Robin

Mom to Miles John

September 13, 2012 – September 17, 2012

Grand Rapids, Michigan

My husband and I decided to start a family in January of 2011. I promptly went off the pill and hoped that I would get pregnant quickly. It took about a year for me to finally get a positive reading, and 4 short weeks after that happened, I found out I was having a miscarriage. That was January 2012. Things weren’t progressing on their own, so I had a D&C on January 11, 2012. I was devastated and convinced the only thing that would take away the pain was getting pregnant again as soon as possible. So, in April, when we could try again, my husband and I went to Europe on vacation and the day we returned home I took another test and found out I was pregnant for the second time. [Read more...]

Tia

Mom to Jaron Robert

August 3, 2012 – August 8, 2012

Thunder Bay, Ontario, Canada

Being diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome at the early age of 14 felt like a death sentence, as the possibility of infertility was so high. My husband and I had been married 5 years and together for 13. During that time, we had said if pregnancy happens we will embrace it, but if it doesn’t, then we will embrace that, too…although, deep down I think we both wanted a child so badly and were using the “whatever happens, happens” motto to ease our pain. After 6 years of not using contraception, we became pregnant. It was the happiest day of my life. I came into our bedroom hysterically crying, and my husband thought something was wrong until I showed him the stick. [Read more...]

Nichole

Mom to Gregory Harrison

Born still on October 8, 2006

Tamaqua, Pennsylvania

Getting pregnant and becoming a parent is supposed to be easy. That was what I had assumed when my husband and I decided it was time to start a family of our own. We had been together since 1995, married since 2001, had purchased our first home. The logical progression said that we should start a family. More importantly, our hearts told us it was time. As time passed, we felt that something was missing from our lives, and being parents was that missing facet. [Read more...]

Kate

Mom to triplets

Evie, born and died December 14, 2009,

Jack, stillborn December 22, 2009,

and

Will, born January 1, 2010 and died January 14, 2010

Currently Tampa, Florida (military family)

Time to Tell Their Story (written February 3, 2012)

I have never written about the details of losing Evie, Jack, & Will. It’s been over two years now since we lost the pregnancy and tonight is the first night that I’ve actually felt like I could write about how they were born.  I don’t know how this is going to go, but I feel ready to give it a try.  I am going to ask for patience, please, as I search for the words to tell this story.

It started the night of December 2nd, 2009.  It was a Wednesday. [Read more...]

Annie

Mom to Carpenter

Born to Heaven February 19, 2011 at 23 weeks 6 days

Winston-Salem, North Carolina

In 2008, I was at a crossroads.  Continue dating a person everyone (including myself) knew I shouldn’t be with, or be alone in what seemed to be a couples-only world.  A night of crying and drinking with my best friend cemented it for me…  But I have never been a solo kind of person.  So, I vowed that day that I would find my future husband in the next man I met.  So, I signed up for eHarmony, met Mike, went on a date and started talking about marriage–all within about a month of my vow.  11 months later, we were engaged.  11 months after that, married.  And just 5 days after our one year anniversary, our daughter was born.  [Read more...]

Jessica

Jacob Austin

Born February 10, 2012

Due June 3, 2012

Jacksonville, Texas

January 22nd I started the hardest journey of my life. I woke up about 5:30am, after having the chills and what felt like a fever all night. 

I kissed my husband goodbye, since he had to be at work at 6:30 that morning… went and sat on the couch and noticed that all wasn’t right.  We had company over so I just tried relaxing on the couch since I had been placed on complete bed rest. About 8:15 or 8:30 I began noticing a sensation I hadn’t before. My water had broken.  I called my mother and my husband and let them know I was going to the emergency room.  After that I told my company I had to leave, and they so kindly packed all of their things and drove me the 50+ miles to the closest hospital. [Read more...]

Shivani

Mom to triplets, 2 boys and 1 girl,
Born and died at 21 weeks on May 10, 2010

and

Twin girls,
Born and died at 23 weeks born on September 19, 2011

Muscat, Oman

25 Jan 2010, morning 7.00am was very excited for my test, was not ready to believe that it’s POSITIVE. [Read more...]

Christina “Cricket”

Mom to Parker Saint

Born still November 26, 2004

Florida

So, I guess I need to start from when this all started. I was 17 and the doctor told me that he did not think I was going to have babies, that I had a lot going on. I was okay with that. I was only 17. I did not want kids. Then, at the age 23, I had just had my birthday and was still with my boyfriend of 6 years and my sister had her baby, and I now knew that I wanted a little baby also. I told my boyfriend, “You know, maybe we start talking about babies and having the wedding we have been talking about for so long. He told me to Google it and see how long it was going to take, did we need to see a doctor or what, so I did and it looked like if I was going to have one it was going to take a year or more. This was June 19, 2004, and we started trying for a baby! On Aug 4th I was going to go off with my friend the next day and do the shopping that we did every year. That night we stopped for a drink and it made me so sick to just look at it. Thinking that something was up I had to take a test and there it was, 2 lines! We were going to have a baby! So much for a year, right? [Read more...]

Laura

Mom to Caydence

Born asleep November 10, 2011

Mandeville, Louisiana

I am one of those women who people say were born to be a mother, and, for as long as I can remember, I have wanted to have children. When I met my husband nine years ago, I knew that he was the man I would marry and have children with. We are truly soul mates and I am so grateful that we found each other. When we talked about having children, we never could have imagined that our baby would be born an angel. [Read more...]

Bianca

Mom to Olivia Sky

Born May 7, 2011-Went back with her angels May 7, 2011

Santa Fe, New Mexico

 

“Come under cover of night and I’ll waiting
I’ll be biding my time, just to see you again
But please, don’t ask me questions
Cause you may not like what the answers might be”

“Let’s not speak of faith
We’ll tell only lies
Here, love is what you might find…”

                Steve Reynolds “Cover of Night”

My story

I had a feeling that I wasn’t able to get pregnant, but then again in the past, I never intentionally tried to. I was busy finishing my school, my goals and my fun that I still wanted to have.

I was in Oklahoma City visiting my mother for the Christmas holiday last year and I have this memory of a conversation that we had about babies. “Are you going to ever have kids?” “Are you ok if you don’t?” My mom asked. [Read more...]

Erin

Mom to Hannah Marie

Stillborn at 23 weeks on November 5, 2011

Maple Grove, MN

     On the morning of November 3, 2011, I had a routine midwife appointment. I’d been writing down a myriad of questions since my last appointment and my midwife, Kathrine, patiently and thoroughly answered everything for me. At the end of the appointment, she had me hop up on the exam table to check for baby’s heartbeat. She tried for a while with the doppler but couldn’t find anything. Neither she nor I thought much about that because we knew from my 20-week ultrasound that my placenta was anterior (on the front wall of my uterus), so it provided a nice buffer and we’d only ever heard the heartbeat with the doppler once at 11 weeks. So she rolled in an old ultrasound machine that the clinic had donated to them and tried to find it with that was but was again unsuccessful. It’s a really grainy machine and she couldn’t even get a good picture of the heart, much less a good enough picture to see if it was beating. She decided that I should get in for an ultrasound that afternoon at a different clinic, and she called and set that up for me.

[Read more...]

Meneke

Mom to Deron Mekhi Rountree

Born Born June 11th, 2011 at 10:43pm

Died June 12th, 2011 at 12:08am

Chesapeake, Virginia

On February 14, 2011 I had my first OB/GYN visit to determine if I was pregnant.  I found out I was 6 wks pregnant.  I was told my uterus was bigger then it should be and found out my fibroids had returned.  I didn’t know how to feel at that time cause I never thought I could get pregnant again.  I had  a miscarriage in 2003 due to fibroids and other problems and the Dr told me I wouldn’t be able to have anymore kids. I also wasn’t sure how the father would take it cause when I told him I thought I may be pregnant the first thing he said was we needed to get rid of it. So all of those things consumed my thoughts and I didn’t have time to have joy of being pregnant.  My Dr set an appointment for 2/25/11 for a sonogram to see where the fibroids are and if they would effect my pregnancy.  I went home and had so much to think about, but in the end I decided to keep my baby and go through with the pregnancy. [Read more...]

Diane

Mom to William and Nathaniel Feb 1 1995

Emma and Elizabeth June 30th 1997
Baby “P” June 1999
Edan William August 16 2000
Esik Nathaniel March 15 2002
Ellanor November 22 2003
British Columbia, CA

I was 15 when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I didn’t believe it when my doctor told me, I even  told her it was impossible.  I had suffered ovarian cysts for some time and I honestly didn’t think I would ever be able to conceive.  I was also bleeding while my Dr told me from what I believed to be my period. My Dr ordered another urine sample pregnancy test and it came back positive again.  My boyfriend was 21, we were scared. My Dr gave me the advice to have an abortion and I refused. I went home and took it easy waiting for the bleeding to stop. The bleeding would calm when I was laying  down but once I sat up I would bleed again. At 10 weeks I had a huge bleeding spell and went to the ER. I had a very hard time getting the staff to stop suggesting a D&C. I had an ultrasound that showed I had a very tilted uterus and surprise I had TWINS. Shock set it very quickly. I had always dreamed of having twins but how on earth could I have two babies at my age?

[Read more...]

Desiree Nelson

Mom to Samuel

Born Sleeping April 13th, 2010

and Natalee Rose

Born Too Early on June 11th, 2011

Pennsylvania

My story starts very typically and ends with such tragedy. I met the man I knew I would spend my life with and be a good dad to my son, we decided to start a family of our own. Right before Christmas 2009 we found out we were pregnant, I had a normal pregnancy with my son but he was born premature at 32 weeks. I can’t explain why but I had a feeling that things were very different this time. I hardly ever felt the baby move even after 16-17 weeks; I kind of blew it off because it was hard for me to remember 5 years ago what it was like. Plus I had an anterior placenta which the doctor told me would block a lot of his movement. [Read more...]

Chelsea Wallis

Mom to Lainey Grace 

Stillborn on October 29th 2010

Mom to Evelyn Juliet

Stillborn August 11th, 2011

Buford, GA

The Birthstory of Eveyln Juliet

 

I have been wanting to write this for a long time. But as I’m sure some of you may know, writing the birth story of an Angel can be quite the task. So many things you want to say and express. So much you want people to feel and understand. All needing to be wrapped into a pretty box of words tied with love. I’ll do my best to make this birth story worthy of an angel. [Read more...]

Shelby

Mom to Stella Grace

Born at 23 weeks + 4 Days

December 23rd, 2010

Asheville, North Carolina

My husband, Trey, and I were married August 8, 1998 after almost 8 years of dating.  I think we both knew deep down we wanted to get married long before the question was ever popped, but we weren’t certain we wanted to commit to such a “grown up” act.  Over the years we’ve experienced many ups and downs, like watching our dogs die from cancer, him suddenly developing Epilepsy and me battling my own health issues with undiagnosed Celiac Disease, but for the most part we counted ourselves lucky living a charmed life.  [Read more...]

Carmen

Mom to Ryan

Born and Died on April 22nd, 2002 at 26 weeks

Allan

Born and Died on January 19th, 2003 at 23 weeks

and Ethan

Born at 32 weeks on May 10th and Died May 12th due to a heart defect


I am the mother of 3 angels and my last angel died 2 weeks ago.  My story starts 9 years ago when I had my first son Ryan.  When we found out I was pregnant, I was 3 months along and told our family at a restaurant where we had lunch, everyone was ecstatic to hear our news.  I can recall that it was a good pregnancy, no problems and all was going well until 18th April (Good Friday) evening at 11:50pm when I suddenly felt the urge to go to the toilet, which I did and to my horror, saw a thick mucus discharge with blood,  my husband took  me to the Medi-clinic emergency room immediately, where they admitted me as they suspected I was in labour, they put me on the monitor and had a look at my cervix which was not fully dilated yet.  All was going okay during the night and when the OB/GYN came early Saturday morning, she discovered that I was 7 cm dilated and immediately put me on meds to prevent the cervix from dilating further.

[Read more...]

Kaki

Mother to Isla

Born and Died May 17th, 2010

Dear Isla,

Today is your birthday. I wish I could put a pretty dress on you, kiss your delicious cheeks and throw a party for you filled with love from your family and friends. Instead, I will hug your father and try not to fall apart because on the same day you were born last year, you died. [Read more...]

Tina

Mom to Isaac – February 26th, 2008

and Hannah – September 16th, 2008

Burbank, Illinois

The Story of Isaac & Hannah Joy

Ya know that feeling? The one you get when you know things aren’t gonna turn out like you planned. The knot in your stomach, the lump in your throat, sweaty palms…that feeling? I remember the day I got that feeling. It was February 21st ’08, a Thursday. I was 18 weeks 5 days pregnant & Dan was gettin ready to leave, I was tense & I don’t remember why. But I remember how you could here a pin drop when I told him not to go because I was spotting. His face took on a mixture of shock & fear… [Read more...]

Kari

Mom to Unnamed Baby - November 1999

and twins Ava Sophie

April 13th 2010 – April 17th, 2010

and Zoey Marilyn

April 13th, 2010 – April 15th, 2010

Calgary, Alberta, Canda

I guess my story begins in 1999 when I was only 21. I had an unexpected pregnancy, which resulted in an early miscarriage at only 7 weeks.  I was shocked by how much I mourned that baby.  For weeks I would cry in the bathroom or in bed at night.  I think it was around 6 months before I really moved on. [Read more...]

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