! His blood sugar and temp were low at birth, but after a few hours he was fine. My midwife told me that I “was born to have babies.” [Read more...]

Filed Under: 1997, 28 weeks, Carried to term, Decreased movement, Forgiveness, Fullterm, Grief and loss, Hope, Infant loss, Kentucky, Living child, miscarriage, Mother's Intuition, Multiple loss, No heartbeat, Old blood, Rainbow baby, recurrent miscarriage, Second child, second pregnancy, Single Parent, Spotting, Stillbirth, third trimester loss, Unexpected loss, Unexplained loss, Unknown reason
August 31, 2011 By 1 Comment

Marcia

Mom to Peyton Elizabeth Armstrong

Born Still January 7th, 2011

New Philadelphia, Ohio

Our story begins in July 2010 when my husband Kyle and I found out that we were expecting our third child. It came as a shock for us. Our two older daughters were 7 and 5 years old, and we had just finished cleaning out our basement of baby items and clothes two months prior, figuring the baby days were behind us. Kyle had just turned 39 and I 38, and we had not anticipated in having any more children, but then a little surprise came into our lives. Our two daughters, Lauren & Kaitlyn were very excited to be big sisters, and we learned that our little bundle of joy was due to arrive March 28, 2011. [Read more...]
Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, ohio, Stillbirth, Trisomy 18
May 31, 2011 By 3 Comments

Kaci

Mom to Laron Clay

April 16th, 2011

Coalgate, Oklahoma

Our story begins in February 2010.

For as long as I can remember, one of the most important things I have wanted in my life was to be a mom. In February of 2010 I was told at my yearly appointment that in order to get pregnant I would have to get on medication. I accepted this and decided that eventually when we were ready I would get on the medicine and hopefully not have a difficult time getting pregnant. After that appointment I received notice that my pap smear had returned abnormal and I needed to come in for the cells to be checked. I returned to the doctor in May only to discover that the cells were between grades 1 and 2 dysplasia. My doctor informed me that he wanted to remove the cells in order to keep them from becoming cancerous and an appointment was set up for April.

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Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, 6 weeks, Abruption, Oklahoma, Stillbirth
April 17, 2011 By 18 Comments

Becky

Mom to Will

Born March 5th, 2011

Passed Away April 2nd,2011

Lyman, Wyoming

My name is Becky and I am the mother of my beautiful baby boy, Will, who was born March 5, 2011, and passed away April 2, 2011. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, Infant loss, NEC, NICU, Preeclampsia, premature birth, Wyoming
April 14, 2011 By Leave a Comment

Lisa

Mom to Michael Joseph

Born Still at 28 weeks 3 days on February 20th, 2010

Groveport, Ohio

In February 20, 2010, at 28 weeks and 3 days of pregnancy, our baby boy, Michael Joseph was delivered still.  I had gone to my midwife that morning after not feeling any movement for a couple days.  I had felt a funny twinge a couple days before that, but didn’t think much of it because I had that same feeling a few weeks prior.  My midwife could not locate a heartbeat, and my blood pressure was quite high, so she suggested we go to the nearest hospital emergency room. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 28 weeks, Infertility, miscarriage, ohio, Stillbirth, Unknown reason
January 25, 2011 By 2 Comments
Kaila
Mom to Hayden James
January 8th, 2011
Clovis, California
On January 7th, 2011, I learned that I will experience the worst incident anyone could possibly imagine: the loss of their child. I don’t even know what to say about the whole thing except for how it’s not fair. Why does everyone else get to go home with their babies and mine lies asleep forever?


The weekend we welcomed the new year of 2011 was great. I am 21 years old and had been having the “perfect” pregnancy. Beyond healthy, and beyond excited. My husband and I were down south visiting my family for the new year and it was full of joy and laughter. I had noticed that Hayden’s movements were not as often or as “hard” as they had been and began to worry. I shared with my husband my concern and he tried to comfort me telling me he was probably just resting. I assumed I was probably being paranoid, but as Hayden’s movements got slower and slower, my concern grew greater and greater. The morning we were getting ready to head home, I lay in bed praying, God just please make him kick. And he did! Very hard! I was so excited and felt so relieved, but little did I know that would be the last swift kick he would give. He was telling me goodbye and that he was heading off to be with the angels. After that kick, Hayden’s movements were extremely few and far between.

Friday, January 7th, slow turned to stop and I just knew something wasn’t right. I called Dr. Dave’s office on Friday afternoon around 2:00pm and let them know what was happening. They told me to immediately go to labor and delivery at the hospital for a stress test, and told me that everything was probably okay, but to go in just in case. Immediately my heart began racing. I was at work at the time and my boss told me she didn’t think I should drive myself there. Thank goodness for that. My husband was at work and I didn’t want him to worry unless there was a definite cause for it, so I just told him I would call him once at the hospital. My mom picked me up from work and we headed there. My mind told me everything would be fine; but my heart knew otherwise. The second they placed the doppler to my stomach and there was no heartbeat, my entire sense of being disappeared. I just looked around the room for someone to please just help my baby but there was nothing anyone could do; he was gone. They nurses pushed and pressed against my stomach trying and trying to find the heartbeat as I lay there screaming and crying. My mom was just holding me and crying. She went and called my husband and told him to come immediately. I was immediately put into a labor and delivery room where they shut the doors to the nursery because my baby would not be staying in there. I had to listen to the other women and families in the rooms next door crying tears of joy as we cried tears of sorrow.

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Filed Under: 2011, 28 weeks, California, Stillbirth, third trimester loss
October 7, 2010 By 2 Comments

Lisa
Mom to Noah Gonzalez
Born still on November 11th, 2009
Last year was the happiest and saddest year of my life.  In late May I found out I was pregnant with our first child.  My husband and I were so excited and like most first time parents we were anxious and excited about what was to come.  At 9 weeks we had our first ultrasound and we saw “our little bean” for the first time.  We could see our baby moving and the little flicker of the heartbeat.  After that visit we began to prepare a nursery and even picked out some names. 
At 19 weeks we saw our baby again and found out we were having a boy.  My husband claimed up until that point that he didn’t have a preference on gender, but I knew he was so excited about having a boy.  The ultrasound appointment was so amazing.  We saw our precious baby moving and watched ever so intently as the technician pointed out every part of his body.  We heard his strong heartbeat and we left the appointment feeling so relieved that everything was fine.  We felt we were “in the clear” and continued to plan for the arrival of our son. 

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Filed Under: 2009, 28 weeks, Stillbirth
September 30, 2010 By 3 Comments

Lindsay
Mother to Sophia
Born still at 28 weeks on April 3rd, 2010
Central Illinois

In one day your whole world can change. October 12th, 2009, we found out that we were expecting our first child. On April 2nd, 2010, we found out that our precious daughter’s heart had stopped beating. In one day we went from a thrilled, exhilarated expecting couple to a couple that had everything swept out from underneath them. In one day, I became a Mother and lost a Daughter.


In the early hours of April 3rd, I delivered our baby girl, Sophia Marie. She was a tiny, beautiful little girl who was the perfect mix of the two of us. My heart swelled and broke in the same instant. I have never, we have never, been through a harder experience in our life.

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Filed Under: 2010, 28 weeks, Illinois, Infertility, Preeclampsia, Stillbirth
September 8, 2010 By 2 Comments
Debbi
Mom to Christopher
Got his wings September 6, 1975 after 8 hours and 13 minutes
Wellington, OH
This is my story…35 years ago. I want all the girls to know I am so sorry for the pain they are going through. This is such a rough journey. My heart is with you.

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Filed Under: 1975, 28 weeks, ohio, premature birth, Stillbirth
August 20, 2010 By 2 Comments
Julie
Mum to Charlotte Rose
Stillborn at 28 weeks on April 14th, 2010
Perth, Western Australia
My 12 week scan was booked in for Dec 22nd. Never in my wildest dreams did I consider that this day would hold the news that it did. I went along to my scan full of the anticipation of seeing my baby for the first time. 

[Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 28 weeks, Adverse prenatal diagnosis, Australia, Stillbirth, Trisomy 18

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