Samantha

Mom to nine lost children:

#1 Oct 2007: Miscarriage at 6 weeks,
#2 Aug 2008: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#3 June 2011: Twin loss at 8 weeks,
#4 Aug 2011: Miscarriage at 5 weeks,
#5 Oct 2011: Miscarriage at 4 week 2 days,
#6 Feb 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks,
#7 March 2012: Miscarriage at 4 weeks 3 days,

and

#8 April 2012: Miscarriage of a little boy at 8 weeks
Ended with D&C on June 6, 2012

North Vernon, Indiana

I was one of those girls who wanted a large family with a home of my own and a fantastic husband. Well, I got part of my wish: I have my husband Troy and an amazing little boy, Kyle, who we love so much. Beginning our family did not start out so easily, though. [Read more...]

Gillian

Mom to Jacob, a twin

Died July 6, 2008 and born September 10, 2008

Tucson, Arizona

My journey started in February 2008. It never occurred to me that I would have anything other than an ideal, fairy tale pregnancy. I would have a healthy baby and it would all be so easy and magical…Wrong! I found out at 13 weeks that I was having twins. This possibility never entered my mind. I was terrified, and my husband was terrified. But we knew it would be ok. We started planning, we picked names: Baby A would be Jacob and Baby B would be Kaleb. I dreamed about their room, I ordered their bedding sets and I bought letters to paint and hang above their cribs. I was secretly afraid I would mix them up so I wanted their names above their cribs. I painted them myself and had so much fun. [Read more...]

Mandie

Mom to McKenna Rowan

Miscarried at 8 weeks pregnant
(October 2008 –November 2008)

Fort Wayne, Indiana

When my husband and I married in October of 2006, we decided that we were going to start trying to conceive right away.  Maybe I just knew deep down that something was wrong, maybe it was just luck, but I thought that it made more sense to try earlier than later.  A month went by, then two, then 6, then a year.  Even though I had no diagnosis, I knew that something was wrong.  “We are in our early twenties; we should be pregnant by now!” I sobbed to my husband.  Another year passed and our second anniversary approached, still childless.  I had just resigned myself to the point where I was getting ready to admit defeat.  Then, one night, while waiting for our staff meeting, I randomly broke down in tears.  While the last two years had been emotionally rough, it was not at all like me to just randomly break down like that.  I thought it was weird, but I brushed it off and went to the meeting.  The next morning, I woke up and was getting ready for work and broke down again.  My husband walked by and asked if I was ok, commenting, “It’s not like you to be so emotional.”  [Read more...]

Megan

Mom to Byron Matthew
Born and died at 20 weeks on October 10, 2008,

Early miscarriage, June 5, 2009,

and

Isabella Madison
Stillborn at 16 weeks on December 6, 2009.

Jacksonville, North Carolina

Whenever I thought about having children, I never imagined anything bad, scary, traumatic. You see so many women have normal, healthy pregnancies where nothing ever goes wrong and it just never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be one of those “normal” women. Never in one million years would I have imagined that I would be where I am today.

I remember finding out I was pregnant for the first time like it was yesterday. I was 20 years old and had been married to my husband for almost one year. My hand was shaking so hard I could barely show him the test results. I was nervous, excited, scared…so many different emotions all at the same time. I had my first ultrasound when I was 9 weeks pregnant. I cried as soon as I saw my little baby and heard his heart beat. It was such an amazing thing to me to see this life that I had created. That moment was something I could never really find the words to explain. [Read more...]

Kim

Mom to Sophia

Born still December 31, 2008

Pittsfield, Massachusettes

My husband John and I found out we were expecting Mothers Day weekend 2008. This was a total surprise as we had been trying for several years and had just begun looking into the possibility of adoption. [Read more...]

Stacey

Mom to Dylan Jeffery

September 24, 2008 – September 26, 2008

Florida

On Mother’s Day of 2008, Travis and I found out I was pregnant. We were so happy, but yet I was so scared…my pregnancy came in the middle of my fiancé and me planning our wedding. I had a very hard pregnancy and I really wanted a little girl. Everyone told me I was going to have a little boy and I just refused to believe it. From the beginning, I was high risk and I couldn’t even find a doctor that was willing to take me, without insurance. See, when I was 14 I was diagnosed a vascular disorder; my blood was not pumping to my heart correctly. A surgery was performed and the doctors took my main vein out. That led me to being automatically high risk. I ended up having to go to the health department for a checkup in the beginning of June. [Read more...]

Karen

Mom to Logan James
Born December 7, 2008 and died December 9, 2008

and

An angel lost September 29, 2011

Pittsfield, Massachusetts

I’d like to share my story because I feel that it is a very unique situation. I’ve kept the loss very private and close to my heart and have only been sharing my feelings with family and close friends. But recently, I’ve felt the need to go online and read about other mom’s stories and struggles through their journeys of loss.

It’s comforting to know that I am not alone and there are others out there who know EXACTLY how I feel. I think the people in our everyday lives can be supportive, but only to a certain point. The loss of our children, whether still in our womb or newly born needs a special kind of support that only us moms can provide. And the everyday struggles we endure as we watch other mothers who have not had to endure our pain. [Read more...]

Stacie

Mom to Kaiden Gray, stillborn November 10, 2005

Miscarriage December 2008 at 4 weeks

and

“Burger baby,” Madilynn, miscarried August 2010 at 6 weeks

Cleveland, Tennessee

 

My story begins in 2005 at the ripe young age of sixteen. I met a boy who I thought I was going to be with forever. I found out I was pregnant with my son May 10, 2005 and my life as I knew it was about to turn every way but right. His father left me when I was just three months pregnant for another girl…so it was just me and my family. [Read more...]

Tracey

Mom to Ryan

Born into Heaven July 3, 2008

Roswell, Georgia

Everything was going well with my pregnancy, even though I was of advanced maternal age (i.e. old).  Four months into my pregnancy I was diagnosed with polyhydramnios (excess amniotic fluid).  I was sent to have a level 2 ultrasound, which I received weekly throughout my pregnancy.  I was lucky to spend up to an hour each week watching my baby grow inside me.  They looked him over head to toe and could only find that he was perfect in every way.  Usually with polyhydramnios the excess fluid can mean that the baby isn’t swallowing or peeing the amniotic fluid, which can be caused by a hole in the esophagus, kidney issues, etc.  They found none of that, so I never worried.  I thought everything was going to be fine and I was meant to have this little boy. What I didn’t know was that because of the excess fluid, cord accidents can happen.  Because of my size, I didn’t feel him move as often as a pregnancy without polyhydramnios.  I had my last level 2 ultrasound on Thursday, June 26th 2008 and as soon as I saw Ryan he had his palm up in the air facing me like he was saying “Hi”.  Again, everything was perfect.  I was 30 1/2 weeks and the only worry I had was making it full term. [Read more...]

Jamie

Mom to Angel “SweetPea”

December 18, 2008

Williamson, New York

Well, in September 2008 my hubs and I decided to TTC baby #4. I usually get pregnant very quickly but we didn’t get a BFP until December 4, 2008, when I realized I was 4 days late.

We told everyone because I had 3 normal healthy pregnancies with our other 3 sons and didn’t think this pregnancy would be any different. [Read more...]

Kendra

Mom to Roy

December 17, 2007 - May 19, 2008

Atlanta, Georgia

Well, where do I start? I guess I should start by telling you how we found out we were pregnant, which was kind of a funny story really. Well, it was the scariest day of my life to say the least. I had only been with my boyfriend for about 8 wks when we found out we were 6+5. The other scary thing was that my boyfriend was technically still married according to the Marines. But anyway, I had been going to work all week prior to us finding out, when my boss had suggested that I might be pregnant and I thought she was nuts, lol! So, I decided to say something to my boyfriend about it when we decided to buy a pregnancy test. I took one that night and it came out positive, so I decided to take another one the next morning. When that one came out positive, I decided that I should probably make a doctors appointment. That’s when we found out I was 6+5. We then had to tell my parents that I was pregnant. My dad was shocked, I think, and the rest of my family was surprised because I don’t think they ever thought I who’d get pregnant, let alone married. [Read more...]

Angela

Mom to three angels:

Caden – November 2003

Skylar – January 2008

Alex – February 2009

Lynchburg, Virginia

My name is Angela & I am the proud Mommy of 3 angels. [Read more...]

Ashlee

Mom to Baby Howell
Miscarried December 26, 2008 at 9 weeks

and

Dalton Michael
Born sleeping February 21, 2012

Pinckneyville, Illinois

My husband and I were so excited to start a family after we were married.  We were so excited to announce on Christmas day 2008 that we were expecting.  The next day our lives crumbled.   [Read more...]

Kelsey

Mom to Justin Allen

 April 22, 2008 – August 11, 2008

Roanoke, Virginia

 

I was 17. Me and my on again off again boyfriend had just found out we were going to have a baby. We had just gotten back together and were completely surprised. I never once questioned what I was going to do. I had wanted to be a mommy ever since I could remember. [Read more...]

Augie

Mom to Dominic McDylan, Feb 2, 2007 (EDD: Oct 10, 2007)
Gwendolyn Elizabeth, Jan 30, 2008 (EDD: July 8, 2008)
Aiden Alexander, Nov 10, 2008 (EDD: July 20, 2009)
Jillian Evelyn, Jan 19, 2010 (EDD: Sept 28, 2010)
Katherine Anne and Samuel Kenneth, Dec 31, 2011 (EDD: Aug 19, 2012)

Winchester, VA

Our journey started unexpectedly in January 2007 when we conceived our first son. We hadn’t been trying and in fact had just started birth control. We lost our little boy before we even knew of his existence. For the longest time, I didn’t even tell Chris (or anyone else for that matter). I just dealt with it on my own and reminded myself that we were nowhere near ready to have a child together. [Read more...]

Nikki

Mom to Alyssa, born and died February 22, 2008 at 22 weeks,
David, born January 12, 2009 and died January 15, 2009,
and miscarriages in 2008 and 2010

Springfield, Missouri

I had my first miscarriage in June 2007 at 12 weeks along. I was devastated. I blamed myself because I was diabetic, and my sugars hadn’t been controlled. I just knew it was my fault. My doctor told me it would be fine to try again, that we would just get me on insulin sooner and monitor me closely. I did get pregnant again about 3 or 4 months later. I was having a baby girl. [Read more...]

Jodi

Mom to a little one 

Lost to ectopic pregnancy October 2008

Akron, Ohio

At nineteen years old I was diagnosed with PCOS. I was told many different things from many different doctors, ranging from, “You will never be able to have children,” to “The only way I tell someone they will never have children is if they do not have a uterus.” December 25, 2007, at the age of 33, I found out I was pregnant (exactly 17 weeks 4 days…yes I missed my entire first trimester!). I had defied the odds that were against me…this was a miracle!! At this point I was single, finishing grad school and a full time teacher. May 29, 2008, Jacob came into this world and today he is a healthy, happy, intelligent light in my world!! 

[Read more...]

Cindra Fox
Mom to Cadence Harper Fox
(due May 18, 2009 and lost September 18, 2008)
and
Riley Arden Fox
(due June 20, 2010 and lost November 23, 2010)
Orange, California

In the summer of 2008, I found myself locked in a bathroom stall, staring at three positive pregnancy tests.  [Read more...]

Kayce

Mom to Ben Harrington Butler: November 6, 2007

&

Brady Winston Butler: November 6, 2007–March 29, 2008

Nashville, Tennessee

I was told from the time I was a teenager with irregular periods that I may need some help getting pregnant in the future.  I got married when I was 25 and from the first day of our marriage we never did anything to prevent pregnancy as I knew it might take a while.  After a couple of years and several unsuccessful rounds of Clomid, I was sent to a fertility doctor to take more drastic steps. I was diagnosed with PCOS and needed fertility meds to help me ovulate. The first fertility doctor I went to told me that I needed to do invitro fertilization. We did and I did not get pregnant and ended up in the hospital for hyperstimulation.  It was a horrible experience and the doctor was just awful to me. I finally went to another fertility doctor when I was 28 and he told me that he thought IUI and fertility injections would work just fine for me. So we tried IUI with the lowest dose of the meds available and I got pregnant on the first try. However, once I finally got pregnant —-I got really pregnant! My first ultrasound revealed that I was pregnant with triplets. We were so happy, excited, and scared all at the same time. I was sent to a high risk pregnancy doctor and our journey began. [Read more...]

Keira

Mother of Quintuplets

Babies D & E Lost Early in Pregnancy

and Zoe Rose

Born December 20th, 2006 at 25 weeks gestation

Died February 16th, 2008

Madison, Mississippi

In July of 2006, my husband and I learned we were pregnant after two and a half grueling years of trying to conceive, with and without intervention.  The initial joy was short-lived as the positive pregnancy test was VERY positive indeed.  We were pregnant with quintuplets.  What followed was a series of scientific discussions with various doctors all throwing grim statistics about morbidity and mortality of the babies and myself as well.  There was continued urging to reduce to twins or a singleton.  It was a decision I never imagined having to face and if faced with the same situation and the same choices laid out in front of me today, I would not do it again.  [Read more...]

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