Mom to Ryan

Born and Died on April 22nd, 2002 at 26 weeks


Born and Died on January 19th, 2003 at 23 weeks

and Ethan

Born at 32 weeks on May 10th and Died May 12th due to a heart defect

I am the mother of 3 angels and my last angel died 2 weeks ago.  My story starts 9 years ago when I had my first son Ryan.  When we found out I was pregnant, I was 3 months along and told our family at a restaurant where we had lunch, everyone was ecstatic to hear our news.  I can recall that it was a good pregnancy, no problems and all was going well until 18th April (Good Friday) evening at 11:50pm when I suddenly felt the urge to go to the toilet, which I did and to my horror, saw a thick mucus discharge with blood,  my husband took  me to the Medi-clinic emergency room immediately, where they admitted me as they suspected I was in labour, they put me on the monitor and had a look at my cervix which was not fully dilated yet.  All was going okay during the night and when the OB/GYN came early Saturday morning, she discovered that I was 7 cm dilated and immediately put me on meds to prevent the cervix from dilating further.

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Mother to Isla

Born and Died May 17th, 2010

Dear Isla,

Today is your birthday. I wish I could put a pretty dress on you, kiss your delicious cheeks and throw a party for you filled with love from your family and friends. Instead, I will hug your father and try not to fall apart because on the same day you were born last year, you died. [Read more…]


Mom to Isaac – February 26th, 2008

and Hannah – September 16th, 2008

Burbank, Illinois

The Story of Isaac & Hannah Joy

Ya know that feeling? The one you get when you know things aren’t gonna turn out like you planned. The knot in your stomach, the lump in your throat, sweaty palms…that feeling? I remember the day I got that feeling. It was February 21st ’08, a Thursday. I was 18 weeks 5 days pregnant & Dan was gettin ready to leave, I was tense & I don’t remember why. But I remember how you could here a pin drop when I told him not to go because I was spotting. His face took on a mixture of shock & fear… [Read more…]


Mom to Unnamed Baby – November 1999

and twins Ava Sophie

April 13th 2010 – April 17th, 2010

and Zoey Marilyn

April 13th, 2010 – April 15th, 2010

Calgary, Alberta, Canda

I guess my story begins in 1999 when I was only 21. I had an unexpected pregnancy, which resulted in an early miscarriage at only 7 weeks.  I was shocked by how much I mourned that baby.  For weeks I would cry in the bathroom or in bed at night.  I think it was around 6 months before I really moved on. [Read more…]

Mom to Kylie Joy
June 11th, 2007
Belleville, Illinois

Mom to Logan Timothy
May 16th, 2010 
5:27 p.m. – 6:40 p.m.
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
My husband, Tim, and I were married in May of 2005.  Around our 4 year anniversary, we decided we were ready to start our family and assumed it would happen quickly – everyone on either side of our families seems very fertile.  Well, 9 very long months later, we FINALLY conceived our first child.  We were cautious, but SO excited.  I had horrible morning sickness practically all day every day from weeks 6 to 18, but was thrilled – everyone kept assuring us this meant a healthy baby.  At our 20-week ultrasound, we found out we were having a boy.  I have had a name picked out for a boy for a very long time and my husband was neutral on it, but immediately after the tech said “it’s a boy!,” I burst into tears and begged that we name him Logan.  How could my husband say no to his crying pregnant wife?!?!  We also found out that he appeared to be perfectly healthy.  We were thrilled and went off to Baby’s R Us that day to buy him his first outfit and a few books.  We also started our registry.  We finally felt “safe” and that we’d be bringing home our little boy at the beginning of September.

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Mom to Layah Faith
Born June 2nd, 2008
Born into Heaven June 8th, 2008
Alabaster, Alabama
My husband Matt and I have been married almost 8 years. We have an 8 year old, Tobias Gabriel, who we call Tobi. Tobi was born September 8th, 2002, at 26.4 weeks and weighed 2 lbs and 3 oz. He was born in 59 minutes from the time we arrived at the hospital, pulled the parking ticket out, and they pulled him out emergency c-section. At the time, it was unknown why Tobi was born so early. I had been followed by the high risk Maternal Fetal Medicine doctors at UAB due to a rare (only about 600 cases in the world) metabolic muscle disease I have that is predominantly diagnosed only in males. All I could do for Tobi throughout those long days and nights, (108 days in the NICU to be specific) was to pump breast milk, which I did for 15 months. The doctors and nurses call it “liquid gold” for all babies, but especially preemies. Statistically, the survival rate order is black females, black males, white females, white males, so they call the white males, “wimpy white boys”, but we have a different label, our miracle son of God. Tobi was discharged from UAB Hopsital 3 days before Christmas. It was the best Christmas present ever! Tobi’s had 10 surgeries primarily due to the BPD (Bronchopulmonary displesia) lung disease, and secondary, due to being born so early. He has bilateral sensorineural hearing loss and wears hearing aids, but is not deaf, and has been aided since 13 months. It’s all he knows. The are his “ears”. He is extremely bright, and most who meet him, would have never guessed he was so tiny at birth.

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Mom to Hailey Maddison Molloy
Stillborn on November 24th, 2007 at 23 weeks
Orlando, FL

Hailey was conceived on 6/27/07. We were so excited to see that postive sign on our pregnancy test! I actually used 3 pregnancy testers just to be sure. The pregnancy went well throughout the first trimester. Her ultrasounds at 8 and 12 weeks were perfect. At her 16 week visit, the nurse listened to her heart and it sounded beautiful! The doctor told me everything was going well and my blood pressure was normal, no worries. The only issue I had was severe morning sickness (or should I say all day sickness) I tried every method to prevent it but the only thing that got me through the day was those seabands. They worked like a charm. The doctor said morning sickness was a sign of a healthy pregnancy… boy was she ever wrong!!

On October 29, 2007 I went in for my 20 week ultrasound. This was when we found out that we were expecting another baby girl. We were tickled pink! It was also during this ultrasound when the nightmare began. The nurse noticed a slight amount of fluid surrounding the baby’s lungs, she did not see the bladder, or the stomach and noted that the baby was not moving alot. The doctor came in to discuss these things with us, and the nurse realized that she did not measure the femur bone. We went back in to have the ultrasound done again and she did see the stomach and bladder, however the fluid was still there. The doctor recommended that we go straight to the hospital to have further testing done. We waited 5 hours in triage surrounded by at least 15 pregnant women in labor, knowing something was wrong with our baby but not knowing what it was. After the 5 hours we went in to have a ultrasound done. The nurse stated that there wasn’t a doctor available to read the ultrasound and we would need to go home and come back in the morning. Scared and feeling helpless my husband and I left and returned the next day.

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Mom to Kayla Rose and Kaitlin Emily
Born and gone on November 9th, 2008 at 23 weeks
Miscarriage July 9th, 2009
Miscarriage April 12th, 2010

I stopped my birth control in May 2008. We went to the doctor for a check up and were given the “Ok” to start. My doctor advised me that it could take 6 months to a year to get pregnant. Boy did she jinx us. I was back in the doctors office 7 weeks later for lack of a period and a positive pregnancy test. We were given an in-office pregnancy test and got the positive results from the doctor. This was on July 1st 2008. We were ecstatic. We told Neal’s mom 2 days later and my family on July 4th. Everyone was so happy for us!

On Saturday, July 12th, we had a bit of a scare. I had some spotting. I immediately called the doctor but wasn’t able to be seen until Monday, July 14th. That weekend I was a wreck and nervous. I did my best to take it easy and keep my feet up. Our appointment finally comes and we learn it was TWINS!! OMG!! I started to cry as soon as the ultrasound tech told us. I was in complete shock. Everyone was in shock. Neal’s mom thought we were joking at first. His sister has triplets via IVF and she thought it would be a good joke, but we weren’t lying!!

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Mom of Bailey Danae
Born at 23 weeks on April 30th, 2010
Newcastle, OK

We have been trying to start a family since August 2006. We have been going through infertility treatments with a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) since July 2007. We had an early loss at 5 1/2 weeks in January 2008 and another early loss at 6-7 weeks in July 2008. We discovered a rather large septum on my uterus which I had surgery to correct in September 2008. We found out we were pregnant again, for the first time since my surgery, on December 17, 2009.
With this pregnancy, I worried a LOT in the beginning. We were at my RE’s office every week from weeks 6-10. At 9 weeks, I had unexplained bleeding and was put on bed rest for 2 days. But, once we were out of the first trimester, I started to calm down a little. I felt much better once we made it through our 19 week anatomy scan, and found out we were having a girl! I finally was able to start enjoying my pregnancy.

But, on April 30, 2010, my world came crashing down…

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