May 12, 2012 By 4 Comments

Esmeralda (Lala)

Mom to Ezra Alix

Born sleeping December 12, 2011 at 40 weeks 6 days

San Pedro, California

I kind of had a rough pregnancy with Ezra, but he was always “healthy,” and that’s what kept me going.

I started having severe back problems at 21 weeks and was never the same. In fact, it only got worse in the third trimester, until my insurance finally approved me for physical therapy at 36 weeks . It helped, but I still had pain. I also had rib pain and trouble breathing from about 30 weeks due to Costochondritis. But he always had a strong heartbeat and was constantly moving. (Always always on the move and I loved it). [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 40 weeks, Fullterm, Genetic Disorder, Stillbirth
May 12, 2012 By 2 Comments

Shan-Nel

Mom to Ashley Antoinette

Born and died April 22, 2011

Rosedale, Maryland

It was St. Patrick’s Day, March 17, 2011 when I went to the hospital from getting the WORST pain in my life to find out after the hospital nurses took samples that I was pregnant.

I was so shocked and thrilled at the same time. How was I pregnant for so long and not really know? I’m pregnant?! Yay! Wow! [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 21 weeks, Infant loss, Maryland, Neonatal death, Preterm labor
May 12, 2012 By Leave a Comment

Sarah

Mom to América

Lost at 9 weeks October 24, 2011

Seville, Spain (originally from Walpole, Massachusettes)

I am American, living abroad in Spain.  We found out on September 14th, 2011 that I was pregnant with our much-desired baby number 2.  Our firstborn, Manuela, was just eleven months old, but truth be told, we had been trying since soon after she joined us.  There was “no rush” but we did want them to be close together in age (they would have been 19 months apart).  We were thrilled with the positive result and began to make plans for our new baby’s early May arrival. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 9 weeks, D and C, Early Miscarriage, first trimester loss, massachusetts, Missed Miscarriage, Spain
May 12, 2012 By Leave a Comment

Vanessa

Mom to M. R. S.
Born into Heaven February 2011

and

J. Q. S.
Born into Heaven February 2012

Bowling Green, Kentucky

When I had my third child, I had only been not-pregnant for 16 months before getting pregnant with her. Unfortunately, in our humanness, we are broken people, and I was pretty resistant to having a baby so soon after having my second child. Her pregnancy was not a pleasant one, and neither was my attitude towards it. When she arrived though, and spent 7 days in the NICU, my attitude changed drastically. This sets the premise for the story of my first miscarriage. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 11 weeks, 2011, 2012, 6 weeks, Early Miscarriage, Kentucky, Multiple loss
May 2, 2012 By 6 Comments

Jennifer

Mother to Jude Allen

December 21, 2011

Parker, Colorado

 

Jude’s Story (from my blog)
Jude was the child God had for us from the beginning. We will probably never know completely why we weren’t able to spend this life with him, but we wait with eager anticipation for the day we will all be together again in Heaven.

[Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 27 weeks, Colorado, First child, Second trimester loss, Stillbirth, Triploidy
May 1, 2012 By 9 Comments

 Amy

Mom to Anna

Born still April 25, 2011

Early loss December 2011

Troy, Michigan

 

In honor of my daughter, Anna, who would have been 1 year old this April 25th, I have decided to share her story in hopes of creating awareness and helping even just one person experiencing the death of a baby.  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 37 weeks, Cord Compression, Early Miscarriage, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, Umbilical cord accident, Umbilical cord hypercoiling
May 1, 2012 By 3 Comments

Karen

Mother to Nicholas John

Born in the arms of angels 19 March 2012

Gold Coast, Australia

I can’t believe it has been 3 weeks and 3 days since it happened, it feels so much longer – certainly longer than the entire 9 month pregnancy! [Read more...]

Filed Under: 10 weeks, 2011, 2012, 38 weeks, Australia, D and C, miscarriage, Stillbirth
April 14, 2012 By 8 Comments

Jianna

Mom to Mackensie Owenn

Born still November 2, 2011

Parker, Colorado

I’ve always dreamt of having a really big family of my own, I love being around people (shocker, I know!) and I absolutely love that we have such a HUGE family now (between Brad and I, we have 5 siblings and 9 nieces and nephews).  I love watching all of the kids play with one another and knowing they will all be able to grow up together (and get into trouble together)!  I remember telling my Mom that I thought having an ‘odd’ amount of kids is better than even, why, I have no idea; I think I just always wanted more than 2, so an ‘odd’ amount sounded good to me.  When Brad and I had Jace we instantly knew that we wanted a big family- 3 to be exact!  [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 38 weeks, Colorado, Cord accident, Fullterm, Stillbirth
April 14, 2012 By 4 Comments

Amy

Mom to Aliya Amy and Bennett Paul

Lost August 5, 2011

Tenino, Washington

Paul and I were introduced in April 2005 by my friend Amanda, who was engaged to Paul’s younger brother (she’s my sister-in-law now). Even though I was dating someone else at the time, she declared me Paul’s perfect match and would not let it go! She was right, of course…although very different, we were perfect for each other. Our paths crossed again in July 2005, and since I had broken up with the other guy, Paul found the nerve to ask me out. We had our first date a couple of weeks later and have been together ever since. We got engaged Thanksgiving weekend 2005 and married in September 2006. We started trying for our first child in October 2007, one month after our first wedding anniversary. I’d been on and off birth control for years to prevent pregnancy…little did I know how difficult it would actually be for us to get pregnant. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 14 weeks, 2011, Infection, Infertility, IUI, Placenta Previa, placental abruption, Second trimester loss, Twins, Washington
April 14, 2012 By 3 Comments

Natalie

Mom to Noel Mary

Born still September 22, 2011

Fenton, Michigan

I am 36 years old, and my husband of 2 years is 34.  We have been together for a long time and he decided 3 years ago to make an honest woman out of me.  John is my best friend…he has been for almost 12 years now.  We share everything and can hide nothing from each other.  We are very much in love still and when we found out on January 14, 2011 that we were going to be parents after only trying for a couple of months to conceive. We were elated.  My pregnancy was okay as far as they go, until the last 4 weeks or so.  I had a very active baby girl in there and she was always on the move.  She loved to listen to me talk and when I did start talking she would move up in my belly just to be closer to my voice.  She would literally dance when a good song came on the radio, she had a knack for kicking or punching the beat out, my doctor thought this was me being CRAZY until she actually felt it for herself on a regular OB visit in the summer. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Cord accident, Fullterm, Michigan, Stillbirth, true knot
April 14, 2012 By 2 Comments

Monica

Mom to Ryan Alan – December 7, 2011
and
Andrew Jonathan – December 8, 2011

Oak Island, North Carolina

After trying to conceive for 4 years my husband and I discovered we were pregnant with triplets in September.  We were happy but overwhelmed; at 7 weeks we met with the maternal fetal specialist who explained the risks and options.  She sent us to Duke to meet with another specialist who did genetic testing and advised us to reduce to twins.  It was a very hard decision but we felt that it would give the other two the best chance.  It was a horrible procedure to go through, and in hindsight I don’t know that I would do it again, but at the time I thought I was increasing my babies’ odds…It was so strange to grieve one and yet be excited for two. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, Late Miscarriage, North Carolina, Placenta Previa, placental abruption, Preterm labor, Twin Loss
April 7, 2012 By Leave a Comment

Spahr

Mom to Angel Baby 1 – August 2, 2010,
Angel Baby 2 – May 6, 2011, and
Angel Baby 3 - January 6, 2012

Maryland

About a month before A’s first birthday we got an unexpected BFP. Although we had not been trying, we had not been preventing a pregnancy either. We were shocked, scared, happy, you name it, we felt it. Days before her birthday I began to spot, since it was so early in the pregnancy the doctor did not think anything of it. In the very early hours of August 2nd 2010 we said good bye to our first Angel Baby.

That marks the beginning of our TTC journey. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 2011, 2012, Early Miscarriage, Maryland, recurrent miscarriage
April 5, 2012 By 2 Comments

Kaitlin

Mom to Jordan
Lost September 9, 2011,

Ectopic pregnancy, September 2009

and

Missed miscarriage, March 2009

Kitchener, Ontario, Canada

My name is Kaitlin and I am 29 years old. I am married to Scott and have a daughter Emma.
I am sharing our journey with you as demonstration of our commitment to this process. Please take the time to understand where we have been and how we got to this place. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 19 weeks, 2009, 2011, Asherman's Syndrome, Canada, Ectopic pregnancy, endometriosis, Infertility, IVF, miscarriage, Missed Miscarriage, Ontario, Second trimester loss
April 4, 2012 By 4 Comments

Tanya

Mom to Atticus Erin

Born Easter Sunday, April 24, 2011

Died November 15, 2011

Greeley, Colorado

When my daughter self-weaned at 13 months, my husband and I decided we wanted to start trying for a second baby (we wanted to wait until my daughter was finished breastfeeding before we tried). [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, C-Section, Colorado, PICU, SIDS
April 3, 2012 By 3 Comments

Shivani

Mom to triplets, 2 boys and 1 girl,
Born and died at 21 weeks on May 10, 2010

and

Twin girls,
Born and died at 23 weeks born on September 19, 2011

Muscat, Oman

25 Jan 2010, morning 7.00am was very excited for my test, was not ready to believe that it’s POSITIVE. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2010, 2011, 21 weeks, 23 weeks, Oman, Stillbirth
April 2, 2012 By 2 Comments

Mothers Name: Zita

Baby: Amelie Maria Sayles

June 26th – July 15th, 2011.

Los Angeles, CA.

When I found out I was pregnant on the morning of October 31st 2010, it was one of the best moments of my life. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, California, Early Infant Loss, NICU, Rare Genetic Disorder Incontinentia Pigmenti, seizures
April 2, 2012 By 5 Comments

Elyce

Madelyn Elizabeth born and passed away on November 16, 2011 at 22w3d

Liam James born and passed away on November 18, 2011 at 22w5d

 Miamisburg, OH

After two and a half years of infertility and three cycles of Clomid/Ovidrel/IUI, my husband and I were overjoyed to find out we were expecting and were due in March 2012. At seven weeks, we found out we were expecting twins! Through the shock, we were beyond thrilled.

My pregnancy was incredibly uneventful until I got to 19 weeks. I noticed some dark brown spotting and went to the doctor. He couldn’t find a reason for the bleeding, so I was sent to my high risk doctor the next day for an ultrasound. When I had that done, we found out that we were definitely having a boy and a girl! I also learned that my cervix was measuring at 3.5 centimeters. The ultrasound tech and the doctor assured me that was a good measurement and there was no apparent cause for my bleeding. I was sent home with the instructions to take it easy for the rest of the weekend.

My anatomy scan was scheduled for the following Tuesday. By that time, the bleeding had stopped and I was feeling great. The ultrasound showed everything was as it was the previous week. My cervix was still measuring fine (though I didn’t get an exact measurement), and the babies were healthy and active. Since everything was looking good, my husband and I finally decided to create our registry (I had been putting it off because I was so paranoid something would go wrong). We had a blast going through the baby aisles of Target, daydreaming about using all this stuff with our son and daughter. About halfway through the registry, I started to feel some gas pain and pressure. I just assumed it was the typical pregnancy constipation. By the time we got home, the pressure was pretty intense, so I laid in bed the rest of the evening, drank water, and watched television. I kept going to the bathroom to try to relieve the pressure, but it didn’t really help. I eventually decided to go to bed early and hope that I felt better in the morning. When I went to the bathroom one last time before turning in, there was bright red blood on the toilet paper. I knew something was seriously wrong and rushed to the hospital.

[Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 22 weeks, Incompetent Cervix, IUI, Second trimester loss, Twin Loss
March 20, 2012 By 3 Comments

Carissa 
Angel #1 lost at six weeks on October 23rd, 2011
Angel #2 lost at six weeks and four days on February 11th, 2012

 

I should begin by telling you, admittedly, that up until this point in my life, I was a pretty lucky girl.

I came from a happy, nuclear family. I always had a small circle of great friends. I was fortunate to attend college, graduate in four (largely) uneventful years, and immediately find a teaching job while some of my peers were scrambling. I met my soul mate in college (although we knew one another in high school, but we hated each other then–another story for another blog post) and we had a nice, June wedding. During this time, I had misfortune in only one area–my health. Being overweight had been an attribute of mine for as long as I could remember. I went on diet after diet, but I would always lose a few pounds and then simply give up. I made excuses such as “It’s too close to the holidays”, or “I’m just too busy right now,” but the simple fact of the matter was that I simply lacked the desire to do it. It just wasn’t there. I liked to eat, and I hated to exercise–I knew I needed to do something, but I simply did nothing. It kind of pains me to admit that. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 2012, 6 weeks, Early Miscarriage, first trimester loss, first trimester miscarriage, miscarriage, Multiple loss, PCOS
March 15, 2012 By 3 Comments

Yentyl Ria

Mom to Sovonn Rian

Sleeping Angel taken on September 18,2011

West Sacramento, California

I was 20 weeks pregnant with my first child. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 20 weeks, 2011, California, endocarditis, Stillbirth
March 15, 2012 By 6 Comments

Ellen

Mom to Austin

Born November 6, 2011 at 12:55 am
Died November 6, 2011 at 2:35 am

San Diego, California

My husband and I were trying to get pregnant for a long time.  When we found out we were pregnant on June 25, 2011, it had been something we wanted for so long and we decided to take 5 pregnancy tests to make sure.  After all of those tests, we confirmed we got what we had so longed for and we couldn’t have been happier. [Read more...]

Filed Under: 2011, 22 weeks, California, Preterm labor
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