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Courtney

Mom to Alexandra Renee

September 10, 2016

Fort Walton Beach, Florida

I found out I was pregnant on Mother’s Day of all days. To someone who did not think they could get pregnant without medical intervention, this was very significant. My husband and I had been trying/not preventing for almost two years. When those two pink lines appeared, I was overwhelmed but also overjoyed. 

I had a fairly difficult first trimester with morning sickness, but nothing could bring me down. This would be our first baby and we were so happy. We spent the entire summer in bliss. We researched strollers, car seats, brainstormed baby names, and imagined how wonderful our life would be once he/she arrived. All of our appointments went well. Our ultrasounds were normal and we soon found out we were expecting a little girl.

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Dominique 

Mom to Cameron and Oliver

November 21, 2014

Homosassa, Florida

Cameron Wesley was a miracle baby. He was my second pregnancy, I was diagnosed with placenta previa and doctors told me I would have a c-section, which frightened me. Around 30 weeks, my placenta had moved and everything started to turn. [Read more…]

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Mom to AJ

January 29, 2014

Grethel, Kentucky

We were trying to conceive for 6 years and nothing had happened in that time frame. I decided to start dieting and exercising and amazingly my periods started to come ever month, but I was still not pregnant. In 2013, we decided to find an OB to see what could be wrong after that long. We just knew something wasn’t right. My appointment was in August of 2013. That day we found out that I’ve been suffering from PCOS. That’s the reason why I couldn’t get pregnant, so my doctor decided to put me on Clomid (150mg tablets) to see what would happen. As me and my husband were leaving the appointment, we was so very happy and excited to finally know what had been going on and that we would have a chance at this. After the round of Clomid, I called and got my blood work results and they came back 13.7 for my progesterone level. As soon as I hung up the phone, I called my husband crying saying,”It worked baby!” I couldn’t believe it and was very surprised that it helped.

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AnnieBerndtAnnie

Mom to Oliver

December 24, 2012

Minneapolis, Minnesota

It’s been 12 days [at time of writing]. I haven’t talked to anyone really. I keep thinking the day must be coming soon where I’ll be able to talk about it, out-loud, with words. Right now the only time I can do that is if I’m crying and screaming already, and you can’t cry and scream in public. So I stay home. It’s not that I want to hide that it happened. I don’t care if people know. I just want to hide from what they’ll say. What if someone says, “well maybe you’ll get your girl now”, “well at least you didn’t have any memories with him”, “well at least he was only 24 weeks and not really a person yet”…??? Cause if people say anything like that, I just wont make it.

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Kate

Mom to triplets

Evie, born and died December 14, 2009,

Jack, stillborn December 22, 2009,

and

Will, born January 1, 2010 and died January 14, 2010

Currently Tampa, Florida (military family)

Time to Tell Their Story (written February 3, 2012)

I have never written about the details of losing Evie, Jack, & Will. It’s been over two years now since we lost the pregnancy and tonight is the first night that I’ve actually felt like I could write about how they were born.  I don’t know how this is going to go, but I feel ready to give it a try.  I am going to ask for patience, please, as I search for the words to tell this story.

It started the night of December 2nd, 2009.  It was a Wednesday. [Read more…]

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Jessica

Mom to Makayla Lynn

August 17, 2012 – August 21, 2012

Wichita, Kansas

It all started when I was visiting family in Oklahoma. My husband and I were trying for another baby after our miscarriage in Nov. 2011. I was feeling off and just feeling pregnant, so I went to the store and got a test. On March 26th, 2012 I got those 2 beautiful pink lines! It was midnight when I tested and because my husband works all over for an oil company, I texted him the picture saying, “We did it!!” I was so nervous yet so happy! So excited! As soon as the 12 week mark passed I thought I was in the clear. I didn’t know how wrong I was. [Read more…]

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LaTanya

Mom to Kennedy Joi

Born April 14, 2012 at 24 weeks
Died May 21, 2012

Chicago, Illinois

My water broke week 22 of my pregnancy. A pregnancy that we had been working at for the past year and half and finally, through the use of 3 IUI sessions, Kennedy Joi was conceived in November 2011. I had a great pregnancy, no morning sickness, adjusted really well but nervous up through the 1st trimester, so was not very open until we got past that 12 week mark. Being pretty healthy before pregnancy and not having any real problems, my water breaking at 22 weeks was alarming for my husband and me. We assumed with all the medical advancements that it would be something that could be fixed, but after being in hospital for 2 days and having numerous ultrasounds, we knew we were in for something more. [Read more…]

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Erin

Mom to River Angel Marshall

Stillborn April 8, 2012

Smith Falls, Ontario, Canada

There is Grief and there is Gratitude.

Life can be so very cruel on occasion. I could list a dozen examples, heck, if I really tried I could probably list a hundred. What would be the point?

My personal tragedy isn’t unique to me, although my experience of it, and how I react to it and how it has changed me is unique.

After months of trying to get pregnant, Jason and I came to terms with the fact that we were unable to conceive without assistance. We contemplated seeking fertility treatments, but in the end we decided that was not the best option for us. We had a few reasons for coming to that decision; mainly there was a financial consideration, and secondarily was the concern about how hormone treatments might affect my already fragile emotional state, given that I suffer from anxiety disorder and depression. [Read more…]

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Lindsey

Mom to Angel Mae

Born still January 6, 2012

Erlanger, Kentucky

I went to the doctor for a simple UTI…or so I thought….I learned in Sept. 2011 I was pregnant with my 3rd child, the 4th between my spouse and me. I am classified as a high risk pregnancy from the start since I am a type 1, juvenile diabetic and have been for over 25 years. I immediately told my spouse, who could not quit smiling. We knew we had risks, but this was my third…this should be a cake walk. We thought we knew it all: I would have a repeat c-section and knew the baby would come early (my 5-year old was born at 30 weeks, her sister at 34 weeks). We knew we would probably deal with a NICU stay and all. We could handle it. I am a firefighter/EMT, so we knew I would be limited at work. We could do this… [Read more…]

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Peach

Mom to Olivia

Born still May 1, 2007 at 24 weeks gestation

Here is the story as I first wrote it:

“I was having contractions all weekend, so I went in one day early for my 24 week check-up. Hubby went with me. My belly measured small and the doctor couldn’t find a heartbeat. The doctor said she didn’t want to send me home without hearing a heartbeat so we went to the ultrasound room. We saw our little girl, but she was still and so was her heart. [Read more…]

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Rachel

Mom to

Maggie Ann, stillborn at 24 weeks on March 17, 2011

Miscarriage at 8 weeks on January 31, 2012

Hutchinson, Kansas

In May of 2008, after my husband and I both finished graduate school, we decided that we would start trying to add to our family. After a year we were referred to an RE to see why I still wasn’t pregnant.  It was then that I was diagnosed with PCOS.  After surgery, using a variety of meds (clomid, femara, ovidrel) and an IUI, I finally had a positive pregnancy test in November 2010.  We were overjoyed.  Thrilled beyond belief. And so, so thankful. [Read more…]

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Megan

Mom to Annie Grace

Stillborn October 4, 2011

St. Paul, Minnesota

 I was sitting at a restaurant with my daughter, my mom, and my husband. A young girl, probably around four, started belting out the lyrics to ”Tomorrow” from my favorite childhood movie, Annie. “The sun will come out tomorrow,” she sang. Tears streamed down my face. Just days earlier, my daughter was stillborn. Her name was Annie.

I’ll start from the beginning. [Read more…]

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Meagan

Mom to Madison Grace Morales

Stillborn on September 12th, 2010

Arlington, TX

September 11th means the same thing to mostly everyone, the day the twin towers fell. But to me September 11th, 2010 marks the day that in my opinion my world fell apart.

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Jessie

Mom to Seraphina

June 13th, 2011

Nashville, Tennessee

When I discovered I was pregnant, I was sure that I was carrying a boy, and so did almost everyone around me. So much for mother’s intuition!

After 4 years of marriage, my husband and I decided that we were ready to have a child of our own. I got pregnant right away. We thought we were so lucky: lucky that we had waited until we felt ready to be parents, lucky that the baby would have a very nice home and parents that never fought, and lucky to conceive so quickly and easily. At my first OB appointment, we saw the flicker of a heartbeat and were congratulated. I went to see a perintologist due to a pulmonary embolism I had several years before. He got me started on daily Lovenox injections, just in case. I had used Lovenox before, so while I wasn’t thrilled to start again, I did exactly as he said with no hesitation. The first trimester was easy, I was usually slightly nauseous, but I never got really sick. Things were going so well, or so I had thought. [Read more…]

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Kenzie

Mommy to Lukas Allen Bradberry

July 21st, 2011

Robinson, Illinois

My husband Larry and I were married on July 10th, 2010. We took our honeymoon in early August, and the day we got back I stopped taking the pill. I had been taking it for 4 years. On February 28th, 2011, I found out I was pregnant! I was so excited, and kind of suprised it only took about 6 months. My husband was thrilled as well, and he was just convinced it was a boy! We told everyone right away, and everyone was so happy. I have a niece that will be 1 in October, and that was exciting because I was due early November, they would only be a year apart! I had a feeling from the get go that I was having a boy, but I told myself it could be a girl (I would have been happy either way!). [Read more…]

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Kara Masi

Mom to Filomena Lucille Masi

Stillborn on March 10th, 2011 at 24 weeks and 3 days

Newark, Delaware

Ever since I was little, I knew I’d always have a house full of children. [Read more…]

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Amy

Mother to Julia Isabel

April 13 – April 14, 2011

Kensington, MD

When my partner came back from a couple of months of studying in Spain in July 2008, we started trying to have a baby.  Along the way to getting pregnant, we got married and bought a house with good space for kids and a nice yard.  We had a lot of patience and did not go see a doctor for a fertility work-up until we had been trying for 16 months.  In the end, we had to do IVF to get pregnant. [Read more…]

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Shannon

Griffin

February 1, 2011

Portland, OR


Life can change in an instant, or in my family’s case, just under 24 hours.  I lost my second son Griffin on February 1st, 2011.  Griffin was born at 24 weeks and 2 days.

I am a worrier by nature, with my first son I worried about miscarriage, and then (ironically) I worried about premature birth and then after awhile I relaxed into pregnancy.  With my second I felt confident that I had done this before and could/would do it again.  I did however have a few feelings that something just wasn’t right, a mothers intuition perhaps.  I would think to myself that this pregnancy just wasn’t going to happen, and then I would shake my head and give myself a hard time for being so negative. [Read more…]

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Chantal

Mom to Chloe, Lost 24+ weeks in September 2005

Second Loss at 21 weeks in October 2007

Third Loss at 13 weeks in March 2008

Fourth Loss at 21 weeks in April 2009

Fifth Loss at 12/13 weeks in July 2010

Sixth Loss at 9 weeks in 2010

Seventh Loss at 9 weeks in January 2011

Cape Town, South Africa

I found out I was pregnant for the first time in June 2005. I was nervous about telling my mom, because I was raised “first get married and then babies” lol. After I told my mom MY good news, it took her a while to get over it. Didn’t take her very long though, because the next thing you know she starts buying baby clothes. Me too, I just couldn’t resist the cute little outfits. [Read more…]

http://facesofloss.com/2011/04/1428.html

 Denise
Mom to Triplets
David, born still on April 12, 2008
Lucas, April 12, 2008 to May 9, 2008
Chilhowie, Virginia
 


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