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Torie

Mom to Aaron James Brooks

September 28-October 20, 2012

Raleigh, North Carolina

I replay every detail in my head of Aaron’s story over and over again. I lay in bed at night and relive it. I long and ache for my little one.

September 28, 2012 I was scheduled for a 25-week check-up. The doctor’s office was about 30 minutes away. Normally my husband would accompany me on these visits. That morning he was planning to, but we got into a fight. I told him that I would just go alone. Thankfully, though, we made up and he came with me. We left our oldest son with a babysitter, and we were on our way.

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Sarah

Mom to Evie Caris

11/8/2012 – 11/9/2012

Norfolk, Virginia

In July of 2012 I had my 20 week ultrasound to find out the gender #2 (baby #1 is a boy, Micah, born in December 2010). We found out that I was carrying a baby girl but there were some concerns about low levels of amniotic fluid. After an extensive ultrasound by a specialist in maternal/fetal medicine, we were informed that our baby girl had some major birth defects that would not allow her to live outside of the womb. She had no bladder and nonfunctioning kidneys which would prevent her from making amniotic fluid and her growing environment would not be able to grow big enough so that her lungs could develop properly. The news was just heart-wrenching but we were trusting the Lord for His best. [Read more…]

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Mom to Allison, James, and Colin

December 31, 2012

Pittsburgh, PA

After one year of trying to conceive on our own, my husband and I turned to a Reproductive Endocrinologist.  We quickly learned that I had PCOS and started medications right away. Four months later after our first round of injectable hormones, we learned we were expecting triplets!  We were overjoyed to be pregnant, but concerned about the potential complications. The next four months were beautiful.  We were able to see our babies at 9 weeks, 12 weeks, 16 weeks and 19 weeks during routine high-risk visits. They were growing great, placentas looked awesome, and we learned they were all fraternal, so we didn’t have to worry about twin to twin transfusion syndrome. I grew quickly and loved every moment.  I was anxiously awaiting the day when I would feel the first kicks, instead of just little flutters.

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Yesenia

November 17, 2012

Stone Park, IL

On September 25, 2012 my boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant. We were both happy and anxious. A day before Halloween I had my first ultrasound. I couldn’t believe it- seeing my baby on the screen and thinking, “that’s my little one”. I was 10 weeks. I asked the doctor if we were going to hear the heartbeat and he said no. We went home and showed our family.  I couldn’t explain the happiness I felt inside. I [was] only 20 years old, but I was ready to give up everything for my baby.
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Erica

Mom to Carter Alexander Rogers

Born October 25, 2011, Died April 15, 2012

Fountain Inn, South Carolina

It was a Saturday night, and everything was going as usual. My 3-year-old James, my 5-month-old Carter and I had spent the day playing together and sitting around outside. Both my kids went to bed at 8pm, so when 8 rolled around I put James to bed, and Carter did not seem tired, so I brought him in my room, and we watched some TV together.

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Erin

Mom to Brooklyn Eloise

Born Sleeping June 27, 2012

Toledo, OH

I found out I was pregnant 2 days after our 6th wedding anniversary. We had been not trying not preventing for about 6 months. I might have been trying a little bit)… I had a perfect, uneventful pregnancy, never any morning sickness, active. I felt great up until the end. I would remark to friends I didn’t know what all the complaining was about, that I could be pregnant for another 6 months.

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Laken

Mom to an Angel Baby

April 27, 2012

Lucerne Valley, California

I was 16 when I got pregnant. I found out the first week in March. I only told two people I was pregnant. My boyfriend, of course, and my cousin, Karissa, that I told all of my secrets. I trusted her with something that I thought she would keep a secret. But I was wrong. I went to school and everyone was staring and whispering when I passed. I heard people whispering, “I wonder if she’s going to keep it?” People called me a slut and a whore. My best friend at the time confronted me about being pregnant and told me I should get an abortion because I was “ruining my life.” Everyone knew: teachers, students, staff. I confronted my cousin and she said she told no one, which was the biggest lie. I let it go and called my dad to pick me up.

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Nicole

Mom to Michael

October 14, 2012 – October 18, 2012

Springville, PA

I have sat down several times the past few days with intentions of writing out my sweet baby Michael’s birth story, only to stare at a blank screen. I have so much that I want to say, that I need to say while the memories are still fresh but I just don’t know where to start. I am so afraid that I am going to miss something important. After going over the birth of my precious angel time and time again in my mind, I realized that it is quite impossible to tell you about the birth of my baby without starting at the very beginning, when we first found our we were expecting him. I also am compelled to tell you about his short, but very important and so very special, four days of life. To fully understand how special my Michael is, you need to hear his whole story. The beginning is just as important as the middle which is just as important as the end.

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Mom to Oliver

December 24, 2012

Minneapolis, Minnesota

It’s been 12 days [at time of writing]. I haven’t talked to anyone really. I keep thinking the day must be coming soon where I’ll be able to talk about it, out-loud, with words. Right now the only time I can do that is if I’m crying and screaming already, and you can’t cry and scream in public. So I stay home. It’s not that I want to hide that it happened. I don’t care if people know. I just want to hide from what they’ll say. What if someone says, “well maybe you’ll get your girl now”, “well at least you didn’t have any memories with him”, “well at least he was only 24 weeks and not really a person yet”…??? Cause if people say anything like that, I just wont make it.

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Mary

Mom to Roger Roy II – Born and Died on August 30, 2012

Mom to Guy David – Born and Died on August 31, 2012

Culver, Indiana

My name is Mary.  My husband and I have been married since June 2009.  We live in a small town in Indiana in the middle of nowhere on a lake.  We decided we wanted to try to start a family in June 2010, so I went off birth control and figured it would ‘just happen’.  No one in my family or his had ever had any problems getting pregnant.  After a little over a year of trying, we decided to start the testing to see if there was anything wrong.  My husband checked out just fine.  I, on the other hand, had too much scar tissue (from abdominal surgeries due to Crohns Disease).  Our only option to have a family was to do IVF.  We were set up with a wonderful reproductive endocrinologist in Indianapolis, IN (we live in a very small town).  We began the cycle in April/May 2012 and it was picture perfect.  We implanted 2 beautiful embryos (as the embryologist called them), and found out on May 24 that we were pregnant.  My HSG numbers were pretty high, so the docs and us were pretty confident that both embryos had implanted and I became sick instantly!  On June 9th, we had our ultrasound to see and hear 2 beautiful beating heartbeats after 2 years of trying to start our family.  We were both ecstatic!  Besides being sick, the pregnancy was going very well. At every ultrasound the boys were doing great and growing at the rate they were supposed do despite how sick I was.

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Jennifer

Mom to Morgan

6/23/2012 – 9/30/2012

Greensboro, NC

On June 23rd I began to have contractions and went to the hospital where I delivered a beautiful and healthy baby girl. Besides having jaundice, her health was perfect and we couldn’t wait to bring her home with her two older sisters. Eight days after being home, we noticed Morgan was having seizures, or small tremors. We rushed her to the ER where a battery of tests were completed and it was determined that Morgan was hypocalcaemia and she was thought to have DiGeorge’s Syndrome. After 8 days in the hospital, she was sent home on 4 medications and plenty of doctor visits were scheduled.

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Courtney

Mom to Savannah Rae

February 27, 2012 – March 2, 2012

Plainfield, IL

I found out I was pregnant on August 22, 2011. I will never forget the feeling of disbelief and excitement. I must have looked at that home pregnancy test a thousand times just to make sure it was true. Since Scott was at work that day I had to keep the news to myself until he came home. I decided I would make a sign that said “Congrats Daddy To Be, I’m Pregnant” and tape it to our garage door. All day I patiently waited for him to come home. It was such an exciting day!

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Jessica

Mom to Noel Elizabeth

Born sleeping on October 27, 2012

Austin, Texas

I found out I was pregnant on July 22, 2012. My husband and I had not been trying as we have three boys already, two from his previous marriage and a 3-year-old together. The timing was just not right for our family. After letting it sink in for a few days, we started to get excited about a new baby. What if this one was a girl? We started talking about plans and how excited we were at the possibility of having a little girl. I dreamed of pink ribbons and tutus. We went in for our first appointment August 16th. We saw our little peanut with the heart just flickering away. We fell in love immediately. The first trimester flew by without any major problems except for terrible morning sickness. I took this in stride and with the help of Zofran was able to go about my days normally. Before I knew it, it was time for our NT scan. I couldn’t wait to see Peanut again. It was there that we found out Peanut was most likely a girl. I was so incredibly happy. Everything was falling into place. With her birth, our family would be complete. My husband and I immediately started thinking about names. We kept going back and forth on different names. I wasn’t worried about picking out a name right away, as we had plenty of time.

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Kyla

Mom to Tossie Adaline

Stillborn on September 10, 2012

Around noon on September 9, 2012, I started having contractions before I went to the family Sunday dinner at my mother’s house. I was 36 weeks pregnant and had just been given the good news that my preeclampsia was under control on September 7th. The contractions were between 15- 30 minutes apart. Around 3:00 p.m., they switched to every 7- 15 minutes apart. At 5:00 p.m., they were 5-7 minutes apart and I was starting to have back pain. My Bumble Bee (3 1/2-year-old daughter) was being amazing by bringing me cool glasses of water and chocolate covered nuts. My hubby was still far, as he was coming home from drill. To help relax and pass the time while waiting for him, I got in the shower and my mother watched Bubby (my 1 1/2-year-old son). Bee kept bringing the snacks and cool glasses of water the whole time. She also started giving me updates on Daddy’s whereabouts. I was glad to finally be able to labor at home and not be confined to a bed with an IV.

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Alesha

Mom to Baby Staley- Morgan

Born still August 23, 2012

Buckhorn, Kentucky

I was 19 weeks pregnant and had found out I was carrying an unhealthy baby and the baby would more than likely lose its fetal heartbeat within the next few weeks or month. I had gone in for a routine ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby, but instead found out that the baby had a massive cyst and was gathering fluid around its heart. I was in complete shock, which was supposed to be a day of joy not sadness. I was lying on the bed during the ultrasound while my doctor was telling me all the horrible news. In complete shock, I instantly started praying and asking God to remove the cyst and make my baby healthy. My OB doctor said the baby more than likely had Turners Syndrome, a disease more common in girls. We had trouble finding out the sex because we couldn’t see much of the baby because of all the cysts. I was very thankful I had a few family members there with me during this time. They were all very excited as well as me about getting to find out the sex of the baby. [Read more…]

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Leah

Mom to Grace

Lost October 19, 2012

Columbia, South Carolina

My mom named me Leah, which means weary. The past few weeks have really made me feel like I am living up to the meaning of my name. I have two healthy, wonderful boys who are ages 4 and 2. My husband and I decided that we wanted to have a third child; I was praying that God would finally give me a little girl. [Read more…]

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Robin

Mom to Miles John

September 13, 2012 – September 17, 2012

Grand Rapids, Michigan

My husband and I decided to start a family in January of 2011. I promptly went off the pill and hoped that I would get pregnant quickly. It took about a year for me to finally get a positive reading, and 4 short weeks after that happened, I found out I was having a miscarriage. That was January 2012. Things weren’t progressing on their own, so I had a D&C on January 11, 2012. I was devastated and convinced the only thing that would take away the pain was getting pregnant again as soon as possible. So, in April, when we could try again, my husband and I went to Europe on vacation and the day we returned home I took another test and found out I was pregnant for the second time. [Read more…]

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Kelsey

Mom to Audrinna Lynn

August 18, 2012 – September 19, 2012

Tulsa, Oklahoma

I am a teen mother and unlike most teen moms I had my priorities straight from the get go. My daughter, Audrinna Lynn Pike, was born on August 18th, 2012 and she got her wings on September 19th, 2012. Although my daughter was a surprise, I would never call it a mistake. I was a single parent to her throughout my whole pregnancy and the month that she was alive. I had a very normal non-eventful pregnancy for the most part, and my daughter was born very healthy and normal into this world at 41 weeks on August 18th, weighing 8 pounds and 15 ounces. We spent a few days in the hospital, as any normal mother and child would, and then we were free to go home. [Read more…]

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Odette

Mom to Sylas

Lost May 11, 2012

On May 11, 2012 I gave birth to my baby boy Sylas. He was a few days shy of six months.  He was strangled by the cord.  I was unable to get pregnant, so I thought, due to undetermined infertility.  I had tried for 6 years with my ex-husband and then later with a boyfriend of two years.  I got pregnant from my lover and of course it was a complete surprise.  [Read more…]

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Amber

Mom to Lilyan Cayla

January 6 – January 29, 2012

Picayune, Mississippi

On January 5, 2011 I went to my scheduled doctor’s appointment, which also had a scheduled sonogram (ultrasound). The sonogram technician put the wand on my stomach and her face was a little puzzled and she didn’t say anything to scare me and put me in the room to see the doctor. I used a midwife and after the sonograms, we have to see the doctor who works with them. She was in the room quickly and decided to check to see if I was losing fluid. Sure enough, I was leaking! All that time I thought I was pottying on myself. [Read more…]

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